It was lonely not talking to Lena. Even when they sat together at lunch, Kara could feel that it was different. It's like ever since the library incident Lena was just pushing her away.
"Is everything okay? We never talk anymore and even when I do message you with the codes, your replies are always short. Don't shut me out too. Then you really will have nobody and I never want that for you," Kara stated. Lena sighed and looked into the blonde's eyes. She took her hand as well and moved her position so that she was facing her.
"I know that you think it's better for us to be around each other, but is it really? I mean how long before the attacks get more violent and you're put in the hospital because of me… I can't live like that. I won't live like that. I've given short replies because I thought it was the best way to try and get you to drift away from me. But I should have known it was only going to have you worry more. Kara, you mean so much to me, so don't think for a second that I don't care how you're going to feel when I don't answer you at all or we no longer sit together. It will hurt me too," Lena confessed. Her words brought tears to Kara's eyes, but the blonde never let them fall.
"So you just want to be alone? That's your only option? Are you freaking kidding me? I have been through so much with you. You were there for me when I learned of Jeremiah's passing and I am forever grateful for that, but you can't just expect me to be okay with you just shutting me out completely. Lena, you wouldn't be able to do that forever.. I saw how painful it was for you when we were kids. It destroyed you when your mom said we could never be friends, but now you're actually going to listen to her?" Kara asked. That's when Lena became furious.
"My mother has nothing to do with this decision. If it was up to her she'd have much worse things to do to you than anyone else. This is my choice. I don't care if it pains me to walk away from you. It's the best thing for you Kara. Now, I'm not going to just up and go either.. My plan happens in two days. This way, it won't be all of a sudden and you send Alex to kick my ass. She already knows and she agreed that this is for the best. We both also decided that I should tell you now," Lena informed. Kara's mouth was open in shock at she turned towards Alex's table. Alex was watching them the entire time, but knew that Lena had just told Kara about the agreement. Before she could even walk over and explain herself, the blonde was already walking over.
"How could you think this is the best option? You've seen how close we've become. I didn't think you'd ever want anything to happen to me. Guess I was wrong," Kara said with disappointment.
Alex just stayed quiet, staring at the floor. She only lifted it up when Lena was beside Kara. The raven haired girl looked as though this was the worst thing she'd ever been through.
"Can't you see that this pains Lena too? It's just the right thing for now.. When the news calms down about her brother and Superman, maybe it will be better," Alex said. Kara then looked at Lena and saw that she was also about to cry. The blonde then took Lena's hand and lead her to the bathroom to talk privately. When they got there they were both staring at the floor.
"Why'd you bring me in here?" Lena asked, wanting to break the silence.
"I needed to say some things that no one would be able to hear. First off, will you leave this city in two days or just not talk to me? Second, if you are leaving it better be the best goodbye on this planet.. And if you just won't talk to me, you have to give me something so that when I'm upset I can just stare at it and think of you. Lastly, there's one thing that I haven't done that I really want to do," Kara admitted. Lena stayed quiet for a few seconds, wondering if she was going to continue or not. When Kara didn't, she knew it was her turn to speak.
"I'll be leaving the city.. No use just staying here and being miserable. I can't promise that it'll be the best goodbye on Earth because it will be painful for both of us. But I will give you something anyway, even though it wasn't on the terms you said. Only because I want something of yours too. What is it that you've always wanted?" Lena asked.
"Seeing your room. I've never seen it, but I keep dreaming that one day I will.. Except that if you're leaving, I'll never be able to," Kara stated. The raven haired girl stared at the blonde with so much compassion, she began to cry. That was when Kara walked over and wrapped her arms around her and laid her head on her shoulder. They were both crying at this point, but had enough strength to back away and look into each other's eyes.
"You'll always be my first friend, Kara Danvers. I'll never forget you. Or that adorable face of yours. I may not be leaving yet, but I just want to try and tell you everything before I do leave.. In a way, you were always mine. And now you'll have yourself," Lena said. Kara was speechless at this point trying to find the words to say. Those words never came so instead she leaned over and kissed her on the cheek and walked out the bathroom door, tears falling with every step. Lena caught up with her though and grabbed her arm gently. The blonde was facing her, shock all over her face.
"You don't get to kiss my cheek and walk out on me when I'm just standing in the middle of the bathroom wondering why. So now I'm asking.." Kara sighed and stepped closer.
"It should have been obvious," Kara whispered. She turned away for the second time and wasn't stopped by Lena. The raven haired girl watched her walk away with a huge smile on her face.
'I definitely have to have the best goodbye for her,' Lena thought.