Itachi's POV:
Laying in bed by myself was probably my least favorite thing but at least I knew Hinata would be joining me soon. It had only been a week since we returned home but I thanked kami she was here.
The hallway light had finally shut off and I continued to look at the ceiling. She had been saying goodnight to Neji every single night. It hurt to see her like this. I was hoping he would wake up soon because he was also my friend.
"Do you need anything before I lay down?" she softly asked me, breaking me of my thoughts.
"Just for you to lay next to me" I told her and she started moving toward the bed.
She crawled into the bed and laid her head near mine. I grabbed her hand with mine and put her arm over my chest. I knew she wouldn't because of my injuries.
"You really shouldn't have extra weight on them," she whispered and I turned my head towards her.
"You're worth it" I said and gave her forehead a kiss.
We lay in silence for a bit and I finally closed my eyes. Then I heard her sniffling.
"Hinata.. everything will be fine.. I promise" I said gently. I knew why she was crying but she hadn't really talked about it. She slept a lot since we were told and I didnt blame her.
I felt her nod her head and she just cried. I knew she fell asleep when her breathing evened out.
I sighed out loud, something needed to happen soon. Something happy, I didn't care what it was either. The last time I saw actual joy from her or really anyone was two months ago. The day the twins were announced.
If those babies were bringing her happiness, I was just going to accept the fact the were coming. It still hurt but I needed to put my pride aside and take the future head on.
I felt like I sat for a long time thinking about things to do and then I realized we could have a small baby party.. that should bring happiness.
I smirked knowing my day tomorrow would entail talking to Kakashi about this but I didn't want Hinata to know.. I wanted it to be a surprise.
"While the girls have their time with Neji, would you be willing to do something for me?" I asked Hiashi, finally breaking the few minutes of silence we were sitting in. It was a perfect time to ask for help.
"It depends on what that is" he replied, sipping his tea.
"Could walk with me to Kakashi's office? I'm not sure how my body will react to a long walk" I asked him, hoping he would say yes. I was having a hard time breathing again and wasn't sure if my lungs would be kind to me.
"I don't like the idea of leaving them alone," he said, glancing at me.
"Hinata has a personal anbu guarding her twenty-four seven since her return. I assure you they're safe" I informed him but he still looked sceptical.
"Fine" he breathed out, I was a little surprised he agreed but it needed to be done.
"I will be back in a few moments then" I said and slowly removed myself from the kitchen chair.
I only needed a shirt and to let them know we're leaving for a bit.
By the top step, I felt the burning come along with my lungs. If felt like it did a long time ago before they were healed and I could honestly say, I didn't miss it.
If I could go back in time to when Neji and I were fighting all of them, I would have been more cautious. That was our problem that day, we didn't want to be brutal because they weren't shinobi.. but little did we know they weren't civilians either.
"Itachi, what are you doing?" Hinata asked me as I was just about inside our bedroom. I leaned against the doorway and looked at her. Her eyes were red and I knew she was crying.
"I'm putting a shirt on, your Dad is taking me to see Kakashi" I told her.
"I need to help you. If you move your arms wrong you could risk reopening the wounds on your torso" she spoke, slightly lecturing me in the process.
She moved forward and into the bedroom, I followed behind her. I watched her go in my drawers and pull out a regular black shirt. She made her way towards me and helped me put the shirt on. I knew she was still feeling upset, she was being gentle but pushy.
"Hinata" I said softly and I placed my hands on her shoulders. She didn't say anything but she just looked up at me.
I pulled her into my chest and just held her. It had been the first time since yesterday that I really had the chance to comfort her.
I didn't have to say anything to her but I knew she needed it. I needed it too, I was glad she was here.
"You shouldn't keep my father waiting, he's only so patient" she said, moving away from me to look at me. I shrugged my shoulders and she gave me a small smile.
She went to move and I stopped her again, I pulled her towards me once more. I gave her a kiss and then let her go.
We looked at each other once more before she left the room completely this time. I stood there and waited for the door to Neji's room to close again.
The walk to the Hokages office would of been nicer if I felt better. It was a beautiful October day and I wish I could enjoy it. But I couldn't, every step I took my lungs and chest hurt more.
"Are you sure you'll make it up the stairs?" Hiashi asked as we entered the building.
"I made it this far," I said weakly and we both knew I was going to have a hard time. My determination and stubbornness weren't going to let me quit. I could hear Kisame making a remark.. I just could.
"I'll go on ahead and have your brother come help you" he said to me and walked on ahead. I continued to push myself.
I was halfway up the stairs when I heard footsteps and I looked to see my brother coming down the stairs.
