Hello Malec loving people! Sorry I didn't post yesterday, I ended up staying at my aunts house and I didn't have my laptop, but here is a long chapter filled with Magnus and Alec singing! LightsaberSnake, you are now my favorite person, ATL is literally my life! I hope you like the songs I chose, I feel like they work really well together and compliment each other and their relationship. (IF YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT SONGS ARE IN THIS BEFORE READING SO THAT YOU CAN LISTEN TO THEM AS YOUR READING THEM, SKIP TO THE BOTTEM AN AND THEN SCROLL BACK UP)
Magnus got up to the center of the room and the music started playing. Even before the words came out of his mouth, his body was already conveying the words he wanted to say. Alec wished he knew about his dancing capabilities prior to this, because it made him that much more... exotic. Alec could think of many more words to describe him, his body moving with the music, speaking without actually saying anything. He started to blush at the thought, a blush that just grew once the warlock started to sing. To him.
I'm in love with an angel, heaven forbid
Made me a believer with the touch of his skin
I'd go to hell and back with you
Stay lost in what we found.
Worlds apart we were the same
Until we hit the ground
Maybe I'm crazy, maybe I'm weak
Maybe I'm blinded by what I see
You wanted a soldier but it wasn't me
'Cause I could never set you free
So fly on your own
It's time I let you go
Go, Go
I'm in love with an angel who's afraid of the light
His halo is broken but there's fight in his eyes
Walls are built to keep us safe
Until they're crashing down
Worlds apart we were the same
Until you hit the ground
Maybe I'm crazy, maybe I'm weak
Maybe I'm blinded by what I see
You wanted a soldier but it wasn't me
'Cause I could never set you free
So fly on your own
It's time I let you go
Go, Go
Walls are built to keep us safe
Until they're crashing down
Worlds apart we were the same
Until you hit the ground
Maybe I'm crazy, maybe I'm weak
Maybe I'm blinded by what I see
You wanted a soldier but it wasn't me
'Cause I could never set you free
So fly on your own
It's time I let you go
So fly on your own
It's time I let you go
Go, Go, Go, Go
He was singing to him, and he let everyone know it. During the whole song, his body moved. He got up close to Alec a few times and the rest of the time he just stared at him from across the room while dancing.
Alec felt all of the eyes on him, but there was only one pair that mattered. "Im in love with an angel" He had sung. Did this mean that he still loved him? Alec shook his head, of course he still loved him, a little fight doesn't make feelings like that go away. Alec knew that Magnus probably felt the same pit in his stomach that he did ever since they started... arguing. "It's time I let you go" This was exactly what Alec didn't want to happen. Of all the scenarios he had worked out in his head, this was the one he wanted to avoid. Magnus feeling like he wasn't enough for Alec, because in reality he was everything to the shadowhunter. He had to tell him how much he meant to him, to tell him that he did not want to be let go of. Immediately Alec thought back to the song he heard on the bus that morning, the one that made him think of Magnus. He knew what he had to do, as much discomfort as it gave him to even think about it.
Alec was jerked from his thoughts by the bell signaling the start of the school day. All of the eyes in the room were still divvied between Magnus and him, none of them making any attempts at moving until Mr. Schue coughed and said, "Um, alright, good job Mike. Ill see you all later, don't be late to first period."
To say that the New Directions were shocked would be like saying that Celine Dion's "My Heart Will Go On" is underplayed.
Mike Chang was not a vocal person when it came to his feelings. Nobody new much about him aside from the fact that he could dance and sort-of sing. He usually wore plaid shirts with a vest and some black skinny jeans. His hair was sometimes gelled up and sometimes left down. He wore a bit of eye-liner and always looked like he sparkled, though it must be a trick of the light, no way a straight A asian would wear glitter. Or at least thats what everybody thought 10 minutes ago. Nobody would have ever guessed that Mike Chang, the dancer from the glee club who is also on the football team who is also an honor roll student who is also asian, was gay. It didn't even cross Kurt's mind, and he was extremely good at telling when someone liked boys. They all thought that he would graduate, go to Princeton or Harvard or some other Ivy league school, become a doctor or a lawyer, and marry Tina.
Then again, nobody really thought about what Mike Chang was going to do in the future because not a lot of people thought about him at all. A lot of people forget that he's even there sometimes. And now, after two days and one song, he was suddenly on the forefront of everyones mind. He had just spilled all of his deepest feelings to this one boy. This one boy who, until yesterday, nobody had even heard of.
Mr. Schue was thinking over what had happened yesterday, with Alec coming into the glee room and shocking Mike, the conversation the two had had in Spanish class, and today with the song that he had just sung. He decided that he should have a talk after school with Mike, to make sure that everything was ok.
Jace sighed as he went to his Physics class, Alec had not said one un-math related word the whole class. It didn't occur to Jace who the teacher had assigned as his partner until he sat down. "Oh, no," He said under his breath.
"Ah yes," Said a voice behind him, "Look, it's not as though I love being partnered with the guy my boyfriend has had a crush on his whole life, yet here we are."
