(A/N): hello good day. i have a new update. yes i still live! though i had a baby three months ago. and my one year old is a hassel i finally have a new chapter in. for those of you in question with what is going on i wpuld like to explain first off (SPOILER) one: Elsa is under a spell, and two: i have no beta. enjoy.

The red head fell hard to the ground all the air in his lungs harshly ripping away from him. He loudly gasped for air, his eyes bloodshot. And yet still this man, whom had no reason to hurt him hovered over him.

Jet Ryhus held his sword over his head his eyes crazy. He was thirsty for his blood. "You will never be king!"

Those last words he spoke fell hard into the barely recovering prince.

Suddenly though, everything went white, and Hans felt cold.

Elsa quickly pressed her hand against her chest, her hands were shaking. And she couldn't help but bring back bad memories.

This time it was her though who rescued the one she loved. It felt silly now, so much time she'd adviced Anna against "love at first sight;" she suddenly felt ridiculous, she'd just saved this man's life, a man she didn't know. No she did what any human would in this type of situation right?.

With a hard thump against the nearest tree fell her convicted guard, and he laid there limp.

Quickly she ran to him.

Her expression was full of worry, who was this man who made her so valiant? Who made her feel different? Who made her want to give herself to him? Her head began screaming against her better judgement. She couldn't and shouldn't be foolish, she was a queen, not a princess, she knew better than to want and love. Politics were first for her, since the day she entered the world her destiny to serve and love only her country; to do what was best for her country, was appointed to her head, the crown. No, not love. Yet here she was now, wanting, desiring a man... A man she had just met.

Her dress glided in the air as soon as she got to him. A soft smile reached her lips when she saw the redness in his cheeks from the cold she'd summoned. He was such a beautiful man. A strong jaw, a handsome nose, long thin gracious lips... But it worried her, his face was so familiar.

She shook her head visibly, and furrowed her brows. What was going on with her?

"Are you alright?" She held at his cheek, his skin was soft and inviting. So warm to the touch. Elsa felt butterflies in her stomach.

Suddenly the scent of wild berries became pleasant to her senses. "Who are you?" She asked the unconscious man, obviously not expecting a reply.

He opened his eyes slightly, and immediately closed them again.

"Please don't be him."

Without warning a band of hoolagins appeared from beyond the bushes, a pack of dogs with them all.

"It's the queen!"

"Stop!"

They all bowed down to her showing the utmost respect for her. They ALL knew better than to try anything funny against the powerful woman.

Frederick suddenly showed up too. His head with a purpling bump.

"I'm sorry for all these tragedies my Queen," he pulled out his sword and pointed towards the sailor men. "I swear on my life I had not planned any of this!"

Elsa couldn't help but nod, she knew he was telling the truth.

"You, sailor men!" One at a time they looked up towards Fred the guard. "Return to the docks! There's nothing to see here!"

Slowly but surely all the men retreated with their beasts in tow. They knew better than to mess with the leader of the guards, and disrespect their queen.

Fred ran to his superior and helped her stand. He could see the worry in her face.

"Help him! He needs medical attention!"

Fred nodded and quickly tended to his queens requests.

Once in the castle, she held at Fred and warned him against saying a word about the incident of the man.

She trusted Fred fully to take him to where his home was. With James.

Mathew had been called in he had identified him, he was Berry Van Buren.

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"ELSA!" Her very loud sister exclaimed as she quickly ran to her. "What in the world happened!? First I go on hearing you went on a date, now everyone's saying you almost got killed by Jet Ryhus!?"

Elsa shook her head, trying to calm her redheaded sister, "Anna, please calm down. I'll explain everything."

She quickly followed her story, leaving out the part about Berry Van Buren. The very man Mathew had spoken to her about, a few days back.

"He tried to murder you with that wine!?" Elsa couldn't exactly pinpoint what Ryhus had actually tried against, or why he acted so aggressive, she was very much not poisoned, she was still there breathing, and felt more than ever alive. She couldn't really accuse him of anything, if but anything, he had acted as any other guard would against a stranger, protect her.

