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I do not own The Big Bang Theory.
Warning:
The next few chapters will revolve around abortion, so if it's a trigger to anyone who chooses to read this story, please read carefully.
In addition, I'm not going into politics or any other discussion for that matter regarding abortion, and it's not my intention of offending anyone's opinion, belief or anyone who experienced the events that are described in this story.
If somehow, I offended anyone, I am truly sorry and once again, it was never my intention.
Chapter 7:
After everyone left and Penny and Leonard went to sleep across the hall, Sheldon stayed sitting on the couch a while longer. Once Amy fell into deep sleep, he couldn't think of waking her up, but he knew she couldn't be that comfortable sleeping seated in a fetus position.
Sheldon contemplated between waking up Amy and risk disturbing her sleep or gently carry her to his room. He figured she'll probably wake up with both options, but he decided to go with the option of carrying her to his room in the hope it won't disturb her sleep as much as actually waking her up.
Amy was leaned against Sheldon, her head on his shoulder and the rest of her body was under the blanket that Sheldon brought her earlier that evening, in a fetus position. Sheldon tried to figure out how to carry her in his arms without waking her up. Eventually he gently slid his right arm between Amy and the couch and he put his left arm under her knees, grabbing the blanket as well.
He gently tightened his grip on Amy and brought her closer to his chest and gently and carefully rose from the couch. As Sheldon rose from the couch Amy stirred a little in his arms, which made Sheldon stay still in his place, but soon Amy settled in his arms, laying her head on his chest in a more comfortable way. Once Sheldon saw Amy didn't wake up, he started to walk towards his room and once in his room, he lied Amy carefully on the bed where she was laying before she got up and joined them in the living room.
Sheldon covered her with his blankets. He briefly remembered that she was still wearing her skirt and thought maybe he should take it off so she'll be more comfortable, but as soon as the thought crossed his mind, he shook it off remembering that that would be an even worse idea than waking Amy up.
Once Amy was tucked in his bed, Sheldon grabbed his pajamas and went to the bathroom and got ready for the bed. When he got back to his room Amy was in deep sleep and only then he realized she was still wearing her glasses, so he carefully went up to her and bend a little so he could take off her glasses. This time however, Amy did wake up with a little start.
"It's okay…" Sheldon whispered to her and caressed her cheek gently and she put her hand on his.
"Go back to sleep. I was about to get into bed myself." Sheldon said lovingly when Amy tightened her grip on his hand.
They stayed like that for a few moments until Amy let go of Sheldon's hand and he got up and went to his side of the bed and entered the bed under the blankets.
Once Sheldon was settled in bed Amy got closer to him and snuggled up to him and Sheldon quickly wrapped his arms around Amy in a tight hug and brought her even closer to him, letting her know she is safe and that he is right next to her and he has no intention of being some place else but next to her. Amy fell back to sleep quickly and once Sheldon saw she fell into deep sleep he let himself fall asleep as well.
Sheldon's sleep was better on some levels since Amy started to sleep next to him, but at the same time it wasn't. he definitely slept better because Amy was next to him. he didn't even realize how much he wanted her next to him until it happened in the last two months, but what bothered him was that Amy's sleep wasn't as good as it used to be, even though her sleep wasn't always peaceful before what happened, but in the last two months there was an obvious change in Amy's sleeping pattern; She woke up every night frightened and every night Sheldon had to calm her down and make her feel safe again. He hated the person who did that to her and he hated the fact that Amy was waking up so frightened every night, but he surprised himself at how natural it was for him to be there for Amy when she needed him the most. Even though he was by Amy's side constantly nowadays, Sheldon kept beating himself up for taking him so long to share a bed with his girlfriend or simply be with her and that something at this magnitude had to happen, for him to realize how much he wanted that closeness with Amy.
The rest of the night passed by somewhat peacefully. Amy woke up another time after the time she woke up earlier that evening, and Sheldon woke up as well when he felt her waking up next to him. He brought her closer to him once again, and kissed her forehead gently and caressed her hair and back lovingly, reassuring her that she is safe and that he is right next to her.
