[Heyy, I've finally uploaded this chapter and the next on should follow soon :). Thanks for all the reviews]
Over the last 5 month their relationship has been quite turbulent, between their schedules and constant arguing there had barely been any time for them to just be them and the cracks were beginning to show. Tonight, had been date night and surprising it was running smooth, they had settled on heading home after dinner and staying in making the most of their time together instead of heading out with their friends.
"we will have the whole day tomorrow, we can stay in and…" Harvey said his voice trailing off as he kissed from her chest to ear.
She bit her lip as he nibbled at her ear before grinning as Harvey pulled her in closer.
"That sounds amazing but my dad will be in town, we are doing lunch-"
Harvey pulled back before sighing and flopping onto his back
"No, no" Jessica said pulling at his t-shirt in protest that he had stopped.
Jessica signed as silence fell over them. "what now?"
"nothing," Harvey said tiredly pulling a pillow over his face.
"maybe, you should come to lunch, so that every time I mention my father you don't shut down"
"shut down?"
"Are you still angry about what happened at Christmas?"
"for 100th time there isn't an issue Jess, that was 5 months ago"
"you know what, you're right"
"if you have something to say, say it" Harvey pushed the topic
"I don't want to have this argument with you, that seems to be all we do" Jessica said getting up from the side of the bed.
"let's get into it, you have clearly got something on your mind"
"Okay, let start with anytime I mention us doing something remotely related to our families, we get into a heated discussion. First, it was you don't what to spend time around your parents, then when I invite you to an event in New York, you have to mention you're not a charity case or you will be at work"
"Well unlike you I have to pay for my tuition, I don't come from a privileged background"
"I understand that, the concept of work isn't foreign to me, but you can't avoid spending time with me because my family will be around"
"that's not it"
"it is! and that's my point. It hurts that don't want to spend time with me when my family are around and then you won't tell me why"
"your reading too much into this, I don't even want to spend time with my own family"
"I can't control how you choose to interact with your own family but I can with mine and you're choosing to avoid them, which isn't going to work for me, you are going to have to tell me what the issue is"
"You really what to know, okay. Your father the great Alan Pearson has deemed me an unacceptable candidate for his daughter. I don't fit the criteria"
"so what? You don't think you couldn't have told me this?"
"I don't want to drive a wedge between you and your father, a man you have idolised your entire life" his frustration beginning to show.
"I'm under no illusion of who he is and instead of letting me deal with him, you decided to create a wedge between us?"
"I didn't want to ruin the relationship you have with your father"
"and you won't! I'd have respected you more if you hadn't lied to my face"
"you would have wanted me to tell you he thinks that I'm no good for you, that I'm only holding you back and for me to leave you? "
"Yes! So, we could talk about it. instead of me spending the last 5 months justifying myself to your every insecurity"
"insecurity? I am not insecure" Harvey said taken aback
"you don't trust me! You think I'll leave you for an idea my father put in your head. You didn't trust who I am. If I had wanted a to be taken care of, I wouldn't be here"
"and there it is, you don't think I'm capable. That's the only difference between me and Quinton"
"no, the only difference is that you care about me, not the idea of me but who I am. And that is why I am with you. I don't want to be placed on some shelf as a trophy or an accessory to your life. I wanted someone who I could grow with"
She paused
"I don't want this to get in the way of our relationship, but you both have to find a common ground. And I'd like that to be as soon as possible"
"Jess I can't be in the same room as that man right now"
"that man, is still my father and I know you feel a sense of relief getting it all off your chest but if you two don't reconcile this then what are we doing?"
"what are you saying?"
"you're asking me to choose, and I can't. I don't think it possible to tell you how much I love you and whether losing you or my family would hurt more but I can't lose everything, my mother, my sister who is my best friend, my father who was my superman for most of my life and these relationships are irreplaceable"
"and I am?"
"no, I'm-"
"just looking for an excuse to end things?"
"I don't want to end thing, but we can't keep arguing about the same shit and expect it to change, when you're not willing to compromise!"
Harvey scoffed "I compromised on everything else for you and this one thing, you're giving me an ultimatum"
She furrowed her eyebrows in disagreement "what exactly have you compromised for me?"
"I spent the beginning of our relationship giving the time and space because you refused to admit you love me"
"and why do you think that is Harvey, you have the ability to break my heart. Which is what you are doing right now!"
"so, you're done?"
"I didn't say I was done, but I won't choose"
"and I will not be backed into a corner!"
"you're not, nobody is keeping you here if you don't want to be here!"
"Looks like you've made up your mind" Harvey grabbed his stuff ready to leave
"If you walk out that door there is no going back"
Harvey left the room slamming the door behind him.
A few days passed and they hadn't spoken. Harvey had decided he was going to break the ice. Their arguments tended to get pretty heated, but they normally worked it out that same day, this time had been different that was for sure.
Harvey cleared his throat leaning against the table Jessica was sat at in the library.
"Jess" he began
Looking up from the notes she was making to see Harvey stood In front of her, she glanced at him before continuing to write her notes.
"Jess can I just speak to you for a second?"
"About what?"
"ssssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" a very frustrated student said pointing to the silent area sign.
"About the other night"
"there's nothing to talk about"
"Can you just hear me out"
"I'm busy" pointing out the work she was in the middle of completing
"shhhhhhhhhhhhh"
"Can you leave, before you get me kicked out"
Harvey pulled out the chair and sat down
"what are you doing?"
"waiting"
Jessica sighed before getting up and walking to the entrance of the library, to which Harvey followed.
"I-" He began
"No. Me." Stopping him mid-sentence "I meant what I said, Harvey. You can't just behave like a child, leave and then expect me to get over it within a few days"
"Don't you think breaking up is a bit drastic?"
"Drastic? You suggested it, as a matter of fact, you made the decision when you walked out"
"so, you're over us because you seem to fine?"
"What do you want from me, Harvey? to cry. Because that's all I've done for the past 3 days"
"Jess" his voice soft as he took a step forward in an attempt to comfort her.
"Please don't"
"I don't want this to be the end"
"I don't know where we can go from here. You aren't willing to compromise or as you put it "I will not be backed into a corner"
"I could have handled it better for sure but so could you, you practically said, you wouldn't fight for us"
"Harvey I can't do this right now" she stepped past his heading back into the library.
"Can we just talk about this?"
"We're not happy Harvey! and I'm tired of fighting about the same thing, over and over again" silence fell over them.
His voice soft "okay I hear you" he pulled her into a hug before kissing her on the forehead.
Harvey watched as she walked back towards the library.