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Chapter 15 - Manipulis Proiicite De Lilia

Over the next week Harry went to all his sessions with Gareth and Severus which helped him with his thoughts. Severus spent half the time letting Harry do his homework in a safe space before talking until 7.30. For now Harry could only attend quidditch practice on a Saturday which Oliver Wood scowled and protested to McGonagall on the Thursday night.

"Professor! How could Professor Snape keep Harry for that amount of time cant he at least have quidditch nights off! You want Gryffindor to win next Saturday! Its already been rearranged once! And practice is being cut short! Lets get the season off to a good start!"

"Wood! The safety of students is priority! As for Harry's commitment, he is very much committed and unless you want to join him in detention for the rest of the month I suggest you drop it!"

Harry at this point started to panic so he went up to his dormitory uncorked the small bottle he kept on him and drank the whole thing in one swig a few minutes later he felt a lot calmer and was able to rationalise his thoughts before going back out to the common room. He was feeling panicky anyway because Severus was going to take him to see his parents on Saturday after quidditch practice and this that night wasn't helping.

Harry was feeling a bit better in himself, he was able to eat a little more and concentrate in class more though it was only slight everyone noticed that Harry was a little better and during his session with Gareth on Friday Gareth prepared him to see the graves. He couldn't get much out of the boy which did make him worried thought he was going with Severus so the boy couldn't do anything stupid. Gareth spoke to Severus about his worries and made sure that Severus could send him a partonus if anything got too bad.

Saturday morning found Harry being awaken at 5.30 by Oliver Wood and forced to get changed and down to the quidditch pitch. The sun was creeping up from behind the forest and the cold wintery breeze swept through Harrys hair as he launched himself into the air. The feeling was magic but didn't have its usual effect all he could think about was his parents and the flash of green light that kept haunting him in his nightmares. Harry did not notice when the snitch was released and caught it only accidentally going into a dive. No one noticed Harry was off and also didn't notice as he went off on his own towards the lake at the end of the session.

At the lake the wind was strong as it was such an open space, the giant squids tentacles splashed in and out of the water. Harry took a slow walk around the lake until he could feel his fingers or toes, only then did he return to the dormitory to have a shower to warm up and punish himself for the nightmares he had last night and being a burden to the whole of his team. He didn't have long though soon it was half past two and he was supposed to be meeting Severus at three. Harry quickly put some muggle clothes on which were at least five sizes too big for him and made his way down to the Slytherins office.

Severus was waiting in his office, he had a muggle pair of black trousers on and a black coat waiting for the young boy to come with him to the graveyard. Harry had not turned up to breakfast or lunch which wasn't too unusual but he would have thought the boy would at least have had some food before training with the rest of the team earlier. Severus sighed, how could he have let this happen to the boy, when did it get so bad? There was a knock on the door, Severus opened it to find Harry with a ridiculously large pair of jeans on which were just about holding up with a belt and a jumper which looked like it had been stretched onto a small elephant.

"Harry, what are you wearing?" asked Severus mortified about how the boy looked. Didn't he even care or give respect to his parents to go to their grave looking like a house elf.

"Muggle clothes Sir?" replied Harry puzzled. Severus did tell him to put muggle clothes on didn't he? "These are my best ones" he added tentatively.

"Why don't they fit you?"

"Freaks don't deserve nice clothes. Freaks should be greatful for what they are given"

"Harry, how many times do I have to tell you that you are not a freak and you desrve clothes and food and nice things" Severus knew from his meetings with harry that the Dursleys were verbally abusive but not neglectful, this showed him about the neglect now. Was there even more to this than he first thought? Harry nodded in reply. "Let me shrink those to size, then we can go" Harry nodded again giving his professor permission to shrink the clothes. With the flick of his wand the clothes were now fitting Harry, they were still old and a bit torn in places but at least they fit the boy.

