Edited on December 9, 2020

Thanks Julia, for giving me the motivation to come back.

AS POV

I did not wait for Christian to finish his call. I walked away and into the library. I picked up my phone to call my mom. I do not think she checked the caller ID.

"Phil, I know I am running late; I'll be right out."

"Mom," I said through the tears.

"Ana?" I heard a door closing hard in the background. "Carla we are going to be late." I heard Phil holler.

"Hold on Phil, Ana is on the phone and sounds upset. What's wrong?"

"I'm pregnant." She gasped.

"No Anastasia, it's too soon. How could you be so stupid? Please tell me this is a joke. I told you to wait. I mean really you just got married. Christian is not going to want a baby this soon." God not her too.

"Aren't your happy mom? You're going to be a grandma."

"No, I am too young to be a grandma. I did not want you to make the same mistake I did, I wanted better for you. I wanted you to build your career and enjoy life with your husband."

"Don't worry momma. I will not make the same mistake as you. You don't have to worry much longer." I hung up the phone and broke down in tears. Not even my own mother is happy for me.

Just then the door burst open.

CG POV

After I hung up on Elena. I glanced around looking for my wife, but she was not in the room anymore. I went in search of her. She was not in our room. She must be in the library.

I walked to the door and I could hear her talking to someone but crying.

I could not believe what I heard her say.

" Don't worry momma. I will not make the same mistake as you. You don't have to worry much longer."

What did she mean not much longer? I burst through the door.

"What do you mean by she won't have to worry much longer?"

"Don't worry Christian. I will take care of it and I won't be pregnant anymore." I cannot believe what she is saying she is going to do this for me. I knew she loved me.

"Do you want me to be there?" She shook her head no while still crying. "Baby, I will be there with you. You don't have to do this alone."

"Is dinner almost ready." She said shaking her head and wiping the tears from her eyes.

"Gail said give her thirty minutes." I walked towards her. She put her hands up stopping me in my tracks. I just wanted to sooth her.

"Okay, I'll be there in a bit. I just need a few minutes."

I cannot believe she is doing this for me. I am so glad she sees that I cannot be a father.

AS POV

I watched as he left the room and picked up the phone to call my dad.

He may be taciturn, but he will always be there when I need him. He was so excited and could not wait to get a new fishing buddy. I told him I would see him tomorrow.

I called the afterhours line for Doctor Green and got an appointment for tomorrow.

Roughly, half an hour later I joined Christian at the breakfast bar. While talking extraordinarily little. I just did not know what to say to him. You could tell he was excited about me terminating blip.

"What time is the appointment?" I sighed and answered him.

"One thirty, I will have Sawyer take me. So, you don't have to come."

"I will pick you up at noon and we can do lunch at the diner around the corner." I am just too exhausted to fight him tonight.

"Okay. I am going to head to bed." I gave him a small kiss and walked to the bedroom. I dressed in full blown pajamas. Since I have been with Christian. I have never slept in more than his T-shirt and panties. Let us see what he thinks when he comes in.

CG POV

I say dinner was just barely tolerable. I know she really does not want to do it, but she is doing it because she loves me. I hope this does not break us. I just know that I can be a father.

I worked for a few hours then headed to bed.

The sight that greeted me was shocking. My wife was curled in a ball wearing pajamas. She never wears pajamas.

I stripped down and laid down behind her. I pulled her to me. My hand grazed over her stomach and I was sliding down towards my favorite spot.

She stopped my hand. "No Christian, not tonight I am not in the mood." Not in the mood what is that supposed to mean. I tried again. She grabbed my hand. "Damn it, Christian. I said I was not in the mood. Now please, stop and go to bed."

Shit, she must be really pissed she has never denied me since we got back together. "Ana, are you okay?"

"No Christian, I am not. But I will be tomorrow." Right, she is going to take care of her baby.

I rolled over and let her go to sleep. Only she did not for a while. I listened to her cry herself to sleep. I am such a prick, but I cannot be a father and I am glad she understands that.

I woke the next morning to an empty bed. How did I not sense her leaving the bed?

I walked to the kitchen, but she was not there. "Gail, have you seen Ana?" She gasped.

"Oh, you scared me Mr. Grey. Um yes. She left about 30 minutes ago."

Really. Why didn't she wake me?

"Thank you, Gail. I will have the usual this morning. Be back in thirty."

I quickly took a shower, got dressed, and grabbed my phone.

Sorry forgot I had an early meeting. See you at lunch. *

Alright. See you at lunch. I love you. *

That is weird it shows she read it, but she did not respond back.

I ate breakfast then went to the office. I could not concentrate all day. I do not think I got one thing accomplished. She never responded to my text. I called her office.

"Grey Publishing, Hannah speaking."

"Hi Hannah, I'd like to speak to my wife."

"I'm sorry Mr. Grey, she is in a meeting right now." That is weird her schedule said it was clear when I had Andrea check it. It feels like she is avoiding me. I really hope this does not break us. Maybe I could try for her. No what the hell am I thinking. I cannot.

I send her another message.

Call me when you have a minute. I love you. * same as before shows read but no response.

AS POV

I left early this morning even though I did not have anything to do. I just could not be around him this morning. He texted back but I just could not respond. How am I supposed to say I love you to the man who wants me to kill our child? OUR CHILD.

I called Doctor Greene and went over everything again.

Today we are going for a "Termination", but the nurse must give me an ultrasound before the Dr. Greene comes in. I hope that by seeing and hearing our baby it will change his mind. I really hope this works because if not then I might just have to walk away and break my promise to him. I swear the day feel like it is taking forever. I had Hannah tell him I was in a meeting when he called. I just cannot talk to him right now.