He was not held prisoner for "trying to poison her" he was held prisoner for attacking his superior Frederick.

"Anna, I've honestly had a long day, can we leave this for tomorrow? Please?" She looked at her sister who was suddenly pouting.

"But you... You always want to talk to me."

Elsa held at her sisters hands. "And it's not that, I do want to talk to you. Just not in this precise moment. I have some things I really need to do now. I'm very sorry Anna."

She patted her palm against Anna's and quietly walked away from her.

Anna slouched, but when she turned around she found Gordon and Guinevere. "M'lady, sorry to pester you. But have you been thinking on producing our heir?"

Gordon nodded his head as Guinevere stated. "Queen Elsa has ripened in the throne, and shows no symptoms of even letting someone court her."

"Look at my son, everything he did and she still refused him." Gordon shook his head and sighed deeply. Even though he wanted his son to suffer no prosecution, he knew his actions would have eventually landed him where he was. "We are only seeing what's best for the kingdom princess Anna. And you know no kingdom is secured without an heir."

Anna furrowed her eyebrows, this was the second time they'd come to her. "I think we should talk to Elsa about-"

Guinevere fanned herself, "oh we've tried talking to her. Nothing that we say to her will change her mind. You're the only hope for Arendelles future. Please act soon."

Gordon nodded, "remember it's a reassurance to the kingdom's future."

"Now please, if you excuse us m'lady, we have an important discussion with the ambassador of Corona."

Gordon nodded, "seeing as the Queen has much more important duties than to discuss trading matters with our partners."

Anna's heart suddenly sunk, this wasn't like Elsa.

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Heidi smiled softly towards Hans as his eyes were glued to her. "Does it hurt?"

"Slightly."

She chuckled, "you know, father nearly had a heart attack when he saw the state you were in."

Upon hearing this Hans throat went hard.

"I'll let father know you're awake. He wanted to see you. "

As soon as she told him, James burst through the door, nearly breaking off the hinges of the door.

"Ye are a crazy one!" He rushed over to the recovering man, and without thought wrapped his arms around the boy his eyes sparkling with tears. "I thought you had been killed when the queens guards brought you home!"

Heidi leaned on the door a soft smile on her face. Berry was everything her father wanted in a son. Suddenly her heart clenched, her feelings for Amos were so strong; and it killed her to know that this man in her life would bring her father's happiness. She tightened her grip on her wrist and nodded to herself. She was not going to Corona.

James smiled genuinely, "Heidi! The Queen! She wanted to know as soon as he woke! Let her know. Tell her men! Go on girl!"

The black haired girl smiled and nodded, turning quickly and rushing to inform her royal Highness' gaurds.

"So lad, ye ever sown?"

Hans lifted his brow, and shook his head.

"Raining season is here, and we need to get a moving on them vegetables!"

"Soon as ye feeling better we'll get to sowin! Ye up fer it?"

Hans chuckled and nodded.

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A month passed and Hans had never in his life felt so awful, not even when he had worked in the stables.

The humidity of the land was unbearable, he felt like his lungs were wrapped in his ribcage, as if the sun was heating them. It felt worse than a sauna.

He guided the ox around and around with James walking behind with a slow but steady pace. Throwing the seeds and covering them with his foot with dirt. He was whistling, enjoying every bit of the season.

Hans felt like dragging his tongue, he needed water, and his body was covered in sweat.

Suddenly a loud rumbling shook the earth. They turned back and they could see the approaching clouds, so thick and grey. Thunder rumbled once again, letting them know of the coming rain.

"It'll be another hour!" James booked a laughter when he saw the red heads face of worry. "We can finish this furrow!"

Hans nodded and continued with the big beast.

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"You're Highness!" The lady of the house bowed to her queen with great respect. "What brings this pleasure?"

Elsa had her brows knitted in worry, and her lower lip stuck in between her teeth.

