We're back today in the life of Vonya! I wonder what's gonna happen... like always I don't own nothin or nobody
Vonya woke up to the sound of birds chirping. The sun lazily shines into her eyes. One word still rang through her head worthless. Vonya felt, well alone. She couldn't go back, not when those girls we're there. Maybe they were right... I'm just DEMA scum. Vonya shook her head to clear the horrid thoughts away. She knew one thing; she couldn't stay here. Vonya got up and sighed sadly. Josh doesn't want you here either. The voice said again.
"Fine. You win. I'm going." Vonya said into the wooded area.
After three or four hours (she lost count) Vonya felt utterly exhausted. Just a small break. Vonya sat down on the ground and leaned back on a tree. After sitting there for a few minutes there was rusting. Vonya didn't have enough energy to run or hide. Thinking it was the end Vonya closed her eyes.
"V!" Vonya opened her eyes to see Josh. He looked concerned and worried and like he was about to cry.
"I've been looking everywhere for you! I was so worried!"
"Yeah, well here I am!" Vonya said sarcastically.
Josh turned his head to the side slightly. "Yeah... Are you okay?"
"I'm fine!" Vonya snapped back quickly.
Josh took a step back and frowned deeply. "V?"
Vonya shook her head. She was just done. She thought she was safe from hatred; from being different. The voice in her head would win, her anxiety would win, everything would win but her. She always lost.
Josh sighed and sat down next to her. Vonya didn't have the energy to scoot away. Their shoulder brushed lightly. "What did I do?" Josh barely whispered. Vonya looked at Josh shocked.
"What did you do?" She asked again.
"Yes. What did I do? What did I do wrong."
Vonya looked down sadly, trying to mask her sadness. "You didn't do anything..." Vonya finally whispered back.
Josh sighed again and shook his head. "Yes I did. Otherwise you wouldn't have ran away and don't tell me your just going for a jog."
Vonya sighed and finally let her mask slowly crack. A stray tear slid down her cheek. "I always lose."
Josh turned his head to look at Vonya. "You..? What?" He asked with a genuine confused face. Vonya looked up at him finally and stared him straight in the eye.
"I said; I always lose."
Josh nodded slowly. "What are you losing?"
Vonya laughed dryly, without a trace of humor. "My will to live."
Josh finally let tears fall from his eyes. "How can I make you stop losing?" He finally asked after drying his tears.
"You can't. It's my fault. I'm worthless. Just... so worthless, I can't even-"
"No! You're not worthless at all V!" Josh interrupted.
"Just stop! I know I am! And stop calling me that! I'm not 'V'!"
Josh looked at Vonya. "Who are you then?"
Vonya looked down; anxiousness stirred in her stomach. Before she could back down Vonya quickly relied. "My names Vonya. I worry and regret everything and I'm not brave or strong. I'm not a Bandito and will never be."
Josh smiled genuinely. "All Banditos have fears and insecurities. That's what makes us who we are."
Vonya finally let her mask break. Completely. She broke into tears and cried on Josh. Sobbing and telling the truth; for once and Josh listened intently. Especially when she talked about what the girls told her. After Vonya finally quieted up, Josh spoke with certainty.
"You'll never be worthless Vonya. And your 100% not scum. You don't belong in DEMA and never will. Don't worry, you'll remember and I'll help you. Everything will be okay." Vonya sniffed and look up at Josh.
"I don't know if I can go back." Josh took Vonya's hands and clasped them.
"Please, let me try and change your mind..." Josh pouted.
"...Okay Josh. I trust you." Vonya finally let sleep overtake her and fell limp into Josh's arms. Josh smiled and scooped Vonya up, making his way back to camp while Vonya slept.
"Vonya! No!"
Vonya lost herself. Every single memory now had Blurryfaces that she'd never remember. Everything was becoming a blur. Her will to live became weaker and weaker. What was the point?
Nico entered her room.
"Have a good day today Vonya?" He asked sarcastically. Vonya still answered anyway.
"Yes." Vonya said without feeling; all words she said now had no feeling. She was just a shell. A body with no soul to guide her.
And she was doomed in this hell forever.
"Vonya! No!"
"Vonya?" A voice whispered. Vonya cracked her eye open to see Josh holding two bowls of soup. He smiled brightly and sat down in a chair next to the bed.
"I thought you'd want something to eat." He said shyly. Boy a smiled; a genuine smile.
"Smells good." She croaked. Vonya didn't remember Josh carrying her or how sore he was after. He never complained anyway about the trip. Vonya had been sleeping for at least a day. Josh thought it was time to wake her.
"Yeah. Probably tastes better." Josh laughed.
Vonya took the bowl and blew on it. "How long have I been out?"
"About a day.."
Vonyas eyes grew wide. "A day!"
Josh laughed. "Yes. A day."
"Oh my. I'm sorry! Where have you been sleeping?" Vonya asked concerned. Josh smiled again and drank his soup.
"It doesn't matter."
Vonya glared at Josh. "It most certainly does matter." Josh sighed and set the empty bowl down.
"Listen Vonya. About what happened. I meant every word I said to you. You can't leave m... us yet. We want you around!" Josh pouted. Vonya looked down, cheeks red.
"I don't matter that much." She muttered. Josh gasped dramatically.
"Of course you do! And I'll convince you otherwise!"
"What about the other banditos? They need you..."
"I have Tyler handling my duties today. Said I needed personal time." Vonya laughed.
"Personal time?" Josh nodded sincerely.
"By the end of today all your fears will be quenched. I promise." Josh put his right hand over his heart. Vonya laughed, Josh joined in too. Maybe it will be a good day today. Doubt it. Vonya's smile faltered and she looked down. Josh saw it but didn't say a thing.
"Just a little farther, I promise."
"You said that five minutes ago."
Josh laughed and tugged Vonya again. Vonya almost tripped a couple of times but stayed upright. She was blind folded and held onto Josh's hand tightly.
After a couple more steps they stopped abuptly. Vonya's spine tingled when Josh whispered in her ear.
"We're here." Josh slowly untied the blindfold and let it drop. Vonya gasped at the sight she saw before her.
And that's it! Sorry about the cliffhanger; don't hate me! Please review and send any comments! It always helps! I'll be back next weekend to post more chapters for my stories. Have a good day and stay alive!