Another thing that changed for Sheldon in the last two months is that his sleep was even lighter than it used to be; ever since Amy started sleeping next to him, he kept his guards up in case she'll wake up and need him. That is how he knew, even in his state of sleep, when she was asleep, when she was awake, when she felt scared and needed him or when she was somewhat relaxed. In the last two months he took upon himself learn every little thing there is to know about Amy and how she is dealing with everything that happened and also, he decided it was about damn time to know everything there is to know about her. So far, he got better at recognizing Amy's facial expressions, but as of now he had her sleeping patterns on point and he knew exactly what to do when she needed him when she woke up from a bad memory that crept during her sleep.
The morning arrived and Sheldon was the first to wake up. He looked to his right side, where Amy was lying on her side and she was facing him. Sheldon looked at her for a few moments and then turned on his side gently, so that he could see her better. He looked at her for a while and without even noticing, he gently put his left hand on her waist and caressed her waist very gently. Amy looked somewhat peaceful in her sleep, and Sheldon didn't want to bother her sleep so he kept looking at her for a few moments, and then gently got out of bed, grabbed clothes for the day and his shoes, and went to the bathroom for his morning routine.
Once he was done in the bathroom he got back to his room, where Amy was still sleep. He didn't want to wake her up, but he wasn't sure if she was planning on going to work, and if she wasn't going to work, he wanted to let her know that he was going to work. Regardless of the work day, he wanted to know what Amy wanted for breakfast.
He looked at Amy as she slept and he couldn't bring himself to waking her up. It looked like she was finally sleeping peacefully, but at the same time he knew she needed to eat and he didn't want her to wake up to an empty apartment without telling her where he was. he thought of just making her something that she could heat up later and leave her a note, but then he remembered about yesterday and how she felt nauseated. He still didn't know what will make her feel sick and what wouldn't make her feel sick.
So even though he hated himself for waking Amy up he knew he had to do so. Sheldon sighed heavily and quietly went over to where Amy was sleeping in his bed and carefully sat down on the floor so he was in the same level as Amy's head.
Sheldon looked at Amy for a while as she slept and as he looked at her, all his feelings for her hit him like a tidal wave; he felt the magnitude of his love for her and as he felt the magnitude of his love for her, he felt the guilt eating him up inside. He felt guilty for everything he put Amy through in the past years, he felt guilty for everything that happened to her, he felt guilty for taking him so long to actually appreciate the woman that is bearing him for so long even when he's being the most annoying person on earth – she is still there, he felt even more guilty that those realizations came after everything that happened to her and not before. He knew he loved her long before everything happened, but he never let those feeling just roam around freely. He always had them under control, so he wouldn't lose his faculties so he would be able to think like the supreme human being he believed he was. He didn't want to let his feelings for Amy control him, like his friends let their feelings control them, but with every smile Amy gave him and every time she supported him, another neuron in Sheldon's brain turned Sheldon's attention to her, and that's how he slowly but surely fell in love with Amy, and when they finally told each other 'I love you' a while ago, every neuron in his brain was completely focused on Amy. But even after they finally said 'I love you' he still tried to keep his emotions at bay, and he was successful for the majority of the times, but after everything that happened a dam just broke and he couldn't, and quite frankly, didn't want to keep his emotions at bay anymore.
Sheldon looked at Amy sound asleep and he couldn't bear the thought of something bad happening to her ever again. He wanted to protect her at all cost. He finally realized how much he loves her. Even though he knew it a while back and even said it, those last two months only made it clearer to him and to everyone around him how much he truly and deeply loves Amy.
Sheldon was still looking at Amy while she suddenly started to wake up and was a little bit alarmed when she saw a blurry shape in front of her, but when she heard Sheldon's calming voice, she relaxed a little bit and grabbed her glasses from the night stand.
"Are you okay?" Amy asked alarmed once more when she saw Sheldon's face clearly, and she saw that he was crying.
"Yes. Of course. Why do you ask?" Sheldon asked as he wiped his eyes as he felt his own tears on his cheeks.