"Here I thought I was the only one to inherit fathers personality" he grumbled at me and put my arm over his shoulders and we took the stairs together.
I was surprised he so carelessly mentioned one of our parents.. it was the first time he said it casually and not with anger. At least he was slowly talking about them.. that was a good step.
As we entered the office, Sasuke placed me on the couch and I let my head fall against the back of it. I closed my eyes and steadied my breathing. I felt my pain in my torso slowly fading away.
"Anyways, the messages to the other Kages have been sent out. Once they return we will then pick a date of the chunin exams" Kakashi said, shuffling some papers around on his desk.
The chunin exams.. the good days. When everything was normal.
I finally opened my eyes and turned towards all of them, lifting my head up.
"Speaking of the chunin exams.. Sasuke" Kakashi said and a small smirk formed on his face. I glanced at my brother, I was confused.
"Seriously?" He asked him and rolled his eyes.
"Yes. You and Naruto are still Genin. What do you want to do?" Kakashi asked him. He was seriously still a genin? Then I remembered that their exams were interrupted by the snake himself.
"I'm not performing a test with a bunch of children. I'll take my course when Naruto does" Sasuke nearly hissed at him.
"If you say so" Kakashi casually shrugged it off and leaned back into his chair. Then he finally looked at me.
"Now, what are you here for?" He asked me.
"I was thinking last night that we need something joyful around here" I told him and he looked confused. I looked at everyone, they had the same facial expression.
"I was thinking we had some sort of baby party type of thing for Hinata" I said awkwardly. I never thought I would of had to say something of that nature.
"They're called baby showers, brother" Sasuke mumbled and Kakashi laughed a little. I could feel the heat rising to my face and I knew they could see it.
"It would be good for everyone. Hinata gets to see her friends, you guys would get things for the children, we could host it in the district and-" I stopped rambling when Kakashi raised his hand for me to close my mouth. I wasn't sure what was wrong with me.. I never rambled.
"It sounds like a great idea," he said and I felt good inside knowing he was also on board.
"I'll have Yugao and Sasuke switch places. I'll have her discreetly go around to invite people" Kakashi spoke again before anyone could speak.
"I want this to be a surprise though. She's been having a really hard time with Neji this week. She needs to be surprised and happy" I told everyone and they nodded in agreement.
"Sasuke, pay attention this time" Kakashi deadpanned and my brother nodded in agreement. I was glad he said something because if he didn't, I would have.
"When is all of this supposed to happen anyhow?" Sasuke asked, looking at me.
"I would plan for this Saturday," I said and no one disagreed. It would be a nice day, I would be sure of it.
"I can have everything arranged. Just make sure the invites are in place" Hiashi finally chimed in and I'm glad he did because I wasn't sure where to start.
"Won't the elders be suspicious?" I asked him. Who were to think that the ones we feared first haven't even crossed out minds lately.
"They're proving me wrong so far. Don't worry about them" he said in a weird tone and I didnt want to push buttons.
"Well, now that this is all settled. Sasuke, go fill Yugao in and switch with her. Hiashi and Itachi, you two are dismissed and I need to go have a conversation with Hinata. Once Yugao is done, come find me" Kakashi said giving us all instructions.
"What do you need to discuss with her?" Sasuke snapped quickly and I looked at the both of them while they talked. They were having a conversation with their eyes.
"Don't worry about it" Kakashi said and I wondered if they were hiding something. Maybe I was overthinking it.
"See you Saturday, I'm going home. Send Hanabi home when you see her" Hiashi said, interrupting them. It broke then tension and he turned to leave the room.
"I need your help.." I almost whispered and looked at Sasuke. I used all the energy I had walking here. There wasn't anyway I would make it back on my own.
Kakashi's POV:
I waited for Sasuke and Itachi to leave my office before I moved. I needed to collect my thoughts for a minute. I was thrown off when Sasuke so bluntly asked me about what I needed with Hinata. I knew Itachi felt the tension.. I just hoped he wouldn't question it.
I shook my head and rose from my seat. I made a sign with my hands and went into the ground. The flickering body trick is how I wanted to travel today.
I came to the surface of Itachi's front porch and I didnt see Yugao standing here like I had yesterday. I felt her on the roof this time, did she need a change of view?
I shrugged it off and walked inside, I guess I would ask her about it later if it still bothered me.
I assumed they were in Neji's room so that's where my legs headed for. I walked down the hallway and the door was cracked.
I pushed it open carefully and saw Hinata and Hanabi sitting near his bed. They both looked at me and I gave them a small wave.