Flashback to when I arrived

"Hannah, can you come her for a minute?"

"Yes Ana."

"If Mr. Grey calls today, I want you to tell him I am in a meeting."

"Yes ma'am." She turned and walked back to her desk.

End flashback

When noon rolled around. I felt sick to my stomach. I walked out with Sawyer and got in next to Christian. He leaned in to kiss me and I turned my head.

"Hey baby. How was the meeting?"

"Fine." He tried again to kiss me.

"You okay." Mmmhmm I just mumbled. He looked at me like his dog just died. I just did not have it in me to give him love or talk to him.

As we sat down for lunch. He tried again.

"Ana, are you okay?"

"I'm fine." But really, I was not. I was a nervous wreck hoping this plan will work. I could barely eat. I just pushed the food around the plate. Which in turn pissed him off.

"Anastasia." He warned. I just looked at him like are you serious.

CG POV

Why won't she let me kiss her? What is with all the short responses? Now she is just pushing her food around her plate. She knows how I hate wasted food.

"Anastasia." I warned her using my DOM voice. Her eyes quickly looked at me. It was as if she was saying, "Seriously."

"Eat." I said through clenched teeth.

"I don't feel like eating right now. I have lost my appetite." She sneered at me. She threw her napkin on the table and walked away.

I just sat there staring at her form walking away. This is not my loving wife.

I waited a bit and when she did not return. I figured she went to the car. So, I paid the check and walked out. When I climbed in the back she was not there.

"Where is she?" I asked Taylor.

"She and Sawyer walked the three blocks. She said she needed air."

"Fine, just get me there quickly."

I rushed into the doctor's office. The receptionist took me to Ana's room. What I heard when I walked into her room stopped me dead in my tracks.

AS POV

I quickly raced out of the restaurant and with Sawyer raced over to the doctor's office.

I was quickly ushered back to the ultrasound room. A nurse I had not met before walks in and introduces herself. From the ultrasound last week, I already knew we were almost 10 weeks along. So, I would not be subjected to another transvaginal ultrasound, I mean Christian and I have kinky sex but that just felt so weird.

"Hello Mrs. Grey, I'm Amanda, climb on the table, lift your shirt, and we can get started."

I laid on the table with my shirt pulled up exposing my belly. She lay a paper mat across my lower abdomen and tucked it in my pants.

"Now, sorry this will be a little cold." The nurse said as she poured the gel on me. "Alright, let's see what we have here." She moves the wand over my stomach looking for the baby. "Would you like to hear the heartbeat?" As she searched for it.

"Yes, please." Suddenly, the most beautiful sound came. THUMP...THUMP...THUMP...

CG POV

What was that sound? THUMP...THUMP...THUMP. I walked in the door hearing that wondering what it was.

"Oh, you're just in time Mr. Grey. We were just listening to your baby's heartbeat." The nurse said.

My baby's heartbeat. No, that is not right. This is not my baby I cannot be a father. But this sound is amazing, calming and the most frightening thing I have ever heard.

"Do you see right here?" She said pointing at the screen. "This is your baby's head. You see that flutter on the screen. That's your baby's heart."

I could not register why she kept saying my baby. I snapped back. "That's not my baby. I can't be a father." Ana gasped as the nurse stood there in shock.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't realize." The nurse said looking at Ana. One look and her and I knew I had said the wrong words.

"GET OUT! GET OUT NOW!" Ana screamed at me.

ASPOV

"That's not my baby. I can't be a father."

I gasped as he said that. Totally shocked I could not even register what was being said. The nurse just looked at me shocked. It felt like I was a kid from Charlie Brown and the grownups were talking.

I came back to myself and had to hold back the tears. "GET OUT! GET OUT NOW!"

He just stood there looking at me.

"I SAID GET OUT NOW CHRISTIAN!" I cannot believe he just said that.

I wiped my stomach off and walked out of the room. I walked right past Christian out the door. I got in the front seat and told Taylor to take me home.

CG POV

I cannot believe she just kicked me out. She knew I could not be a father so why is she pissed at me.

I walked out and waited in the lobby. She just walked right past me and headed to the car. When I walked out, I climbed in the back seat, but she was not there.

"Ana, baby get in the back. We need to talk about this."

"I won't. I cannot believe you right now. We do not need to talk about anything. I hope you are happy." Happy about what. She did not do the procedure, so she is still pregnant.

We drove back to Escala. She raced from the car before we were evened completely stopped. She rushed to the elevator and had the door closed going up before we got there.

"ANA!" I screamed.

AS POV

I rushed to the elevator and was hoping and praying he would not get in with me. The doors closed as he screamed my name.

"ANA!"

I rushed out and headed to my bedroom and started throwing stuff in my suitcase. As he walked in shocked. "What are you doing? You said you wouldn't leave."

"Well, I'm not I am moving to the guest room. Leave me alone Christian." He grabbed my arm and through clenched teeth said.

"You're not going anywhere. You're my wife and you will stay in this room with me."

"Like hell I will. I am going to the guest room and I am deciding the best option for our baby.

"I can't be a father Ana, you know this, but please don't leave."

"I am not leaving this house; I am just going to another room. Now are you going to let me go or am I going to get a hotel room to get away from you."

He was shocked I could tell. But he let me go. As I walked away, he dropped to his knees and started crying. I just kept walking towards the guest room.

As soon as the door was closed. I broke down in tears. I had hoped I could make him see but I am not sure if is possible.