Jace snorted, "At least I'm attractive, you could have been partnered with him," He pointed to Jacob, the one with the curly afro and glasses that talked too much.
"At least he isn't arrogant," He said, sitting down.
"Well, what can I say, I'm just that comfortable with the amazing person that I am," Jace said, smirking. Magnus rolled his eyes while getting out a notebook from a bag that way too small to house all of the stuff he saw in it, "Magnus... Is... Is that bag bigger on the inside?" Jace asked with a confused, curious expression.
"How very perceptive," He responded flatly. His eyes then softened, "So, I'll be the first one to address the elephant in the room."
"Theres an elephant in here?" Jace mocked.
"Alexander, he... is he... alright?" Magnus asked tenderly. Whenever he talked to or about Alec his voice and eyes softened.
"I don't know, I'm getting mixed emotions from him. There's a lot of love and longing," He said, looking quite uncomfortable talking about his parabatai's feelings, even if it was with his boyfriend, "theres also a touch of anger and envy, but its mostly self-doubt, guilt, and... I can't really explain it, it's like this indescribable feeling of... insignificance," Jace tried to find the words, "I think he feels like he's just another one of your conquests."
Magnus looked sad and horrified, "He's not-"
Jace cut him off shaking his head, "But thats how he feels, it's like he knows in his head that he's important, but he still feels insignificant. Its like... he wants you to be the happy ending of his story, to dominate the pages of his life, but he knows that he'll always just be another chapter in your story. Something to look back on and smile, but not to... to end with."
Their conversation was cut short promptly by the teacher who was not too happy about them talking in her class. Jace gave him a look, but Magnus was already thinking of ways to show Alec what he had told him a hundred times. To make him believe it.
Alec had excused himself from gym for the day, saying he had food poisoning, so that he wouldn't have to deal with all of the people staring at him. Apparently, word travels fast, and the whispers had already started. Nobody commented on it to there faces yet, they wouldn't until they knew what was going on between the two. Whether there was another openly gay couple in the school that they could terrorize. Not everybody was thinking this, not even most of them. Most were just curious vultures who thought they were entitled to every little detail of other people's lives. And without Alec there, Jace had to brave all of the questions and comments, which he promptly ignored.
Their health teacher was absent that day, conveniently, so Jace and Alec went to the lecture hall for a free period of sorts. Jace had been expecting Alec to at least say something about what had happened, but he had not said a word about Magnus since the walked into the glee room. They sat there for a good 20 minutes, with Jace just staring at Alec, and Alec not seeming to notice, before Jace finally said something, "Uh, Alec?"
"Yeah?" Alec responded dazedly.
"Are you ok? You haven't said anything about what happened, and I'm starting to get worried. Whats going through your mind?" He asked, trying to be a kind, supportive person. It was a lot harder than others made it look. Jace usually would have said some snide remark about the cheesiness of the song, or laughed at how all of the room looked stunned, but he knew this was hard for Alec. And since Alec had always been there when Jace needed him, even when he said he didn't, even when Alec was going through his own stuff, he had always made time for Jace's problems. Jace was determined to be there for Alec now, to help him in whatever way he could, and even if he had some clue, he didn't know what was really going on inside of his mind. Was Alec mad at Magnus? Was he stunned about the song? Was he embarrassed about all of the eyes on him? Did he have to go to the bathroom? Jace didn't know.
"I... I don't know," Alec breathed out, eyes still staring unfocused at the wall.
"Ok, well I can't really help you unless I know whats wrong," Jace said.
"Nothing's wrong," Alec said instinctively. Years of denying, of concealing his feelings or any potential weakness had just made it his go to answer, it was much easier than actually talking about his problems. He sighed, "I don't know what I feel," he said honestly, "Im just sick of him keeping secrets from me."
"Well have you talked to him about it?" Jace asked. He was not the one to go to for relationship advice, everything he knew came from reality TV shows Clary made him watch.
"Yeah, but he still does it. I mean, I get that he closed himself off for a long time, and when it comes to his personal past, sharing doesn't come easy to him, but I can't live feeling like I barley know him," Alec's hands here not resting on his forehead so his head was leaning on them facing the desk.
"Are you going to try to fix things, err, I mean, do you think this could be the... end?" Jace was really trying.
"By the angel, no! I'm upset he didn't tell me about this place, and I feel a bit insignificant, sure, but none of that is worth loosing the love of my life over! At least, not before we talk about this," Alec had turned to face Jace at his absurd question, and after he finished talking his eyes went wide.
"What?" Jace asked.
"He... he's... I mean I knew I loved him but... I guess you don't really know how much you love someone until you realize you might loose them. I've never... I didn't," Alec was stumbling out sentence fragments, not really talking to Jace anymore. He was having an epiphany, Magnus was the love of his life. Alec had known that he loved Magnus, he had even told him so, but there was also a time when Alec would have said the same about Jace. What he felt for Magnus was way different than what he thought he felt for Jace. His love for the warlock was consuming, it was in every breath he took, in every beat of his heart. He loved Magnus more than he knew he even could love. He could accept the fact that he would die someday and Magnus would continue living, continue loving. He may not be the only one for Magnus, but he knew that Magnus was the only one for him. There would never be another, there couldn't be, because Alec was not going to let Magnus go. Not ever.
