Disclaimer:
I do not own The Big Bang Theory.
Warning:
The next few chapters will revolve around abortion, so if it's a trigger to anyone who chooses to read this story, please read carefully.
In addition, I'm not going into politics or any other discussion for that matter regarding abortion, and it's not my intention of offending anyone's opinion, belief or anyone who experienced the events that are described in this story.
If somehow, I offended anyone, I am truly sorry and once again, it was never my intention.
Chapter 6:
The next week was all about meetings at the doctor, to determine if Amy was eligible for an abortion and if so how to perform the abortion: through pills or a medical procedure. Unfortunately, since Amy was in the 7th to 8th week of her pregnancy it was too late for her to take pills and the abortion would have to be performed through the medical procedure of curettage.
After her meeting at the doctor, where they saw how far along Amy was to determine how to perform the abortion, Sheldon and Amy came back to Sheldon's empty apartment and Amy just sat in her spot and sighed heavily as Sheldon went to the kitchen to bring them water.
"Ugh… I can't believe they couldn't turn off the sound on that stupid machine." Amy said as she took the water from Sheldon who sat next to her, in his spot.
"Amy… that's… that's what you're worried about? Did hear all the things that the doctor said that can happen if you do that?" Sheldon asked, worried that Amy was being too hasty about her decision.
"Yes Sheldon. I heard it. I heard it loud and clear… I heard everything loud and clear, even when I didn't want to hear a thing, I still heard everything." Amy said with anger in her voice.
"So… what are you going to do about it?" Sheldon wondered.
"Nothing. I told you, I'm going to have an abortion and I will have an abortion." Amy said as she looked into Sheldon's eyes in a way that said she was serious.
"But – " Sheldon started, but Amy cut him off.
"There's no but, Sheldon." Amy said sternly.
"Amy… I… I just don't want to lose you or that something will go wrong and… " Sheldon started to say and faltered.
Amy's look got softer and she grabbed Sheldon's hand.
"It will be okay. You are not going to lose me. I read about this doctor and she performed this procedure many times and she know what she's doing. It will be okay. You know I don't want to have it, and I'm determine on not having it." Amy said calmly, trying to reassure Sheldon that everything is going to be okay.
"I'm still worried." Sheldon said.
"I know you are. And so am I, but I have to do it." Amy said and tears started to stream down her face as she remembered the checkup from earlier that day.
Sheldon was alarmed when he saw that Amy started to cry.
"What is it? is everything okay?" Sheldon asked her as he sat straight in his spot, but Amy just laid her head on his shoulder and in response Sheldon wrapped his arms around her in an awkward way.
"Why couldn't they turn off the sound on that machine? Why did I had to hear the sound of its heartbeats?" Amy cried hard and Sheldon started to cry as well.
"They explained that it was a malfunction…" Sheldon only caressed her back trying to sooth her.
"Just my luck. I'm telling you, if I'll ever get pregnant with our child I bet you that they wouldn't be able to turn the sound on so I'll be able to hear the heartbeats when I'll actually want to hear it." Amy said into his shirt.
"Let's hope it won't happen." In another time Sheldon would have been terrified at the mention of procreating with Amy, but as time went by and as his love for Amy grew, he knew that marriage and kids will eventually happen for them. Definitely not in the immediate future, but at some point, along the way he knew it will happen and that it's only a matter of time.
They sat there a while longer, Amy calming down as Sheldon caressing her back. When Amy finally calmed down and sat straight again, Sheldon dared to ask her the thing that bothered him since they were at the doctor's office.
"Amy, may I ask you a question?" Sheldon asked carefully.
"Yes." she said as she wiped her tears with the back of her hand.
"Why… Why did you want them to turn off the sound during the ultrasound?" Sheldon asked with tremor in his voice and Amy took a deep breath and let it out slowly.
