Chapter 5
Positive. Fuck. I feel the tears start to fall harder as I sob. Pregnant. I get myself together and head to the doctor to confirm it. "Miss Lewis, what seems to be the problem today?" the doctor asks. "I took a home test and it came up positive." I tell her. "Okay, so we'll do a pregnancy test and go from there. She draws blood and takes it to be tested. Twenty minutes later she walks in, and says "Pregnancy test came back positive. Let's do an ultrasound and see how far along you are." she tells me and I nod. "This your first?" she asks. "Yes." I say simply. She puts the gel on my stomach and then the wand and I hear the heartbeat. "Good and strong." she tells me. Moving the wand a little more, I see the baby on the screen. She does some measurements and says "Looks like your measuring at five weeks pregnant. Congratulations." she tells me and I nod. She hands me the ultrasound pictures and tells me "When you go to the front desk, they will tell you your next appointment and give you your prescription for your prenatals." she tells me. "Thank you." I say, looking down at the picture of mine and Gilly's baby.
I get home and don't feel like doing anything. I sit on the couch and look at the picture. I can't believe this is our baby. Me and Gilly. Shit. How am I going to tell him? I am sitting on the couch still when there's a knock on the door. I look through the peephole and see Josh standing there. Putting the picture on the end table, I step outside. "Can I help you?" I ask. "Just wanted to check in on you. Make sure you're okay." he says. "I'm fine Josh." I say and go to head back inside. "I miss you." he tells me. "Don't do that shit. Tell me you miss me when you're the one that left me." I tell him, already emotional. "Jenna, can we talk? Please?" he asks. "No. We can't." I tell him before walking inside and closing the door, turning the lock.
I hear his car leave and I grab the picture of my baby, our baby, and sit back down on the couch. Thinking about Gilly and the baby, and now Josh pulling this shit. Just what I don't need for my depression. A little later, my phone rings and I see it's Gilly. I answer. "Hey Boo." I say. "What's wrong?" he asks and I can't help but laugh. "It's amazing how well you know me Gil." I say. "Talk to me babe." He says. "Nothing that can't wait until you get back." I say. "No, talk to me." he says. "Josh came by talking about he missed me and wanted to talk. I told him no and shut the door in his face." I tell him. "I'll have the prospect come by and stay." he tells me. "I'll be fine Gil. I promise." I tell him. "How's your depression?" he asks. "Not bad right now." I tell him. "Call the prospect if it gets bad before I get back." he tells me. "I will boo." I tell him. "I love you." he tells me. "I love you too." I say fighting off the tears. "Now I know you're not okay. What's going on?" he asks. "I'll talk to you when you get back. Be safe okay? I love you Gil." I say before hanging up and not waiting on him to respond. I sit on the couch and sob.
A few minutes later, there's a knock on the door. I wipe my eyes and look out the peephole. The prospect. Of course he sent the prospect. I open the door and tell him "I told Gilly I was fine." I tell him. "And seeing you, even I see you're not. What's up?" he asks. "Nothing I can't handle." I tell him. I walk back over to the couch and he heads to the kitchen. Pouring me a glass of Jack he brings it over and I just look at it. "I can't drink it." I tell him. "It will calm you down." he tells me. "I know. But I can't." I say and I slide the ultrasound picture over to him. "Shit. Congrats?" he asks. "Yeah." I say softly. "Your ex?" he asks. I shake my head no. His eyes go wide and he asks "Gilly?" I nod my head yes and say "He doesn't know yet. I just found out today." I tell him. "What are you going to do?" he asks. "I'm going to tell Gilly when he gets back and go from there." I tell him and he nods. "I heard the heartbeat. It was so strong and so fast." I tell him and he smiles softly. I sit back on the couch and he says "I'll fix you some juice." I nod and say "I'll call Gilly and let him know I'm okay." I tell him. Picking up my phone, I call Gilly. "Hey baby. Prospect make it there?" he asks. "Yeah. I told you I would be fine until you got here." I tell him. "I know but I wanted to make sure." he tells me and I can't help but smile. "You know I love you right?" I say as the tears start to fall again. "I know babe. I love you too. We're heading out in a few so I'll head straight there. Might be a couple of hours." he tells me. "I'll wait up. We need to talk." I tell him. "Okay. Love you." he says. "Love you. Ride safe." I tell him before getting off the phone. Shit. Now to wait on him to get here so I can tell him I'm pregnant. I'm scared of how this is going to go.