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A/N: Alright so I know I left the last chapter hanging but it made for such good drama so here's another tough one for Ruzek and the gang of Intelligence, Enjoy
His body did not want to cooperate. Everything around him was a blur and people moved quickly around him and he could hear some faint voices but his world was spinning and he didn't know how to stop it. It was only when his name was said forcefully that he forced himself into gear. "Kim, darling, stay with me." He was by her side in an instant. His hands were pressing down on one of the wounds, Kevin's both hands pressing on two others. Their hands quickly became red with her blood. Adam started making compressions with his left hand. "Somebody call for an ambo."
"They're on route." Jay's voice cut through the chaos. They're two minutes out."
"Hang in there darling, they're almost here." Kim's eyes were blinking rapidly and blood came out from the corner of her lips when she coughed. "Breathe slowly."
"What the hell happened?" Kevin was furious, looking around, trying to find an offender.
"Kim, stay with me. WHERE THE HELL IS THAT AMBULANCE?" He yelled at Jay who was standing on the sidewalk.
"Right here." It came to a screeching halt and they pulled the gurney out. Jay pulled Adam off Kim's body with the help of Kevin. He was resisting but they needed him to let them work."
"Which one of you is coming with us?" Chout asked the group.
"That's me." Adam pulled away from the guys grip. "Where you taking her?" Adam hopped in right behind Chout.
"To Med."
"We're right behind you brother." Kevin closed the doors and gave them a tap and ambulance 66 was gone. Adam held onto her hand the whole time, tears clouding his vision and anger coursing through his veins.
"You're going to be okay darling." He rubbed his thumb across her knuckles. "Stay with me."
"What's the ETA?" Chout yelled, kicking Adam's fears into gear.
"What's going on?" He was frantic now, looking at the monitor and then looking at Kim. She had lost her battle to stay awake and slipped out of nconsciousness, her breathing erratic.
"Press on it, we're going to lose her."
"Do something about it." Adam growled. Chout promised he was doing everything in his power but she needed a doctor. The ambo came to a halt and things suddenly went quickly and Kim was taken away from him and into a trauma room before heading straight up to the OR. Kevin and Jay made it to him and they were taken to the second floor where Adam took to pacing. "What's taking so damn long?"
"You gotta let them work Ruz, she's in good hands." Kevin place a hand on Adam's shoulder but he pushed him away.
" She should have been covered." Adam shoved him hard. He had fought him on putting a police detail on Kim just in case and there they were.
"Enough." Jay pushed them apart and placed himself between the two. "Get your head on straight, she needs you focused."
"And we need to catch that son of a bitch that did this to her."
"And we will. Hailey is at the scene with Herrmann working to crack it. You focus on Kim and we got the investigation." Their discussion was interrupted by Dr Rhodes who came out of the OR with blood stained scrubs.
"I'm sorry Adam."
"NOOOOOOOO." Adam's world has just stopped turning.
Adam woke in a sweat and for a second, he thought it was all a bad dream but the beeping of the machines reminded him that he was living a nightmare. Kim had a breathing tube down her throat and a feeding tube up her nose so she wouldn't loose too much weight while her body rested in a coma. She looked so small in the hospital bed and not being able to see her beautiful smile was like repeatedly pushing a knife into Adam's heart.
"Any change?" Adam was startled by Antonio's voice.
"Nothing." He sighed, taking Kim's hand in his. Antonio had been stuck in the bullpen doing some last minute paperwork he had put off when he heard the news of Kim's shooting and he had gone with the sirens on at Med as soon as his feet had cooperated.
"I brought you some food, Kim wouldn't want you to starve."
"Thanks. I just can't imagine leaving her side right now."
"I get it." He wasn't blind and he knew that the two had never stopped loving each other after their broken off engagement. "If you need anything at all, just say the word alright?" He put a comforting hand on Adam's shoulder and gave it a gentle squeeze.
"I should have stayed with her, I shouldn't have listened to Kim or Kevin. It wouldn't have happened if I had stood my ground." He felt angry with himself again. "I should have been with her." He yelled, tears clouding his vision again.
"Don't do that to yourself Adam, it won't help her."
"Don't you think I know that?" He pushed Antonio's hand aside and stood, storming out of the room. He needed fresh air and he needed to let some of the anger go. Antonio watched him as he left but let him go. He knew he was under a lot of pressure and he didn't blame him for harbouring anger towards himself. He had been the same when Diego had been kidnapped years ago and again recently when Eva had been kidnapped. He took a seat next to Kim and looked at the monitor. He didn't know all that much about the medical field but the steady sound of the monitor was a sign that Kim's condition was steady.
"Hey there partner." He took her hand in his. "It's been three days already and that boy of yours really needs you to wake up." The lack of movement unsettled him. Kim was always so full of life and he missed her too. "He stepped out for a little bit to clear his head because he thinks this is all his fault but he'll be back, don't worry. And I got his back while you rest up." He stood and placed a kiss on her forehead. Antonio looked behind his shoulder when he felt a presence behind him. "Still no change." He sighed.
"And where's boy wonder?"
"Blowing off steam somewhere, he'll be back."
"He knows he has nothing to do with her being here right?" Platt pulled a chair on the other side of the bed.
"He's kicking himself right now."
"I'll have a talk with him then."
"You can't say anything that everyone else hasn't told me before." Platt and Antonio looked in the direction of the door, Kevin at Adam's side.
"Well I'll keep hammering it in your head until you believe it." Her tone was all reprimand and Adam nodded.
"What are you doing here Sarge?" He walked inside the room.
