After their intense first kiss on the couch April and Jimmy kept their plans for dinner. They decided on somewhere fairly nice. An excuse for both of them to finally dress up and move the relationship to a new zone. After a quick fashion show modeling dress pants, a flowy skirt, or a tight dress April picked the dress. Although unspoken it was heavily implied that tonight would be the night to take their relationship to the next level, physically.

He picked her up at around 7:30 and they made their way to dinner. He sat next to her in their booth, speaking low, almost a whisper in her ear.

"By the way you look really good, and you smell really good too."

"Are you talking about me or this pesto-soup?"

Jimmy chuckled, "Don't order that."

"Why?" she asked.

"Because I'd like to do more of this."

He leaned in for a kiss, more chaste because of the public surroundings but nonetheless seductive.

"There is way too much garlic in it."

April blushed. The server came around and they ordered a bottle of wine and the lamb with braised carrots and polenta. Although relaxed from the wine excitement was building because they only had plans to stay in. Jimmy got their check and was signing it when April excused herself to the bathroom.

"I'll get the valet to bring the car around and meet you out front," he announced.

April nodded. As he was walking out, just arriving was Vicky and Ethan.

"Dr. Choi," he said with a nod and a sly smirk.

Ethan was caught off guard.

"Lanik."

It could be that he was here alone but that shit-eating grin signaled he had something to be smug about. Vicky was giving her name while Ethan's eyes darted around the restaurant. She had to be here too, he knew it.

"I'm going to use the restroom before we order," he said giving her a quick kiss on the cheek.

He sped his way over to the unisex bathroom as the door opened April emerged, eyes wide at the sight of him. Quickly he pushed her back into the bathroom and locked the door behind them.

"What are you doing here?" he hissed.

"Eating, like normal people-."

"-With Lanik?!"

"It's none of your business Ethan," April casually stated as she moved to walk past him.

"No," he commanded, "Why are you doing this? You don't love him, do you think this is going to make me jealous?"

He had her arm gripped in his powerful hands.

"Let go."

"No, not till you stop this."

Although small, April wasn't exactly weak. She pulled her arm away and pushed Ethan back into the door, her long forearm to his throat. She quickly unzipped his pants and began stroking him.

"Is this what you want Ethan?"

His breathing quickened.

"Do you think about me when you screw her?"

Her hand was moving faster as his eyes closed and he exhaled. April released her arm from his neck and stopped suddenly. His eyes flashed open.

"You're pathetic."

She unlocked the door as he was struggling to adjust his clothes.

"April!" He growled, "don't do this."

"Do what Ethan?"

April opened the door and walked out. She quickly glided out of the restaurant as an unsuspecting Vicky sat at her table looking over the menu, not realizing that Ethan had already started ordering.

Jimmy was sitting in the car as the valet opened the door for April to get in.

"Mine or yours?" he asked.

"Yours."

...

They were rolling around on his bed, tearing pieces of clothing off, seeing parts of each other they'd never had. Lanik looked at her as if it was the first time he'd ever seen anything like her before. It made April smile when she unhooked her bra, they'd been fooling around for at least twenty minutes. Finally April tore away from his kiss, his fingers still deep inside her.

She grabbed his hand to stop him.

"Am I doing this wrong?" he asked.

"No,you're great" she said sitting up, "Is this as far as you want to go tonight?"

"Oh."

"No, no it's fine, we've been taking our time with everything else," April added as she brought her hand to his cheek, "we don't have to rush."

Her eyes were a comfort that always made him feel at ease.

"Do you want to...do more?"

"Can't you tell?" she answered.

His blues had never looked so innocent, he blushed.

"Uh...okay let me get something."

He reached over to his night table and opened a drawer, pulling out a condom.

"I'm on the pill if you don't want to...use that."

"Habit," he answered as he rolled it on giving the tip a taut pinch.

He turned back to her, kissing her again, and pushing her back in place before he got on top of her.

After a moment, it was clear he was lost.

"Is that-."

"-No, not there, ow-."

"-Uh, sorry… there."

