I don't own "Crush" by David Archuleta.
Austin's POV
I close my locker when Dallas and Dez come up to me. "Wassup, bro. That's a dope outfit you got on." Dallas complimented leaning his head against with a sympathetic look. "You don't have to make me feel better. The date happened and I'm pretty sure it will again." I said as him and Dez both sigh a little. "I'm sorry dude. I thought it would another way." He apologized as I shook my head. "It's not your fault. It was just amount of time before some guy took a chance on her. I should have known beauty like hers doesn't last long without getting notice." I said as they just felt even worse for me. "Hey, man. You were just trying to be a good guy, being patient for Cheryl." Dez reminded me as I nodded. "Yeah...well if Chris is really a good guy like you say Dallas then I'm happy for them both." I said as we both start to walk when I watch Amy come in with Cassidy smiling and laughing.
They are probably talking about how great the date went. Ugh. I don't wanna see this. They spot us and come over to us. "Hey guys." Amy greeted as we smiled at her even though I was hiding my disappointment from last night. "So, you dudes hear about the dance tomorrow night?" Cassidy said as we looked at each other. "No. When was this announced?" Dallas asked. "I don't know. Apparently, the dance committee had late notice because of a surprise guest that's coming and put it up yesterday." She responded as our eyes widen.
"What the hell? And they expect me to still go to it?" I asked baffled. "Austin, of course. It's the homecoming dance." She replied as Amy sighed a little looking around. "Don't tell me you've never been to one of those?" Dez asked amused as we all looked at her. "Can't say I have..." She trailed off as we all chuckled. "God, Amy. You might as well have been home schooled." Cassidy said as she smiled a little. "You have no idea." She replied as they went to their locker and we followed.
"So, what time you want me to pick you up tomorrow babe?" Dallas asked as Cassidy giggled confusing him.
"Oh, I'm sorry. If you think that's the way you are asking me then you forget about it." She said with sassy smile walking away causing me, Dez and Amy to laugh at the shots fired.
Dallas throws his hands into the air. "What was that about? We are already dating? Why do I have to make some grand gesture?" He said confused as Amy faced him. "She's a girl. They love romantic things, so just do something romantic." She advised as he sighed and nodded. "Alright fine. I'll try to think of something. I got to get to class. Thanks Amy. See you dudes." He said as we waved bye to him.
"So, are you gonna ask Carrie to the dance?" I asked Dez with a smirk as he shrugged. "I don't know. I don't think dances are really our thing." He said as I nodded understanding. "That doesn't matter. From what I hear from Cassidy and the countless romantic films she's showed me, they are the nights of all nights for couples." Amy said with a smile which made me smile because she is just so beautiful. "Okay, then. I'll think about asking her." Dez said with a smile before heading out to his class.
"Wow. You are on a roll today." I say with a smile.
"What do you mean?" She asked confused.
"You giving all the guys advice about their girls." I said as she giggled.
"Oh yeah. Maybe I can give you some too. Any special girl you taken to the dance?" She asked sweetly even though she didn't seem as enthusiastic to ask me.
"Nope. None I wanna take." I admit as she nodded with a small smile.
"May I ask why?"
"I guess I have't found the right one." I said lying because I feel like I don't have a chance with Amy since she's with Chris and all. Amy looks down upset which confuses me deeply.
"Oh...I'm sorry to hear that. Lately, you've looked like may have found someone new. You seemed happier." She said looking in my eyes as I shrugged sadly.
"Yeah, me too. Turns out, I don't know if she feels the same and it seems like I never will. So, the best I can do it move on." I tell her honestly.
"Wow. I'm sorry." She said sympathetic.
"It's okay. It's not like it's your fault." I said as she nodded not making eye contact.
"So, what about you? Going to the dance with Chris I'm guessing?" I smiled not genuinely at all because I really wanted to puke when it came out my mouth.
Amy looks at me confused but before she could speak, the late bell rang. "Oh shit! We are so late." I said looking around the empty hallway. "Yeah, we need to go now!" Amy said as we raced down the hallway.
Amy and I head to art class where our teacher is handing out aprons while we watch students collect paint buckets and brushes. "I'm guessing we are kind of late..." Amy said cringing a bit as I nodded awkwardly when the teacher came over to us. "Austin and Amy, get started. Late again, and I'm given out detention." She warned. "Yes ma'am." We said getting out own supplies going to our own white boards and drawing on them.
I splash three random colors on the huge canvas which makes Amy throw her head back and laugh. "What's so funny, Russo?" I ask with a smile as she giggles more coming over to me. "You! How can a guy so talented be so bad at painting?" She said as I fake gasp. "I would say I'm hurt but I won't take it personal considering I am amazing." I said as she looked amused.
"Oh really?"
"Really. Let me show you." I said as we walked over to her canvas.
We put the goggles on our face while I wrap my arms around hers holding one of her hands with the brush in the hand. She smiles slightly looking back at me. "Show me Mr. ArtMan." She said seductively but mocking me at the same time as I smile before pulling both our hands back before splashing the paint all over the canvas.
It makes a noise that makes Amy crack up turning around to face me. "Oh my god, Austin. That was actually pretty awesome!" She said smiling with her hands all over as I smile not complaining at the touchiness. "Told ya." I said turning her around and wrapping my arms around her once again loving how it felt.
