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Reasonable Doubt – Chapter Seven
Previously…
"You need to find another lawyer, I can't be objective here." I pick at the label on the bottle, needing a distraction.
"I don't want another lawyer, I want you. Fight for me Erin, please. Fight this injustice. I need you to fight. Hell, I just need you." There's a conviction in his words, a desire to stop me walking out of his life.
"Don't. Don't use my words against me. This is hard for me too." I shake my head, lip caught in my teeth as I place the beer down preparing to leave.
"Then stay." Jay pleads, warm hand catching mine.
"I can't." I struggle out, distracted by his gentle caress.
"Why?"
"Because I'm falling for you damn it."
Jay's lips crash against mine, his hands on my hips and mine cling to his cheeks before running through his hair and resting at the back of his neck.
He backs me up against he wall as he undoes my coat and slips it from my shoulders not giving me a breath to argue.
"Jay." I whisper, not really wanting him to stop at all.
"You can't argue your way out of this one Erin."
"But arguing's what I do." I smirk, his blue eyes flick down to my lips briefly before I feel his hot breath against my begging lips and his eyes staring deeply in mine.
"I'm falling for you too Erin, I think I already have." I inhale deeply, the shock jarring me. The butterflies increase their fluttering as my belly tightens in anticipation.
He kisses me again, his hands working on my blouse buttons causing a moan as his rough fingers brush along my smooth skin.
"Stay." He whispers against my neck as he trails kisses down, tongue slipping out as he goes.
"Okay." His lips meet mine again as he picks me up, my legs wrap around his waist without a thought, allowing him to carry me into his bedroom.
His foot catches his couch as he walks past and I giggle against his lips as he stumbles, my hot sex pressed against his hard abs too much fabric between us.
Jay puts me down gently, my feet finding the floor beneath us. We stand face to face, our bodies touching as our chest heave to greedily inhale the oxygen we've been deprived of.
I smile as his fingers trail the side of my face, our stares intent, feeling the tension and pent up feelings we have been burying for too long now.
My eyes close naturally as his hands slide over my shoulders and push my blouse off until it crumples at my feet.
His lips find my collarbone, causing my breath to hitch in anticipation waiting for his hands to grace my skin again.
I reach out to clench the ends of his shirt before he carefully removes my hands, his own reaching for my belt and pants.
They fall gracefully to the floor as the cool air hits my already wet and throbbing pussy.
I slowly open my eyes when I don't feel pressure where I crave, I see Jay kneeling before me his hand reaching to slip my feet from their heels.
I kick them off hurriedly as I watch his shoulders move as he chuckles.
"Impatient are we?"
"Can you blame me?" I hit back immediately.
"I wasn't the one putting off the inevitable."
"I was scared." I whisper vulnerably.
"Of what?"
"This." I inhale as his fingertips run along my bare skin.
"Sex?" One side of his mouth tilts up in a playful smirk.
"No. Losing myself in you." Our moment is broken as his lips find the inside of my thigh kissing up to my covered sex.
I toss my head back in pleasure as he hooks his fingers in and discards my lacy panties.
My fingers thread through his hair as he places a kiss to the area craving his warmth.
He wastes no time sliding his fingers easily in, pumping them in and out as I grind on his hand impatient for the relief I desire by his doing.
Just as I reach the beginning of my climax his tongue replaces his fingers as he continues to weaken my knees.
My legs give out as I crumble to my orgasm, Jay's strong arms helping me back onto his bed.
The bed I've dreamed of since we met, our eyes meeting and the warmth of his soul shining through.
I'm panting as he pulls his shirt off, revealing his hard abs to me.
I hold up my finger and motion him closer with a sexy smile, my hair lying around my head like a halo.
My legs wrap tightly around his waist, pulling him flush against me. I enjoy his moan as my wet sex touches his bare skin.
I run my fingers down his exposed back, feeling the rough landscape of the scars beneath my tips wishing to sooth his mental anguish attached to the memories they hold.
We rid his jeans quickly wishing to join our aching bodies, fulfilling their wishes after so long. Our bodies have betrayed us since we met, pulling us together as my mind kept us apart.
Jay removes my bra in one move, his hot mouth not wasting a second before latching on. I groan as his fingers pinch my other nipple, before massaging in time with his mouth movements.
My hips buck as his teeth pull my nipple softly before his mouth moves to my neck, finding the spot behind my ear in record time, the very spot that makes me melt.
I pump his hard penis in my hand a few times before guiding it to my entrance gasping as Jay begins to push in.
He stills after he enters, kissing my lips gently before moving to find a better position.
The feeling of our bodies together is more than I could have imagined, moving against each other and our soft moans filling the air around us.
My hands find his chest before pushing him onto his back, his hands on my hips bringing me with him.
I throw my hair to one side as I look down at him lying on the bed. I move experimentally on him as I adjust to our new position, feeling him drive deeper into my core.
He coaxes me to start riding him as my nails claw down his chest, giving him some new scars attached to good memories.
It's not long before we're calling each other's names, our bodies trembling with pleasure as we ride through our orgasms.
We don't waste much time before we spend the next hour exploring every feeling we have had over the last four months.
"Your dad seems like a jackass." I smile as I feel Jay's chuckle rumble under my cheek.
We have been lying in bed for the past hour talking about Jay's past and basking in the aftermath of our lovemaking.
Jay's fingers play with my hair as I sigh softly, truly happy for the first time in my life.
"Yeah. He is."
"Well I think you did an amazing thing, serving your country. I don't really get what he means by 'something important with your life'. The men and women who fight for this country are important, and so are the cops… just so you know. For when you become one."
"If I become one."