"Is... Berry Van Buren here?" She had fought to stay away. She knew this attraction of hers was not sane. It was not normal. But in the end she was brought to him. With the simple consequence of seeing him. She needed to see him.

"Berry, my husband's helper?"

"Yes." Her teeth gritted.

"I will take you to him."

Suddenly a voice broke out. She bowed herself in respect and admiration, and smiled sweetly. "Follow me my Queen."

"Excuse me."

The lady nodded and moved aside letting the queen waltz perfectly through the corridors of her house.

After a few minutes of silence Heidi opened the doors to the stables. "Do you know how to ride m'lady?"

The queen nodded, walking in silence. Worry in the pit of her stomach.

She strode the horse and so did the girl. Quietly they began their way.

"These are such fértil lands, aren't they?"

Heidi smiled softly, "yes they are, they're all of my father's hard work. This is his humble works."

"Berry Van Buren. What can you tell me about this man?"

Heidi eyed the queen without moving her head, "is there an interest you happen to have with him my Queen? If I may intrude I mean."

Elsa sighed, there was anxiety written all over her face. "I don't know."

Suddenly a loud rumbling shook the ground. The rain was near.

"We're almost there m'lady."

Elsa almost chuckled. The rain didn't bother her, in reality she could control nature's miracle. And that simple thought sometimes scared her.

They went on for a few more minutes until they finally reached the two men.

There afar her blue eyes settled on the man who made her feel anxious everyday. The man she would think about tirelessly day and night. There he was, soaking with sweat, red from his face, and looking tired. Something that no king had ever done. Not one had ever worked the lands like a commoner.

She shook her thoughts away. She was here to know of him. Who was he? Where had he come from? What had he done to keep her up during the nights? Why she felt this terrible need for him? Was he Hans?

"FATHER!" Heidi waved her hands jumping off from the horse and running out towards the big man.

Elsa caught her breath when the girl jumped on her father bringing the big man to the ground. She felt a pang of jealousy when the two simply laughed it off as if what she'd just done was not disrespectful, to the eyes of the council.

Another tumble of thunder rolled threatening with loud rage.

She saw when she told them of her presence and she also saw when Berry turned to see her.

Elsa's heart skipped a beat.

He held his eyes on her, his brows knitted together. He was not angry, he was not happy, he was thankful. But he didn't want to see her.

She knew, and he knew she knew he was a royal, but he wanted nothing to do with his past anymore. And sadly the queen belonged there.

The past was in the past.

"Berry, she's here to see you."

"Me?"

Heidi nodded, her long hair suddenly stuck in her red lipstick, the wind was picking up.

"Let's pay honors to the queen."

He nodded and walked behind the two, his heart pacing so fast he thought everyone could hear it.

"Your highness!" James bowed before her.

Hans following the bigger man's bow.

She inclined her head and smiled.

"I hear ye want to speak to my lad here."

"It's true."

James smiled kindly and nodded "excuse us then my Queen."

He held at his daughters shoulders and walked with her towards the horses. Leaving behind the two royals.

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"Father, I felt Berry very tense, what could be the matter with him?"

"The boy is just as shocked as I was to see her royal highness in our lands." He smiled, "he's never seen her in person ye know, all of this is new to him."

"Father, do you see him as a son?"

"He is my son." He pulled off from the horse in the stables and unmounted the chair, walking inside his home.

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Hans kept his eyes towards the ground, and his eyebrows knitted together. He was not ashamed of himself, he had done what he needed to do. He saved her from that cursed creature, and destiny put him there to rid of every trace of his past.

"I'm not ashamed queen Elsa."

"Prince Hans..." She gasped. Suddenly she felt angry. Angry at herself that she had fallen for him, so hard it hurt.

The clouds rumbled loudly, this time shaking the earth wildly.

The wind picked up and drizzles of water sprinkled on the two.

She slowly got off from the horse, and walked up towards him. Her palm was about to collide with his cheek, but he held at her wrist. She didn't know why, but she felt he had offended her.