I watch her softly bite her lower lip before leaning into my chest. "See, it's not about making it beautiful. It'a about making it fun." I said in her ear as I heard her shiver a little as she smiled turning her head just a little as our lips were just a second apart. "I like your vision." She said lowly before glancing at my lips as I do the same.
"Amy, hey." We hear cutting us off and I turn around to see it's Chris. I groan internally. This is unbelievable. Amy and I were this close to kissing. Okay, maybe we weren't gonna kiss because technically none of us leaned in but it seemed like we both hinted that's what we wanted. Wait? She's dating Chris though? I'm wrong. I would never wanna take another man's girl. No matter how much I like her.
"I'll be over there." I tell her as she nod awkwardly as Chris went over to her.
Ally's POV
"Hey Chris. How are you?" I asked awkwardly after he caught Austin and I in a moment.
"I'm fine. I'm sorry about ruining that potential moment between you and Austin but I felt it was only right to tell you, you shouldn't jump into a relationship with him yet because I was just talking to Dallas and apparently Austin's not dating anyone at the moment out of respect for Cheryl." He informed me as I take a look at Austin who's minding his own business with his terrible but amazing art.
I sigh facing Chris again. "Of course he is. I was too "
"Why were you gonna wait to date for Cheryl?" He asked confused.
"Because apparently I'm the girl Austin likes. At least, that's what Cheryl says."
"You are. I think that's pretty sure."
"Yeah, it doesn't matter anymore. It's gonna be a while."
"Maybe not. I saw Cheryl this morning laughing with some of her friends with a genuine smile on her face." He told me surprising me.
"I'm not saying she's completely over the heartbreak but it definitely seems like she's trying and succeeding." He added making a small smile appear on my face.
"Good for her." I say as he nods. "And thanks again Chris for the warning. I don't deserve it after last night." I told him.
"Stop it. I told you we were cool. It's all good." He replied with a smile as I returned it.
"Why are all Chris's I know, are good guys?" I said thinking about my publicity boyfriend Christopher Wilde.
"You know another Chris?"
"Yeah. He is amazing."
"Well, I'm glad I'm following in the right foot steps." He said with a chuckle.
"See you around, Chris." I said as he smiled waving and leaving back to his session.
"So, what was that about?" Austin said slyly coming back over making me giggle.
"You work fast." I said folding my arms against my chest.
"I'm a little nosy to be honest." He said as I chuckled.
"It's okay. Chris was just giving me some nice advice."
"Oh...okay, cool." He said with a casual shrug.
I smile and walk over to him pulling him to me by his apron. He looks a little nervous but happy. "You confuse me Amy Russo." He said as I fury my eyebrows. "Why is that?" I asked tilting my head. "The things you do..." He trailed off as I giggle. "Well, you confuse me too but right now I just want you to show me more of your skills, Mr. ArtMan." I said with raised eyebrows as he chuckled with a smirk coming over to me.
He wrapped his arms around me again for the third time and I smile in paradise. We might can't be together now but I'm okay with this. Being in his arms freely and happily because it's rare to find someone just right for you and Austin is definitely it. I just don't know how I'm going to eventually tell him my secret because I have to tell him before we get together or it just wouldn't be fair to him.
I'm just scared because what if he doesn't feel the way that he use too because of what I look like now. I mean I will be a completely different person. Or worse. What if he just be so ecstatic that he landed a pop star who fell in love with him and uses me for fame and attention? Oh no. Austin is not like that. he would never do that because he's not the type of person. I'm just nervous about the whole thing the deeper I get into it.
*Time Skip*
I've been in history class with Trish and Cassidy for the past 40 minutes and thank god because it has been so boring. I look over to Trish in the back laughing at her phone which tells me she's most likely face timing Jace. I smile turning back to the front of the class happy for her even though I'm a little jealous that it's so easy for the person she likes.
The bell finally rings as I sigh relieved as the class stands up. "Wait a minute, people." Mrs. Grey said as we all groaned. "Oh, I guess you all don't want your test scores from last week?" She asked tapping the stack of papers as people race up to get the.
I walk up along with Trish and Cassidy. "Yes! A 82." Cassidy said with a smile and fist bump in the air. "This definitely an upgrade from last D." She said relieved. "Proud of you, Cass." I said as she smiled grateful. "A 76? Good enough for me." Trish said with a shrug making us both laugh. I look in the pile until I find name and pick it up with a smile until I see the grade. "A 94? Are you kidding me?!" I yelled as some of the class faced me while the rest left.
"Amy, that's amazing. What's the fuss?" Cassidy said confused as I looked at her shocked.
"Are you serious? Does this look like a hundred?" I said facing the paper to them roughly as they both look at each other strangely.
"Amy, we really are not understanding the problem." Trish added as I groaned stomping over to the teacher's desk. The rest of the students have been gone heading to their next class, though I didn't think of leaving because Mrs. Grey didn't have a next class. "Um, Mrs. Grey?" I asked as she looked up to me with a small smile. "Yes Amy?" She replied nicely. "I wanted to talk about my grade." I told her as Cassidy and Trish stood behind me still confused about the situation.
"Oh, right. Aren't you happy about your grade? You got the highest in the class." She said cheerful as I didn't smile.
"Then why do I have an 94?" I questioned folding my arms against my chest.
"Huh?"
"You gave me a 94. Where's my hundred?" I asked again as Trish held my arm gently.
"Amy, I really think you should-" I shrugged Trish's arm off me.
"I do everything perfect. How is this even possible?" I asked still stunned as she looked at me shocked.
