This has to be a dream or a nightmare

by yuricrazywolf

"Lexa could hear people telling her to move out of the way but she ignored them as the golden wolf turned its head up looking straight at her. Lexa bit her lip stopping herself from gasping as she stared into pale ice blue eyes, the golden wolf's snarls stopped immediately as it stared right back at her." What will happen next? You'll have to join this adventure to find out ;)

4. Chapter 4

Hello my pups! So so so soooo sorry that I didn't post on time like I should have its been almost a month! My god this is the worst time update ever and so unexpectable! Things got very emotional in my personal life, work was insane, and it is the awful Final exam month of school (I bet many of you understand that stress (-_-)). SO good lord I been going insanewith trying to juggle everything at once. But thank you to all that have been ever so kind as to wait for me to update!

I may be going crazy with how busy I get sometimes but one thing is for certain.

I AM A FIGHTER AND I DON'T GIVE UP! I will keep writing no matter what, I will keep CLEXA alive it is a must! XD

This chapter was not Betaed (editor)! Hopefully my friend will be able to help with the next editing. Now I tried my very very best my pups to edit it myself, I hope you'll still enjoy this story!

Enjoy your treat!

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Chapter 4

Clarke POV

Clarke had barely finished eating her food before she felt a sharp pain hitting her rear. She yelped at the sudden sting turning back to see what strike her, she saw a hint of silver with a blue fuzzy end. Clarke looked over at the front cage, baring her teeth as she saw Anya holding that shiny L shaped twinge, the human was now lowering it to her side.

Clarke had found it odd that so many humans had come to feed them their lunch today; there was a good 8 of them just standing off to the side. The wolves with her hadn't come over at all, there were far too many humans for their liking. Her pack kept at a distance waiting for the humans to leave. The humans had brought them several pounds of sheep meat and some fresh fruits, Clarke knew her wolves were hungry she was able to hear their rumbling bellies from where she was. But the presents of humans weren't enough for them to come over to calm their growling tummies.

Clarke hadn't put much thought as to why so many came to them this evening, but she didn't feel threatened by them. The humans stood far away from her cage and for Clarke it didn't cause any alarms that she had to be to defensive. Besides, she knew she'd be able to scare them off if she wanted to. Clarke considered maybe they were here to get one of the other wolves for their monthly grooming. Her coat was doing fine (not perfect since it was matted and kind of dirty though still good) so they couldn't be here for her, plus no one was holding out a muzzle to signal her. She was a good girl when it came to her grooming, she knew that when a human held out a muzzle that meant she had to go over to them and let them put it on. Tough those lossy humans never did a good job; they barely brushed her fur she hated the humans touching her but she likes a clean coat.

Clarke felt the human's tension coming off every one of them. Their bodies ready to either fight or flight, Clarke's reputation was well known here, no one messed with Wanheda. Clarke was going to give them a piece of her mind for tranquilizing her and remind them what happens when they piss her off. Clarke pulled her lips back over her teeth, exposing all of her pointed canines letting out a deep rumble. She took satisfaction at seeing them tense up further even moving back but Anya hadn't moved. Anya wasn't afraid, not like the other two legs that looked desperate to run like the cowards they are. Clarke will have to fix that, Anya ought to be terrified of her, she'd make sure this alpha human remembers what Clarke is cable of.

"What the hell is your problem?!" Clarke snarled out angrily as she stalked up to the front cage, now Anya had the good senses to move farther away. Clarke still wanted to prove a point though, she snapped her muzzle making her teeth clash loud enough that some of the humans shivered. As far as Clarke knew, she hadn't been trying to hurt anyone while she was eating, merely tearing into her lunch like normal. She didn't even growl at the humans that brought the food inside!

Clarke wanted to lung at the cage to scare them off but she felt her body cave in as the drug slowly took a hold of her limbs and mind. Clarke had to back away from the cage and lower down to her belly before the drugged forced her to fall, her version spotted and she felt heavier. Clarke had this done to her before, usually it was quicker and she'd be out by instantly, but this one was different. Clarke could feel her muscles loosen, the joints relaxing against her will, her brain becoming sluggish not doing its job to help keep her alert, and she could hear the humans discussing who would come inside to grab her. Clarke could hear the cage door sliding open as several humans were speaking, she felt concerned about why they wanted to grab her. She had a momentary panic that maybe they were finally going to punish her; but was set at ease as she listened to Anya saying they were moving her somewhere else.

"Be careful alright, it's a low dose tranquilizer. Wanheda will be able to hurt anyone if someone messes up," Anya's voice was closer, Clarke felt Anya's hand gripping her snout gently as she pushed a muzzle over her mouth, she felt the thing clip behind her head. Clarke growled irritated she wanted to fight and take off but then she felt several human's hands tying her paws together tightly, though it wasn't painful. The humans than slipped their hands under her body lifting her. Clarke forced her eyes to focus, trying to see what was going on but the damn drug going through her veins wasn't making it easy. Clarke smelled Anya, she had this pine needle smell with a sharp scent of mud. Anya was cradling her neck and head keeping Clarke's head leveled with her body, her snout occasional rubbing against the human's shirt. Clarke was able to smell some of the other animals Anya has interacted with, smelled like felines. Gross.

"Ease does it, we don't won't to provoke her anymore then we have to. Lance open the bed of the golf cart," Anya barked her order, Clarke heard the metal thing dropping and she was placed down on a warm metal floor. Clarke tried getting up, wiggling her hips and shoulders to try to get on her paws but she forgets that her paws had been tied up. Anya and several humans pushed down on her side to keep her from moving. Clarke did her best to snarl at them but it sounded like a gurgle; she huffed giving up and stayed on her side, the humans removed their hands.

Though Clarke felt anxious, she didn't know what was going on and where the humans were taking her. She hasn't done anything wrong today, the worst thing she's done was scare Luna for soaking her in water. Clarke had been close by because she adored watching the water swirl around as the water went down. Things were just fine as she was sitting on the opposite end of bowl, observing the last of the water draining out. Then Luna got to work with rifling it, the water bounced off the surface splashing small droplets on her whiskers that wasn't a bother. She had heard the human curse and when she looked up cold water hit her right in the face going straight up her nose. It stung like hell and Clarke couldn't help but snarl at the stupid girl. Clarke was so soaked she had to lay out in the sun for a good while before her fur dried out. Clarke loved water sure, but not when it was bursting in her face. The other bad thing could have been the thing with Titus but that made no sense, that happened yesterday not today.

"There we go, alright Wanheda you better behave. I don't want to hear anything about you hurting my best friend. Be nice," Clarke was slightly impressed by Anya's tone, there was definitely a threat in that warning. Another human spoke to Anya but she ignored whatever that human was saying, in favor of threatening Anya back. Clarke pulled her lips back baring her teeth snarling deeply paying no mind how it sounded off.

"Like I'd listen to you. You are no threat to me, I have no problem hurting you. Who's your best friend? The giant cats?" Clarke mocked her as the golf cart let out its own deep growl as it moved forward, she only then realized there was another human in the golf cart with her. The human had her head on their lap, Clarke tried to sniff at them but the medicine was affecting her ability to stay awake and she wasn't able to focus on finding the human's scent. Her mind blacked out as the human ran their fingers through her fur. Clarke felt her mind taking her to a distant memory,

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"Mama, why do we have to stay away from those wolves?" Clarke asked her mother as they sat far away from a raspberries bush, it's fruit bright red and ready to be eaten. Clarke was drooling at the anticipation of eating from the plant. But there was a wolf there already eating, her mama told her they couldn't get close to that wolf.

"She's a mindless wolf, they don't think about anything other than surviving. They can be dangerous, especially for pups like you," her mama told her as she tucked her front legs closer to Clarke's sides. Clarke sat between her mother's front paws watching as the wolf was eating from the bush. The she-wolf had looked their way only a few times and bared her fangs but her mother's viscous growls kept her at by. Clarke looked the wolf over, it was an alpha with a coat of dark brown and one of her front paws was all light brown. But what was stranger was the wolf's eyes, one was yellow and the other was gray.

"Why me?" Clarke asked licking at her muzzle craving to eat from the plant but her mother wouldn't let her budge from where she was, her mother even used her tail to wrap around her mid-section. The wolf was close to being done, as she licked at her muzzle cleaning off the juices. She looked their way one more time before heading off in a small trot.

"First because you are a pup, they don't appreciate pups that aren't their own. And second your pelt isn't common to them, they will find you threatening," her mama waited till the wolf was fully gone before letting Clarke go. Clarke took off right away towards the bush with her mama close at her tail. Clarke grabbed a muzzle full of the berries chomping away savoring the sweet and tangy taste that erupted on her tongue.

"But my fur is pretty, it's not scary," Clarke argued grabbing another muzzle full of the bright red fruit the sweet juices a little ruined with a few of the leaves she snagged. Her mama chuckled as she ate her own share of the berries but she wasn't so concentrated in enjoying them as she was with looking around them.