"Hanabi, you need to go home. Hinata, you and I need to have a conversation" I said softly to them. They both nodded their heads and didn't say anything. I watched them say their goodbyes to their cousin and I moved aside so they could leave the room. Hanabi walked out first and headed out of the house. She looked miserable and I knew how hard it was for them.
Hinata closed the door behind her and we were all three feet from each other while we stood in the hallway.
"Come to my house?" I asked her and she sniffled whole nodding her head.
I was sure that if she got out of her own home a little bit of tension would fade considering the source of her sadness was currently laying in a bed.
Once we were outside, I looked around for Yugao. I'm sure she knew she didn't have to be with Hinata if I was with her and then I spotted her. She was sitting on top of their house.
"Anbu, you are to remain here until Sasuke comes. He'll fill you in" I shouted up towards her and she nodded her head. I knew it was irritating her but it was part of her job.
We soon moved our way towards my house, I held the door open for her and she went inside first. She went straight for the glasses and got some water.
"What do we need to talk about?" She asked me and I started heading towards my living room. Once we were done talking, I was taking a nap until Sasuke found me. I took a seat on the couch and she followed me by sitting on the other end of it.
"We're hosting the chunin exams in a few weeks. If it's alright with you, I would like to have to start teaching again" I filled her in.
"I can't just leave the district," she said, pointing to her stomach. I smirked at her.
"I was going to let Iruka send kids here so you would be at home" I filled her in on the rest of my plan. Sasuke and I were talking about this before Hiashi came into my office.
"Is that even possible?" She asked me, looking confused.
"If we call it tutoring than no one will question it" I confessed. It wasn't really ordinary to have school ethics taught outside of the academy but it wasn't fair that Iruka had been by himself all this time. I also knew Hinata loved what she was doing.
"Well If it's going to work out then I will gladly accept" she said and she smiled. A real genuine smile. I couldn't help but to look at her, she looked so beautiful. My eyes wandered her body and stopped on her stomach. I still couldn't believe that the two humans in there were mine.
She caught me looking and her face blushed slightly.
"Did you want to feel the bump? They might kick for you" she asked me and I moved pretty quickly toward her. I sat right next to her, I was excited. I hope they would move for me.
She held my hands in place, moving them around her stomach. It was the weirdest thing but then I felt it, a small movement under my hand.
"Did you feel it?" She asked, looking at me and the happiness I was feeling was over the top. I smiled, one little kick was good enough for me.
"I can't wait until they're here" I told her, looking up at her.
"Me too" she gave me a smile and we just sat there, looking at each other.
Her hands were on top of mine still and I didnt want her to move. The feeling of comfortability was here again but it was over powering. I knew she felt it too.
"I.." I started to say but she cut me off when her hand pulled my face mask down. I felt frozen.
Then her lips met mine. I didn't even bother fighting my mind this time. I couldn't. I lost all sources of validation of what was right and wrong in the moment.
I grabbed her face and deepened the kiss. She moved herself while the heat was rising with every kiss. The sync we always had, fell right back into place.
Neither of us tried to talk this time, we were letting it happen. I really thought all the months ago I knew what I wanted but the more I touched her.. the more I believed I lied to myself. I think I missed her.
I pushed her back off of my gently and she was now standing in front of me. I grabbed her hand and I led her upstairs towards my bedroom. I wanted her, it would either confirm what I was fighting off or just add to the secret we adding to.
I moved my door open and pulled her in. She closed the door behind me and turned me around.
I pulled her into me and kissed her again but this time with passion. We moved backwards until I was sitting on my bed again. She climbed back on top of me and we continued what we were doing.
Her hands were removing my vest and I swung it around myself to throw it on the floor. I knew she was thinking the same things I was or she would have stopped by now.
I move my hands towards her tank top and slid the straps down the side of her arms which twisted her arms under so they were off her arms completely.
It didn't take long for us to get naked but we still didn't do anything yet.
I moved my mouth from hers and kissed down Her neck towards her chest. I played with her left nipple while my mouth played with the right now.
She was sitting on top of me naked and she was moaning a bit and it was driving me crazy.
She finally took her hands to remove my face from her breasts. She had pushed me backwards and I laid down on my bed. Was this where it would happen? I was anticipating it now. I knew earlier when we walked up the stairs I wanted her but now I needed her.
She shifted herself and slowly slid down on me. I damn near growled and then she started rocking her hips, she also moaned.
She was riding me with full lust now and I was enjoying every single second of it. Then it confirmed it.. I missed her.
I missed everything about her. Her eyes her hair, her scent, her body, her attitude, her touch.. just her. But now it was too late. I let her go.
"Kakashi.. I'm gonna.." her breathing became really deep while her moans became louder and I could feel her tighten around me. The warmness of it came quickly after.