"Amy, I don't get it. I thought you would be happy with the score. You did very well." She complimented.
"Obviously not good enough." I said lowly and irritated.
"I'm sorry if you are use to something better, but if you ask me you should be proud of yourself." She said as I rolled my eyes.
"Well, I didn't ask you and I'm not proud of myself." I said angry crumbling the test paper, throwing it out and storming out the class.
I hear running behind me but I don't pay it no mind. "Whoa, Missy hold on there!" I heard Cassidy say as I turned around casual. "What?" I say as they look at me like I'm crazy. "What? Did you just say what? You yelled at our teacher and crumbled your test in her face!" Trish said with a raised voice. "No need to yell." I said folding my arms. "Really? Because you didn't seem to mind when it was towards Mrs. Grey." She replied smartly as I got upset.
"What's you guys problem?"
"Our problem? What the hell, Amy! What was that?"
"I told you. She cheated me on my grade." I said still upset about the situation.
"Amy, you got a good grade! You're the one who's making it a problem." Cassidy said looking at me disappointed.
"It was not a good grade." I said scoffing as I turned away and they just ran in front of me again.
"Look, I don't know what kind of school they have back in Michigan but in here. In regular school, that is considered a good grade. And even if it wasn't, you had no reason to speak to such a nice teacher that way." Trish told me which meant she had to be really upset because she was the most disrespectful person I know.
"I don't know what to say. I have to go." I said lowly as they sigh shaking their head while I walk away and thankfully don't follow me this time.
I turn a few hallways before I see Austin in front of his open locker. I smile walking over to him. "Hey stranger." I say as he jumps a little causing me to giggle. "Sorry." I said shaking my head as he chuckles a little. "It's fine. As long as you don't tell anyone." He said as I did a motion locking my lips and throwing away they key.
"So, what class do you have right now?" He asked me.
"Algebra. I don't feel like going though." I admitted.
"That's surprising considering you are a school lover."
"Shut up. I just love that this place is different than what I'm use to." I say as he nods with a smile.
Austin then closes his door before leaning against it facing me. "Are you okay? You seem a little sad." He pointed out as I sighed a little. "I had an argument with a few friends." I said not wanting to say it was Cassidy and Trish because he'll want to know what it's about and I don't wanna talk about it. "Oh...I'm sorry." He apologized even though he had no reason too.
"Hey, come with me." He said as a smiled popped up on his face holding out his hand. I fury my eyebrows with confusion but take his hand anyway as he leads me to a secret closed off staircase in the school. We head about 6 stairways until we reach a bright red door. He motions to me to not make noise until I watch as he opens the door.
I finally see that we are on the roof of the school and laugh in amazement. "Oh my god!" I said looking around as my hair blows in the wind. "I know. It's pretty awesome right?" He said as I nodded with a huge smile going to the edge. "Be careful now." He said holding my waist as I giggle backing away from it as he let go.
"When did you discover how to get up here?" I asked curious.
"One day, I was getting into an argument with one of my past girlfriends through text while I was heading to class. I guess I was so focused on the conversation that I went up to many steps. But by then, I was too curious to find out what the door lead to and of course it was this awesome roof." He said with his arms open wide motioning to it.
"Why did you bring me here?" I asked walking closer to him.
"You were upset and I figured this view would cheer you up."
"You definitely were right." I said looking out at it.
"Am I the first?" I ask turning my head to his.
"Huh?" He replied not knowing what I meant.
"The first one you showed up here?" I said more clearly.
"Oh. Uh yes." He admitted more shyly.
"Really? Not even your ex's when you were with them?"
"Nope."
"Well, I'm honored." I said with a smile to him as he returned it as I sat down along the edge and he followed doing the same.
I sigh looking at all the buildings, houses and other schools miles away. "Moments like these are when I feel the most at peace. I don't get to have normal nights like these." I said out loud closing my eyes taking in the nice breeze. "You could if you came on our shared balcony more." He said as I opened my eyes. "You remember what it was like the night you made me sing something? It's always beautiful like that." He said as I smiled putting my head on his shoulder. "I believe it." I said lowly enjoying his presence.
"Thank you for showing me this. It really made me feel better." I told him sweetly, sitting up and looking at his adorable handsome face.
"It was no problem. I always want you happy Amy." He said genuinely making me smile widely. God, I like him so much.
*Time Skip*
Austin and I enter the cafeteria together as he went over to greet some of his football teammates while I head in line. I notice Cassidy and Trish get in the back of me but I don't say anything and they don't either.
I walk further up the line when I see the nasty food I see everyday and now I am just sick of it. "Um, excuse me lunch lady." I said grossed out over the food. "It's Rose." She said sternly tapping the name tag on her as I looked around strange as if I was suppose to care about. She's just a lunch lady? "Well...Rose. Do you happen to have something better than this?" I asked as she looked at me as if I was silly. "Come on, you're holding up the line!" I hear a guy in the back as I ignore it. "What would you suggest, ma'am?" She asked sarcastically with her hand on her hip.
"Do you have any lobster, caviar or-"
"I'm sorry, did you just say lobster and caviar?" She asked baffled.
"Excuse me Miss. She will just take a hamburger and potatoes." Cassidy said butting in as she gave me that as the lady still looked at me like I was on another planet.
"Ugh, what the hell Cassidy?" I said pissed that she ordered for me. Something I didn't want by the way.
