"BP is dropping..." Says the paramedic in the ambulance as we are on our way to the hospital. Lena thought it would be best if I went with Jude to the hospital and Callie, for sure, wasn't going to leave his side so she's came also. Lena is on her way with the others right now thinking the kids needed at least one of their mothers with them. Here I am with Callie watching the beautiful boy in front of us is slowly slipping away. I currently have one arm around Callie trying my best to comfort here and one hand on top of Jude's. How could this have happened especially to Jude? From the corner of my eyes I see Callie's walls coming back up after breaking down in the bathroom. The pain and fear in her eyes give her actual emotions away.

"We're losing him." The paramedic pulls me from my thoughts. Callie's head snaps up so fast you can hear it crack. She shouldn't even have to be witnessing any of this. This can't be happening right now. We are almost there.

"Starting compressions. Joe what's are ETA?"

"4 minutes out" Joe says who I guess is the driver.

After two minutes the man finally announces that's Jude has a rhythm. I sit back and release the breath I was holding, but Callie seems to tense up even more.

"Joe, hurry up before we lose him again." I'm going to be sick. I know I should be used to this by now since I'm a cop and all but this is my child's life, and a very important part of this family. I don't know what we would do if we lost him. The ambulance finally comes to a halt. I notice we are here, but Jude's machines start to go off and beep.

"Shit. We're losing him again." The back doors swing open and a whole group of nurses and doctors are there with a gurney ready to transport Jude.

General P.O.V

Callie and Stef jumped out and followed behind doctors who were trying to revive Jude. A nurse appears and stops them from going through.

"Ma'am I'm sorry, but we can't let you through. Staff only. There's a waiting room down the hall to your last door to your left. I will come and update you whenever I hear something. The doctors are doing the best they can your son his in good hands." Stef nods her head feeling numb.

"You don't understand I have to be there with him. He has to know I love him. You can't stop me." Callie says putting her foot down. She's trying to get passed the door Jude went through but the only thing in her way is the nurse and Stef's grip.

"Callie, calm down. Jude's not going anywhere. Look at me, Callie. We'll be right here just let the doctors do their job." Stef says trying to calm down a teenager in distress. As she swallows her tears down Callie speaks again.

"Stef, I can't. He needs me. He has to know I'm sorry, but I had to do it before everyone got hurt."

"Do what Cals?" She doesn't respond. "Why don't we take a seat." Stef says as she pulls her over to the empty waiting to room to the corner couch. Stef grabs Callie and brings her into a tight hug.

Callie P.O.V

So many thoughts are processing through my mind that I think I might pass out. Jude. I feel like I'm in autopilot. Since going in the ambulance my mind has been racing. What if Jude doesn't make it? It's my entire fault. I shouldn't have done it. I feel someone squeeze my shoulders and notice I somehow am cradled into Stef and am sobbing. Somehow I manage to look up and see that the rest of the Fosters are showing up including Mike. Lena comes over and sits next to Stef while Mariana sits on the other side, and I'm between Stef's legs. Lena is stoking my hair, which makes me breakdown into louder sobs, and I can't manage to stop it. It hurts. My heart actually feels like it's tearing to pieces.