"You were crying. I heard you sniffle as I woke up." Amy said gently and reached out a hand for Seldon who took her hand and squeezed it a little.
"I'm fine." Sheldon mumbled under his breath. He didn't want Amy to worry more than she already worried. It was time that he will be the one who takes care of her.
"Are you okay? I wanted to know if you wanted something to eat and if you are planning on going to work today." Sheldon said as he got up from the floor and sat on the bed next to Amy who was settling in bed in a sitting position.
"I think I will go to work. I'm still not sure about breakfast though. I'll go to the bathroom and see how I feel." Amy said tenderly and Sheldon just nodded and they both got up and out of the bed.
"Sheldon…" Amy said quietly as she was about to enter the bathroom and Sheldon was about to go to the kitchen.
"Yes?" he turned to her.
"How long were you sitting there?" Amy asked shyly.
"Umm… I don't know. I think maybe 10-15 minutes." Sheldon tried to estimate the time he sat in his room looking at Amy while she was sleeping.
"You came there to wake me up, didn't you?" Amy asked softly and Sheldon just lowered his head and nodded.
"Why didn't you?" Amy asked as she walked to him and took his hand in hers.
"I couldn't. You looked like you finally slept peacefully." Sheldon whispered, his eyes still staring at the ground and in that moment, Amy realized something she already knew deep sown; that there is more to the love Sheldon feels for her than he let her see up until now. She figured that the current circumstances brought those selfless actions earlier than expected, but it showed her that it was there and that Sheldon was capable of being unselfish even in the smallest things.
"Thank you." Amy whispered and stood on her tiptoes and kissed Sheldon on his cheek softly and went to the bathroom to get ready for the day.
While Amy was in the bathroom Sheldon made some oatmeal. At first, he put the amount for only one dish, but then he thought that Amy still didn't know what she wants for breakfast and decided to double the amount so she'll have a dish for herself if she'll decide she wants oatmeal as well.
Amy came out of the bathroom while Sheldon was sitting at the kitchen island and was eating his oatmeal.
"I made some extra oatmeal if want." Sheldon said and got up to grab Amy a bowl and started to put some oatmeal in the bowl, when all of a sudden Amy turned back on her heels and ran to the bathroom and slammed the door shut.
Sheldon quickly put down the bowl and ran after her to see if she was okay. When he got to the bathroom the door was already closed and he heard Amy throwing up. He leaned against the wall and took a deep breath. What bothered him wasn't the fact that Amy was throwing up, to his surprise. It was the reason why she throwing up and what caused it that bothered him. No... infuriated him. he wanted to turn back time, he wanted to make it all stop for Amy. He didn't want her to have to go through all of this.
He took a few deep breathes to calm himself down, and knocked on the door gently.
"Amy can I come in?" Sheldon asked softly.
"I'll be out in a moment." Amy answered weakly and laid her head on her arm to calm down a little.
Sheldon waited outside the bathroom for about 10 minutes, that felt like eternity, before he knocked on the bathroom door again.
"Amy… please… I'm worried about you." Sheldon said in a low voice.
"Come in." Amy said softly.
Sheldon opened the door and saw that Amy was sitting on the edge of the bathtub and quickly went to sit next to her.
"Are you alright?" Sheldon asked softly as he wrapped his arm around Amy's shoulder and she leaned against his shoulder.
"I think so. Just… morning sickness you know…" Amy sighed heavily and Sheldon only laid his head on Amy's head gently and caressed her arm.
"I don't think I'll be going to work after all. I don't feel so great at the moment." Amy said.
"Okay. I'll call your boss for you." Sheldon said and squeezed Amy's shoulder gently.
"Thanks." Amy said and they kept sitting there for a while longer.
"I- I know it might not be the right time to ask, but do you want something to eat or drink?" Sheldon asked carefully.
"Some crackers and water. I think that's what my stomach can handle at the moment." Amy said and straightened herself up a little.
