As promised, another long chapter. Thanks again LightsaberSnake your reviews help me get motivated to post another chapter. Don't worry I don't plan on abandoning this until its done! And for you Malec lovers, hang in there. Also, if you have any songs that make you think of them, let me know! And theres a long-ass AN at the end mostly about a possible Shadowhunters go to high-school fic, so you can either read or ignore that. Here we go!
Jace spotted Alec in the crowded mass of students, heading to their next class, history.
"Alec!" He called, successfully grabbing his attention. Once they were side by side walking into their classroom, Jace asked what they both knew was coming, "Are you ok?"
Alec sighed as they sat down next to each other in the back of the class, "I don't know," He said honestly.
Jace nodded, he knew not to push the subject too much now, but also not to treat it like it was nothing, "So how was Spanish?" He asked, trying to get Alec's mind off of Magnus.
"Magnus was there," He said. It was curt, as if telling Jace not to ask anything else that had to do with the warlock. Jace got the message and turned to face the board.
Alec was still thinking over the plea in the other mans voice. The underlying desperation that he wanted Alec to notice, but not talk about. It was a voice he only used when he really wanted to show Alec how much he meant to him. He just needed to think, just a little time to mull things over. He knew he was going to patch things up with Magnus, he just had to think of how, and what he was going to say. He couldn't lie and say he was ok with him withholding parts of his past, because he wasn't, but that didn't mean he wanted to loose the love of his life.
Right as he was thinking this, Magnus, err, Mike waked through the door. He immediately spotted Alec and his eyes went from sad to hopeful, the big brown orbs that he wore grew wide and a small smile adorned his face. Jace saw him and turned to his other half to see his reaction that would decide whether he would welcome Magnus, or try to kill him with his eyes. Alec locked eyes with Magnus and for one beautiful second he got lost in those eyes, though he preferred his real eyes, but promptly averted his gaze to the wall. He had just been thinking that he needed a little time before he saw Magnus, and now here he was. Alec still wasn't ready to say anything to him, no, last time he rushed in without planning what he was going to say, he messed everything up. He was just going to have to avoid him, just while he figured things out.
Jace proceeded to glare daggers at Magnus. Half-way through the class Mike Chang went up to the teacher to ask to go to the nurse, saying he had an accident in physics and it still hurt.
"Emotions," Mr. Schue said as he wrote it on the board. It was the last class of the day and all of the glee kids had music. This included Alec and a reluctant Jace who both sat off to the side to watch. Mr. Schue continued after seeing the skeptical, confused looks on his students faces, "Happy, sad, angry, hopeful, desperate, love. All of these are examples of emotion. Now, some people have a lot of feelings, and no where to put them. Some put their feelings into violence, and act out, and others use that emotion to create a work of art. I never want any of you to feel like you can't express yourself, or you have to keep your emotions bottled up inside you until you explode. This club is for you, to help you, so this week I want all of you to preform a song that expresses you feelings. Now you just got this assignment, but does anyone already have a song in mind they would like to come up here and sing?"
Puck got up, "I got one Mr. Schue, Finn?" he nodded towards the drums. Jace was so confused as to how the whole band knew what song to start playing without being told, but he listened none the less.
"I woke up in a stranger's bed
With pins and needles in my head
And the clock ticking off the wall
Oh, yeah, oh, yeah
I don't even know myself
I wish I could be someone else
But I don't have a clue at all
Oh, yeah
I'm sinking
You're wading
I'm thinking something's gotta give
Oh
Wake me up
Say enough is enough
I'm dying to live
Something's gotta give
Oh
Pull me out
Of this sinking town
I'm dying to live
Something's gotta give
Maybe I'm just a waste
Filling up the empty space
I've been here way too long
Oh, yeah, oh, yeah
I'm feeling like a nervous wreck
Living on my last paycheck
I'm a cliché in a song
And everybody's singing along
I'm sinking
You're wading
I'm thinking something's gotta give
Oh
Wake me up
Say enough is enough
I'm dying to live
Something's gotta give
Oh
Pull me out
Of this sinking town
I'm dying to live
Something's gotta give
Someone please come pull me out
From the shadow of my doubt
Wake me up
I'm falling
Oh
Wake me up
Say enough is enough
I'm dying to live
Something's gotta give
Oh
Pull me out
Of this sinking town
I'm dying to live (dying to live)
Something's gotta give"
He finished with a bang of the drums from Finn.
"Wow, Puck, that was really great. Alright, well I think that sets the tone for this week, I want to see some more of you go tomorrow.
Alec had planned on talking to Magnus after school, to tell him he was sorry for over reacting, but that his frustration still stands and he does want to know more about him. But plans don't always go the way you want them to, for Magnus was no where to be seen.
Alec and Jace were walking back to the institute when Jace started talking about how happy he was the mission was over and that they could go home.
"Wait, what? We can't go home yet!" Alec said.
"Uh, yeah we can. We found the powerful downworlder and determined he's not a threat," Jace chose his words very carefully, "case closed."
"Jace," He said, stopping, "We can't leave yet." Alec spoke, his words and eyes pleading with Jace to understand without him having to say the words.
"But-" Jace tried, he really did not want to have to go back to that place if he didn't have to.