"Amy, be happy she did that. You were pissing people off from taking long in the line and you ordering ridiculous foods." Trish stated shaking my head at my
suggestions.
"How is lobster ridiculous?" I asked confused.
"It's ridiculous because it's high school! When are you gonna get that Amy?" Cassidy said walking away with Trish as they sat down at the table. I sigh walking over and sitting in between Austin and Dez. I start to eat my regular food before a guy walks up to the table. "Hey Amy." The tall guy says as the people at the table look at me as I just look awkward. "Hey..." I said because I didn't know him. "I was wondering if you wanted to go out sometime." He asked as Austin shuffled a little uncomfortable.
"Um, excuse me. I forgot I was suppose to get something from my teacher." Austin said excusing himself from the table and leaving the cafeteria. "I actually am not looking for a boyfriend at the moment. Sorry." I said turning the guy down as he nodded disappointed walking away. "Yeah, that wasn't awkward at all." Dez said as we all chuckled going back to our food.
Austin's POV
I had to excuse myself from the lunch table because I couldn't handle another guy drooling over Amy who wasn't me. I know she's dating Chris and all but it still hurts to see all those guys fond of her knowing I'll never have a chance. I'm sorry if I'm being dramatic but this is so new to me. I'm usually the one being chased. I never was cocky but girls were always into me. I didn't have to worry if I had a shot or not but Amy is different. I'm not the center of her universe even if she did like me and I like that.
She's beautiful, smart and strong and I can't get enough of her. I walk into the room where we first sang together and sit on the piano. Man, I wanna express my feelings to her so bad but I can't yet. If I could write songs, it would be so easy so I could at least sing it. But I don't know how. Maybe I could if I just listened to what Amy said. Sing from the heart. I smile to myself getting a book from my book bag starting to write down the way Amy makes me feel so I can turn it into hopefully a good song.
Ally's POV
I left lunch once I was done. I enter the hallways which are very empty because I left about 20 minutes early. I go to my locker putting some books inside and when I close it, Trish and Cassidy are leaning against it making me jump back. "Jesus, girls. You scared me." I said as they stood up straight. "We are going to fix you." Trish said as Cassidy bumped her arm. "What she meant was, is that we are going to help you." Cassidy fixed the words as I tilted my head.
"What?" I said confused.
"Amy, you may not notice it but you have high maintenance issues." Trish told me.
"I do?"
"Yes." She confirmed.
"We like you Amy so much but we fear that these tendencies of yours can get in the way of our friendship." Cassidy told me as I fury my eyebrows.
"Wait, seriously?" I asked baffled.
"Yes. So, what do you say?" Trish asked as they squint their eyes watching my every move.
I looked in disbelief that they were taking this so serious. I don't know what I'm doing, but maybe that's the problem. They are trying to show me the problem. I look at them as they are looking hopeful. "Sure, I guess. Anything for our friendship." I said casually as they smiled cheerful hugging me. "Yay. You are gonna be so grateful Amy. You won't regret it, I promise." Cassidy said as I nodded still not sure about it.
"Okay, let's go somewhere." Trish said as we walked outside and sat down at a four seat bench, where I sat across from them.
"Alright, what are we doing?" I ask as Cassidy gets a book out opening.
"These are a list of things you need to work on. We are gonna help you improve them." She said handing me the book as I look down at it.
"Food?" I said as they both nodded eagerly.
"You have it in your head that everyone is served what you are use to being served. Normal kids that are not born like you do not get the luxury of having what you do." Trish explained as I nodded slowly. "Okay, got it." I said plainly. "Are you sure? Because you need to take this seriously or it could really backfire on you." Cass said worried. "Yes, I'm positive. Others are not as blessed as I am. I forget sometimes. I'm sorry. Moving on?" I say as they look each other before nodding.
"Alright, your obsession with perfectness. You need to get one thing straight. You are not perfect." Cassidy told me as I take offence. "That's a mean things to say." I said crossing my arms. "That's the things, Amy. No, it isn't because nobody is. No one is perfect because we are human and we all make mistakes." She continued explaining as I shook my head. "My mother always told me I was perfect that's why she never expected anything less from me." I replied as they sighed.
"I'm sorry but your mom lied to you." Trish said as I gasp standing up. "How dare you say that?"I ask looking at her highly upset. "Because it's true." She replied standing up as well along with Cassidy. "I'm sorry Amy but your mom wanted you to be perfect that's why she told you those things so if you actually believed it, you would act the part. Why is it so hard for you to accept that you are just like everyone else? Isn't that why you came here? To live like everyone else? Normal?" Trish said as I stared at her blankly.
"I'm not like everyone else. I'm special. If you really knew me and the things I've done in my life, you would see that I'm above average." I said thinking of my life before as they get taken back. "I'm sure you have done some great things in your life Amy, but I'm not sure I can be cool with someone who thinks low of me." Cassidy said with hurt in her eyes. "I don't think low of you. I just know where I stand in my life." I said placing my hands on my hips. "Yeah, higher than others right?" Trish asked hurt as well as I sighed.
"What do you want me to say? Change everything I am?" I said as they looked at me in disbelief. "No, Amy. We liked you for who you were until this side came out. How do you expect us to be friends with someone who constantly puts themselves first because they feel superior?" Cassidy said as I didn't respond for a few seconds. "What are you saying?" I asked not having anything else to say. "I don't think we can be your friends." Trish finally said as I raise my eyebrows in shock when I look over at Cassidy who doesn't say anything looking down.
