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Because of Her

Chapter 8

"Arizona Robbins? Hello, my name is Sarah James, I believe you are the one who's screwing my wife, I think it's time you and I have a talk."

I could feel my heart beating in my throat when I saw such an imposing woman in front of me, tall, clear eyes, black hair falling like waterfalls on her back and shoulders, perfect skin and slender figure, she wore a black coat till half way down the thigh, however, underneath that expensive like coat she wore lightly casual clothes, a green long sleeve blouse and tight jeans and black booties.

She came into my office uninvited, took off her coat, sat down in front of my desk in one of the chairs and in the other she dropped her expensive coat and purse, crossed her right leg over the other one while wearing a very condescending look towards me.

I can't begin to imagine how Callie's relationship with this woman has to be, if clearly both are excessively demanding of power and attention ... This time, I urge my psychological senses to shut up because the least I want right now is to imagine Callie with her at all.

"You're not going to say anything?" She broke the silence in the office, looking at me with disdain so I promised myself not to fall into her power play, I knew clearly what her purpose was, I've been dealing with Callie, I know exactly what she wants to do... to intimidate me.

"Well, it's you who came into my office demanding a talk with me, I figured you'd be the one to start the talk." I crossed my fingers over my lap and gave her the same reproachful look back.

Then she laughed, one of those laughter that you would recognize as shameless mockery, I could feel my patience running thin. "I see why she likes you so much." When I frowned, she added. "Callie. She loves easy goings, now I see why she is so interested in you."

Now I start to feel anger. "I'm not easy going, you wanted to talk, then talk, but as far as I'm concerned, I have nothing to tell you." I urged myself to remain calm, the last thing I need is this woman getting a reaction from me, I do not plan on giving her that pleasure.

"Oh so you have a temper." She laughed again, her perfect hair moving naturally as she brought her head back in uncontrollable laughter. "Oh you're so funny!" She added quickly.

I narrowed my eyes, "Look, say what you have to say and get out of my office, I have a job to do and it does not involve dealing with women like you."

She raised her eyebrow, "Oh, you mean dealing with the wives of the women you date?" She asked rhetorically, "I'm sorry, girl, that goes with the package."

I was annoyed I just wanted to get rid of this woman as soon as possible, before I made something stupidity. "What do you want, Sarah? If you're looking for Callie, you should have gone to New York or called Nicolas for that matter, maybe he can give you more information."

"Oh dear, I know exactly where my wife is, don't worry." Ughr, that word ... wife ... told by her, makes it more real. "I came here to talk to you."

" Mhmm and yet, you haven't said anything." A little sassy couldn't hurt.

"I was just trying to do a reading about you, to know what kind of woman, my wife is seeing, Callie likes all kinds of women." By her facial expression, I could tell she enjoyed mentioning Callie's past to me, as a reminder that I'm not the only one and probably not the last either. "Anyway, I need a favor."

Now it was my turn to laugh uncontrollably, "You have the audacity to come into my office, insult me and then ask for favors? Is this for real?" I couldn't believe it, what kind of woman is was she?"

"Well, since you were screwing my wife, I thought it was appropriate." She said crossing her arms.

"I'm not 'screwing your wife' and you know it, it may be unusual, but Callie and I's relationship it's just like hers and Nicolas." I don't even know how I'm defending this, but I can stand the way she denigrates my relationship with Callie, yes, it's not a perfect relationship and it's certainly different, but I'm not a homewrecker.

Once again Sarah laughed in my face, "Is that what you tell yourself to sleep at night?" She raised her sculpted eyebrow again.

"Sarah ..." I was ready to throw her out of my office and hopefully out of my life.

"That's what she told you? That I agreed on you and her to be an item?" Her question aroused my attention ... what does she mean by that?

"Sarah, what are you saying?" My heart was pounding against my chest as I waited for an honest answer.

"Exactly what is going through your mind. I told her to stop and she promised that she would and she hasn't, which means that she has been cheating on both of us for months." She said with certainty in her tone as I felt a tumult of emotions inside... I couldn't believe what I was hearing, has she been fooling me all this time?About the open marriage and Sarah being fine with it?

"That's not true, that's not right." Funny, those were the same words I used when Callie told me about the baby thing.

"You're kidding, right?Please tell me it's a joke, Callie." I tried to keep my voice calm when inside my head all I wanted was to scream and cry and scream a some more. A baby? Those keep you tie down together forever, how can she consider having a baby?

She looked guilty and I certainly didn't care, she cannot have a baby with Sarah, she just can't. "It's not a joke, Sarah told me about this a few days ago, she wants us to start a family."

"But you said ..." Oh God, I could barely breathe. "You said you wouldn't do it, that having children was not in your plans, you told me that when I asked you at the beginning of all this." I could feel my body temperature increase rapidly, but really I didn't knew if it was because of anger or sadness, anyway, I didn't feel very well.

"And all that was true, she and I discussed it even before we got married, she didn't want to have children, so we decided not to have them, I don't know why she is doing this now." She tried to take my hand on the table, but I take it away immediately. "Arizona, please ..." She was pleading now and so I knew ... this was serious.

She was going to have a baby with another woman ... "I can't be here." I got up from the table and got out of there as fast as I could, I remember it was hard to breath, my breathing was erratic, my vision blurred and seconds later I could feel the first tear down my cheek.