"Yes, it is very pretty, but the mindless don't think that way. For them it means you stand out, you could attract a lot of different predators or worse humans. So, we need to stay away from them sweetie," her mama swallowed the last of her food, eyes completely focused in on something. Clarke chomped on her berries happily as she looked around too. Her mama was staring where the mindless wolf had taken off. Clarke looked over surprised to see the wolf hadn't left it was still there just standing there, watching them.

"How do you know they're mindless?" Clarke asked while she looked at the other wolf, the wolf was sniffing at them even opening its muzzle to really get their scent. Clarke could see her chest rising and falling as their scent meet her tongue.

"One would be if you can't make a mind connection and the second is their eyes. A mindless wolf's eyes turn yellow after losing their human self," her mother tucked her tail around Clarke's frame as she continued to eat the raspberries. Clarke munched on her snack not caring how the juices dripped down from her muzzle. Clarke looked back to the mindless wolf who was still looking over at them, the female openly stared at the small oddly colored pup. Clarke didn't feel threatened though, the female just seemed to be curious as it titled her head studying her.

"Why does she only have one yellow eye?" Clarke licked her lips feeling full, the mindless wolf was moving towards them very cautiously. Clarke heard her mama growl threateningly making the female hesitant but still she moved closer. Clarke knew what that meant when a stranger came close, she quickly grabbed a muzzle full of raspberries stuffing her mouth as much as she could before her mama grabbed her nap. Clarke had promised she'd bring some berries back for her friends, she hoped to get more but this would have to do. There was no chance her mama would fight the wolf if she had the opportunity to run. Plus, it wouldn't be safe if her mama was to focused on attacking the wolf and the she-wolf could break away to hurt Clarke. Its why pups stayed with the pack where many wolves can watch each other backs.

"Not sure, but we aren't staying to find out," her mother tightened her hold on her nap as she turned away from the female wolf and took off in a full run. Clarke thought she heard the female whimper but she paid no attention to it as the small pup focused on holding on to the berries in her muzzle.

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"That damn bitch," Clarke snarled when she woke up feeling groggy, her vision still adjusting, blinking a few times she hopes to clear her sight. Clarke's mind was still foggy as she took in her surroundings, she sniffed at the air smelling other wolves that were close by. But the wolves that she smelled weren't of those that she knew, these wolves were new.

"Why did Anya drug me? I wasn't doing anything wrong," Clarke wondered she pushed herself on to her paws still a little wobbly. She stumbled around expecting that walking would wear off the medicine though she soon ran into the metal's bars.

"What the hell?" Clarke sniffed searching for the closest water bowl, she moved forward tell her nose bumped against the plastic container. Clarke drank some water before dipping her head inside the cold liquid it felt soothing and helped rid the rest of the nasty tranquilizer's effect. Clarke lifted her head then shook off the water feeling more alert. But it didn't take long for Clarke to realize that the humans had moved her into her old cage, the first one that she woke up in. Clarke looked around confused,

"Why I'm I here?" Clarke wondered; she saw about two other wolves that were in their own cages further down. Clarke walked to the front of the cage and peaked outside. It was raining out there, seemed to be a light drizzle nothing to heavy which was a good thing. The fresh water that drizzled against the roof creates a comfortable sound; it was like a bittersweet reminder that no matter what was going on in life, mother Gaia still worked hard to keep her body alive.

Clarke's tail swayed when she thought of Gaia, (mother nature in other words) was a such a powerful life form and yet she welcomed the billions of lives of that lived on her. Her dad always told her stories about there being many different Gods and Goddess, mother Gaia had been one of his favorites. Clarke sighed welcoming the better sting in her chest when she remembered things from her past; memories from her younger years were hard to recover sometimes so when they came up, she didn't mind the reminder of what she no longer had. Clarke looked to the other side seeing a human walking towards her cage. It wasn't a face she wanted to see, not so soon at least,

"Hey there beautiful, sorry that I had you moved," Lexa stood outside of her cage a sweet smile at her lips, Clarke realized she was able to smell her even better than before, it made her mind fuzzy. The human had on a different shirt compared to yesterday's that one being an orange and now she wears black but still with the same purple wording. Lexa had her hair down this time it looked so pretty and wavy, especially the way that it was dangling to the side as she titled her head. Clarke nipped her teeth a bit trying to stay focused as the human kneeled down still keeping those emeralds eyes on her.

Lexa tried to meet her eyes but Clarke wouldn't allow that, she turned her head away from the pretty human in favor of looking outside. Clarke just couldn't focus when she looked into the females' eyes, like yesterday little interaction those pools of greens made Clarke forgot her hate for humans. For God sake, she almost made a mind connection with this human and that is absolutely out of the question. Clarke can't let this human win her over, Lexa can and will abuse the knowledge that she wasn't just some random ill-tempered wolf.

If humans knew what they were cable of it would be the end for her kind, they possessed immense speed and strength, their saliva can heal any wound, and they could change their form into that of a human. Heaven's only knows what these creatures would do if they knew any of that, they probably keep them as pets degrading them like Nia and Finn had done. Hell, Clarke never even licked the wounds her abusive owners gave her. She wouldn't give any signs of being cable of more than merely understanding humans. Of course, there was Nia who found out a little more then what Clarke was beyond comfortable with but she was a selfish monster. Nia wanted Clarke all to herself and more than likely she only told a handful of humans of Clarke's special skill. So, Clarke didn't need to worry about her secret being exposed through Nia; but with Lexa, she had no clue what kind of human she was.

"I did this mostly because I want you to trust me, Wanheda. It's really important that you let me help you," Lexa's voice plead, Clarke snapped out of her thoughts getting too lost in her mind, Lexa face scrunched up in worry. Worry for what Clarke didn't know, she glanced at the human's covered torso. Clarke remembered the huge scar she saw there and all of the small ones that were scattered around Lexa's arms. Clarke shook her head when her own human mind was telling her they were similar that Lexa has suffered in her own way. No, it didn't matter if Lexa had been abused in her past life like Clarke had been. She was still a human and that's what mattered here.

"Or what you lose your job?" Clarke growled low as she turned away from the female and walked to the far end of the cage. The cage wasn't so bad, she's at least able to move around and stretch her limbs; she even had the oppression to go outside. Logically there was another cage out there and she can simply avoid Lexa all together and head out there. "That's how I'll ignore her, if I'm not close to her there won't be an issue," Clarke moves over to the open-door way peaking outside only to jolt away when she felt a shower of water hit her nose. Having been caught off guard at seeing Lexa so soon, her mind had went all fuzzy making her forget that it was even raining.

"Sorry beautiful, it's going to be raining for most of the day. Guess you'll have be stuck in here with me," Clarke kept her back to Lexa as she heard her chuckle, she snapped her teeth again iterated as she looked outside again not so spooked when the water hit her snout,

"Honestly! How can one damn attractive human make my brain feel like mush," she glared up at the clouds baring her fangs, "wait, di-d I just admit to her being hot? Oh Gaia," she snarled ducking back inside she shook off the water on her snout, lifting a paw to dry off her nose. Clarke wouldn't look at Lexa even though she could feel her eyes on her like an over baring sun beam. Clarke staled for laying down and facing outside keeping herself distracted by watching the animals hide from the rain. "She's not hot! Just not bad to look at, there's a difference," Clarke tried to convince herself ignoring how her heart was pounding against her chest.

"No staring contest today?" Lexa joked, Clarke didn't acknowledge her simply watching as a neighboring bear trotted about seeming to enjoy the weather. Clarke suddenly wondered what kind of human Lexa was, the affect she had on her was disturbing. Clarke heard her shifting around, glancing back at her for a moment seeing that Lexa was now sitting crosses legged in the dirt. The human had something in her lap that looked like some kind of clear plastic with round white circles inside. The curious human seemed like she was getting comfortable, she had something else with her it looked like a holding pouch. Though unlike the leaf pouches Clarke remembers this one was brown and it jingled almost like small bells.

"Why do you need me to trust you? What do you gain from that?" Clarke wondered not looking at her eyes, she looked back at the clear plastic holder that was in her lap. Clarke's curiosity was getting the best of her, she wants to know what is inside of it. She hadn't seen these things before, she sniffed in her direction ignoring Lexa's natural scent, "smells interesting," Clarke moved before she could think about it turning around but stayed in the same place making sure to keep her tail out of the rain.

"I bet I'd win, maybe you're not as tough as you think," Lexa challenged, Clarke snorted now that was plan rude, a human winning against an alpha? What a joke. Surely this female had to have brains as well as beauty to know she could never dominate a wolf.

"Ha! As if, I'm the strongest wolf here and you think you could beat me?" Clarke barked a small laugh glaring at the human, "I can show you just how strong I am. I bet you don't even know that my muzzle fits right through those bars. I could kill you… if I wanted to," Clarke growled, her tail twitched nervously when Lexa just smiled at her. Lexa seemed happy which was very off, all humans fear the growl of a wolf, yet this one smiles.