I laugh sarcastically shaking my head. "Wow. Okay. Fine." I said walking away and back into the building. I head to my locker, grab the rest of my things and start to head out the door when a sound catches my ear.
Austin's POV
I smile satisfied with the conclusion of the song. I did it. I actually did it...and it's not no where near as bad as I thought it would be. It's actually pretty good. Very good. I wanna try it out now without stopping this time. I place my hands on the piano keyboards and start playing the melody I created for the vibe of the song.
Verse 1
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
'Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Pre Chorus
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Chorus
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way you do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Verse 2
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it's a chance we've gotta take
'Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever
Chorus
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Bridge
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know
Chorus
Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way you do?
'Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
I take a breath from putting my all into it. I then hear clapping behind me causing me to hurriedly turn around to see Amy with a huge smile on her face. "That was amazing, but I'm a little upset you lied to me." She said amused coming over to me as I still sit looking up to her.
"What do you mean?"
"What do I mean? I mean you telling me on one of the first days I met you, that you couldn't write a song to save your life." She said with raised eyebrows as I laughed.
"I was telling the truth, but I just listened to what you told me. Write from the heart." I repeated as she nodded with a smile.
"You must have a lot of love in your heart because that was surely some song." She compliment before her smile went down a little. "Whoever the song is about is a really lucky girl." She told me as I nodded. "I wish she felt that way." I said as tilted her head. "Okay, you are too handsome, popular and cool to be depressed." She said as we both laughed.
"I promise you I am not depressed. I have a good life. I'm just a little sad in the love department." I admitted. "Same here." She said before picking up her bag. "Where you going?" I asked curious. "Home." She said casually. "But there's football practice next period which means that there's also cheer practice, and the games tomorrow." I told her as she shrugged. "I'm aware. I know my moves perfectly. They'll be fine." She said walking away before coming back over as I stand up.
Amy smiled and leaned in hugging me as I hug her back around her waist. "That really was a great song." She said as I breathed her in. "Thank you." I respond as she pulled away. "I wish you would let other people see your talent even if that's not your passion." She told me as I smiled. "I might have to now that we have music class." I replied as she chuckled. "See you tomorrow. Good luck in practice." She said nicely as I nodded grateful as she walked out.
Ally's POV
I head to Cassidy's house with the spare key and head up to our room. I sigh taking off my wig letting my real, curly brown hair out. I look in the mirror taking off my contacts looking at myself that I haven't seen in a while. I think I'm starting to lose my own self in this fake world I created. I'm being myself but I'm losing it as well. I don't know what to do.
I hate fighting with Trish and Cassidy especially since they have become like sisters to me. I flop on my bed turning on the TV to see that a rerun of the WMA's. Of course I catch the part of my performance of my song "Spotlight." I looked so happy because I was but I also faked a smile for the moments I was feeling overwhelmed with it all.
I play on my phone until something in the corner of my eye catches my attention. I look up to see that it's only Cassidy's posters Ally Dawson. Me. I sigh standing up and going over to them. I touch the outfit part of the poster as I look up to my face with a huge smile and the microphone in the air for the fans to sing alone.
I go over to the next one, where it's a photo shoot picture from me on the beach. I'm in a loose spring dress with a flower in my hair as I look in peace and freely but it was far from it. That actual day was so hot and I remember posing for 2 hours straight. What people don't know is that nothing it's ever as close as to what meets the eye.
My phone rings and I go over to my bed to see that it's Cassidy and the next time it was Trish. I ignore when I see the award still on as they announce the winner of Artist of the Year. "And the winner for Artist of the Year is...Ally Dawson!" The host screamed as the whole stadium gave me a standing ovation as I stand up along with Christopher Wilde who gives me a kiss before I head up on stage.
I watch myself as I go up there remembering that long red sexy dress. "Hey, guys. How you doing tonight?" I ask as they audience cheers louder making me smile. "This is amazing. Wow. I have so many people to thank like my extremely supportive boyfriend." I said as the crowd screamed showing him as he smiled widely. "My amazing mom who has been with me through everything." I said holding my chest as they flash the camera towards her as she glances up to me proudly.
In that moment, I feel my heartbreak. Seeing my mom face made me feel the same way I felt when I watched the videos of her and Raina that night in my car. It makes me think of what I did and how wrong it was to just up and leave. I had a life and my mother probably thinks I'm kidnapped or murdered somewhere and I feel horrible that it's all my fault.
"But most importantly...my fans." I said as the whole stadium screamed even louder. "There aren't words to describe what you do for me and what you mean to me. I'm forever grateful for this moment and all the rest to come because you are the reason I'm on this stage so thank you. Thank you so much!" I said lastly as they cheered me off stage as I smiled kissing the people goodbye.
What if I made a big mistake? What if I was never meant to come here. When I first got here, I thought it was destined because I met so many wonderful people but I continue to screw things up. I mean, even as a different person, my love life is messy. Then the girls I thought liked me tell me that they don't even know if they can be friends with me anymore. I shouldn't have came here. I need to go.
I place my wig on again, along with my eye contacts because Cassidy was going to be home soon and she couldn't see who I am. Just because I'm leaving doesn't mean I have to expose myself. I open my drawer to start packing things when I stopped by the front door opening and I hear footsteps running up the steps.
