Guys I can't thank you enough for the reviews! Really spurred me on!
The following chapter is a shortie, but that's because it had been originally at the end of the previous chapter and I needed a cliffhanger ;)
Chloe froze, her breath caught in her throat as she felt her heart racing. Was…was this a dream? Because too many times over the past six years had she imagined the moment Beca told her that she had feelings for her. But she had never imagined how she would feel about it. And right now she felt…numb. She watched as the woman she'd loved for so long shrug, as though trying to cover up how big a deal this situation was. She had feelings for her. Beca Mitchell had feelings for her!
"I…how long have you...had feelings…for me?" Chloe struggled to get the words out as the room fell silent.
She watched as the petite brunette stood before her shrugging again, shaking her head slightly as she exhaled loudly, her eyes watering as though what she had revealed had been the hugest weight off her shoulders, "I dunno…like…a year?" Beca said nervously.
It took Chloe all of her self control not to cry out in heartache. A year? For the past year that Chloe had been so coolly and secretly pining after Beca, the brunette had been feeling the same way too?! Chloe took a couple of deep breaths, "Why didn't you say anything?" She asked quietly. She hadn't meant to sound as hurt as she had, and the woman across from her had clearly noticed it.
"Because…" Beca began, a sad smile growing on her face and Chloe held her breath. What could Beca possibly think had been the reason to keep something so important to her, to them, a secret for so long? "I like the life we have now."
Chloe's heart was still racing. She agreed, she liked the life they had now too. She liked their little apartment that she'd worked so hard to make a home. She liked that Beca visited her work every morning and/or every afternoon to join her on her break. She liked that her parents always asked how Beca was getting on at Residual Heat, and that Beca always asked how her parents were. She liked the texts Beca would send her from work that comprised mostly of gifs of April from 'Parks & Rec'. And she liked to respond with Leslie Knope gifs. She liked their evenings curled up in front of Netflix. And she'd been enjoying this European Tour.
Chloe watched as Beca seemed to get a little stressed the more she continued, "I didn't want to ruin it by telling you how I felt and things getting weird between us. Which, by the way, they now are.." and the brunette swore under her breath as she continued to speak through her thought process out loud, "Let's…let's just…forget I said anything and go back to normal okay?"
Chloe was stunned as she listened to the end of Beca's sentence and watched the brunette begin to walk around the bed in embarrassment and over to the door. Sure, it felt weird, but only because it had come out of the blue. Chloe had had no pre-warning that Beca may have felt the same way as her. And it surprised her that from the sounds of things Beca had no idea that she felt the same way too!
"Beca wait!" She found herself calling after her best friend and she turned to see Beca immediately stop. Chloe's heart was in her mouth, her cheeks aching slightly as the tears that had once been rolling down them had now dried up. She must've looked an absolute state, but she didn't care. She was about to reveal the one thing she had sworn to herself that she would never reveal to the woman stood before her. A promise that she had held captive for six years, whilst yearning for this very moment. Chloe took a deep breath as Beca turned to look at her, and she saw those tears brimming dangerously in the brunette's deep blue eyes. She realised that this was the most vulnerable she'd ever seen Beca look, and it suddenly made Chloe feel very nervous, "I have feelings for you too..." She blurted, as though it would just be easier if she said it in one go, "...and I can't forget what you just said. I don't want to."
She held her breath as she watched in anticipation for the reaction of her best friend. She noticed Beca swallow loudly, as the petite woman appeared to process what they were both saying to each other. "Right" she heard her say quietly under her breath. Chloe's heart began to soar as she noticed a nervous smile gently creep its way into the corners of Beca's mouth and the two held each other's gaze. The silence was deafening as the two women, the two best friends, stood a couple of feet from one another, nervous smiles on their faces.
"So…what do we do now?" Chloe broke the silence, her voice soft and nervous despite her insides screaming out loud in celebration, "I mean…you have feelings for me…I have feelings for you…?" If it were possible she could imagine her twenty one year old self popping up beside her to give her a massive high five. She'd been twenty one when she'd first laid eyes on Beca. Twenty one when she'd first realised that, despite several strings of on-off boyfriends she'd had throughout high school and her first three years of college, she'd never known love at first sight until she'd met Beca. A girl. And now, after six long years that girl had finally confessed that she also had feelings for her.
She saw the brunette shrug, her voice sounding as nervous as hers, which was also reflected in her small smile, "I dunno…do we…go on a date, maybe?"
Chloe felt her heart thud in excitement and she tried to remain as composed as possible. But she couldn't help the broad smile that grew on her face as she shrugged, "I dunno, maybe? Why, are you…asking me out on a date?"
Chloe's heart began to race as she held her breath, desperately hoping that she wasn't dreaming, as this situation was better than any she had ever dreamt of. She watched as the smile remained on the brunette's face though Beca appeared to be struggling to find the perfect words, "I guess…sure…yeah…um…do you want to go out on a date with me?"
"Okay," Chloe said quietly, knowing she was grinning ridiculously broadly now, mostly because Beca's nervous smile had also grown, "and if things feel weird then…we can just go back to the way we were." Chloe quickly followed, desperate to reassure Beca that this was worth trying, even if it was just for one date.
This must've been just what Beca had wanted to hear, as the brunette's face completely relaxed, "Sure, the way we were. Just…best friends…housemates…no secret feelings."
"No secret feelings. No pressures just…us." Chloe agreed and the two women paused with a smile, happy that they were both finally on the same page.
"Great. So…erm…I'll pick you up at 7.30" Beca said in a jokey voice, pointing at the redhead with a wink, and Chloe furrowed her brow slightly with a bemused grin.
"We share a room." Chloe said matter of factly. She couldn't work out how Beca could possibly 'pick her up'. And her heart fluttered while she saw Beca's face drop nervously as she shrugged, speaking in an embarrassed quiet tone,
"Yeah, I know I just…it's what they say don't they. Guys. They ask the girl out and tell her what time they're going to pick her up so…I was just…trying to be funny…" if Chloe had had the confidence to squeal then she would've done as Beca's sentence trailed off at the end. The brunette didn't stop though, screwing her face up as she realised she couldn't stop talking "ugh I'm making this weird! I'm sorry-"
"-it's okay!" Chloe quickly interjected, stepping forward and grabbing Beca's upper-arms to try to calm her, while the woman opposite her put her hands to her face in embarrassment. Chloe giggled, "Beca you're not making this weird,". She watched her best friend's expression relax as she let out a sigh of relief, the tears no longer residing in either women's eyes. "Let's go back down to the others and…we'll just meet in the foyer at 7.30 to go somewhere for dinner."
The brunette nodded, "Right, yeah…okay, 7.30." The women stepped apart from each other and Chloe felt unusual. Something had definitely changed between them, even in the space of a few minutes, though she couldn't work out what. As she began to walk to the door of their hotel room she heard Beca simply say, "I think I saw a nice bistro down the road?" and Chloe smiled,
"That sounds perfect."
I literally couldn't be happier while I was writing this. And the next couple of chapters too!
Hope you enjoyed it. Next chapter tomorrow (I'm away this weekend so will try to upload it in time!)
And thank you SO MUCH again for the reviews! xx