"Because… I… I didn't want to hear it, to hear its development… I didn't want to get attached or to have this memory in my mind because I'm not going to have it, and hearing the heartbeats made this whole decision so much harder. I know there is a little human growing inside of me, but I wanted not think about it for as long as I could. That is why I only refer to it as 'it' or 'fetus'. I don't want to get too attached. It's already hard enough as it is… I didn't need to hear the heartbeat as well." Amy explained to Sheldon with shaky voice, and he only nodded in understanding and as he thought about the sound of the heartbeat and what Amy just said, he realized he's sorry he heard it as well, since Amy is getting the abortion soon.
"I can't believe Stuart had only one copy of the new issue of Batman. His store is practically dead, how come he was left with only one copy?" Howard asked Leonard and Raj who came into the apartment just as Amy finished explaining Sheldon how she felt today at the doctor's appointment.
"Relax, he said he'll have it the day after tomorrow…" Leonard said as he put his bag on his chair.
"And I can't believe that you got that copy first. You know I waited for this issue for a long time." Howard was now talking to Raj.
"Yeah I did." Raj said with a smirk on his face.
Raj and Howard kept arguing about the comic book for several minutes, while Leonard brought out some drinks for them, and that's when he noticed Sheldon and Amy for the first time since they entered the apartment.
"Oh… how are you guys? I didn't see you there." Leonard asked with caution.
"Oh hey. How are you?" Howard and Raj said when they heard Leonard talking to someone.
"We're fine." Amy said with a small smile and lowered her face so that the guys won't see that she was just crying.
"Will you stay for dinner? We were just about to order in…" Leonard asked Amy.
"Yeah. Sure…" Amy said in a small voice.
Sheldon who noticed that Amy was still a bit shaken from the visit at the doctor leaned in and whispered in her ear.
"Amy, would you like to go to my room and get some rest?" and Amy just nodded.
"Come on." He whispered again and they both stood up and Sheldon grabbed Amy's hand and lead her to his room.
Howard and Raj looked at Leonard with confusion on their faces, but Leonard just shrugged and ignored them. He knew something must have happened that shifted Sheldon's behavior towards Amy, he didn't know what it was, but whatever it was it must have been something big since Sheldon rarely left Amy's side in the last two months.
Leonard grabbed the phone to order dinner and a few moments after he hung up the call, Bernadette and Penny came into the apartment.
"Hey. How are you?" Penny asked as she walked to her fiancé and pecked him on the lips.
"Hey. We're alright." Leonard said with a smile.
"Speak for yourself…" Howard answered with a grunt. He was clearly still upset about the comic book.
"What happened?" Bernadette asked her husband as she sat next to him, after taking off her coat and purse.
"Nothing… Raj bought the last copy of the new Batman issue and I have to wait until Wednesday to have it." Howard sighed and Bernadette only rolled her eyes and Howard noticed that and continued.
"He did it on purpose, you know…" Howard said as glared at Raj.
"Have you checked other stores?" Bernadette asked, trying to show some sympathy for her husband.
"They were all out." he said with a sigh, but then all of a sudden, he was glowing again.
"What is it?" Bernadette asked him when she saw his smile.
"Sheldon and Amy are alone in Sheldon's room…" He whispered, trying to avoid Sheldon's hearing.
"So?" Penny asked, trying not to look concerned.
"So… I think something's going on between them… they were so quiet when we walked in the apartment that we didn't notice they were here." Howard whispered.
"What do you think is happening?" Penny asked, now a little more worried. She knew that Sheldon was accompanying Amy to her appointments at the doctor, and since Amy told Sheldon about her pregnancy and Sheldon said he'll support her decision, Penny rarely got updates about what's going on.
"I don't know, but from the way Amy looked, it seems that they are breaking up…" Howard said.
"WHAT?" Penny yelled and then whispered again.
"Why would you think so? They were getting so close to each other lately, why would they break up?" Penny was now more confused. She tried not to believe Howard, but then again, she didn't see Amy nor Sheldon so she couldn't tell what was going on. She was pretty sure that Howard is making assumptions, but she did hope that that's what they are; assumptions.
"I don't know… Maybe it wasn't enough for Amy… " Howard shrugged, and in that moment, Sheldon came out to the living room.
"Is everything okay?" Sheldon asked his friends.
"Yes. why do you ask?" Raj asked.
"I heard Penny screaming, so I thought something has happened." Sheldon replied.
