NUKA

"I'm sorry Nuka, I can't find her anywhere." I heard Shanti approach me from behind. There was caution in her voice...there was no need for that. "What else would you like me or the hyenas to do? we can look for Shia at the other edge of the border."

"No that won't be necessary."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes, I knew this would happen." She sat next to me, leaning her head on my left shoulder. We were sitting outside, alone on a cliff hillside. I'd been sitting here for hours waiting to see her reappear in front of me. like I knew she would how I expected her to. but it would seem as if, my baby sister wanted to prove me wrong. she wouldn't be coming back...

"I suppose you're right..." I didn't reply to her comment. I had nothing to say, to be truthful I was pissed." where are you going?"

"Nowhere, I'll be back." I could feel Shanti's eyes on me as I suddenly got up to leave. she didn't voice to follow me, she knew i needed time to sort some things out. Before I reached the den, I could already hear the loud snoring of the hyenas. what idiots I ask them to do one thing, and they can't even do that! Lazy shits, I walked up and slapped on of the laying dogs on the head.

"Ow!-Boss!?... can I help you with something?" ugh. I walked passed the two.

"No, just move and stand outside." I hope they could follow that simple order.

"R-right right... as you wish." the den was silent as I walked in. The ground was cold and if it weren't for Vitani's faint breathing I wouldn't think anyone else was in here.

"Oh get up I know dam well you're not sleeping." I heard her stir as I walked over and grabbed what little chunk of meat was left from this morning kill "eat this." I watched as she didn't flinch when the cold meat and hard bone hit the side of her face. She looked up at me, but i couldn't see her expression from the darkness of the cave. doesn't matter, I didn't need to see what she looked like I could figure she was looking up at me with disgust." you got what you want?"

"What... are you talking about?" please, did we really have the time for her to play fucking dumb? Well, I had all the time, I needed so I sat across from her.

"Shia, where is she?" I asked. eyeing her waiting for her response, I could faintly make out the silhouettes of her facial features from setting sun. I knew she had something to do with her disappearing this morning and not coming back.

"How am I supposed to know...I've been in here all day." she slowly rose to sit up.

"Don't play with my Vitani." cutting the shit, I smelled before me. "First mom now Shia, you just had to turn her against me didn't you."

"Turn? I didn't have to turn her against you, she saw how crazy you are Nuka." Crazy? impractical maybe, but crazy no. A crazy lion is a lion doing things without intention. I have all the intentions in the world. I'm not just out here wasting my time and breath. Not making my mark on the world. " what did you think... she was just doing to stay here... under your tranny?"

" You know, I was okay with mom siding with you, I expected it in a way. I was prepared to lose her at any moment. But Shia...im not going to lie to you, this betrayal hurt me. I really thought she was on my side..."

"How could she be..." when I heard the scoff leave her mouth, it pulled at something within me. You could call it an annoyance. but I didn't like how Vitani truth thought i was joking when I said this. Everything I've done has been to prove something to myself and my family. The greatness I see and that I am has been all for them. yet no one seems to see it that way...

"I told her I had what was best for her, like any good big brother."

"Nuka...you've never been a good big brother." her voice was dry and tried "...You're hateful, mean...you killed our own mother!-"

"I only called the order! but I didn't give the executing blow. I've never given the final executing blow-"

"Don't you dare try to fucking resolve yourself from this...you should be feeling more than anguish right now...how you're even to stand and go on living day by day, is beyond me..."

" You know I'm telling the truth, I've never killed anyone. I've only gotten them out of my way by other means."

"..is...is that really... what you tell yourself-"

"YES! that's what I tell myself because that's EXACTLY what it is! I have only been given circumstances after circumstance to test me and my will power!" the blood that boiled within me was different than before. It was more than just anger. it was a mixture of feelings that I purposely suppressed. Everything was always such a fucking disappointment! "I didn't kill anyone, Sarabi's cub dead because he coudlnt get himself to breathe anymore... Sarabi and our mother, the hyenas took care of them. and the sharp rocks at the bottom of the river took care of your precious Kijivu... But circumstances called for it!"

I felt my body trimmer. the sensation overcame every nerve and cell in my body. it felt sickening, I felt sick. why was Shia betrayal hurting me like this... I can't say i couldn't expect it, I just couldn't expect how I'd feel, knowing now besides Shanti. I have no one

"...Just stop it...just stop." for s brief moment, hearing the quivering in her voice pulled at me. Bitter sadness is a feeling that's never left me. it was always round the corner, waiting to pop out at any time to encompass me.

"It's impossible to stop. Even if I wanted to." I voiced. im curious to see how far I can go before my life ends...

"you... will have nothing left when this is over...you have... driven everyone away who is suppose to matter to you...can't you see that!?"

"Apparently, I can't see anything..." maybe I had let myself become blind, Shia owed me nothing, it was me wanting something for her that is making this moment so hard for me. I wanted so much for her, even if I never told her. All she had to do was stay by my side and I could literally give her the fucking world!

"Why... do you insist on being like him?..." again, I didn't have an answer that this question either. but the answer was somewhere rooted in my bones, my blood. why I was doing what I was doing was primal.

"If the answer was that simple I'd give it to you..." I rose getting up to leave. I don't know why I came here, I knew I'd leave here feeling disappointed, removed."You should know, the pride has agreed to follow me, for your sake."

"..w...what?" why was she so baffled? Vitani is nothing like me, others would risk their life for her. They always have.

"Hmp, I told you they would. They care about you too much to let you suffer and die. They are far better than me."

"impossible...t...that would mean."

"War? " I answered, "yes, it would be."

"...Nuka." she started but I knew she couldn't finish her sentence. She now had too much to worry about.

"Don't worry I won't hush into anything. tomorrow morning I'm going to make sure we're all on the same page moving forward. I won't have any...surprises like this one again."i began to leave, but my sister sudden question stopped me.

" and Shia?...what about her?" that was a good question, what about her? "...you're going to let her go..." I could hear the hopefulness in her voice as she said this.

"... I already sent a hyena out to bring her back." I replied, I immediately felt the tension in the den shift. " Don't worry, I won't kill her. She's young and can still be trained, she just has to learn from her mistakes. That's all." that's when it hit me, that I don't think I could actually kill Shia, doing that I think, might actually kill me. " You never bite the paw that feeds you." I voiced before leaving the den and my sister for good.

*Damn I'm such an asshole, in my head, I play this fanfic like a movie and I the next scene that kept popping up was Nuka for some reason... but what we all are waiting for is coming out Friday!

+KawaiiCutie12, lol yea I could see everything hitting the fan no lie lol.

+RyanSquad, why did you let me lie to myself?! OFFICIALLY this will be over within 120 chapters!

+ExGeneration35, lol you can say that again, not writing for a week and then getting back in the creative mood is hard and more draining than usual.