"Shame you don't want to play, I have a special treat here with me that I made myself," Lexa lifted the clear plastic from her lap and showed them to Clarke. Clarke's ears perked up right away at the mention of treat, she knew that word. It was a demeaning word but treat meant something tasty. "We don't even have to play that game, maybe you can just come over here," Lexa opened the plastic thing and pulled out one of the treats than waved it back and forth. The scent of the treat drifted towards closer, she could smell something like pumpkin and peanut butter. Clarke didn't know what it was but her mouth was watering at the tasty scent that tickled her senses.

"Oh Gaia, they really do smell tasty, I just have to move towards her right?" Clarke wondered, these little disk-shaped treats did look rather good, she hasn't had one of those things before. But Lexa called them a treat, treat meant Clarke had to do a trick in order to get it. With that new knowledge in mind Clarke huffed and turned her head away. "No, I won't demean myself like a dog...not anymore," Clarke growled out, she heard Lexa sigh, glancing back at the female she continued to stare at her titling her head curiously.

"No luck huh? I guess I really did imagine that thing yesterday," Lexa span the treat between her fingers catching Clarke's attention again but the wolf forced herself to look away from both Lexa and the tempting snack. Clarke was happy to hear that the human thought she imagined yesterday's mistake; Clarke will have to continue fooling Lexa. She remined herself not to react like a human that would give her away and most defiantly she will not be making a mind connection with her. Lexa would use her like Nia had, be an entertainment object for human's amusement. Lexa hummed to herself as she looked in at Clarke, the wolf practically able to hear the gears turning in her head as the human tried to figure her out. Lexa placed the treat on her knee then grabbed her odd pouch bring it up on her lap.

"What is she doing?" Clarke watched Lexa the curious wolf tilted her head watching as the human dug around in her pouch. Lexa pulled out several things a note book, a small box, her phone, and a pencil. Clarke observed as Lexa set things up, placing the objects in front of her that were close enough to the cage that Clarke would be able to grab them. Not that she would heed Lexa's command of getting closer to her, the emerald eyed goddess then opened the notebook and scribbled something inside of it.

"Every time you move closer Wanheda, I will give you a treat," Lexa explained grabbing the small box she had placed on the floor, she turned the box around playing with it until it made a beeping sound. Clarke tilted her head again her ears twitching while she looked at the cube peculiarly, then out of nowhere it began to play music. Clarke was surprised, in her moment of excitement of studying the small box, she got up and moved closer,

"What is that thing? How is it playing music?" Clarke wondered she tried to sniff at the box to find some kind of scent but was only able pick up on Lexa's scent. She heard Lexa click her tongue and when she glanced over Lexa was smiling at her holding onto one of those treats,

"Good girl Wanheda," Lexa tossed her the treat, by pure reflex Clarke snapped her head up and caught it before it could hit the ground. "Nice catch," Lexa chuckled though Clarke was too busy exploring the new treat she was given. It was defiantly sweet, the thing crumbled in her mouth and dissolved on her tongue she was able to taste the pumpkin and peanut butter. Clarke was embarrassed how much she licked at her teeth savoring the flavor.

"Oh Gaia, those are so much better than those dried meats," Clarke hummed still licking her lips glancing at the clear plastic that rested by Lexa's leg. She wondered momentarily if she'd be able to grab the plastic thing and just enjoy the treats without having to obey a command.

"I'm guessing you enjoyed that huh?" Lexa's smug grin made Clarke want to disagree but she had been licking at her teeth too much to prove that she did like it. "I cooked them up just for you. I had a feeling I'd need more then my looks to get you to like me," Lexa was getting prideful again, if she kept that up Clarke would kick her water bowl at her. It was like yesterday when Lexa honestly believed that she had saved her from the raging fires; she wasn't rude about it but she defiantly held her head higher. She had to guess that Lexa was far to used to other animals parsing her with affection so it made the foolish human kind of smug. Almost like the women expected Clarke to shower her with her own affection for being "saved" by her.

"My thanks to you is that you're still breathing. Take that as your praise, like hell I well kiss you. And umm thanks I guess for the treat, they are good," Clarke huffed turning her head away from her and towards the little box that played music. "Also, your looks definitely won't be enough...even though I think you are really pretty." Clarke wanted to get closer and paw at the small box, see what else it could do besides somehow being able to play music without its plastic tail. She has seen Finn have something similar to this odd box, but the one that he had was called a radio and that thing had a long furless tail that could be pushed into the wall.

"Haven't seen one of this before?" Lexa asked her tapping at the music box, Clarke just glanced at her then back at the box she hoped that be enough for her to explain this odd box. Lexa picked the box up then held it up for Clarke to look at it better, she rotated it between her palms. "This is called a speaker; I use my phone to connect to it and the speaker plays the music I have on my phone." Lexa explained it so casual like it was that simple to understand though Clarke was trying to figure out how that was possible. Clarke was a wolf, she didn't know any human stuff; she's never even had the chance to learn,

"So, your phone and the speaker are connected like a wolf does a mind connection. And through that connection you make the small box play music, this one seems easy to remember. Hell took me forever to figure out what a phone was," Clarke smiled wagging her tail, forgetting to keep up the act of being a simple wolf, as she nodded to herself before looking to the human who was looking her over. Lexa only looked away to write something in her notebook, the pencil quickly scraping against the pages, the human appeared to be amused.

Clarke wonder what would cause such a feeling. She hadn't done anything unique, simply showed curiosity for the strange bo- speaker. Yet Lexa was so excited as she wrote and in her enthusiastic state, the female's lips turned up in a smile, and the tip of her tongue pocked out through plump lips. Clarke found it rather adorable, the careless wolf that she is didn't even noticed how much her heart fluttered when she observed Lexa.

Clarke let her mind wonder to that dangerous territory again, her human mind being very stubborn and instating that Lexa was someone that she needed in her life. That it didn't matter one bit that she was human. If Nia had in fact had her kind wiped out, what would it matter if Lexa knew her secret? No wolf would be able to punish her for her butyral. Clarke could very well be the last of her kind who was free to do what she pleased. The mere idea of being alone should have made her heart pang in anguish but looking at this beautiful female dulled that pain. Maybe…just maybe Clarke should let Lexa into her world.

"You know, I don't think I've ever met an animal like you before. You act so different from the other wolves," Lexa muttered more to herself then addressing the wolf. Clarke escaped her deeper thoughts and instead watched as Lexa's pink tongue licked at her lips. Clarke licked at her own lips without meaning to before she shook her head roughly her cheeks felt warm feeling embarrassed. For a moment Clarke had pondered what it be like to be in her human form and press her lips against Lexa's.

"Of course not, I am different. If you knew just how different I was, what would you do? Would you be afraid of me? Would you want to use me to entertain your fellow humans? Would you want to take me apart and study me like alpha Kane instead humans will do?" Clarke met Lexa's eyes she let out a soft whine while her mind kept thinking of all the possibilities, "Or would you want to care for me and simply want to understand me?" Clarke thought sadly, not being able to stop that infernal seed of hope from planting itself into her harden heart. Lexa broke the eye contact to write again.

Clarke sighed barking a small laugh, how was it possible for Lexa to affect her this way? The day before Clarke had her mind set that she would kill Lexa just to gain her freedom, instead the human sat outside of her cage and feed her treats. Clarke was more than able to reach through the bars with her paws and drag Lexa towards her cage. It would only take one bite to her throat and she'd never be able to take another breath. The idea alone made her chest feel so tight like a thousand weights was slow crushing Clarke's lungs. She really couldn't bring herself to hurt Lexa, whatever power the human had over this wolf was keeping Lexa alive. Putting that thought aside Clarke moved closer trying to peak at the notebook that laid on Lexa's lap,

"You're doing such a good job girl," Lexa dug into the plastic holder again and tossed another treat, Clarke caught it easily once again. She happily chowed away wagging her tail while she enjoyed it, "I'm really glad to see you like the cookies. Some dogs don-"

"Hey! I'm not a dog," Clarke barked insulted, though Lexa held up her hands in surrender which made Clarke feel a little bad but the human's expression showed no distress.

"Hey now what brought that on?" Lexa laughed the human's easy attitude made it hard for Clarke to be mad at her so she only huffed. The speaker played a different song now, Clarke found it rather calming it wasn't like the music that Clarke had to dance to. She was used to the music that had more energy and bounce to them, "Strange wolf, so much expression for an animal," Lexa brought her hands back down towards her notebook,

The little exchange continued for a while; Clarke wasn't sure how much time had passed but she soon found herself very close to the bars. True to her word Lexa would give her a cookie every time she got closer and then let Clarke do what she wanted as she'd write in her notebook. Clarke had to force the idea of Lexa potentially hurting her out of her head, it was a learned habit of Clarke's to never be close to the bars. Clarke knew exactly why she had that habit but she had to also remind herself that Lexa has never showed any hostility towards her.