"No, no. everything's fine. are you two alright?" Leonard asked him as he furrowed his brows.
"Yes. Amy is resting. Did you order dinner already?" Sheldon asked Leonard.
"Yes. I just got off the phone with the restaurant. Why?" Leonard asked.
"Oh… nothing, never mind. I'll just call and cancel Amy's order. she wants something else, so I'll take care of that." Sheldon said as he dialed the restaurant and canceled Amy's order.
When he got off the phone Raj, Leonard, Howard and Bernadette looked at him with confused looks.
"What?" He asked them.
"Um… are you okay?" Howard asked him with concern in his voice.
"Yes… why?" Sheldon asked him suspiciously.
"You seemed… um… distant when we got to the apartment. are you sure everything is okay between you and Amy?" Howard asked carefully.
"Yes. everything is fine. Amy is just… tired so I'm taking care of her." Sheldon said and looked at Penny for some answers and before she could say anything, Howard kept going.
"I know you're not a fan of sharing your feelings, but if you're sad you can let us know… we know how much you two have grown closer in the last two months, and it's okay to feel sad over a breakup – " and then Sheldon cut Howard off.
"We did not break up! What... why would you say that?" Sheldon was outraged.
"Well… you seemed so quiet and distant and then you went to your room and now Amy is resting, and you are making her food willingly… it seems like you're trying to be nice for the last time…" Howard said with fear in his voice. He never saw Sheldon so outraged in his life.
"We did not break up. I'm worried about Amy because she is my girlfriend and I love her and she's having a bad day, so I'm trying to make her feel as comfortable as I can." Sheldon said with fire in his voice.
"Are you going to let her stay here again?" Raj asked and Sheldon quickly looked at Penny and Leonard who rose their hands in the air and shook their heads, saying that they didn't say anything about it to the rest of the group.
"They never said anything about it. You told us that Amy stayed at your place a while ago." Howard reminded him and Sheldon looked at Howard again.
"Well, if she'll need to stay here she will." Sheldon said firmly and went to grab a bottle of water and went back to his room, where Amy was now sleeping.
Sheldon closed the door to his room when he came back to his room. He smiled a small smile when he saw that Amy fell asleep and went to his nightstand and put the bottle of water on the nightstand right next to Amy, and lightly woke her up so she could change clothes to her nightgown.
"Amy…" he shook her gently so she won't be alarmed.
As gentle as he tried to be, Amy still woke up with a start.
"It's okay… it's okay…" Sheldon whispered gently and climbed back in bed and hugged Amy as she calmed herself down.
"I'm sorry." Sheldon whispered again and Amy just curled up to him and held him tighter.
"I woke you up so you could change to your nightgown and sleep more comfortably." Sheldon whispered as he brushed his fingers through her hair.
"Yeah… I think it will be best… Um… may I ask you a favor?" Amy whispered shyly.
"Of course." Sheldon said as he looked at her.
"Well… my nightgowns are too restrictive in the neck area and it started to bother me lately… I guess because of… it… um… do you mind if I'll borrow one of your shirts?" Amy asked with hesitation, afraid that Sheldon might refuse, but he just kissed her forehead and got up from the bed.
He rummaged through his drawer and then turned around to Amy with two options.
"Green Lantern or The Flash?" he asked her as he offered her his shirts.
"Green Lantern." Amy chuckled and Sheldon handed her the green shirt with Green Lantern's symbol on it.
"Thanks." Amy smiled shyly.
"What would you like to eat?" Sheldon asked her.
"Grilled cheese and bacon." Amy said enthusiastically.
"Anything else?" Sheldon asked.
"Um… nothing that I can come up with at the moment." Amy said.
"Okay. I'll go make it for you. Will you join us?" Sheldon asked her softly.
"Yes. I will." Amy said and they got out of Sheldon's room and joined the rest of the group.
"Hey… How are you?" Penny asked when Sheldon and Amy got into the living room.
"I'm fine." Amy said and went to sit in her spot, next to Sheldon's spot while he went to make her dinner.