I ignore it putting my clothes on the bed when Cassidy and Trish rush in. "Amy, what are you doing?" Cassidy said sadly coming over to me along with Trish. "I'm doing you a favor. I'm leaving." I said without making eye contact as Trish stopped my hands. "You are not leaving." She told me as I made a confused face. "Isn't that what you wanted? I mean you said yourselves that we couldn't be friends." I said looking down a bit.
"We were wrong, Amy to say that." Cassidy said putting her hands on my shoulders forcing me to look at her. "The truth is...you are one of the best people we've ever met." She confessed as I look them both deeply in their eyes. "Maybe that's why we went so hard on you with the lessons. We wanted you to fit in badly because you really do feel like one of us Amy. Since the day you walked in those school doors." Trish added as I smiled a little before it faded.
"Thank you. I truly appreciate it. I'm sorry too. You guys aren't lower than me and neither is no one else. I'm just like everyone else and I hate that it took me this many years to find out." I sadly apologized as they smiled. "But it doesn't make a difference. I may be everyone's equal but I still don't belong here. I don't fit in. I don't know what I'm doing half the time. I'm a mess basically." I said with tears in my eyes as they look at me sympathetic. "So what? Everyone's a mess sometimes. I know we are." Trish told me as I laughed a little. "Amy, you say you don't belong here and don't fit in but look at what you just said. You called yourself a mess when you always viewed yourself as perfect." Cassidy pointed out and I realized she was right. "You are changing for the better even though you were awesome to begin with." She finished as I smiled.
"So, do you really think I should stay?" I asked one last time.
"I might kill you if you don't." Trish said as I laughed hugging them as some tears fall but happily.
We pull away as I wipe away my tears. "I love you girls." I said as they smiled at me before helping me put my things back away. "Hey, Dez just texted me that Austin is having a sleepover at his house and wondered if we wanted to come." Trish said. "Guys have sleepovers?" I asked with a giggle along with Cassidy. "Shut up. Do you wanna go?" Trish asked again facing us as Cassidy and I looked at each other before shrugging. "Yeah, sure. That sounds like fun." I said as Cassidy smiled agreeing.
Austin's POV
I wait as Dallas and Dez comes in the living room with snacks and drinks for the night. "Did you call them?" I asked Dez as he sat down along with Dallas. "I texted Trish and she said they would be on their way as soon as they were done packing for the night." He explained as I nodded taking in the information.
"So, what are we gonna do when they get here?" Dallas asked casually while eating some popcorn out the bucket as I shrugged. "I figured we would think about that when they got here." I said as he nodded digging himself more into the bowl. "Don't be so greedy, fatty." I told him as he faked gasped. "Did you just fat shame me?" He said as Dez laughed shaking his head getting his phone out. "I think I did dude. I apologize." I said as he glared at me as a knock appeared on the door.
All of us turned that way as I stood up along with Dallas. "I got it. Help Dez with the rest of the drinks in the kitchen." Dallas told me as I made a confused face. "It's my house." I said as shrugged. "Don't care." He said chuckling heading to the door as I rolled my eyes going to the kitchen with Dez getting the other drinks.
When we come back, we see Trish, Cassidy and Amy in there pajamas. Amy's consisted of a cute punk set which was booty shorts and thin tee. She looked absolutely adorable which would make being around her so much harder. I am a mess.
"Hey ladies." I say as they turn to me with a smile but I focus on Amy's. "Hey Austin." They all say simultaneously putting there things down near the steps.
"So, what's the reason for this sleepover Blondie?" Cassidy asked going over to get chips in dip. I shrugged as Amy faced me while Trish went over to Dez and Dallas eating popcorn. "I figured it'd be nice for all of us to hang out." I told her as she smiled.
"Is there anything you need help with?" Amy asked politely coming up to me making me wish that I actually did need help so I can get alone time with her. I try to think of something before turning to the rest of the group. "Any of you want pancakes?" I asked them as they all gave me confused faces. "At night?" Dez responded. "Pancakes are for all the time." I reply. "Should figure considering Austin's obsession with those damn things." Dallas said shaking his head while the rest giggled. "Why not?" Trish shrugged as the rest agreed.
Amy smiled going in the kitchen with me. "Where are they?" She asked. "Top cabinet." I pointed while I got the pan out. "Uh, little help please?" I hear her whimper when I turn around to see her struggling on her tippy toes reaching up causing her small t shirt to rise as well. I laugh to myself before going over to her small adorable body. "Come on Shortie." I said picking her up as she reaches and grabs the box coming back down. "Thanks giant." She said going over to the pan making me smile.
"So, watch the master teach an amateur something." I said as she gasped with a smile. "Shame on you Mr. Moon for assuming a lady like me can't make pancakes from scratch." She said causing me to raise my eyebrows and fold my arms against my chest.
"You can make pancakes...from scratch?" I say truly surprised considering her past and how she was raised as she nodded. "Though I may have been privileged, when I was kid my mom would make the best pancakes for me. Apparently, my dad loved them too and when I was 10 she taught me along with a bunch of other stuff. Cooking is probably the only thing I'm good at doing by myself." She informed me which made me even more amazed with her. "Wow." I said in disbelief as she smiled up to me.
"Alright then. You do your thing."
"I will, but I prefer you back in there with the rest of them. I'll surprise you all with them." She said as I put my arms up with a smile.
"Chef Russo. Take it away." I said watching her get to work as I shake my head with a smile thinking if I ever got her to go out with me, I definitely would have won the jackpot.