I remember feeling so stupid, there I was crying like a fool for a person who clearly does not care or has any consideration for me ... that's when I knew I had had enough.I was done.

I crossed the other side of the street clearing my cheeks and cursed the fact that I didn't get to the restaurant in my own car instead of arriving with her in her car, now I would have to walk or take a cab on a busy street in Seattle.

My thoughts were all over the place when I felt someone pull my arm, my instinct was to fight the stranger until I heard her voice. "Arizona, it's me, stop fighting me." She said firmly but softly and I remember feeling so silly wanting to melt right there in her arms just because of the way she spoke to me.

"Let go of me, Callie!" I got out of her embrace pushing her away from me. "How can you do this to me?!" I screamed in her face and she just stood there looking at me with pity eyes ... I hated her for looking at me that way.

"Arizona, just calm down and let's talk about this, please." She implored once again, but I wasn't having any of that.

"Talk? Talk about what? You clearly already made a decision, one that does not include me, because, why? Why would you? I've never been part of your family plan, I'm just the other woman, am I wrong?!" I kept screaming some more, the people in the street started to look, but I honestly didn't care.

"I haven't decided anything!" She shouted over my screams. "If you would stop screaming at me, I could explain myself to you, but here we are, screaming at each other in the middle of the street." She mumbled and now I could see the anger in her eyes ... I remember thinking how could she dare be angry, she had no right.

"You're a liar!" I kept screaming, her words didn't change anything.

"I haven't lied to you!"

"Yes, you did!" I yelled over her. "I can't believe I actually believed all the lies you told me, about your marriage and everything else!" My throat still hurts after all those screams. "I'm out of here." I turned to continue walking when she took my arm again, then I felt her hug me.

I remember fighting against her physical contact while she contained me with soft and loving words in my ear and as much as it bothered to admit, I couldn't help the feeling of security and care that I felt with her chest pressed against mine, her strong arms around my back, her aroma, her warmth, her presence ...

It was then that I collapsed in her arms and I cried in her chest and I understood, that this was not because she was going to probably have a baby, it was because I felt that I would lose her. You can say that getting away definitely would be the best thing that could happen to me, but I was not ready, I was not ready to let her go, even if my whole being hurt… it's like an addiction, the more it hurts you, the harder is to leave it.

I hugged her with all the strength I had in me and kissed her neck, thanking the gods once again for our height difference, I kissed her once more and then I whispered, "I love you." I hadn't said those three words before, not to her and there I was sharing my truth with the woman I loved moments after she told me she would have a baby with her wife ... How much fucked up is this?

I felt her smile on my forehead as she gave me a delicate kiss there, "I know you do." She said, "I love you, too." She confessed for the first time too and that was what brought me to the real situation.

I kissed her neck once again sucking the sweet scent of her perfume for the last time before leaving her embrace, "I can't be with you while seeing you having kids with other people, I can't be with you while you are with other people, period." I took more distance from her.

"Arizona ..." She tried to approach again, but this time I didn't let her ... I was so tired of everything.

"I can't keep doing this with you, Calliope." I put a hand between us creating the distance even more. "I better go home and you have to leave too, you have a big day tomorrow."

"Arizona, no! What are you saying?" She was confused now, her face was so adorably cute with a frown, I remember every one of her features and details of her face.

"I'm saying I'm done, Calliope. It's the best. "I was resigned and frankly so tired of all this.

But she kept refusing at the thought, "No! Arizona, come on, let's talk about this -"

"I've done talking, Callie." I turned around to continue my way ...

"Arizona, if you leave, if you go now and we don't talk about this, then ..." She couldn't finish with what I believe would had been an ultimatum.

"Then what? our relationship would be over?" She was unable to answer my question and for the first time since I met her, I saw fear in her eyes, it was so unusual that I almost didn't trust it. "Callie, we're in the middle of the street screaming at each other, we're already over."

The last image I have of her is her beautiful eyes filled with tears and so she didn't stop me, her shoulders fell together with her gaze to the ground.

That was three days ago and this is today...

In front of me is the wife of the woman I love. Talking to this woman or having any contact was the least I wanted to do, I specifically asked Callie, to never meet her, but I guess I was just avoiding the inevitable.

"So, about that favor." Sarah's words pulled me out of my train of thoughts, "You're going to make Callie agree to have the baby or else I'm going to end her career and reputation next to yours, I'm a good lawyer, I know how to play dirty." Sarah got up and took her things, ready to go.

"Why are you doing this, Sarah?" I had to ask, this version of her is by far way to different from the version that Callie gave me.

The elegant woman putted her coat back on while smiling at me evilly, "We had a deal and she broke it." She said ... and you guys may think I'm going crazy but I swear I saw hurt in those grayish eyes.

But also, what deal? There is so much that I don't understand right now.

"Oh and before I go..." She turned around, her hand on the knob of my office door. "No more screwing my wife. I'm going to get my wife back so you're out of the picture." And then she was gone.

This was so mess up and I'm not talking just about my head, you guys have to help me here, what the hell am I going to do now?

I need you guys to understand that this story is solely on Arizona point of view, we still have to hear Callie's version. The question here is, what deal did Callie have with Sarah? And why is Sarah so hurt about it?