I knew she went but continued going until I went. Which didn't take long either.
Once we were both done, she got off of me and laid next to me on my bed. We were both sweaty and catching our breath.
I rolled over to look at her. I never felt more at home than I had in awhile. Just being next to her was all I needed.
"You were starting to say something earlier before I interrupted you" she softly said while she sat up. I watched her collect her clothes and get dressed.
"I.." I started to say again and I lost my nerve. I was going to say I miss this while we were sitting together. But now it was void considering we did what we just did.
I joined her in getting dressed, it was a good idea considering Sasuke was bound to find me soon.
"Since when do you get tongue tied?" She asked, jokingly.
I was done putting my clothes back on and I still wasn't sure what to say. She was right, since when did I get tongue tied?
"It's not something you want to hear," I said, it would only cause awkwardness. If it did, we would be right back where we were when she decided to choose Itachi over me.
I walked toward my bedroom door to open it so I could leave.
"Try me" she said aggressively slamming the door closed, trapping us in the room again. Was that a mood swing or her? Oh that's scary.. but fine, since she wants to know.
I grabbed her face in my hands and gave her a deep loving kiss. I broke away but remained holding her face, our faces only inches apart so I could look her in the eyes.
"I love you, Hinata. Deeply. I lied to the both of us that day. I want you" I growled at her, kissing her again.
"I need you" I said, kissing her again. I pushed her back a little bit and now her back was against the wall.
I moved one of my hands from her face, to the wall.
"I can't let go" I whispered, kissing her again.
"But I have to" I whispered, kissing her one last time. Then I stopped all together, waiting for her to reply.
She removed herself from me and left my bedroom. I bumped the wall a little bit with my fist.. damn it.
I left my bedroom but chasing her wasn't my priority. I ignored my feelings and went looking for Sasuke instead.
"This week went by quickly, the baby shower tomorrow should be great" Naruto said from the couch in my office.
He was wrong and he didn't even know. This was the longest week ever. When your mind and heart were fighting each other, the days dragged on.
"Are you excited Kakashi sensei?" He asked me and I looked up at him.
"Yes" I said, my answer was short. My answers all week were short and they both knew something was wrong me. I'm sure everyone did who talked to me.
"Only a yes? What's been your problem all week?" He asked me and I my handed twitched.
"Naruto, leave it alone. He's just being an idiot" Sasuke hissed at me. He emphasized the word idiot.. he knew. He was the only person aside from Hinata that knew me the best.
Him and I locked eyes and he just shook his head.
"I'm going to go home, I'll see you there" I spoke before he started yelling at me. I deserved it but I didn't want to hear it.
I quickly made my way home, my mind was blank. I just wanted to sleep, nothing else.
I opened my front door to see Yugao sitting at the kitchen table. A pang of guilt flooded my body but I was also happy to see her.
"How much longer are you going to lie to me?" She asked, no emotion came along with it.
I felt starstruck, did she know or was she playing one of her games?
"I'm not following" I told her, which wasn't a lie but I also hoped she would just tell me what she was talking about.
"Do you know what my speciality is as a shinobi or did you forget?" She asked me, taking a sip of whatever she had in her cup in front of her.
My mind was drawing blanks.. I wasn't sure what answer she wanted. She was a master with weapons, she was quick, she had excellent sensory skills..
Then it clicked.. sensory skills. She could read people's chakras for miles, knowing exactly what they're doing by the way their chakra was moving.
"I see you finally put two and two together" she hissed at me, standing up from the table. She looked enraged, sad, betrayed. She knew what Hinata and I did. It all made sense.. she had been distant all week.
"You have one minute to give me a valid reason not to leave this house," she said, tapping her fingers on the kitchen table.
"I can't give you one.. but I can give you an explanation" I admitted, looking into her eyes and she remained quiet. I could see tears brimming in her eyes.
"I love you.. but I'm in love with Hinata" I exhaled as I spoke. It was the first time I've said any of that out loud, I feel like a horrible person but I also felt relieved.
"You could of told me instead of going behind my back and betrayed my trust. I would of been less upset!" She yelled at me, throwing her cup towards me. I moved out of them for it to shatter on the wall behind me.
"I already told Sasuke and he's more than happy to take my post for a couple of days" she growled at me and moved from behind the kitchen table. So he did know..
"I'm sorry. I couldn't help it" I said in honestly. I wasn't going to defend myself because I agreed with her. I could of told her after that night Hinata and I kissed in my office. I wish I realized it sooner.
As she walked past me I grabbed her wrist.
"Please don't tell anyone" I asked her but if she didn't. I would understand.
