Edwards pov

I didn't want to be a creature, a monster doomed forever to walk amongst the living, alone.
For a second I thought I was.

Until I met Bella she was my singer

The beast within me wanted her blood

Yet she tamed me, she healed me.

but still looking into the eyes of these almond shaped brown pupils I couldn't help but feel the stir,

the stir of the beast within , only this stir was dangerous in a way you wouldn't think.

This dimpled grinned girl with tamed thick kinky hair seemed to make the soul I never had before purr.

and that broke me.

how could the presence of this innocent creature stir something as exquisite as harmony inside me when the girl who spent months repairing my being was standing right next to me .

My Bella

Yet I couldn't help but watch was meek and docile. an introvert with extrovert tendencies.

it seemed my presence although did the opposite for her.

she instantly seemed fearful of my presence."run" her brain shouted towards her frozen feet.

I wanted to scream at her that I was no monster that I could be good.

but that would risk more fear.

so I stood nonchalantly towards the girl who heart was rapidly beating and gave her a greeting.

one she hesitated to give back.

it wasn't till the presence of Charlie that Safiyah seemed to break from her trance.

It was the first time I'd ever been envious of Charlie.

she smiled gratefully at Charlie before dismissing her brain as being a space cadet.

she was no space cadet, her brain was more intelligent then she let out.

Driving to school I couldn't help but slightly grip the steering wheel.

Safiyahs scent mixed with Bellas gave me a lethargic feeling of jubilation. I will forever be ashamed of getting off to the smell of them.

Just don't breath I told myself

but how could I listen when sin was calling my name.

getting to school I watched as the boy Eric, a known player in forks gave Safiyah a smile.

no not any smile a flirting smile to which she giggled off. "should she be talking to him" I whispered to Bella just needing this boy and his vile thoughts to leave.

Bella instantly nodded worry in her eyes as she took Safiyah from a situation I don't think she really needed saving from.

Walking the girls to their first class I left to the bathroom.

sitting in a stall I scolded myself as I gripped at my hair.

I was an idiot.

calming down I looked into the mirror at my black eyed features.

I was a monster.

and I needed to hunt.

getting back to school I quickly walked to Bellas class walking them both to second period.

I smiled as I watched Safiyah smile at a joke she thought in her head. it was something her grandmother use to say.

I was confused at this, why had she left them if she was so happy.

I wanted to push in her brain more but I knew I shouldn't and for once I listened to myself.

if she wanted to tell me she would.

nothing in her was bad or remotely disdainful.

and I realized this when I found this beautiful brunette wrapped around my waist, consoling me.

In her head Bella was the fool I was her damsel she needed to save With a hug something so small yet horrendously helpful.

I wanted to wrap my arms around her small shoulder and never let go .

her smell had my knees shaking with submission she was a dangerous human, and she didn't even know it.

"Sorry"

"Bella should be sorry" her brain and mouth shouted in sync a slight frown settling on her plump heart shaped lips.

My eye widened at the blunt phrase that passed her mouth.

I inwardly chuckled when her eyes widened shutting her lips quickly she opens her mouth once again spewing words over words that all just sort of mashed into each-other.

"It's okay" I voiced to her listening contently as her human Heart start to slowly beat regularly.

She gives me a hesitant shy smile when I tell her that she could shadow me the rest of the day.

She didn't know that being in her presence calmed me she did her smile would be filled with confidence.

Wouldn't it?

Getting to class Alice in Safiyah had an instant connection like always she wanted to monopolize the time of someone I had any type of curiosity about.

Safiyah laughed when I said a condescending comment about Alice torturing her friends thinking it was sibling fun.

In reality it was rivalry.

After school I watched as Safiyah bounced while she walked in the middle of us.

Her day was good and she blamed that on me... and Alice.

"You guys eyes are so weird " she stared smiling at us. Alice and I both gave a look towards one another .

Yet I grinned at her comfortability.

"But you guys eyes aren't the weirdest" quickly she ran in front of us and abruptly stopped turning on her heels she looked at us .

"I saw a guy with red eyes" she put her hands up as if to say boo.

Anger was laced in my being. A vampire had contact with Safiyah

No

a vampire with thirst for human blood.

I was so in trance with anger I hadn't realized the turmoil Safiyah was going through as she watched alice stiffened as her knees buckled slightly. my anger was evident as Alice's vision appeared in my head.

Safiyah in the woods surrounded smothered in blood alone.

why was she alone?

i was so angry i felt like i was on auto pilot as i ushered safiyah to my car trying to get her home.

was home even safe now.

had i brought her into a fight she had no part of.