"How… um… how was… your day?" Penny asked her. she knew Amy had an appointment today. She wanted to know how it went but didn't want everyone to know about it.
"It was okay. They had a small problem with the ultrasound in the lab and for some reason we couldn't turn off the sound of the machine, so that was really annoying, but other than that it was okay, I guess." Amy said.
"What did you need an ultrasound for? And why did you need to hear something? It mostly makes sounds when you check the heart or a baby's heartbeat." Raj asked just when there was a knock on the door and Leonard went to take the food.
"Oh… um… we are… trying to see how the brain and the heart affect each other, since it's kind of like the eternal question of what came first; the egg or the chicken? So, we are trying to see if the brain is the one who affects the heart's activity or is it the heart that affect the brain's activity." Amy rambled a quick answer.
"Oh… but wouldn't you want the sound on to hear the heartbeats for that?" Raj asked as he took his order out of the box.
"Yeah… but we did a several experiments, and we needed the sound to be off for one them so it was annoying that it happened today." Amy said. Just as she finished her sentence Sheldon brought her the dinner she asked from him.
"Thanks." Amy said with a smile and Sheldon sat next to her and gave her a quick peck on her temple.
"So other than that, it was okay?" Penny asked again.
"Yeah. We'll do the experiment next week." Amy said simply and Penny started to choke.
"Next week?" Penny asked with surprise after she stopped coughing.
"It's just an experiment." Amy glared at her.
"Yeah… um… can we talk for a moment?" Penny looked at her and they both got up and went to Penny's apartment.
"Are you crazy? Next week?" Penny asked Amy once the door was closed behind them.
"I don't have much time before the state can meddle, Penny. I already have to go through curettage. I really don't want it to get to the point where the state or the government has a say in it." Amy said to Penny as she sat down on her couch and Penny sat next to her.
"So, you heard the heartbeat?" Penny said as she held Amy's hand and Amy only sighed and nodded. she tried to hold the tears at bay, but a few tears got away.
"It'll be okay… if you want I'll come with you." Penny said softly.
"Thanks. It might help. I still don't know if Sheldon's allowed in but if not, I think it will be a great help for him." Amy said with tremor in her voice.
"He's been really supportive through it all." Penny pointed out with a smile.
"Yeah. He is. I didn't think I could love him more…" Amy said with a small sad smile.
"What is it?" Penny noticed.
"It's just that… I wonder how things would have gone between us if it wouldn't have happened." Amy said, a little afraid of the answer.
"I don't know sweetie. He did tell you that he loves you before it all happened and he has changed since you entered his life. he took care of you while you were sick, and he never did it for any of us. What happened hit him really hard. The day you told him about it and then fell asleep in his lap he told me he wanted to physically hurt that person for hurting you and that he realized how much you really mean to him when you said 'I love you' to each other. I think he's finally admitting to himself how much he truly loves you. he just said it to Howard." Penny said.
"He did?" Amy was shocked.
"Yeah. Howard thought you broke up and that he's taking care of you because he's trying for you for the last time, but Sheldon told him that he's taking care of you because you're his girlfriend and he loves you and since you had a bad day he's trying to make you feel as comfortable as he can. His words, not mine." Penny said and Amy just smiled as tears started to roll down her face and just as Penny was getting closer to hug Amy, Sheldon entered the apartment.
"What happened?" Sheldon rushed to Amy's side.
"Nothing… Penny just told me some nice things about you." Amy said and grabbed his hands and Sheldon looked sternly at Penny but blushed at the same time.
"I love you." Amy said with a soft smile.
"Yeah… well… I love you too, now come back and eat." Sheldon said and grabbed Amy's hand and helped her get up from the couch.
Penny grabbed Sheldon by his arm and he turned around and made Amy turn around as well.
"Um… do you mind if I talk with Sheldon for a moment?" Penny asked Amy and Amy nodded and went back to 4A.
"What is it?" Sheldon asked, a little irritated.
"Amy told me that she's going to have the procedure next week and that you're coming with her. I offered to accompany her so if you don't want to go I will go with her instead. I know how you feel about doctors and hospitals and – " but Sheldon cut her off.
"I will be there." He said sternly.