Lexa's calming aura was infectious honestly, because soon enough she let her guard drop and she had laid down literally in front of the human. Lexa often looked at her for a good long while before turning back to her notebook occasionally flipping through the pages. Clarke was certain Lexa was writing about her but what she was writing was what made her curious, though it wasn't enough find out for certain. While Clarke had been relaxing merely listening to the music and shamelessly breathing in Lexa's scent, she felt rather sleepy. Clarke couldn't remember the last time she felt this at peace; when she didn't feel like she was in danger or gradually slipping into madness. Clarke yawned a little whine escaping as she did so, she laid down on her side leaning against the bars with little worry. She could feel Lexa's heat coming off her skin from how close she was to the human. But that didn't bother her at all, in fact Clarke moved her muzzle out more to feel Lexa's warmth.

What would it be like if Clarke could truly connect to the female? The idea sounded more and more tempting by the minute, Clarke wanted to have Lexa know the real her. Clarke has been in her own world for so many years with no one to talk to. She grew up in solitude, not a single wolf like her around to take comfort with throughout those years and the only attention she acquired was through harsh hands. It was a mercurial that Clarke still even had her human mentality, truthfully, she should have lost it years ago. It would have been the sane option to just give up, to no longer be aware of the horror she went through, it would have been easy. In spite of that Clarke choose to hold on to her human self, maybe a part of her knew that there had to be something more to her life.

Goddess only knows how much she's howled to the moon wishing with all her heart that something or someone would save her. But when the weeks turned to months and then to years; Clarke given up on being saved and allowed a darkness to wrap around her heart making her cold and violent. That darkness was still there even when Niylah had freed her from Nia. That storm of shadows still ingulfed her heart to the point she wouldn't even allow the mindless wolves to get close to her.

If Clarke was honest with herself, she'd admit that she hated how hateful and bitter she's become. She was never like this as a pup, she used to be free spirted a silly little thing that wanted to love all the creatures that lived on mother Gaia. Clarke missed that part of her, she wants to feel that way again, to move away from her past. Clarke had a hunch that if she allowed Lexa into her world that Clarke would be able to accomplish that desire.

"You did such a good job today Wanheda. I'm very proud of you," Lexa whispered to her, after she had stopped humming to the music and Clarke watched her lazily as Lexa closed the notebook and placed it next to the empty cookie bag. Clarke wagged her tail letting it thump against the dirt, she showed her teeth in a smile, it was a nice thing to hear. Clarke's body felt so light, as though she could leap into the air and she'd be able to fly, be able to soar across the plans of earth or glide up into the clouds where the moon rested. Clarke wanted to always have this feeling, whatever it was, the one thing Clarke knew for certain that it was thanks to being close to Lexa that she felt this way.

"I wonder…" Lexa's voice pulled her back to the real world, Clarke noticed Lexa was looking down at her biting her bottom lip, she seemed to want something.

"What's wrong?" Clarke pondered; Lexa then lowered her hand close to the bars near Clarke's muzzle. Her fingers twitched nervously it looked like she wanted to pet Clarke. Now Clarke wasn't a fan of being touched but for Lexa, she'd allow it, "fine, but you better see how special this is. I never allow anyone to pet me willingly," Clarke moved closer pushing her muzzle through the bars she touched Lexa's palm with her nose. Lexa let out a breath in relief, Clarke found it cute that she was worried.

"You're going to be in for a surprise down the road. I'm going to ease you into how different I really am. I hope that you react positively, not sure if I'll be able to hold on to my human mind if you reject me," Clarke purred gently, but then Lexa moved her hand forward and stroked the top of Clarke's muzzle. She stiffened at first but the way Lexa's fingers grazed her fingers down the bridge of her snout set her at ease. Lexa's touch was gentle as she used her other hand to cup under Clarke's muzzle stroking either side of her mouth with her thumbs making Clarke purr louder.

"My cat is going to ignore me again for going home smelling like you," Lexa whispered her voice teasing, this was the first time Lexa has said something about herself. Clarke looked up at her but she didn't move away from Lexa's soothing touch. Lexa tilted her head as she continued to pet Clarke, "should have seen her yesterday when I got home. She smelled you and also thanks to you smelled all of that goats and sheep's blood you showered me with," Lexa laughed shaking her head, she took her hands back and Clarke almost whined at the loss of interaction. "She wouldn't come anywhere near me not even when I showered afterwards. She chose Anya over me, riding on her shoulders practical giving me the middle finger," Lexa grinned at her memory, the human began to pick up her things and put them away in her 'backpack' as she called it earlier, apparently it wasn't a pouch but both served the same purpose just with a different name.

"Wait, where are you going?" Clarke asked sleepily letting out another yawn, she lifted her head watching as Lexa zipped up her bag. The female swung the pack on her back before getting up and dusting off her pants.

"I have to go now Wanheda, I'll be back tomorrow morning," Lexa leaned down holding her hand out, Clarke was more than happy to stick her muzzle through the bars and let her pet her again. Clarke let out another gentle purr enjoying the affection, "Well you be a good girl for me, sweet baby?" Lexa cooed at Clarke; Clarke purred a little louder nuzzling Lexa's hand she gave her a small kiss on her palm.

"For you yes, I'll be a good girl as long as no one tries to hurt me," Clarke did whine this time when Lexa moved her hand away, she could hear Lexa chuckle.

"I'll see you tomorrow gorgeous, bye baby," Lexa turned away and began heading out, Clarke didn't even notice that it had stopped raining and that the sun was close to setting. She only focused on Lexa sad to see her go, Clarke wished Lexa would take her home with her. Clarke had her mind set that she well be allowing Lexa into her life, she'd slow show how she can understand Lexa and see her reaction. If Lexa responded well to that then she'd make the mind connection and hope that Lexa would still react positively. Clarke decided that it no longer mattered to her if a wolf pack would never accept her, she's been on her own for 16 years with no other wolf. She'd be just fine being a lone wolf…well it would be hard but hopefully she'd have won Lexa over so she wouldn't be enterally alone.

"I hope you'll react well Lexa, you have no idea how much I risk I am taking in letting you into my life," Clarke sighed sadden as she could no longer see Lexa, she pushed herself up to her paws and walked over to the bed of grass clippings in her cage. Clarke adjusted the grass to be more comfortable, using her nose and paws to create a cozy oval before laying down in the middle. She stretched out her limbs as she curled up resting on her side and laying her head on the fresh grass clippings. "I can't believe I'm going to break the secret oath to the wolves. Oh, Lexa I hope my judgement of you is right. I hope you'll be able to help me move on with my life," Clarke yawned again closing her eyes and for once her dreams weren't filled with nightmares. Instead, she dreamt of Lexa's sweet humming and her blissful strokes.

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Lexa POV

"She behaved so well today, like it was unbelievable Lincoln. Yesterday she was a little bipolar with me because it was the first time she was meeting me. But today it was like she was a completely different wolf," Lexa gushed, as she made dinner, she was making Lincoln and Anya some grilled chicken with a salad while she cooked some tofu for herself. Lincoln was sitting on the kitchen counter listening to Lexa gush like she usually did when she worked with a new animal.

"Really? And this is the same wolf that has killed people?" Lincoln puzzled as he was playing with Jelly who was curled up in his arm. Jelly was laying on her back smacking at Lincoln's hand as he brought it down and playful pocked her tummy. Lexa nodded a big grin on her face as turned the fire off for both their foods,

"Yes! The exact same one, Wanheda is a strong soul who doesn't want a mate and dominates the other wolves to prove she doesn't need a partner. And in order for her to keep that title she has to be a real hard ass so none of the other wolves can push her around. My guess is by having her moved to a different area, she got the chance to drop the tough act and was able to interact with me freely," Lexa explained as she grabbed some plates from over the kitchen sink,

"Would make sense, plus it gave her the chance to be relaxes and let loose" Lincoln placed Jelly down on the counter who protested with a loud meow. The gray fur ball rubbed at Lincoln's elbow trying to get him to pick her back up. Lincoln gently pushed her away as he hopped off the counter, Jelly narrowed her eyes at him and turned away from him flicking her tail angrily.

"Exactly! I used my cookie tactic to get her to come to me willingly and granted it took up the whole day but she actually came right up to the bars," Lexa grabbed some tongues to serve the salad on to the plates then grabbed the grilled chicken and placed it next to the salad. "Honestly I thought it would take a lot longer just for her to come close. That's what happened with Jam, do you remember?" Lexa prepared her own salad, she heard the jingle of Jam's collar as he came over at the mention of his name.