"After everything I did for you! For this kingdom, for your people!?"

His face was red with rage.

"You tried to kill me! You left my sister for dead!" Now she was screaming.

"I only did what I thought was right! I couldn't help your sister, I never loved her! You! I asked you to stop the winter, you said you couldn't!"

"You should condemn your own people! They came to the conclusion of your death I was only their puppet! I only did what I was told to do! What everyone wanted for me to do!"

"Now leave me alone! I've done my time! I want nothing of the past, nothing with you!" He let her wrist go roughly.

She whimpered.

"You're in my past, and I'm done with that. Go back to your castle Queen, and leave me alone." He began his way towards the horses, ready to leave.

Elsa's eyes were stinging. She didn't know why, but she wanted to hold him, kiss him, sweep all those negative feeling towards her away.

"Don't you see I can't?"

This stopped him dead in his tracks. The air was suddenly still and everything was cold.

He turned around, his green eyes on her. There was tears falling from her eyes, and her lips were trembling,

"What?"

Elsa looked to the ground, feelings of shame, guilt, rage, weakness.

His eyes hardened.

"Those letters... I read them all."

"Those weren't intended for you..."

"You wrote my name... On all of them..."

"It was a moment of weakness in my life!" His throat began to hurt.

"I cried when I saw you. I knew it was you!"

"Then why look for me!? Why didn't you just condemn me!? Why did you bring me to my home!?" He yelled at her, his body full of stress.

"If you knew it was me then why did you not hang me!?"

She looked up at him in shock. "Because you saved my life..."

He lifted his hand in the air, and turned around not wanting to hear more.

"If you're here to thank me, don't."

He stopped and looked back again. "What are you really here for?"

Elsa held her arms to her chest. "I don't know."

He guided her horse towards her and helped her on.

He strode his own and gripped the reins of hers, leading them back to James home.

The walk was long and painfully quiet. The air around them was so tense that Elsa regretted even coming. She wasn't expecting to be accepted and loved but she sure hadn't expected to be mistreated.

"You have no right to humiliate me..." She suddenly spoke, "I came because my heart can't take not seeing you..."

"You did something to me that day... When I saw you hurt..."

Hans shook his head visibly, but he kept his eyes on the road.

"Say something!" Lightning crackled loudly.

He sighed. He didn't know if destiny was playing tricks on him.

"We're here."

She nodded and he helped her off her horse.

She settled some matters with James, she contracted him. She would buy his vegetables and feed her people, and he would stock the castle.

She thanked them and bid a farewell.

All the while the prince staring at her from afar.

He was ordered to, by James, walk her to the beginning of the castle grounds.

He did as told, but spoke no word to her. He couldn't believe what she had told him.

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Elsa sat in her room staring at the falling rain. Her eyes were empty.

"M'lady?"

A familiar voice came from behind her.

"Is there anything I can do for you?"

Elsa began to cry, feeling defeated. She had never felt in her life, and now that she did... She didn't want to. She always suppressed her feelings. And now...

She hugged herself, "I think it's time we stop playing match making Kai... He was not happy to see me."

She gasped loudly and cried even more. "Why did it have to be him?"

Kai nodded.

"Please tell no one."

"Your secret is safe with me."

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Hans laied in his bed staring up at the ceiling of his bedroom, as the light of a candle flickered.

He was tired sleepless, and his mind was wandering. It went from his family to his new work, to how he was getting better, to back and forth. But the thought that kept coming back to mind, Elsa.

What did she pretend to do? She knew he was Hans. The very man that tried to...

He flinched at the memory.

Now she was claiming she had feeling for her?

She'd read all the letters, she'd known of his darkest secrets now. He shook his head. Yes he'd written every letter in her name. He felt guilt of what he'd done. He had... Apologized through those letters to her.

He sat up quickly, shaking his head. Nothing between her and him existed. She had simply gone mad.

There was no other option.

He walked up to the candle and blew on it.

When he laid back down, the smell of wild berries greeted his nose. Without thought he fell asleep.