"I know you will. I just offered… you know what, never mind. If you'd like I'd come to keep you company while she's having the procedure if they won't allow anyone in the room with her." Penny said softly.
"I guess that will be acceptable. Thank you, Penny." Sheldon said and they went back to 4A.
When they came back Sheldon didn't see Amy in the living room and just as he was about to ask where she was, Bernadette answered the question he was about to ask.
"Amy said she went to rest for a while. The food didn't make her feel good." She said.
"Did she throw up?" Sheldon asked with a little panic in his voice.
"No, but it did make her feel nauseated." Bernadette said and Sheldon went to his room, where he found Amy sitting on his bed with her eyes closed.
"Are you okay?" Sheldon asked her as he went to sit next to her.
"I don't know… I guess… I know it's normal to have nauseas during that time, but I hoped it wouldn't come since I didn't have so many of them." Amy said as she breathed deeply, hoping she won't throw up.
"Just try and rest. Change your clothes so you'll be more comfortable. I'll be in the living room with my phone so text me if you need anything." Sheldon said and Amy nodded her head.
Sheldon kissed Amy on her forehead and got up gently.
"And try to drink. Maybe it'll help." Sheldon said as he was at the door and Amy nodded again.
When he returned to the living room everyone was about to choose a show to watch.
"We're about to watch Game of Thrones, will you join us?" Penny asked him with a smile.
"Sure." Sheldon said and sat in his spot.
While they were watching the episode Amy fell into deep sleep in Sheldon's room.
They were nearing the end of the episode when Amy woke up with a start from another nightmare. This time she didn't scream as she woke up. She recognized Sheldon's room quickly, but saw that Sheldon wasn't in the room. She heard the tv from the living room and quickly wore her skirt and went to the living room with pale face and rapid breathing.
Sheldon heard the door to his room opens and just as he got up and started to walk towards his room, Amy came quickly from the hallway, wearing his Green Lantern shirt and her skirt.
"Hey…" he said as she got closer to him and hugged him tightly once she got to where Sheldon was standing. Sheldon quickly wrapped his arms around her in a tight hug.
"Are you okay?" Sheldon asked her softly as he ran his hand up and down her back and she just held him tighter.
"Would like me to come and lie next to you?" Sheldon whispered his question and Amy shook her head in the negative.
"Would you like to sit here with us?" Sheldon whispered again and she nodded 'yes'.
"Come on." He said and lead her to her spot next to him.
Amy settled in her spot and before he got back to his seat, Sheldon brought her a blanket from the closet, and wrapped her with it.
Amy smiled a small smile at him as she pulled her legs up on the couch and settled on the couch in a fetus position, pulling the blanket up to her neck and Sheldon sat back in his spot, wrapping one arm around her bringing her closer to him, and once Amy laid her head on his chest he wrapped his free arm around her and hugged her tightly and kissed the top of her head and gently laid his head on top of hers.
The entire group sneaked looks at Sheldon and Amy who sat on the couch cuddled, amazed at how Sheldon didn't care about anyone who was in the room and how attentive he was to Amy. They were amazed at the tenderness he demonstrated towards Amy. They were amazed at how gently he stroked her hair so she'll fall back asleep and how he didn't stop even when she fell sleep and made small noises that clearly stated she has fallen into a deep sleep.
Even when the show was over, and everyone said goodbye, Sheldon didn't let go of Amy and he just nodded at them as he looked at his sleeping girlfriend with a worried look.
After they saw all that, they just started to realize how deeply and truly Sheldon loves Amy. Tonight, was what made them understand that Sheldon will get out of his comfort zone for one person and one person only, and that person is Amy, and that's when they knew Sheldon really loves Amy. The fact that he was getting out of his comfort zone without complaining and the way he protected her and never left her side in the last two months, spoke volumes.
A/N:
Thank you for keeping up with this story. In light of recent events in the past year, I think this story is important than ever. I hope someday those things won't happened again or at least that the predators will be punished the way the deserve to be punished by the law, and that the stories and testimonies about people who don't believe the victims will no longer exist.
I would love to read your thoughts and reviews about this chapter.