"How could I forget? Anya saved him from being put to sleep. Jam wasn't friendly at all would bite you just for petting him or going near his food. You spent 4 months every day working with him getting bites and scratches all the while. But it was worth it, in the end, cause now he is a big coddler," Lincoln coxed Jam who was standing by the door way, Jam was looking at Lexa hesitantly since she was cooking and she had trained Jam to stay out of the kitchen while she cooked. The big guff ball didn't move when one was running about the kitchen and Lexa has had one to many trips to the tiled floor for her liking. So, Jam knew that when Lexa was in here, his happy fat ass stayed out in the living room. But since Lincoln was calling him over, he moved inside going straight towards him, his tail was wagging hard as he searched for affection,

"It definitely was, but do you hear the difference though? In those 4 months, Jam took a whole month just to come towards me and that's not even including the other three months of training him not to bite for being touched. But Wanheda came to me in half a day and also let me pet her muzzle and she's a wolf. A wolf who only yesterday looked like shed tare me apart for only being close to her enclosure," Lexa balanced the plates on her arms before heading over to the living room while Lincoln was scratching Jam's belly. Anya was already on the couch at her usual spot, she was looking through a serious of movies for them to watch.

"I find it very weird that she warmed up to you so quickly," Anya helped Lexa places the plates down on the table, "For 4 years she's attacked every single person that gets close to her enclosure including me. As for zookeepers? Forget about it, they were some of the first ones that got killed, I remember this one guy got his hand broken for only grabbing her by the back of her neck. Wanheda is brutal, just how the hell did you tame her?" Anya asked as she set up a movie for everyone, Lincoln joined them carrying some cups and pitcher of water,

"I didn't tame her; I'm just earning her trust. But it's is very odd that she hasn't attacked me, the worst that she's done is growl or bark. I was expecting her to be hostile, ready to protect herself if she wanted to," Lexa took the single chair off to the side of the coffee table while Lincoln plopped down besides Anya. Lexa reached over picking up her plate, her mind was spinning as she remembered the day, she had with Wanheda.

When Lexa went to see her after Anya and the team moved her, Lexa was ready for Wanheda to be violent even angry for being taken away from her pack. But when she walked up to Wanheda's enclosure all the golden wolf did was turned away and tried to go outside. Since it had been raining pretty heavily, Wanheda had no choose but to stay inside and then procced to ignored her. That was a kind of a normal behavior, but it wasn't what Lexa was expecting. She's trained other hostile animals before, normally when she works with them, the dog or cat would warn her off by appearing threatening or some would hide away all together.

For the ones that openly threatened her Lexa would drop to their level and not look them in the eyes, Lexa did this to give the animal the change to come near her or they could ignore her. The strategy was always risky, when it comes to working with animals it was unavoidable that one will get bitten or clawed at, which Lexa didn't mind one bit. She understood that animals don't behave that way simply because they want to, they do it because they had uneducated owners that just adopted them for being a cute puppy or kitten. Hardly anyone actually did their homework about adopting a certain kind of pet which will result badly for the animal because they weren't raised the right way.

Wanheda had somehow ended up in the hands of a monster who tortured her and good lord knows what else. With years of abuse like that Lexa understood that Wanheda will try to bite her or injury her scurvily and still she wouldn't blame the wolf at all. Lexa was certain shed have to work doubly hard when it came to working with the giant wolf, but she didn't give her any trouble. In fact, Wanheda was surpassingly calm will Lexa worked with her.

Lexa kept up with the routine of giving her a treat every time she got closure and Lexa would be lying if she said it didn't put her on edge when Wanheda laid down in front of her.

The golden wolf was a massive creature, she'd have to guess from the ground up to her shoulder she was 38 inches tall, so yeah that would make Lexa nervous. Lexa made sure to log the prosses she had with the wolf as well as taking notes every time Wanheda's body language change. The oddest thing to the golden wolf was how much she stared at her, not in a threatening way since Lexa couldn't hear any growling or see any tension on her body but it was almost like she was taking her own mental notes on Lexa. Plus, Lexa swore she heard the wolf purr just like a feline, she wasn't to sure on that one physically speaking it wasn't possible for a wolf to purr. Yet Lexa could feel the small vibration against her hands when she touched her muzzle.

Lexa had taken a risk in trying to pet her, if the wolf was just violent for someone getting close to her space how would she feel about being touched? But again, the wolf surprised her, she allowed Lexa to pet her muzzle and she couldn't believe how soft and silky her fur was. As exciting as it was to have Wanheda come up to her, Lexa still found it immensely unorthodox how quickly the wolf progressed. That little idea of Wanheda maybe understanding her sprang to her mind, was it possible that Lexa hadn't imagined the wolf nodding?

"Hey Anya, have you ever talked with Wanheda?" Lexa asked her friend as she was eating, Anya held up her hand for her to wait to finish the food in her mouth. Lincoln was stuffing his own face will he watched A.X.L. not having heard Lexa's random question.

"How so? Just like how you talk to Jam and Jelly?" Anya served herself some water, Lexa nodded her head while she eats her food. "No, well not the way that you do it were you think they understand you. And you know look like a crazy person who asks her cat about her day," Anya smirked when Lexa glared, her cheeks heated with embarrassment.

"But you have talked to Wanheda at one point," Lexa ignores the last comment she wasn't going to deny it but she also wouldn't confirm it either. Besides Jelly would answer with her little meows and purrs so technically she wasn't crazy for talking with her pet, Lexa just didn't speak cat to be able to understand.

"Mmm maybe a few times but it's mostly lecturing her when she's being a pain like harassing the people who walk by too close to her area," Anya drank from her cup, Jelly came into the living room her little tail swished as she looked from Lexa to Anya. "I guess I'd say I lecture her more than talk to her," Anya pondered, Lexa hummed leaning down offering her hand to the kitten though ended up batting her hand away and jumped up into Anya's lap.

"What are you suggesting Lexa?" Lincoln asked finishing his food, Lexa glared at the kitten as she completely turned her back and rubbed against Anya's stomach. Anya smiled and showered the cat with affection,

"Nothing yet, I'll tell you guys tomorrow when I spend another day with her," Lexa sighed watching as Jelly was getting nose kisses and hearing her purr loud enough from where she was sitting,

"Jelly been awful clingy to me lately, she doesn't hate me at all but you are usual her first choice," Anya observed as she put Jelly down, the kitten curled up in Anya's lap facing Lincoln purposely avoiding looking at Lexa,

"It's probably because I smell like Wanheda, I don't think her scent comes off that easily and this one picks up on that smell," Lexa muttered looking at the kitten offended by her distant attitude. "I shower when I get home, it's not like I am walking around the house showing off that another animal gave me affection," Lexa sighed she looked up at Anya whose eyes were as wide as dinner plates,

"You were actually able to touch her?" Anya asked bewildered, Lexa smiled smugly as setting her clean plate on the table, "and she didn't even bite you or growled?"

"Yup, she let me pet her twice. She loved it to, she was even purring and everything," Lexa felt like a show off, it felt kind of nice knowing Wanheda only liked her.

"Not going to lie, I am kind of jealous. The only chances I have gotten to touch her was when she was drugged, I doubt she would let me pet her other whys. Wait minute you said she purred, wolves don't purr Lexa," Anya laugh while Jelly was batting at Anya's lose shirt, the kitten playfully grabbing it and nibbling on the fabric.

"Maybe purring isn't the right word, but she did make a rumbling sound, it was cute," Lexa smiled a thought of the golden wolf actually trusting her enough to make contact, "You should have seen her face when I gave one of my dog cookies, her eyes literally sparkled,"

"You must really like this wolf, almost makes me want to see her," Lincoln had Jam in his lap and he was scratching along his sides, the pit bull had his tongue pocking out clearly in bliss with Lincoln's attention. Lexa shook her head once he looked over at her but did smile to reassure, he didn't over step or anything.

"That might be too soon, I need more time with her before involving others. She may trust me now but that could change tomorrow it all depends if Wanheda feels comfortable enough with me. Oh, which reminds me, I need to make her some cookies," Lexa got off the couch collecting the plates on her way to the open floored kitchen. Lexa couldn't stop smiling at the promise that she be spending another whole day with the mystery's creature. Lexa wondered if the golden wolf might like to play with the ball this time, that was always a winner of getting a dog's affection.

"Could you make enough for Jam too? The ones you left him weren't enough, poor thing was drooling every time he looked at the cookie jar," Lincoln shouted to her, Lexa gave him a thumbs up as she set the dishes down in the sink. Lexa got to work right away with collecting all the ingredients she would need.