"When. I'm your lawyer aren't I? And I never lose." I look up and wink quickly.
"Really? You're not passing me off onto another lawyer?"
"I think the past few hours prove I'm not going anywhere Jay. Not now… I'm in too deep. I truly care for you and I need you in my life."
"I need you too… and not just because my life depends on it." I giggle before kissing his chin gently; he turns his head to capture my lips in his.
"I'm glad you didn't become a doctor just to please him. You were true to yourself. That takes real strength."
"Me too. My mum helped me stay true to who I was. She was great."
"She sounds it. I wish I could have met her." I place a kiss on Jay's chest, right over his heart.
"What about you?" He asks softly, hope in his tone. Knowing I don't indulge in speaking about my past or myself.
"I haven't ever told anyone. I didn't have a nice childhood." I whisper softly, busying myself by drawing patterns on his bare skin.
"You don't have to tell me." His lips find my forehead, comforting me.
"No, I want to." I insist, looking up into his eyes.
"Okay." His forehead rests against mine briefly.
"Let's just say my mother Bunny never won mother of the year. She was a junkie and an alcoholic… and the days she ignored me were the good ones. She kicked husband number five to the curb by the time I was fourteen; let's just say I've had some commitment issues." I pause for a moment, gathering my thoughts as I feel his fingers running along my spine.
"In fact until you, I've never wanted anything more than a casual fling."
I can sense Jay smiling briefly and I look up to meet his eyes to return the gesture.
"You want a relationship with me?" His blue eyes are hopeful and I nod, he leans down to place a kiss on my lips.
"Her boyfriends weren't nice guys, some showed too much interest in me… but mainly they were just violent." I feel Jay's hold on me tighten and I can sense he wants to carry out revenge on these people, with the skills the military taught him.
"When I was nine she OD'd on the kitchen floor… I didn't want to be taken away so I dragged her into the bathtub. No idea how I managed it… and I kept filling it with ice, just praying she wouldn't die. She finally came around, looked at me and said 'get my cigarettes Erin.'" I let out a bitter laugh.
I'm aware the memories are coming out jumbled, however my mind has locked them away so long I don't have the energy to order them. Wishing to speak about them and lock them away as quick as possible.
"I was in a women's shelter one summer when husband… three? Got abusive with her too and she left him. It was safe there…" I trail off, this memory one of the more pleasant.
"She bailed when I was fourteen for a while and I was on the streets doing… not nice things for money." I pause again as I feel the shame wash over me, reliving the years I wish to forget. The time of my life I try so hard to never think about, consumed by my work.
"She turned back up when I was fifteen but only for a fix… which she threw up all over me. I couldn't shower so I went to school like that. The embarrassment… a teacher actually accused me of having a drinking problem. And like always I copped to it, protecting my mum. That's around the time I met Hank." I'm whispering, mind caught in the past nightmare I lived.
"Your boss?" Jay asks recalling the time he's met him, I nod softly.
"He's scary. And I was in the military." I chuckle softly.
"He's a big softie."
"Sure." Jay raises an eyebrow in disbelief.
"Anyway, he was doing some pro bono work and came across my case. He got me off the charges and then… I guess he took a shining to me. He offered me a place in his home… in his family. His wife Camille was lovely and his son Justin was mostly a good guy. Camille died of cancer a few years ago…"
"I'm sorry." I shrug softly.
"Anyway, Hank pushes me hard in school. He said I was smart and the sky was the limit. I knew pretty quick that I wanted to be a lawyer like Hank, and fight back against injustice. I graduated top of my class… and here I am. All thanks to Hank." I shrug as a way of ending my story, wishing to distract myself from the onslaught of memories springing free.
"So I have Hank to thank for bringing you to me." Jay whispers before kissing me softly.
The kisses turn passionate when he pushes his tongue in, and soon Jay has rolled us over for another round of making love.
The next morning I wake up to the smell of bacon, eggs and coffee and crack an eye to find Jay at my bedside with food.
"You certainly know the way to my heart." I joke as he chuckles at me.
"Morning baby." He tells me as I sit up.
He places the tray across my lap as he leans in for a quick peck, before going around to join me in bed.
We eat breakfast in silence as I cuddle up to his side, not addressing the heaviness in the room and the unanswered questions swirling around us.
"Thanks babe. It was great." I cradle the coffee between my hands as Jay places the tray on the floor.
"You stayed." He comments quietly.
"I thought that's what you wanted?"
"It is. I'm so happy you stayed. Just part of me worried you would regret it and run away."
"I'm done pretending, and running away and pushing you away. I want this. We'll make it work." I smile softly up at him, trying to block out the persistent thoughts about the trial.
"Of course we will." Jay places a kiss on my lips.
"I do need to get to work though." I pull away regrettably.
"I have this big case to work on… you might have heard about it." I wink playfully at him.
"How about I join you in the shower?" I groan at his raised eyebrow knowing I can't say no to that.
"Okay, meet you in there." I give him one last kiss before getting out of bed; completely aware he's admiring my body as I walk towards the bathroom.
I throw my wet hair into a messy bun as Jay's hands are around my waist from behind.
"Stop, you're going to make me late. Well, even later." I giggle as his lips meet my neck.
"I can't help myself." His scuff rubs against my neck.
I roll my eyes as I do my pants up and start on my shirt buttons.
I'm checking my voicemails on my phone as I look for my shoes, finally free from Jay's grip.
"Oh my god." I whisper and drop the shoe I just located.
"What?" Jay is instantly worried and looking at me across the bed.
"The DNA results are in." My heart is in my throat as I listen to the message, Jay's blue eyes searching my face.
"The prosecutor wants to see me."
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