"Thank you Sir" said Harry gratefully

"You are welcome Harry. Are you ready? We are travelling by floo network to a place called Godric's Hollow. That is your parents old house, we will be going straight out of the door okay?" Harry nodded and followed Snape over to the grate. Severus threw some floo powder into the flames and they turned green he then guided the boy by the shoulder into the flames and said "Godric's Hollow!" they span faster and faster, Severus kept a grip on Harry as they span so he didn't lose him in the process.

They stepped out of red brick fireplace with dark wood grate covered with soot. There was a old dusty sofa and armchair sat around a wooden coffee table, bricks and plastic toys covered the floor, pictures littered the room of the potters wedding day and baby Harry, there was also a lot of rubble from a wall partially knocked down. The house had been untouched since that night all the ornaments were in the same place, the house seemed sad and lost in time. The grandfather clock still worked and was ticking in the corner of the room Severus looked down at Harry who seemed to be panicking a bit.

"Oh, I just called to say, I love you" rang his father's voice as the pair danced around the room as baby Harry clapped on the floor. Next Lily picked the baby up and danced with James around the room.

"Harry! Come back to me" Severus asked. Harry did not want to leave this memory, it was nice but made his heart ache, he missed his parents, what would it have been like with them in his life. He let Severus guide him out of the house, and then it was easier then to come out from his flashback. A tear escaped from his eyes.

"Thanks Sir"

"You may call me Severus or Sev if you want when we are alone. Is this better?" Harry nodded "Come on then let's go and find them" Severus continued as he guided Harry to the graveyard. When Harry saw the graveyard, he walked up and down the graves before falling to his knees in front of one right at the very back of the graveyard by two trees, which looked like they had been planted 10 years ago. Severus hadn't been to their grave in years but put on a brave face for the boy. Severus could tell Harry was holding back so he put his hand on the boys shoulder and said, "It's okay to cry"

It didn't take long before the boy was crying openly on his knees running his fingers through the lettering of the grave. Severus stood sadly looking at the grave and remembering their childhood together, the time where Lily first showed signs of magic and the time she got her Hogwarts letter. He had been able to process it, he missed Lily of course but had never reacted like Harry when he saw the graves. However, what Harry did next shocked Severus and upset him all at once.

"Mum, Dad, why'd you leave m! Come back please! I miss you so much! Please, Mum! Dad!" there was hysterical sobbing from the boy now. Severus didn't know what to do he tried to comfort the boy but he flinched away. It got worse from there "I wish I could join you! It's my fault you are gone, my fault he came after you! I WANNA COME N JOIN YOU OR CAN YOU COME BACK TO ME PLEASE! PLEASE MUM, DAD" Harry kept crying harder and harder, until he cried so hard he silenced himself he then settled down on the grass by the stone his hands full of tears and placed them at the front of the stone.

After a while, a flower sprouted from the ground and budded right in front of him. Severus was in shock he hadn't seen this kind of magic without a wand before. Soon a heart shaped ring surrounded the gravestone with white lilies. Harry gave the stone a sad smile before losing himself to the overwhelming tiredness of the whole situation.

Severus picked up the now sleeping child and observed the heart around the grave. No child had ever shown such emotion around him before. Severus said his goodbyes to Lily before making his way back to the fireplace to floo back to Hogwarts. Once at Hogwarts Severus cast a notice me not charm and went up to the Gryffindor dormitory's to deposit the child in his bed. He would need to talk to Gareth tomorrow before the boy saw him, but was glad in a way the boy could hold emotion, it's just how much was he holding back, what was happening deep down inside? It was quite concerning to say the least.

Severus went back to his lab and collapsed on his chair before taking out some parchment and writing a note to the healer.

Dear Healer Richards,

I hope this finds you well and before tomorrow. We did go to the graveyard this afternoon, there are some concerning things I have discovered about the boy I will need to talk to you about before tomorrow. I will be awaiting your arrival in the headmaster's office, normal time or a bit before if you may.

Severus Snape

There that should do it he thought as he attached it to the leg of his black owl and sent her through the window. He then poured himself a large glass of firewhisky today had been a day he would never forget.