I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one
I failed her. She is in the hospital because of me. She's not the first though.
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am
After everyone that I failed to save, I tried even harder. When I was Peter Parker, I faked everything. I kept up the mask of the happy go lucky kid that everyone sees me as. I don't know if I can do it anymore.
I can do it
I can do it
I can do it
I have to keep going. New York needs me, I can't give up.
But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in
My heart
You build me up and then I fall
Apart
'couse I'm only human
I have failed so many times, but I can't fail anymore. I'm going to get hurt, but I can't give up. I have to keep going. But I am human, I realize that I can't save everyone, but it doesn't hurt any less when I can't save someone.
I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything
I feel like I already hold the weight of the world, but everyone needs me to hold this weight. I have to be anyone for everyone else. Spiderman for the people in my city, the happy Peter Parker for my family and friends.
I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it
I will get through all of this because I have no other choice.
But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in
My heart
You build me up and then I fall
Apart
'cause I'm only human
Everyone expects me to be perfect. None of the other Avengers have anxiety or fears. I can't show fear to them, or they will think I'm just a child who shouldn't be here.
I'm only human
I'm only human
Just a little human
I am human, but I also have spider DNA. I have to be invincible; nothing can get to me.
I can take so much
'til I've had enough
'couse I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'cause I'm only human
I have broken down so many times, but I only let it out when I'm alone. If anyone saw me like that, then I would have let them down. I am strong, but at a certain point I am going to shatter, not like the broken glass from a phone, but a shattered mirror.
I didn't realize that I was crying or that I wasn't alone anymore, until I felt several pairs of arms wrap around me. I knew who they were, but I couldn't find myself to care right now. I let myself break down with this song. I kept sputtering about how I failed, and how I shouldn't have anxiety. I kept saying how I should always be the happy person everyone sees me as, even when I was anything but.
"Peter, we all have anxiety. It does not make you any less of a superhero, trust us. I'm sorry that I didn't notice that you were feeling like this. I hope you know you can come to any of us. I also hope you know that it is okay to no be okay sometimes. With everything you have been through and dealt with, you shouldn't have to be happy all the time." Tony admits.
AN: I'm so sorry that this took so long. This also isn't my best writing. I wrote this in creative writing, not for an assignment, but an idea popped in my head. ~Ariel