"Yes."

She giggled, she couldn't help it. She was looking up at him, he looked like a child in awe. HIs eyes bright and large.

"Whoa," he exhaled.

He set his head to the crook of her neck. He would let a breathy, "god" out ever so often. His pace slow as if he wanted this moment to last forever or more realistically he wanted to last longer. He took his hand; sandwich between them, finding her clit. Now she could join him in his vocals. He watched her, in inquisitive observation as she rose in volume to match the movement of his fingers. He pushed his hips more forcefully to match her excitement. Her fingers pressed into his sides as they came together. Jimmy, trailed small kisses from her neck and then lifted her chin to kiss her before getting up and going to the bathroom.

"I'll be right back."

When he returned he nestled next to her. He was quiet, in contemplation. April glanced up at him.

"Are you okay?" she asked.

He snapped out of it to answer.

"Yeah," he said. He had a strange realization on his face. "Are you?"

April sat up to face him. He couldn't help but stare at her breasts, her long neck, her doe eyes, still unable to believe he was seeing them.

"I'm fine, but you seem like something is on your mind."

He gave her a half smile before biting his bottom lip.

"I've never done that before."

April's eyes widened before she took a deep breath.

"You've never-,"

"-Not with a woman."

"-Wait, never?!"

He shook his head no. April smiled.

"How was it?"

"Good, different than I expected, better."

"-In comparison to…," April trailed off when she realized what he was actually saying.

Her gaze needling to a trance. Jimmy titled his head.

"Is that okay?"

"-Yeah, yeah, yeah it's cool," she rambled.

April began searching for her clothes. Lanik's face dropped.

"Yup, I scared you."

"-No, I just need to go to the bathroom."

April let the door shut behind her. She kept mouthing "oh my god" over and over again as she sat on the toilet peeing.

Because the world fetishizes the idea of women with women. It's hot, and when a woman who's only been with other women finally decides she might want to have sex with a man; the world behaves as though everything has been set right. The guy is a true stud who flipped the lesbian. But with men it's taboo. You were marked, gross, your masculinity wasn't a question anymore because now that you've admitted to having sex with men you forefieted your card to true manhood, your masculinity didn't exist. April was doing her best to repel the latter feeling. It wasn't fair to him. She was a mess when he asked her out. Still being messy with her ex, she had no right nor room to judge. Besides, it was good. When they weren't fumbling about like confused middle-schoolers, it was really good, better than Ethan. April flushed the toilet, washed her hands and came out. To her surprise Jimmy was putting on pants. He pinched at his eyes and pulled contact lenses out she never realized he wore until now and into a small plastic case. He pulled a pair of thick bifocals from the end table.

"Do you want me to take you home?"

April scrunched her face in disappointment.

"Wow James, I didn't realize you wanted the full experience of bedding a woman and then kicking her out," she teased.

"You just, you seem freaked out."

"I was, a little, mostly surprised though...can I stay?"

Jimmy let out a sigh and smiled.

"Of course."

April smiled and crawled back into his bed and tugged at is hand so he'd sit too.

"So, just so we're clear, you aren't saying you've never had sex, you're saying you've never had sex with a woman...which means you've only…-,"

"-Yes with men," he replied.

"I guess I thought there was a chance you meant anyone, just cause when we talked about dating you made it sound like you didn't have much of a history."

"I don't, I had two girlfriends, one in middle school and then a short relationship in highschool, after that I kind of stopped looking at women, I realized I was looking at men more."

April got comfortable and stared at him; hoping he'd continue. He nodded.

"Then in college I didn't date much but I hooked-up...a lot. I thought I was gay for a long time but in the last year or so I've been noticing women again...I noticed you."

"Me?"

Jimmy scoffed with a smile, " You're gorgeous, anyone can see that, but I think I realized there was more to it when I saw Ethan kiss you one day after shift. I realized I wished I was him, kissing you."

He smoothed his thumb over her chin and then leaned in to kiss her.

"Things aren't always so black and white are they?" she remarked.

"No, they're not."