"I swear you'd think she was talking about a person the way she takes about Wanheda," Anya addressed to Lincoln, he more than likely nodded because Lexa didn't hear his reply. Lexa prepped the ingredients, imagining a very happy wolf wagging her tail as she ate up what Lexa made for her. Lexa sang to herself as she mixed the batter just in the zone as she baked away, she suddenly heard her phone going off on the counter. Lexa moved over and looked at the number, it was her papa, she slides the green button to answer,

"Hi papa, everything alright?" Lexa held the phone between her should and ear as she continued baking. Lexa could hear him shuffling a little he wasn't answering in his usual energetic way, "Papa?" Lexa asked again slowing down on the mixing, she was beginning to worry,

"Hey my little forest ranger, umm there's no easy way to say this baby girl," Lexa felt her chest tighten and her breathing shallowed,

"What's going on," Lexa stopped stirring dropping the mixing bowl on the counter with a loud clank and held her phone to her ear. Lexa was able to hear the noise going off in the background, it sounded like there was a lot of people and other phone calls going off,

"It's about your mama, don't worry she's alive, she's just been in a car accident. Doctors says it's a small concussion, a broken ankle, and a few scratches. Indra has been giving the doctor a hard time, instating that she just goes home and rest up there. But the doctors are saying that she needs to stay for the night," Lexa almost felt like the world was collapsing on her, hearing the words car accident and her mama being involved nearly stole her breath away. Lexa let out the breath she was holding not realizing that she was holding it in. It wasn't tell her head started to pound against her skull that she noticed what the problem was. "It would mean a lot to me and your mama if you come over tomorrow to see her. Indra isn't willing to stay in bed and she's making things worse for herself. She'll listen to you though if you're here to tell her to do what the doctors asking," Lexa leaned against the counter trying to calm her racing heart,

"Yes, I can come over tomorrow. I'll tell Anya and she pull some strings for me to come over to the hospital," Lexa looked over seeing Anya, her face filed with worry at the mention of a hospital. Lexa gave a soft smile to try to reassure as her papa filed her in on what room number they will be in before she hung up. "Everything okay, just my mama got in a minor car accident. She is alright but apparently she's supposed to be resting and you know her, the chances of her relaxing will be impossible," Lexa held a hand to her chest finally calming her heart, she whipped under her eyes a few tears had escaped,

"Oh, thank god, I hate going to hospitals. I can't blame her for not wanting to be in one," Anya wrapped an arm around her shoulder to offer some comfort, "you should be fine to take tomorrow off, I'm sure Wanheda will be fine for a day. I'll check in on her if you want me to," Anya patted her back to easy her troubles,

"If you could I'd appreciate it, I think I'll finish this off so you can give them Wanheda," Lexa mostly spoke to herself her mind a little distance, while she slowly had to ease into a state that she would have to go to a hospital tomorrow. Thinking of the hospital was making her relive the worst day of her life, the day she woke inside a white room with not a splash of color inside. There had been tubes connected to her arms; her chest on fire in agony, and a machine not too far away keeping count of her heart rate.

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She had woken up from a coma that she was in for two months from a different car accident that was far worse. She'd only been 6 years old when she was told she lost both her birth parents. That little girl woke up alone in the world and after she recovered from her life saving surgery was shipped off like a package straight to the foster's homes. Neither of her parent's families had wanted to take her in, in those family's eyes Lexa was a sinful child that had been conceived before marriage. Lexa was pulled away from her dark memories when she felt a pair of arms wrap around her, Anya was holding her tightly. Anya didn't need to say anything; she knew what was going on in Lexa's head. Lexa just held her best friend closer allowing silent tears to fall down her cheeks as she pressed her face into Anya's shoulder.

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It took 2 hours for Lexa to drive down to Ton DC, a small town with only 200 people in it. It wasn't like the big city with multiple store chains and huge marking system. There was only one super market that pretty much had everything stocked from clothes, furniture, and groceries. There are other small self-owned businesses, like an arcade, hair/nail salon, a bar/night club, and even ice cream shop themed from the 50's. Honestly the only reason the town was still up and running was because it was right off a busy highway, and the town was like a rest stop.

Lexa didn't like the small town since everyone pretty much knew everybody, there were no secrets here. It's why her and her trio of friends moved further out to be away from here and closer to the big city which was only 40min away from their home. Plus they were out in the middle of the forest area, which Lexa loved hardly any neighbors since houses where a mile apart. One was able to have as much privacy as one could want not like this awful town.

Even when Lexa was driving through town, she could see that was already grabbing their attention some had waved at her and gave her their fake smiles. Lexa and her friends weren't in town often, the only times that they did come down here was to spend the holidays with their families. Lexa had to bite the inside of her cheeks and pretend to be happy to see the people that would wave at her. But Lexa knew well enough that these people got a kick out of how different she and her family were to the others in town. The Woods family had these old traditions that they often stuck to even in modern times, they did things like hunting for their own meats (not Lexa of course), grew their own produce, forged elegant weapons swords or dagger that her mama sold online, and both parents had trained her to defend herself with or without a weapon. To say the least the family she was adopted into was very unique but she had adapted well enough and thankful had Anya with her too. While both Lexa's and Anya's parents did follow some of the old traditions, both of their grandparents were far more serious in sticking to the old times, they didn't even have electricity.

It had been frustrating driving through town and as soon as she would pass them, they took out their phones making calls and sending texts messages to their friends to gossip about who just came into town. God it got under Lexa's skin that she couldn't even drive in peace, she ignored them keeping her focus of having to go see her mama. The only plus side when she was driving through was that she noticed a few new faces that didn't live in town, so that was a welcome change. Plus, it seemed like the town had cleared up a few more land spots maybe more stores were going to open up and this town could expand so this people actually had some excitement.

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Lexa was making her way through the halls of the hospital trying to keep her state of mind at ease. She really hated hospitals, she spent far too much time within their walls and she'd be more the happy never to step into one at all. Just by walking down the halls she felt her skin break out in goose bumps, if one was as sentive to this place as she was, one could feel the chill of death breathing down their necks. Lexa was practically able to feel all the souls that were trapped in these cold walls and hear the sorrows of the families that had mourned for them.

Lexa shook off the feeling digging her nails into her palm distracting herself by looking at the numbers by the doors, searching for the one her mama was in. Some of the nurses that passed by Lexa had seen in high school, most of the girls were not as surprised to have seen her. No doubt they had gotten a message or call for those that had seen her drive into town. A few of them tried to stop her to chat but she only offered a half ass wave before continuing on not wanting to waste her time with them,

"For god sake Indra stay put in bed!" Her papa's bombing voice commanded; Lexa smiled cheekily knowing she was nearing the right room. Her papa sounded so annoyed and it defiantly sounded like he was taking advantage of being able to boss her mama around,

"I am not staying in this damn bed! This place doesn't smell right, hell there is no smell at all. I want to go home!" Her mama fought back,

"Ma'am please stop fussing, you're going to make your injuries worse," now that was a voice Lexa didn't know, Lexa reached the room were all the noise was coming from and peaked inside. Her papa was holding his hands out trying to keep Indra in bed, while some brunette nurse was trying to put her ivy back. Indra was trying to shove both of them away giving each of them a death glare and a mean scowl,

"What's that phrase you're always telling me mama?" Lexa spoke loud making all three people look her way, Lexa leaned against the door frame lifting one hand she tapped at her lips acting like she was trying to remember her mama's constant used lecture. "Stop you're fussing you saved another animal, now I have to save you?" Lexa smirked putting her hands in her back pocket as she stepped into the room. Indra gave her the brightest smile before she turned her head and looked at August, before her papa could flinch away, she whacked his forearm hard enough the sound echoed.

"You told her! I am just fine, you know how she feels about these places," Indra growled at him as the enormous man soothed his reddening arm, he glared back at the small women,

"She needed to know! You're her mama! The our little one deserves to know when things like this happen!" Her papa yelled back, Lexa chuckled seeing them banter back and forth. Even though the two would fuss over small things Lexa learned long ago how much the two of them loved each other. Lexa looked over seeing the brunette was eying her down, she looked like she was mean mugging but Lexa had no idea who she was. Lexa could admit that the women was beautiful with soft peach skin, dark brown hair, and had bright blue eyes but the way the women was studying Lexa as off putting. Lexa fixed her with a glare as she gave a not so friendly smile,

"Mind stepping out?" Lexa said it firmly not really leaving an option to object. The brunette looked like she was going to chew her out but then something buzzed. The nurse pulled out her phone to look at it before she frowned,

"Not at all, please let me know when Mrs. Woods calmed down enough for me give her the medication that she needs," the brunette smiled tightly, as she shoved her phone in her pocket. Lexa only offered a stiff nod thinking that this woman had some pretty pointed teeth for a person. The brunette grabbed her material than headed out of the room shutting the door behind her.

"And you! How dare you not visit us sooner!" Indra pointed an accusing finger at her before Lexa gave her best smile and walked over to her mama. As soon as she was in arms reach her mama yanked her down and held her tightly, "You make me miss you more and more you bad girl," her mama kissed her cheek and leaned her forehead against her own,

"I'm sorry mama, I don't visit that often only because of how far away I am and it's just easier to be out there since its closer to my job," Lexa held her mama back, it really put her emotions at ease to see that Indra was for the most part ok. Lexa looked her over quickly seeing she the broken her ankle, had her head wrapped up, and some minor scrapes and scratches.