"What did I tell you the first time Burgess was shot?" She reminded him.
"That no one should wake up alone."
"That's right and I was coming to offer you to stay with her while you go home for a little bit."
"That won't be necessary sarge, I got everything I need here." He raised a bag that Kevin had just brought from his place. "I ain't going anywhere until she wakes up."
"Suit yourself but i am going to keep you fed because she's going to kick your ass if she finds out that you aren't taking care of yourself."
"I get it Sarge okay?" Adam was growing frustrated right now. "Kim wouldn't want me to let myself go because she's in here but you know what? No matter what you guys say or do, I won't be okay until she wakes up and comes back home. Now I'd like for you guys to leave please, Kim doesn't need all of this noise around her."
"Adam." Platt tried, only wanting to offer him some support.
"Please." He was tired and he didn't want to fight with the desk sargent.
"We'll get out of your hair but promise me that you'll call us as soon as something changes."
"I will Trudy." He smiled sadly as then she and Antonio got up from their seats to leave them open for him and Kevin.
"Hang in there." Antonio pulled him in his arms.
"Thanks for being there for us, I know Kim will be happy about that."
"Come on Trudy, we better get back to the district, there's still some work to be done." Platt nodded her agreement.
"Come on sleeping beauty, you've slept enough. Wake up and get your skinny ass to the district, it's far too boring without you Burgess." Everyone knew that Kim was Platt's favourite and this was affecting her far more than she was willing to admit it. She squeezed Kim's leg and hugged Adam before walking out of the room followed by Antonio who hugged Adam one last time.
"Anytime of the day, whatever you need."
"Thanks Dawson."
"Look after him will ya?" Antonio pointed at Atwater.
"I got their backs." He promised before the two left, leaving them alone.
"So, no change?"
"Nothing man, I can't take this anymore." He pushed a strand of hair behind her ear.
"She's just taking her sweet old time to wake up, she'll be okay."
"I wish I could share your positivity but the longer she takes to wake up the more I'm scared she won't be the same, that it'll fuck her up on some level."
"How about you take a few minutes and go shower while I'm here, might help with the perspective?"
"I left her long enough before, I can't."
"Adam." Kevin's tone left no place for any argument and Adam sighed, knowing he was right.
"I will be right back, ten minutes, tops."
"Take your time, I need a few minutes with my girl."
"Okay." Adam realized he was being extremely selfish but he was scared something would happen to her while he was away and he couldn't live with himself if something else happened while he wasn't there to protect her. "I'll be in the doctor's lounge if you need me."
"Yeah." Kevin waited for Adam to gather his things and leave before he spoke to Kim. "Come on Burgess, you gotta stop playin'. Ruzek is a mess right now and opening those pretty eyes is the only thing that's gonna help him. And I'm not gonna lie, I miss my girl too. We haven't hung out in forever and I know some of that is on me but we need to fix that and you and Ruz gotta come over." He was playing with her fingers, the emotions choking him. "He just got you back, don't do this to him." Kevin heard noise outside the room and stopped what he was saying, scared Adam would be on the other side of the door.
Adam reluctantly grabbed his things and headed for the doctor's lounge. Mrs Goodwin had offered it to him as a courtesy, knowing full well that he wouldn't stray too far away from Kim. He let the warm mist wash away the lack of sleep and constant nightmares he was having since Kim had been admitted. He had been scared out of his right mind at the sight of so much blood coming out of her and it had taken Kevin and Jay to pry him away from her to let them work. He couldn't entertain the thought of loosing her to this because he had just gotten her back and he wasn't ready for their story to be over. He quickly washed and rinsed before turning the water off and drying himself. He slipped in a pair of joggers and a t-shirt, putting on his chucks on and returning to Kim's room. The monitors beeped steadily as he moved the curtain aside to come in.
"Everything good yeah?" He took a seat next to her again.
"No change." Kevin shook his head. "You okay here by yourself?"
"Yeah I'm good." He smiled nervously.
"Alright I'll go update the rest of the team and I'll swing by later tonight if we're not stuck on a case."
"Thanks for everything Kev." They shared their special handshake and Kevin pulled him into his arms before leaving them alone for the day.
The day turned into night and a slew of people came and went with flowers, balloons and get well cards. Adam fell into a restless night and night became day and it started all over again. Days came and went and still Kim hadn't woken up. Adam had stopped eating except for a few bites here and there and the only thing holding him together was the coffee Trudy brought him every day. Voight came by later that day and Adam couldn't take it anymore.
"How is she today kid?"
"I don't know what to do anymore Sarge." He took his head in his hands. "It's been more than a week and still there's no improvement and she hasn't woken up."
"She's just not ready yet, give her some more time."
"Time's running out." He ran his hands over his face. "I can't function without her, I don't want to. We're supposed to go slow you know?"
"It's gotta be on her timetable, don't over think it."
"I don't want to wait anymore sarge. I want it, all of it and I'm done with the waiting game. When she gave me back the ring, I thought I was going to die and in that locker room I wanted to. I had never loved anyone like I love her and I came so damn close to losing her one time, I don't think I can do that again. I'm ready to fight for us, fight to get our forever."
"Don't stop fighting Adam and when she's ready things will fall into place I promise."
Suddenly the machines started emitting all sorts of noises and the nursing staff came swarming in with Dr Rhodes and Maggie suddenly pushed them outside. "Let us work." And suddenly Adam felt like his world was slipping farther out of his grip.
A/N: Ooops, I did it again. I hope you guys liked it and please take a few minutes to review, I love to read your thoughts ;) - Sarra