"I have to fix things first," Alec sighed and started walking again, "I can't leave, not with things... the way we left them. I don't even know when, if he would be back to New York, so I have to... before we... I just... need a few more days," Alec stuttered out in a low voice. He only ever had trouble speaking if it was about his love life. Upon looking up at Jace he said, "You can go, though, I mean, that is, if you want to lea-"
Jace started laughing, cutting him off, "Of course I'm going to stay, I wouldn't leave you here with no back-up. And I get it Alec, love is extremely complicated. And your my parabatai, you never have to ask, you need me I'm there. Just don't take a month to sort out your problems, I really want to get out of here before that singing competition," Jace said, eyes wide, shaking his head.
It was Alec's turn to laugh now, "Whats the matter Jace? Scarred of a few singing teenagers?"
Jace glared at him, "Its not funny, their just like ducks. They want you to think their all harmless and cute, and then they bite your head off, blood thirsty little beasts," He said, saying the last part to himself.
Magnus was curled up on the fluffy blue couch in his little town house he had bought in Lima a while back. Chairman Meow, who he had reluctantly taken with him after going back to Brooklyn the night before for more of his favorite eyeliner only to discover the cat had torn up half his living room in protest of being left alone, was starring up at him, almost mockingly.
"What are you looking at?" Magnus asked.
The Chairman tilted his head forward almost as to say, "Really?"
"Not that its any of your business, but Alec and I had a fight, well at least I think it was a fight. I don't know what it was to tell you the truth, he was mad I didn't tell him about coming here. And that I wouldn't tell him anything about my past, which is completely not true by the way,"
The Chairman proceeded to let out a meow that sounded suspiciously like a scoff.
Magnus sighed, "I would tell him anything, If I knew how much it bothered him, I just don't like to talk about the past. It reminds me of all the times i'll never be able to have again. Theres so much beauty and so much pain there, I just don't like to think about it,"
Chairman Meow rolled his eyes, or as much as a cat can roll his eyes.
"The future is much more promising, though Alexander has some doubts about that too," He pondered for a moment before, "Your a genius! Thank you Chairman," he said while picking up the protesting cat, "I have to find the prefect song, something that lets him know how I feel, telling him I want him, but also leaving him room to tell me he wants me too. I won't go through the pain of a one sided relationship again," he said, thinking of his naive love for Camille and how she never felt more than a mere attraction towards him.
And he was off, scrolling through the deepest parts of the internet in search of the perfect song.
Alec and Jace had decided to take a bus to school the next morning. Not a school bus, they would never sink that low, a public bus. They sat in silence along with the other 7 people on there, listening to the song that was playing. Alec was thinking about Magnus, and what he needed to say in order to be in a completely honest and happy relationship with him. Because he could not keep bottling up his feelings, he needed to be transparent with him.
"Alec, lets go this is our stop!" Jace said, pulling him off of the bus.
"Sorry, I was just listening to the music," He said, only slightly blushing.
"Yeah, Okay," Jace said, obviously not believing him but dropping the subject, "Why are we here this early again?"
"For glee club," Alec said.
"So what? Now you want to sing? Since when are we a part of the glee club!?" Jace asked, he was starting to get annoyed by all of the singing.
"No, but Magnus is probably there. And besides, its not that bad, at least the people there can actually sing," Alec made a good point there, causing Jace to shut up.
They walked into the building and towards the music room, coming in to the end of a song.
Some days are better than other days,
but these days, life is better with you.
And when I think about the things that we've been through,
I know just one thing is true, life is better with you.
Woah, woah, life is better with you.
Woah, woah, life is better with you.
Woah, woah, life is better with you.
Every body clapped, including Jace and Alec as they took their seats off to the side, "Really good job Blaine," Mr. Schue said as Blane sat down next to Kurt who was smiling at him in adoration, "Now, we have time for one more, if someone wants to go, although there's some pressure following that."
There was a silence in the room before Mike Chang stood up, "There's something that I want to get off my chest," He said walking towards the center of the room, signaling the band to start playing the song he had given them an hour previous to his performance. He started singing, eyes on one particular, blushing shadowhunter.
Ha ha, you have to wait to see what song he sings! There will be quite a few songs that they sing because I have so many on a playlist for them and I can't choose. The first song is "Somethings gotta give" by All Time Low (My favorite band), and the last one is from "Life is better with you" by Michael Franti & Spearhead because I felt like this story needed some Klaine. Next chapter might have some Britana and Finchel, tell me some other couples you want to see and what songs they should do. Also, I was thinking of writing a Mortal Instruments fanfic of them in high school, and I know that it has been done sooooo many times before, but I feel like they never do it justice. Like if they went to high school, it would only be because they had no other choice, I mean, nobody can force Magnus Bane into high school unless he wanted to be there. And then they always act like high schoolers, like "Omg is he cheating on me with that mundane?"and thats just not realistic. Plus they always fizzle out, dragging on like a car bumper on concrete, because the authors loose interest, or never finish them. So if that is something that you want to see, let me know, and it probably wouldn't be out for a while because I would want to write at least half of it before posting, so that I know I won't abandon it. Ok enough talking, ill post again tomorrow. Thanks again to everybody favoriting, following, and reviewing!