"Always nice to have the whole family together," her papa smiled brightly, Lexa pulled back and sat on the edge of the bed to holding on to her mama's hand,

"So, what happened mama? Papa only said you got in minor car accident he didn't give me any details," Lexa added with a fake glare at her papa who raised his hands defensively,

"Hey now, I thought knowing your mama was still alive and breathing was more important news," her papa grunted as he sat back in his chair, she only then took notice of the bags that were forming under his eyes, poor man must be exhausted. Lexa smiled at him to offer some form of comfort before he nodded his thanks as though he understood what was going through her mind. Lexa looked back to her mama who was looking at a little intense, "Mama?"

"Oh right," Indra blinked a few times then squeezed Lexa's hand gently, "Well I was taking one the frontage roads to get home quicker. I was just driving like norm-"

"You mean speeding like normal," her papa interrupted, Indra shot a glare his way. Papa right away scooted his chair back to avoided getting another smack, the spot where she hit him earlier was barely fading,

"Alright I was speeding then out of nowhere two huge dogs were crossing the road and I hit my brakes hard but the roads were slippery from the rain. Next thing I know my truck hits a tree on my side and I blacked out. Next thing I know I wake up here in the hospital, having no clue how I even got here," Indra sighed reaching up to rub at her forehead, Lexa squeezed her hand trying to offer any amount of comfort,

"The dogs were actually wolves, there's been quite a few in the forest these last few years. But they haven't been causing any troubles for the farmers or hikers. Plus, your grandma and grandpa haven't had any issues with them either, even though they live out there in the forest with those huge beasts," her father added, Lexa looked over at him surprised

"But wolves don't wonder near cities, they usually stay far away from any people," Lexa puzzled, she shook her head keeping herself from thinking too much into it. If they weren't causing any problems there was no need to worry, right?

"Yeah usually, but not these ones. There's not many of them maybe like 12? They actually been helping to reduce the over population of the does and bucks. Other whys things been quite and boring minus a few people new people living around here," her papa was always managing to be more of a gossiper then either of her mama or Lexa. It made Lexa chuckle that he loved to hear the last dish as he puts it, the habit had to come from his butcher's shop where so many of the locals came to buy some meats.

"I've noticed some of the new people, like your nurse never seen her around before. She seems really friendly by the way," Lexa joked though her mother lightly smacked her arm giving her a playful glare,

"You be nice now, she's a sweet girl that one. Been here since I was drove into the emergency room. Her names Octavia Reyes, she's a nice girl I was telling her how I had a beautiful single daughter but sadly she was already married," Indra sighed disappointed, Lexa shot her mama a glare her playful smile falling from her face,

"Don't you start with that. I told you, I've dedicated my life to helping animals. I'm not interested in getting married or having kids," Lexa said in a warning tone before her mama could think of lecturing her again,

"You say that now but watch, one day you're going to meet a nice young lady that's going to make you wonder how you ever lived without her," her papa spoke up on behalf of his wife who gave him a high five for a job well done, Lexa huffed at the pair,

"I'll call that nurse back in here, ask her to make you fall asleep you know," Lexa half threatened,

"Good, maybe she can introduce you to some other lesbians to go out with," Indra smirked, Lexa blushed her whole face going red,

"That's it I'm getting her," Lexa hopped off the bed though her mama kept a hold of her hand,

"Don't be a downer, how about you get your mama some cookies from the vending machine? The food here has no flavor it's awful, can't even keep it down," Indra complained giving her daughter the best puppy dog eyes that made Lexa smile. She lifted her mama's hand up to her mouth and kissed her knuckles to show she held no harsh feelings,

"Fine, I can do that. Papa you want anything?" Lexa asked as she headed towards the door, her papa shook his head patting his stomach,

"Na baby forest ranger, just send that nurse back in and get what your mama wants," her papa jumped out of his seat when Indra made a move to swat at him again. Lexa chuckled as left the door half open and headed down the hallway. She pulled out her phone checking to see if she had any messages, she had two from Anya and one from Lincoln.

'Your wolf is a bitch, literally and figuratively. I sat in the dirt for two hours and did exactly what you ask me to do and this is what I got,' a picture was sent threw of Wanheda facing outside laying down on stomach, there were at least two cookies behind the golden wolf and both of the cookies were untouched. Lexa chuckled then moved to the next message, it was another picture of the wolf licking her muzzle from drinking water, under her chin was all wet and she was looking right at the camera her bright blue eyes looked surprised. 'she hasn't growled at me at least but she is defiantly ignoring me. I don't get what I did wrong since I followed your instructions step by step,' Lexa smiled finding the picture adorable she saved the picture and made it her wallpaper. Lexa shot Anya a message first,

'She'll warm up to you eventually. Has she at least eaten her normal food?' Lexa sent the message off and went to Lincoln's message

'Anya just called me from her office phone, she told me to tell you that she really hates Wanheda and that you owe her a new phone?' Lexa looked at the message confused, what the hell happened? She'd have to wait till she got home to hear that story. Lexa turned the corner and knocked right into someone, the person grabbed her arm before Lexa fell backwards,

"Wow there, pay attention much?" Lexa was glancing at the hand on her forearm, noticing a golden band on the women's ring finger before she looked up to see another brunette, though this one had dark brown eyes. She was dressed down in some workout clothes, wearing a small pair of work out shorts and a loose muscle shirt. This woman was really into her fitness and it showed, her arms and legs well defined with muscles and far more muscular then Lexa was. Though she had a very large bite scar on the curve of her neck to her shoulder blade it looked like it reached all the way to the back of her shoulder. Lexa stepped back yanking her arm out of the stranger's hand feeling her cheeks redden as she actually caught herself looking over the woman.

"Sorry I was distracted, stupidly was on my phone," Lexa moved around the brunette but she didn't get far as the woman stepped in front of her.

"Do I know you from somewhere? You s-look familiar," the women pondered looking, Lexa over shamelessly as Lexa had been looking at her. Lexa shook her head holding her head high so as not to feel embarrassed when she heard the woman scuff in some form of disappointment,

"No, we never met before. I need to go my mom wants something from the vending machine," Lexa moved around her and this time she didn't get in the way again,

"You could at least give me your name you know?" the woman called after her, Lexa looked over her shoulder eyeing the woman down. The woman was at least smiling as she placed a hand at her hip, she oddly had her mouth open in weird smile while her chest expanded and dipped almost like she was having a hard time breathing,

"Why? I don't know you nor do I want to," Lexa ended the conversation with that before moving along to get what her mama wanted from her in the first place.

"In peace, may you leave this shore. In love, may you find the next," the brunette suddenly spoke up again making Lexa turn around and look at the woman completely thrown off by the sudden comment. The brunette looked so sincere even hopeful, as she stared at Lexa her poster tense while the woman held her breath, the woman was waiting for some kind of answer, as she bit her bottom lip. Yet Lexa wasn't sure what to answer with,

"Umm thanks?" That was all Lexa could think of and it didn't seem to be the answer she was looking for because the woman's eyes flashed with pain and her shoulders dropped disappointed evident. The brunette cracked a smile though before she nodded, her eyes glossed over as she turned away sharply and offered a half wave.

"Hope you have a good day stranger," the brunette called out as she quickly rounded the corner and Lexa was left alone feeling utterly lost by the sudden odd encounter. This was why Lexa preferred animals; one can know what an animal feeling if you know what to look for. Lexa looked back at her phone and shot Lincoln a quick 'ok?' just so he knew she got his message. Then set to work with finding a vending machine and wondered how she'd sneak them by the nurse so her mama could actually enjoy eating something edible.

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It had been nice to spend time with her parents because she really did miss them but being in that small town drove her nuts. She stayed one more day with them before heading back home after her mama was discharged from the hospital. Anya was waiting for her to get back home ready to complain about Wanheda. Anya came up with the wild idea that Wanheda had faked wanting to be pet and when she had leaned down to touch her snout, the wolf had snatched away her phone and took off outside with it. Obviously, Anya was not going to risk her life in trying to get the phone back and just gave up and settled for having Lexa make up for the mess.

Lexa had tried not to laugh but the idea of a wolf taking a phone was ridiculous, why would it need a phone? Though Lexa had promised to buy her a new phone sooner rather than later. But thankfully Lincoln had one his old phones that was still active and Anya was able to use it as temporarily tell Lexa replaced her phone. Lexa was looking forward to seeing Wanheda tomorrow since it been two days now since she's seen the beautiful wolf. Lexa had made sure to make another batch of cookies for her favorite wolf even adding extra peanut butter to the treat to make up for being gone for longer then she said. Lexa had laughed at the idea that Wanheda would be able to tell how long it has been, dogs didn't have a concept of time so for the wolf it would be like Lexa had just been there yesterday.

