Bella POV

Everything was shining brightly. I was in Forks. It felt very good to be in my room with this freshness. I don't know why everything seemed so bright as if under sunshine. I heard a knock on my door. I turned around to see who was there. The door opened slightly ajar to reveal a smiling Mom.

"Mom?" I asked my voice laced with shock.

"Honey!" She squealed picking me up and swirling me around before setting me on my feet. I looked at my hands. They were very small. I furrowed my eyes and peeking in the mirror. I was twelve again. I turned to my Mom. She was smiling in the doorway looking at me with hints of kindliness.

"Are you really here?" I asked.

"It's so great to see you Bella." She smiled playing with the ends of my hair. I turned around and hugged her tightly.

"I missed you Mom." I sobbed relishing her feel but she didn't feel warm. She hugged me back though.

"Let's go for a walk." She said. I nodded sniffing. I didn't want to indulge into all the possibilities to explain the present scenario. I was content right now. It was dark outside and damp. "How have you been?" She asked smiling. Our feet made pitter patter noises as we walked. It wasn't a pleasant sound but I loved it for at that moment, it was proof to my ears that I wasn't alone.

"I've been better." I said smiling.

"Really?" She asked. "I should hear something more interesting. It's been years."

"I was in denial for a while but I stopped mourning after a while. Distractions help." I shrugged.

"You can't ignore me you know?" She smiles. "I mean I am pretty hard to forget. Your harebrained mother." She giggles at me. I smile memorizing her face. It was like my brain had memorized each trace of her and stored it in my sub consciousness for this last moment. Last moment. What happened to me?

"You would be right but I am trying." I said sadly looking down.

"Sweetie." She giggled at me and turned me to look towards her. "You aren't supposed to forget me. You are supposed to remember me." She smiled. I had never seen her eyes twinkling so beautifully. I couldn't help but give a watery smile. "You are supposed to cry. You're supposed to mourn. There's nothing wrong with that. But you can't just forget me Bella."

"But it's hard. Knowing I could have saved you." I cried.

"Bella." She shook me. "Look." She said pointing towards something. I turned to see the same monsters who took away Mom from me. We were in Port Angeles again. Those monsters were coming to us again and in the same way. "You couldn't have protected me then Bella. Reality is cruel." She said. I had never seen her talk so wisely. She looked as if she'd seen everything. She turned to face me again. "But it's also good. And beautiful." She grinned. "Now. Fight your monsters Bella." She said looking at those vile creatures with such a confidence in me that I could do nothing but grin. I finally had the chance to look at those vile creatures that took my mom away from me. I could look at them in the eye without a trace of fear. I punched them, kicked them as they evaporated into ashes. I looked back grinning at Renee who was watching me while leaning into a pole with a soft smile that shone with pride. "You are such a big girl now Bella and I've done nothing but watched over you. I'm nothing but proud." She said tucking my hair behind my ear. "You are everything I could have asked for. But sweetie. You need to let me go." She said softly holding my chin.

"No. Don't go. I need you." I asked of her desperately.

"You are so beautiful Bella. So strong. Charlie needs you. Your friends need you. You should stop blaming yourself now." She said. She was sad about it too but there were no tears. "Promise me Bella. That you will not blame yourself and remain strong."

I nodded sniffing. "I miss you Mom." I cried.

"I am always here." She said grinning. "I am everywhere you go. It doesn't matter that you can't see me. I'm always here. And I love you." She said softly.

I sniffed. "I love you Mom." I cried my voice laced with pain and at the same time relief for having made my peace with her.

"Promise me you will do what I said?" She asked with voice kind but I could detect the hurry in her voice.

"I promise." I vowed.

She smiled softly. "I love you Bella. I will always love you." She said and started flowing away in dust.

"NO! DON'T GO!" I screamed but she was gone and everything turned black. I heard a beep. It was so dark now. I couldn't see anything. The beep came again. It was so annoying. I struggled to open my eyes. The beeping increased. Somebody stop it! I opened my eyes with difficulty only to be greeted by the worst sight imaginable. The hospital. My eye was swollen. It hurt a little. In front of me was Jacob. He was sleeping with his arms folded at the edge of my bed on a chair. Beside him was Wuthering Heights. He'd reached the end of the book. My throat was hit with thirst. It felt so dry.

"Jacob." I called but my voice came out in a croak. Even though he was a heavy sleeper, her heard me and got up at once.

"You're awake." He breathed.

"Jake. Watrrr." I croaked.

"Yes. Of course!" He chimed and picked a glass in a hurry emptying some water from the water bottle into it and nearing it to my mouth. I slowly drank the entire glass and sighed with relief. I noticed the dark circles under his eyes. His eyes were wide at me though. "Do you remember anything?" He asked.

"Not clearly." I admitted my voice came in whispers. "It's hazy."

"How do you feel?" He asked.

"I feel good. Really good." I smiled softly tears of happiness spilling from my eyes.

"What hurts?" He asked worried.

"It's not that." I whispered shaking my head slightly. Wrong move. I groaned in pain.

"Don't move." He said.

"I saw Mom." I said. He stood still. "And I finally made my peace with her Jacob. I feel so good. But I still miss her. A lot." I cried silently. He knew better than to stop me. He sat on the chair.

"I miss Mom too." He said giving a watery smile and cried silently along with me. We'd never cried like this before. It felt good though. We couldn't just forget our mothers. We could only remember them. "I am so glad that you're back Bella. I really don't know what I'd do without you." He cried holding my palm.