Ally's POV
I finish all the pancakes finishing off with a little- well you'll see. In this case, read. I walk in the living room with two huge plates as the gang looks at me and gasp running over in anticipation. They stare in awe of how soft and fluffy they look.
"Amy, these look amazing!" Cassidy commented as they nodded agreeing. "Yeah, where did you learn how to cook?" Dallas asked trying to pick at one when Trish swatted his hand. "All on the courtesy of my mama. Here are your 18 delicious, soft, fluffy pancakes sided with some vanilla ice cream, whip cream and sprinkles." I said as they moaned in hunger as I put it down.
"Everyone gets 3 so no going overboard. Dig in!" I cheered as they ran into the kitchen getting their own plates and picking out there pancakes. "God, these are so gooooood." Austin groaned against his lips making me chuckle. "Thank you sir." I said flipping my hair dramatically.
"If I wasn't dating someone, I'd ask you to marry me." Dez said laying on the sofa holding his stomach with his mouth full as we all laugh at the look. "Awe, that's flattering Dez, but I can just teach Carrie to make pancakes just like me." I said as he turned to me with still a full face of food. "I love you." He said making us all laugh once again.
We all decide to watch TV while our stomachs rest after eating my pancakes. Trish eventually turns to a channel which is playing a DVD version of my Spotlight Tour. It's on the part of one of my sexier performances which I find ironic considering the fact that I'm still a virgin. I was taught well that I had a natural sex appeal anyway though.
The girls I just watch as the guys watch in awe. Cassidy slaps Dallas's head making me and Trish laugh. "I thought you guys didn't like her." Cassidy said folding her arms against her chest. "Hey! I never said that. I said she was extremely hot." Dallas defended looking back at the screen. "Me neither. I always thought she was talented. Trish and Austin are the Ally Dawson haters." Dez said shrugging as they laughed at his dag.
"Well, maybe so but...just look at her. You can't deny how beautiful she is..." Austin said staring in a trance at me on TV. I look down and smile to myself at what Austin said about the real me.
"Okay, what do you dudes and dudettes wanna do now?" Dallas asked. "How about Truth or Dare?" Trish offered as we all looked around and then shrugged. "Yeah, alright cool." Austin said as we all went on the living room floor going in a circle.
"Who's first?" Dez asked.
"I'll go." Cass said with a smile raising her hand.
"Alright, babe. Truth or dare." He groaned as she picked him making us laugh.
"Dare."
"Punk!" She responded because he didn't wanna answer none of her questions while we crack up.
"Okay, I dare you to do a handstand for five minutes."
"Come on babe, that's it?"
"Well, if you didn't chicken out and chose truth, I would have better!" She said upset as he stood up and did it but failed after three minutes falling on his bum. "Ow!" He said as Cassidy shook her head disappointed. "It's not my fault. The blood was literally rushing to my head!" He said as we all laughed.
"Alright, I'll go next." Dez said before looking around and settling on Austin.
"Truth or Dare?"
"Truth." He replied quickly.
"Okay...do you know where your ex Brittany is?" He asked as the rest of the group laughed while I made a confused face. "Of course not." Austin replied amused.
"Why do people always think that I do?" He added. "Because she was obsessed with you!" Cassidy said with a chuckle. "Yeah, and I guess everyone figured that she would call or contact you somehow to let you know where she was." Trish said.
"I'm sorry, I'm confused. Who is Brittany?" I asked baffled. "Oh, she's one of the many ex's of Austin's." Dallas told me with a smirk. "Dude!" Austin said bumping his shoulder. "Anyway, her and Austin dated for about 3 months before he dumped her realizing she was freaking psycho!" Dallas admitted. "Then she tried for 2 weeks to get him back by doing these ridiculous things!" Cassidy added shaking her head as she remembered them. "She eventually left the school randomly and hasn't come back since. She's been gone for two months." Dez finished as I look stunned.
"So she just disappeared?" I asked.
"Pretty much." Austin said shrugging.
"You don't worry about her?" I asked at how non sympathetic he was.
"If you knew how crazy she was, you would be just like me." He told me as I nodded trusted him.
"What about her parents? Do they have any idea where she is?" I asked as they all looked around. "There were rumors that they sent her away to get help..." Trish said as my eyes widen. "Wow. That's crazy." I said as they all nodded in agreement.
"Okay enough of that. My turn." Trish said as we went back into game mode. "Amy, truth or dare?" She asked me as I smiled feeling brave. "Dare." I answered surprising everybody. "I dare you to run in the middle of the street while it's raining right now." Trish told her as everyone looks amused as I smile and shrug. "Okay, that seems easy besides me getting wet." I said as she chuckled shaking her head. "I wasn't finished. You have to run down the street in you bra and underwear." She said as I gasp a little as the rest laugh while stunned.
"Um...no!"
"You have too, Amy. You picked dare." Cassidy added in as I scoffed.
"Oh come on, ladies. Don't make her do something as uncomfortable as that." Austin said taking up for me.
"I'm not arguing with the outcome." Dallas said with a smirk getting hit in the head by Cassidy the second time tonight. "What? I'm a guy babe." He said shrugging as she rolled her eyes.
"So?" Trish said one last time as I thought about it. "Alright, let's do this." I said getting up shocking everyone as I went to the front door. "Don't worry, Amy. We got them covered so they won't get in trouble with their girlfriends." Trish said as she covered Dez's eyes and Cassidy covers Dallas's as I chuckle a bit stripping off my shorts and t shirt realizing Austin was watching me which made me blush a bit. He looks at my body in awe as I open the door to see it pouring rain not to mention how dark it is.