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Clarke POV

"Wanheda, oh come on pretty baby won't at least look at me?" Lexa was pleading with Clarke as she was facing outside ignoring Lexa.

"I'll be back tomorrow, she says, be a good girl she says," Clarke growled, though she was rather happy to see Lexa but she was mad at her too. For two days she didn't get to see Lexa and had to deal with Anya instead. Anya didn't like her and she didn't like her, she was too bossy and rude to Clarke the other day. Telling Clarke to come here like she was some obedient dog then tossing treat to her when she wasn't even doing what Anya asked for. Then Anya had the nerve to try to take pictures of her when she went to drink water.

Clarke couldn't have that, she wouldn't allow any chances of Anya sending those pictures to someone who shouldn't have them. So, she tricked the foolish girl to come close to bars and yanked away her phone, she buried it outside and pushed a rock on top of it to mark where it was. Then the following day no one came to see her besides Luna who just filed her metal bowls with fresh meat and water, Clarke made sure to stay away that time so she wouldn't get splashed.

"Beautiful baby, if I told you why I wasn't here for two days will you come over to me?" Lexa sweetened her voice it made Clarke's tail curl with excitement. Clarke did want to know why she was gone for those days so with huff she turned around and walked only half way towards her. Clarke couldn't stop her tail from wagging from the bright smile that broke out on Lexa's face. "That's a good girl, here baby," Lexa tossed the cookie towards Clarke and out of habit she caught it,

"Stupid tasty cookie," Clarke muttered as she ate the treat, Lexa had the same type of music playing again with her notebook on her lap. Clarke sat down waiting to hear Lexa excuse for lying to her, but then her smile turned sad and it pained Clarke's heart. "Are you ok?" Clarke moved closer till she was right at the bars thinking maybe she made Lexa sad for not coming over to her right away but Lexa barely noticed how she sat in front of her. The human's eyes looked distant and pained,

"My mama got into a car accident, she's ok just some minor injuries like a broken ankle and a hit to the head. She was better yesterday morning even got to go home," Lexa paused, her eyes looked more distant, she had her hands balled up in front of her legs Clarke could see her nails digging into her skin. Clarke whined laying down she stuck her muzzle through the bars and licked her hands.

"Don't do that, you'll hurt yourself," Clarke kissed her hands again until Lexa unbaled her fists and instead stroked Clarke's muzzle,

"I think what hit me worst was that she had to go to a hospital and for me a hospitals is the most depressing place to ever be in," Lexa continued stroking Clarke's muzzle, her hand moving up and down the bridge of her nose as Lexa continued to talk freely, "just that fucking word puts me on edge. When I was really young, I was in a car accident too but that one was much worse," Lexa's nails scratched the side of Clarke's nose, but she made no protest letting Lexa say what she wanted to,

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"I don't remember the accident itself; I just know what happened from these reports on the accident. It said that some truck that was on the opposite side of the road lost control of their vehicle and it crashed in to the car that me and my family were in. The truck ended up shoving the car we were in over a bridge and the impact killed my birth parents right away. Because I was smaller the impact didn't kill me, but I did end up in the hospital needing lifesaving surgery. But what gets to me most was waking up in a hospital and being told that I lost my mom and dad it was horrible. I remember what they looked like but I don't remember them personally, don't know what they liked to do on a day off or what foods they liked, just what they looked like…" Lexa whispered her voice was horse, Clarke could hear her sniffling as she was holding back her tears. Clarke whined gentle trying to help, she kissed Lexa's fingers it was only comfort she could give being limited with the cage in her way.

Clarke knew that pain, that feeling like someone was jabbing your heart with their claws and kicking your stomach like you were a toy. Those nights when it was still fresh and she wake up momentarily forgetting where she was thinking her mom and dad where only out hunting only to be crushed down again when she remembered where she was. How she spent week after week crying and howling that she wakes up from the nightmare that she was living in and hoping with all her heart that her parents were on their way to save her. Clarke lost both her parents just like Lexa but unlike her she remembered her mom and dad. Clarke knew how much they loved her, how they would play with her, how they taught her how to be a proud wolf, and regretfully she remembered how they died. She also remembered how her mom and dad told her to stay away from humans that they were evil. For the most part they were right, but not about the one in front of her. No Lexa was a sweet person a very kind human who hasn't hurt her once.

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"Oh god, I'm sorry Wanheda," Lexa pulled her hands back whipping at her eyes, "you didn't need to feel all that negative emotion that was selfish of me," Lexa laughed but it wasn't light and filled with joy it was bitter and hard. Clarke sat up then sticking her muzzle through the bars, she pawed at the ground trying to convey for Lexa to come closer. "What is it girl?" Lexa got to her knees and leaned into the bars, once Lexa was close enough Clarke kissed her cheek, then pressed her nose against her forehead,

"I know your pain very well...you know, you keep making this harder and harder for me to not tell you what I can do. I don't want to overwhelm you right now, once you feel better, I'll show you a little bit of the real me," Clarke nuzzled her, Lexa chuckled she reached through the bars and scratched under Clarke's muzzle making her purr gentle for the female,

"You're such a unique wolf, is it weird to think I still feel like you can understand me?" Lexa whispered, Lexa sat back the smile wasn't happy, not yet at least. An idea struck Clarke, she wagged her tail freely not feeling ashamed, she was sure this would really make Lexa smile.

Clarke looked to the music box it wasn't the song she learned to dance to but she had a feeling maybe Lexa would like the dancing it always made Nia smile; even when she was in a bad mood. Maybe it would make Lexa's sadness go away. Clarke moved back tell was in the middle of the cage, Lexa looked at her curiously,

"What you doing pretty girl?" Lexa titled her head, "come here Wanheda," she beckoned for Clarke to move forward. Clarke shook her head, instead she looked to the music box not even noticing she had made a mistake. Clarke waited for the next song to start, she was to focused on the song to notice Lexa was gawking at her.

The song began, Clarke did the first dance she could remember and for once it wasn't so bad. As long as she kept Nia out of her mind, she knew Lexa wouldn't hurt her if she messed up. Clarke hopped back and forth on her front and back paws three times before turning in a circle twice then hopped again. Clarke could feel Lexa watching her, though she couldn't look at her or she would mess up. The music was kind of slow but it seemed to still work, Clarke held up her nose to the ceiling as she crossed her paws walking forward slowly. She then spun around twice one way then the other way, then stood up on her back paws and turned in a circle. Clarke landed on all fours paws again then hopped back and forth again then spun three times. She stopped abruptly with as much grace as she could muster, she pushed her front paws forward put her head to the side in a bow holding her tail high with a slight curve on the tip of her tail.

Clarke was breathing a little hard as she stood back up, panting heavily. Lexa was staring at her completely shocked, "well at least she not sad anymore," Clarke's breathing slowed down, she walked to over to her water bowl taking some much need gulps. Lexa still wasn't reacting, Clarke huffed she sat back and smacked her water bowl hard making some splash on Lexa.

"Holy shit, I've never seen anything like that. That was...my God what the hell did that owner of yours had to do for you to do all that?" Lexa looked over at Clarke, Clarke sighed moving back to the bars she tossed herself on the ground, that wasn't the reaction that she had been hoping for. Most humans would applaud her and call her those stupid degrading pet names and praising,

"You don't want to know," Clarke sighed, looking over to Lexa her paws felt kind of soar she hadn't done a trick like that in a while. Lexa was looking at her oddly like she was calculating something, "what? Why are you looking at me like that?" Clarke yawned, she felt Lexa's hand on her front paw she rubbed at the pad of her paw, "ooh that feels nice," Clarke stretched out enjoying as Lexa massaged her paw, she was feeling a little sleepy thinking it be nice to take a nap about now,

"Did your old owner hurt you to make you do those tricks?"

"Yes"

"Where they male or female?"

"I had both actually, the female was worst," Clarke closed her eyes as Lexa moved to her other paw and massaged it as well,

"Is that awful person still around?"

"Yes, unfortunately,"

"Do you like the cookies I make you?"

"Yes, never had anything like them," Clarke wagged her tail licking her teeth remembering the taste,

"Do you hate me?"

"What? No not at all," Clarke purred for her as Lexa reached over scratching behind her ear. Clarke leaned into her touch loving this new feeling, she opened her eyes peaking at the human. Lexa had a real smile on her face this time even a spark in her eyes, Clarke wagged her tail excitedly. She closed her eyes thinking she'd be able to take a nice nap now,

"Did you know you been answering me by nodding and shaking your head for each of my questions?" Lexa's voice teased, Clarke snapped open both of her eyes as she looked up at a smug smiling Lexa, "I knew I didn't imagine that day you nodded, I just knew you had to be special,"

"Shit,"

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That's all for now my pups! As you know come back in two weeks maybe a little longer only because I'm at the end of my school time and finals are my first priority! I hope you well all understand and can be patient for me! :D

Love ya lots and pretty please won't you be sweet enough to leave me a treat?

-YuriWolf