Carmella Reyes x Jesse McCree
Word Count: 1550
Song Lyrics: Robinson - Crave You
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"It's been eight years since I last saw you, and every one moment of silence I had to myself, it was filled with the memory of you. And you're still on my mind."
Her words were soft and measured as she stood silently in front of two pristine gravestones, each neatly engraved with the names of those who she held close to her heart.
John Morrison 2020-2070
Gabriel Reyes 2020-2070
Carmella Reyes stood despondently in the eerily silent cemetery. The sun shone brightly
above with no cloud in the sky, the opposite of what the young woman felt in her heart. It was the anniversary of their untimely passing, she had grown with them, learned from them, cried with them. They were her family.
They had been ripped away from her suddenly, due to an explosion that rocked the entire
Overwatch Foundation base in Zurich. She was deployed the day before it happened, perhaps luck was on her side, but at what cost?
Everything had been taken away. All that was left of her was the sadness, despair, and loneliness that threatened to consume her. There were no bodies, no dog tags, nothing.
Her friends consoled her as she relied on her strength to continue on and to care for her
younger brother. She didn't have a choice. The one man that she depended on before this had all happened is no longer there to wipe her tears. He wasn't there to ground her when she had almost lost herself. He abandoned her when she needed him the most.
"It's almost time... I'll bring Johnny back with me next time," Carmella whispered as she stepped forward and placed two small bouquets of flowers on both of the graves.
The pain that she had endured left its marks on her and never waned as the years passed.
She continued to look down at the pristine gravestones. Memories, both good and bad, flooded her mind before she took one deep breath, and stepped away from the graves. She would be back on the next anniversary of their deaths, it was a homage to them, even if the caskets were empty.
She needed to prepare herself for the small performance at the annual music event in the Botanical Hanging Gardens. The festival was a way to release the pent-up sadness in her heart, a way for her to mourn, but also bring happiness to people as well. Since the explosion followed by the disbandment of Overwatch, she had been forced into the life of a civilian and gave her the opportunity to pursue her musical career. Something she wanted to do when she had the time.
She smiled to herself as she remembered both Gabriel and Jack encouraging her to continue, even though she knew that she sounded terrible. As she grew older, she improved and became damn good, but not only with vocals. She had also mastered the keyboard and learned a little bit of the acoustic guitar by him.
Jesse.
No matter how many times she tried to push the man from her thoughts, he always barged back into her mind with more force. Ten years and yet, her heart still yearned for the man.
"Carmella, you ok?"
The woman snapped out of her trance as she focused on her manager that stared worriedly at the woman.
"I'm fine," Carmella smiled.
The young woman looked uncertainly at her as she stood and stretched. The soft sounds of people conversing mixed with soft ambient music in the background signaled that there was currently an intermission, it was nearly her turn to perform a few of her best hit songs.
She used her unsaid feelings for the man and wrote them into her music sheets. She crafted melodies to express her passion, her sadness, all of her feelings into songs that people fell in love with.
"Carmella, it's time."
The woman nodded as she headed for the stage, her guitar in hand. She had participated in larger events than this plenty of times, but the energy from the crowd always left her breathless, filled her with excitement that pushed away all of the melancholic thoughts.
"Hello, everyone!" Carmella greeted the crowd of people with a smile and wave as she made her way to the stool that sat in the middle of the stage. She took a seat and nodded to her musicians, then turned her back to them.
"Wow! There are so many lovely people out here tonight. So many couples!" Carmella smirked. She continued to gaze out into the crowd, they responded with a few laughs, whistles, and chuckles. Carmella laughed as well, before she took a seat on the stool.
"I want to thank you all for coming out tonight, and I hope that you've all enjoyed the festival. Every year, I return back to Zurich for this festival I am always blown away by the vibe, decorations, food, performers, memories…" Carmella trailed off for a moment as she placed a stray piece of her hair behind her ear.
"And of course, you, the people that attend and to show how much I appreciate all of you, I have a surprise towards the end of the show."
The crowd cheered and applauded in response, the woman laughed softly while she strummed a few notes on her guitar. The crowd was more than eager to soak up her happiness, her passion, sadness, they thrived off her music just like how she thrived off their energy.
"Ready? Let's get started!"
Carmella began with her most popular pieces that everyone knew and was able to sing to. She danced and bounced around the stage as she sang, the crowd clapped, cheered, and sang with her all until her last special piece that she saved.
"I just wanted to thank you all again, before I start this piece…" Carmella trailed off. "This is for someone I still hold close to my heart after so many years of not seeing him…"
Her words seemed to get caught in her throat. "He's out there somewhere, I'm sure. And I hope he's doing well...this song is for him, but I wanted to share it with everyone here...this song is called Crave You."
The applause and cheers quieted down while she stood silently in front of the crowd, her thoughts swirled as did her emotions. With a shaky breath, she began.
Just like that…you've taken all that you had
given back
And now I can see you're no good for me
Why do I feel like I need you?
Somehow I still want you
You do not care for me
But I crave you...
No matter how hard she tried to keep her composure, a few tears managed to slip past. She had placed all of the loneliness, her sorrow and love for the man into this song, all to release them from tormenting her. They stood, wiping their own tears as they gave her a standing ovation.
She thanked all those who watched her performance before she quickly made her way off the stage and to a secluded spot behind the stage to collect herself.
"A song for me? Aw, Monarch, you shouldn't have."
Carmella tensed at the name, the name of her past, cautiously she turned around to her past in front of her, her caramel brown eyes met his whiskey-colored ones.
It was him, but how?
"J-Jesse?" Carmella began, it was so foreign but evoked the emotions she had blocked off.
"It's been a while...yer all grown up now."
That stupid smirk that haunted her thoughts was plastered on his lips.
"W-what are you doing here?" The words spilled from Carmella's lips before she realized what she had said.
"The first thing you say after 10 years is that?" McCree chuckled a bit. Carmella stood frozen in front of the man, her mind unable to process the man that was in front of her.
"Speechless huh,...how 'bout we find ourselves a nice an' cozy spot, out of the way an' all to catch up…" McCree began.
"Y-yeah…" Carmella replied hesitantly.
"What's wrong?" McCree asked.
"Is...this some sick joke?"
"What? You don't believe that I'm real?" McCree questioned.
"Tell me," Carmella demanded.
"It's me alright Angel Face. Ain't no one else like me-" McCree began.
Carmella closed the small distance and threw a punch, it caused the man to step back in shock as he placed a hand to his jaw. The expression she wore said all that he needed to hear.
"What right do you have to think you think that you can come to me thinking that everything is alright?!" Carmella began, her voice rising with every word.
"Listen-"
"No! You listen! You left me! You left me alone when you said you would be there for me! You left me all by myself when I needed you the most! you weren't there…" Carmella began but the words died in her throat as tears began to spill down her cheeks. Her anger, no more.
McCree sighed softly as he stared down at the silent sobbing woman in front of him, gently pulled her into his embrace. "I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...I'm here now...I promise...I ain't goin' anywhere anytime soon. I can promise you that."