"Okay, ready?" Austin stated coming next to me as I took a deep breath. I nod with a nervousness. "Alright. Go!" Trish yelled as I ran out the door as the rest of them came to watch as I ran down the street and when I get to the end, I laugh because it was actually fun.
I laugh as they watch with huge smiles laughing along with me. "Wooo!" I scream spinning in circles feeling so liberated and free. "Hey Missy!" I hear causing me to turn around to see an old lady who looked to be in her 80's frowning at me. "You're too young to be a slut. Get your act together!" She yelled at me as I stared at her for a few seconds before giggling. "Hey lady?" I said before placing up my middle finger up to her causing her to gasp and place her hand over her heart making me laugh and run back up the street.
I run into the house when they all cheer and applaud me for what I did. "Russo, that was fucking awesome!" Dallas said astonished. "I didn't know you had in you. Proud of ya girl." Trish added as I smiled. "Hi five." Dez said as I hi fived him before shaking from the cold. ?
Cassidy closes the door while Austin comes over to me. "She's freezing. Go get her a towel boys." He instructed them. "Dallas go. I can't. Those pancakes were delicious but my tummy is disagreeing." Dez said running upstairs to the bathroom as we chuckled.
Dallas went upstairs along with him so he could search for a towel for me. "Austin, do you have a blow dryer somewhere in here so Trish can dry Amy's hair. It's not good to have wet hair." Cassidy said as he thought about it. "I guess my mom should. You can check in her room but please be careful to leave things as they are." He told them as they nodded. "Sure thing." Trish said as they both ran up the steps leaving us both.
"You are crazy, Russo." He said with a smile.
"I've never taken a risk like that before. I loved the rush." I said with a little jump from excitement.
"I know it's only been a month and a half but...I really like it here." I admit lowly as he rubs the back of his neck shyly.
"That's good because...I like you here with me." He says sweetly causing a wide smile to cover my face as we get closer. "You know... with all of us of course." He corrected making me chuckle as he did too nervously. God, he's so adorable.
Dallas comes back with a towel in his hand. "Here ya go." He said handing it to me in my hands. "Thanks." I replied grateful. "No problem. I'm gonna go turn off the TV and clean up our mess." He offered as Austin thanked him before turning back to me.
Austin took the towel from out my hands and wrapped it around me as I looked into his eyes which caused him to look in mine as well. "Thank you." I said lowly still shivering a bit. "It's no problem." He said as I sighed with content in this moment when I hear feet shuffling.
Cassidy and Trish come down the stairs. "We finally found it. I forgot how tall your mom is Austin. She had it at the very top of her closet." Cassidy told us before Trish took it out and came over to me. Trish started to blow dry my hair while Cassidy and Austin went over to Dallas to help him clean up the rest of the stuff. It takes about 15 minutes but my hair finally gets dry.
Well, my wig anyway. Luckily, my cap is strong but the day it does get weaker, I'm gonna have to get a new one. "And done." She said as I looked in the mirror laughing at the little curls it had at the end because of the rain and blow dry.
"Alright, I'm getting kind of sleepy. Anyone else?" Cassidy stated.
"Me too." Trish added in.
"Okay, let's go." Dallas said as he took Cassidy's hand and we all headed upstairs to Austin's room.
"How are we all gonna be able to sleep in this room?" I said baffled because though the room wasn't small at all, it did only have 1 bed and it's not like we were just gonna sleep on the floor with no sleeping bags. "We're not. I have two guest rooms. Dallas and Cassidy will take one and the rest of you can decide what you wanna do." He told us calmly as I nodded even though I didn't know my next move. "I'm tired. Let's go babe. Goodnight everyone." Cass said as we waved and they left to a different room.
"I'll guess me and Dez will just share a room." Trish stated. "Carrie won't mind that?" I said folding my arms with a smirk. "Please, I've known that doofus since we were 5 and have slept in the same bed as him at sleepovers a million times. It just ain't happening." She said as Austin and I laughed. "It don't matter because it seems like Dez will not be out the bathroom anytime soon." Austin said making us laugh as she said goodnight and left.
"I guess that leaves you and me..." I said shyly as he nodded awkwardly. "You know Amy...if sleeping in the same bed makes you uncomfortable, you can take it and I'll sleep on the floor." He offered sweetly as I shook my head. "No, it's fine. I'm okay with it. I promise." I said with a soft smile.
"I'll be right back." I told him going to the bathroom and taking off my wet bra and underwear and putting it in my bag and putting my shorts and t shirt back on to be more comfortable. Thank god my nipples aren't hard or he would see them very clearly considering I'm no longer wearing my bra.
I walk back in the room and he's already in the bed on his phone. I get on it as well as he puts his phone away facing me.
"Light on or off?"
"On please." I said laying down and facing the other way as I felt him get comfortable under the sheets.
"Austin?"
"Yeah?"
"Can you hold me?"
"Huh?"
"I'm much more calm at night with another person beside me." I said lying just because I wanted to feel his touch.
"Sure. Yeah, of course." He said kind of nervous before wrapping his arms around me causing a smile on my face.
I lean my back into him as we snuggle together and I hear him sigh of relief as I intertwine our fingers together. This feels like it's meant to be.
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