"Only because I'm not sinking to your level, I won't" she hissed at me and ripped her arm free of my grip.
"I need time" she snapped at me.
Then I watched her leave and I just fell to the ground and sat there. I looked over at the broken cup on the ground.
What did I just do? I had someone here for me that only had feelings for me and I ruined it.
Hinata's POV:
"I'm going to go say goodnight to Neji" I told Itachu before getting off of the bed. He gave me a small smile and kissed my hand.
I moved myself off the bed and scurried out of our bedroom. My movements were quick towards his room. He was the only one who knew what Kakashi and I did months ago. The same thing we did a week ago. It was eating me alive and even if I lost Itachi because of it.. I needed to tell him.
I made myself over towards Neji's bedside and sat down. I took his hand in mine and held it.
"I need advice about something bad I did.." I whispered to him. I didn't talk about, hoping he would just reply but I knew he wouldn't.
"I know you can hear me but you can't respond. Please give me a sign to do what is right.." I asked him, what I would give to hear his voice.
Moments passed of me just staring at him and then I felt his hand squeeze mine.
"Neji?" I asked him, maybe he was coming around. I rubbed small circles on his hand, hoping he would do it again.
Even if he didn't do it again.. I knew it was a sign for me to come clean to Itachi.
"Thank you nii-san" I whispered to him and removed myself from his bed.
I left his room and knew it was time. It had to be or I didn't think I would make it any more with this secret.
By the time I got back to the bedroom, I built up enough courage to do so.
"Are you okay?" Itachi asked me, he had sat up in bed and turned the lamp on.
"I need to do something before I tell you something" I said softly and made my way over to his side of the bed.
I bent down and gave him a deep passionate kiss. I could feel the tears falling before I stopped kissing him. This would probably be the last kiss I got from him.
I let go and looked him in the eyes, he looked concerned.
"No change in Neji?" He asked me.
"That's not why I'm crying" I said, sniffling. I sat on the bed in front of him.
"Then that's the matter?" He asked me sitting up a little more straight. He was recovering well and could move better now.
"A week ago.. I did something" I started saying and I could feel the air in my throat closing up.
"Okay, what was it?" He asked calmly.
"I.." was all I said before the real flood of tears poured out.
"Its okay to talk to me you know" he said wiping the tears from my face. I swatted his hands away and removed myself from the bed.
"I don't deserve you. I slept with Kakashi" I spit it out and looked at him. His face was reading blank.
"Even after all we've been threw.. you still went behind my back?" he asked me and I didnt know what to say. I didn't want to lie to him. It felt right, but it also felt wrong. I fell back into my old routine and this time wouldn't be as easy to escape.
"It just happened" I said, trying not to completely sob.
"Things like that don't just happen, Hinata. You could have stopped and you didn't. Neither of you did. You both knew what you were doing" he said, I still couldn't pick out what emotion he was portraying and that was the scary part.
"Do you even love me?" He asked and that was by far the worst question he has ever asked me. It hurt. To much.
"Actually. Don't answer that. Please leave the bedroom" he said to me and I nodded my head. That was the least I could do.
I closed the door behind me and headed back towards Neji's room. I would sleep on the couch in his room. At least I didn't get kicked out of the house..
Laying on the couch felt colder than any ground I had ever slept on. It felt isolated even though I wasn't alone in this room.
But somewhere underneath all the hurt I was feeling, I felt relief. I no longer harbored a secret even though I probably just lost Itachi.
Why did I do this to myself? I was in love with every single piece of that man but yet I still loved Kakashi. That day I decided, it's not like my feelings for Kakashi left, they were just buried.
Itachis POV:
The next morning came quickly and I felt shallow. I still wasn't sure how to process the information Hinata told me.
I shook it from my mind for a second and wondered where she slept last night. I wanted to check on her even though she destroyed my trust.
Getting out bed had become easier but breathing didn't. I lived with lung problems once and I would do it again.
I pushed myself up and headed towards the bedroom door. It was still early in the morning and I knew I was the only one awake.
I opened the door to Neji's room slowly and quietly, entering the bedroom.
I found her on the couch in a ball, trying to keep herself warm. I looked around quickly and finally spotted the extra blanket.
I put the blanket on her and kneeled down to her, she was in a deep sleep.. that much I could tell.
I put my hand on her and just rubbed my thumb on the top of her head. It felt like my heart was breaking.. I could never just have her.
"I will always love you.. I need you to remember that some day.." I whispered to her before I got back up and away from her.
"Help" a cracked voice whispered and I instantly spun around and looked at Neji
Did he just say something? Was today the day?
I moved closer to the bed and really looked at him, c'mon my friend.. wake up.
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