"Okay. I'll get you some crackers and water and make some phone calls and you can go and make yourself comfortable in the living room. You can go and lie down on the couch." Sheldon said with a soft smile.
They got out of the bathroom and Sheldon went to his room to bring Amy the blanket she used last night and then went back to the living room where Amy was sitting in her spot, staring into the air.
"If you'll decide to lie down, make sure your head is in my spot and not your feet." Sheldon said with a small smile as he wrapped the blanket around her, and Amy nodded at him with a soft smile of her own.
"I will. Thank you, Sheldon." Amy said softly.
"You're welcome." Sheldon said and pecked the top of her head and went to the kitchen and brought Amy some crackers and a bottle of water and put them on the coffee table.
"If you'll need anything else, just tell me." Sheldon said and went to grab his phone from the kitchen island.
"Aren't you going to work?" Amy asked a little shocked, as she grabbed the bottle of water from the coffee table.
"No." Sheldon said simply.
"No?" Amy asked before she took a sip of her water.
"No. I'm staying here with you. I want to take care of you and make sure you are doing alright." Sheldon said in a tone that left very little room for arguments.
"But you don't have to. It's not necessary. I'll be okay." Amy said softly, trying to convince Sheldon to go to work, but at the same time surprised and touched at the fact he was willing to stay with her at home and miss a work day.
"Amy…" he sat next to her in his spot.
"You really don't have to stay here with me." Amy said softly when Sheldon didn't speak after a few moments.
"Amy…" Sheldon sighed.
"I do." Sheldon added after a short pause.
"Are you sure?" Amy asked carefully. She didn't want to make him do anything he wasn't sure about.
"I am." Sheldon said shortly and looked her deep in the eyes, and Amy couldn't argue anymore once she saw the certainty in Sheldon's eyes.
"Okay." Amy whispered and took a gulp from her water and Sheldon went to make the phone calls to let the university know that Amy and him won't be coming to work today. He told them that if there will be anything urgent, he will do it from his home, but other than that he said he needed to take care of Amy.
"So… is there anything you'd like to do?" Sheldon said as he came back to the living room after he was done with his phone calls and sat next to her.
"Actually yes. I'd like to go home and change my clothes and maybe take a shower." Amy said.
"Okay. would you like to bring some clothes here or should I bring clothes to your place?" Sheldon asked. he meant it when he swore to himself that he would protect her and stay close to her as long as he can.
"Um… I don't know yet, but you can bring some clothes and put them in my car and I'll do the same and I'll decide later. Is that okay with you?" Amy asked him.
"Yes, of course." Sheldon said and kissed her softly on her temple and Amy smiled softly.
In that moment Leonard entered the apartment, looking for Sheldon.
"Hey, are you coming to work with me or are you going with Amy?" Leonard asked Sheldon, a little irritated that Sheldon didn't bother to tell him anything about his plans and making him wait for so long.
"Oh… sorry Leonard. I'm not going to work today." Sheldon said in a soft tone, that surprised Leonard.
"Why? Are you sick?" Leonard asked in a dreadful tone.
"No, I'm okay. I wanted to stay with Amy. She didn't feel so good last night so I want to stay and make sure she's okay." Sheldon said, trying to avoid any specifics that will reveal Amy's condition.
"Oh… right. I'm sorry Amy. I hope you'll feel better soon." Leonard remembered that last night Amy didn't feel so good and quickly wished her to feel better.
"Thanks." Amy said softly with a small smile.
"Hey Leonard, are you coming?" Penny suddenly appeared behind Leonard.
"Yeah. Let's go." Leonard said.
"Wait. What about you two? Aren't you going to work?" Penny stopped and looked at Sheldon and Amy suspiciously.
"No. I'm not feeling so well, so we decided to stay home." Amy said calmly.
Penny took a deep breath so she won't let Leonard see her nervous.
"Um… are you sure that everything is okay? You don't need anything?" Penny asked, raising her eyebrows.
"Yes, I'm sure. Sheldon is going to be with me." Amy said and put her hand on Sheldon's thigh gently and Sheldon took said hand in his and laid their hands back on his thigh.