"So, whats up with you and Mike?" Asked Tina. And for the second time in two days, all eyes were on her. Mike was, once again, not present for lunch, "Ok, don't even tell me your all not wondering too!"
"Yeah, but its none of our business," Rachel said.
"Ha, thats rich coming from you," Quinn laughed.
"Yeah Berry, whats with the sudden change in attitude, did a pink, fluffy unicorn make its way up that big schnoz of yours and make everything all butterflies and rainbows up there?" Santana asked. Rachel gasped, offended and covered he nose with her hand.
"I like unicorns, though they like to take your keys," Brittany said.
"I'm pretty sure that's supposed to be fairies," Kurt said, looking at her.
"Guys! Stop, your scarring them," Finn said, ending all of the arguing that was going on. Jace and Alec had surprised looks on their faces. They were pretty sure any sane person would have ran away by now, but they had seen, and been a part of, their share of arguments growing up with Izzy.
"It's cool, our sister is way worse," Jace said, Alec still blushing from the first comment.
"Do you guys want to go to the glee room?" Artie asked, since everybody was done with their food.
Magnus walked into the glee room to find everybody laughing at something Jace was saying, "Herondales," He muttered. As soon as he had sat down, Mr. Schue walked into the room, breaking the laughter.
"Alright, who's up for some singing?" He asked. The room was silent for a minute, nobody wanting to go, although Rachel asked if she could go again which just made everyone groan.
"Um, I'll, uh, I... have a song," Magnus' heart fluttered at the sound of the shaking voice. He was blushing furiously and looking quite frazzled as he got up in front of the room. This surprised the two who new him because he was not an attention seeking person. The only time he really ever got up in front of people is when he was giving a speech or yelling orders to the Institute, and that was different because he was the on/off head of said Institute.
Alec took a shaky breath when the music started playing, he had just chosen the song that he heard on the bus that morning because it said most of what he wanted to say and he didn't really know any other songs. He, with the help of Kurt, looked up the lyrics and used his recall rune to help him remember every word. Though his hands were trembling and everybody was looking at him, including the only person who he wanted to be looking, he stared to sing. Surprisingly well, in Magnus' opinion.
Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while
You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Picture, you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
I steady your hand
You can never say never
While we don't know when
Time, time, time again
Younger now than we were before
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
We're falling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Alec finished, eyes on Magnus, both of them with tears threatening to fall. For this one moment, there was only them and Alec was blissfuly unaware of all the eyes on him. He took a step towards the warlock, "Magnus, There's some things we need to talk about, but I... I don't wanna lose you. Not ever," He confessed brokenly. Magnus smiled, allowing a single tear to slide down his cheek. Alec was suddenly hyper-aware of all of the eyes on him and he guessed it was too much for the young shadowhunter because Alec proceeded to turn and speed walk out of the door.
"Alexander!" Magnus called after him, moving to go after him before an arm stopped him, "Jace, get out of my way," He said in an assertive voice that shocked everybody who knew him as Mike Chang, the quiet, smart asian.
"You know how he is after any kind of public speeches, he always needs a minute to cool off after. Why do you think his orders are always so clear and explained, so he doesn't have to stick around to answer questions after. He always just runs off to a spot where no one can see him because you know the nephilim would never take a shadowhunter with anxiety seriously," Jace spoke while holding Magnus back, "Just give him a few,"
He reluctantly sat back down and listened to Santana sing Terrible Things which he assumed was about how her grandmother cut her out of her life.
When the bell rang, Magnus was glad because he had Spanish with Alec, and he knew the other boy was too much of a rule-follower to skip class, even if school was kind of a joke to him. fate was on his side today because just as he was thinking about seeing Alec, the boy in question put a hand on his shoulder.
They looked at each other, eyes conveying all of the words that would never be enough. Then, right in the middle of the crowded hallway outside their Spanish classroom, Alec put one hand on his neck and kissed him. It wasn't slow or rushed, but it was reassuring, being sure the other knew how he felt. Magnus was stunned for a moment, surprised that Alec would show affection like this in front of all these strangers, before pulling him closer by his belt loops and kissing him back. They stood like that for a minute, not hearing any of the vulgar comments or the snaps of peoples cameras, just lost in the silent confirmation.
They broke apart just as the bell rang, "You never stop surprising me, Alexander," Magnus breathed smiling fondly.
Alec smiled, a small blush on his cheeks, "We, uh, we should probably get to class."
Magnus just let out a chuckle and turned to walk into their Spanish classroom.
If you want to listen to the songs, and I suggest that you do, the first one that Magnus sings is called "Angel" by Theory of a Deadman and the second one sung by Alec is "Never say Never" by The Fray. The other is "Terrible things" by Mayday Parade. Hope you enjoyed, tell me what you think! ill hopefully post another one tomorrow!