"Okay. call me if you need anything." Penny said and they nodded at her.
After Leonard and Penny left the apartment, Sheldon and Amy stayed in their spots a while longer, quietly before Amy turned to Sheldon.
"So… I'll go change and we'll go to my apartment. I really want to take a shower and get to some fresh cloths." Amy said and Sheldon just nodded.
"Um… would you like to change in the bathroom? Only because I need to get some clothes from my room." Sheldon asked shyly. He didn't care that Amy changed in his room, but he didn't want to bother her while she was changing and he wanted to use the time efficiently.
"Right. Yeah… okay." Amy said and grabbed her things and went to Sheldon's bathroom to change her clothes, and while she was changing her clothes Sheldon grabbed some clothes and pajamas and put them in a bag to take to Amy. Once Amy was out of the bathroom, Sheldon took his necessities from the bathroom and put them in a case to put in his bag as well.
"Are you ready to go?" Amy asked Sheldon when he came out to the living room with his night bag.
"Yes." Sheldon said as put down his bag and put on his windbreaker and took his messenger bag from the chair near his desk and grabbed his night bag once more.
"Okay. Let's go. I want to make a quick stop in the supermarket to buy some crackers. I don't think I have them back at my apartment and it really helped today." Amy said as they got out of Sheldon's apartment.
"No problem." He said and they went down the stairs and went to Amy's car.
Once in Amy car, Amy drove to the store in her neighborhood and parked her car and they were both out of the car.
"Sheldon, you can wait in the car. It won't take so much time." Amy said when she saw Sheldon was out of the car as well. she wasn't used to Sheldon tagging along to every little errand she had to make.
"No. I'm coming with you." Sheldon said firmly.
"Is that your word of the day?" Amy asked starting to get a little confused about Sheldon's behavior.
"No. that doesn't count, but no. it's just that… Amy…" Sheldon said as he got closer to her and grabbed her hand like he did this morning back in his apartment and Amy felt like there was something he wanted to tell her, but he just can't get it out.
"I… I'm not going to leave you alone anymore." Sheldon whispered to her and Amy simply gasped. Sheldon may have whispered those words, but she heard the pain and remorse in every word he uttered and the only thing she could do was nod. She realized how much all of this affected Sheldon and that his way of protecting her was being with her for every little errand she had to do. She was overwhelmed with gratitude that Sheldon was more supportive than she could ever imagine he would be.
"Okay." she whispered after a few moments of silence, with tears in her throat.
They went to the store, holding hands and went to the aisle where they kept the crackers.
"What kind do you like?" Sheldon asked her.
"I liked the ones that you gave me this morning." She said and Sheldon looked at the selection they had in front of them but didn't find the brand he had back in his apartment.
"Wait here. Maybe it's down the aisle." Sheldon said and went a little further from Amy to look the crackers she was referring to, which he eventually found.
While Sheldon went to bring her the crackers he gave her this morning, Amy looked at the variety and thought of taking another type of crackers besides those Sheldon was bringing.
As she was looking at the variety she suddenly bumped into someone.
"Oh… I'm sorry I didn't s-" Amy said and as she turned around to look at the person she bumped into, she felt how she's going numb. The only thing she felt was everything in her stomach coming up.
"Hey they had the crackers…" Sheldon went back to Amy and when he saw how pale she was as she looked at some man, he rushed to her side.
"Hey… are you okay?" He asked her as he put his arms around her, but Amy shrugged him off.
"What happened?" Sheldon looked at Amy who looked like she was about to throw up and then at the man that was smiling in a creepy way at her. Amy couldn't utter a word or move. She felt like someone glued her to the floor.
"Who are you? What did you do to her?" Sheldon now turned his attention to the man.
"I'm Tim." He turned to Sheldon.
Sheldon took a moment to figure out why this name sounded somewhat familiar and how it connected to Amy. When he finally realized why he knows the name he couldn't think straight and for the first time in his life Sheldon punched someone.
A/N:
Thank you so much for following this story. I can't tell you enough how much I appreciate it.
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