Lucy chapter 21
Goku loves to spar with Vegeta even more now than he used to, he is totally unpredictable now days, one day he can be as weak as a fairy, his punches barely tickling, the next Goku is taken down with one almighty hit, as soon as Vegeta wakes up Goku is gonna spar with him. Goku can see that there is something so wrong with Vegeta, he isn't blind, but for the main part he is ignoring it, he isn't quite ready to end the utopia they have carved for themselves yet. They have been here on Kami island for a few months now and despite Vegeta's problems it is paradise.
He is waiting now for Vegeta to wake up, watching the utter perfection of his sleeping face. Goku would be lying if he said he isn't concerned, he is, no doubt about it. Only, maybe he is concerned for the wrong reasons, he isn't bothered, for example that Vegeta's body is icy cold to the touch, he doesn't care that the prince survives on a diet of 12 jars of Nutella a day, He is happily ignoring the fact that maybe two or three times a week Vegeta stops existing, it is probably nothing to fret about. he is completely cool with the way Vegeta has taken up biting during sex, which he needs a lot of. Vegeta needs sex at least three times a day, and Goku is more than happy to oblige him, anything to keep his prince happy. He smiles, Goku has never been happier in all his life, he finally knows what it is to fall in love, Vegeta is his everything and he has zero problems with any of his peculiar behaviour. Nope, the thing concerning Goku is completely different.
I love you
That is the only worry plaguing Goku's simple mind, or more accurately the lack of I love you's. Vegeta hasn't said it once, not once. Zero, nada, zilch, not a sausage. Goku understands he isn't going to hear mushy stuff like that very often from Vegeta, he has never been the mushy type and Goku is ok with that, he loves Vegeta just the way he is, with all his flaws and irritating ways and rudeness, that is just Vegeta, and Goku wouldn't change him for the world, but he just wants him to say it, just once. Three words. I love you. How hard can it be even for an emotional retard like Vegeta to say three little words. He can manage to say, "Bring me Nutella" or "Get your clothes off I want to fuck" multiple times every single day so why not "I love you".
Goku says I love you to Vegeta at least ten times a day, once in the morning, once at night, always after sex and sometimes a few times during, whenever they have been separated for any amount of time the first thing he says is "I love you" the moment they are reunited, even if they were only apart for a few moments. Goku says it A LOT. Probably more that he should, but he doesn't care, he likes saying it, so he does. And the answers he receives, though sometimes very sweet, are never the three words he wants so badly to hear, Vegeta will answer "Thank you" "I love it when you say that" "You too" "Of course you do I'm a fucking delight", all of these answers are good, but not right.
Goku sighs and kisses his sleeping prince ever so softly on the corner of his mouth, a small smile and a contented sigh is the answer he gets, seems his prince is having happy dreams, that's a very good thing. Hopefully he will awaken in a pleasant mood, Vegeta's mood swings have been kinda crazy over the last two weeks. It's a good thing Goku brought him out here to Kami island away from regular people, Vegeta can get pretty wild when he flies into one of his rages. It really is a rollercoaster ride, he can go from having a tantrum, fists flying swear words spewing from his mouth to crying like a baby then so horny he can't control himself all in a matter of ten minutes. Good job Goku has no problem keeping up with him. he rolls with the punches, comforts him through the tears, and opens his legs whenever he's told to. Only once Goku has had to intervene and stop Vegeta's tantrum, the little prince was so cross he was charging up and attack that probably would have took out the whole island, Roshi wouldn't have been pleased about that so Goku had to think fast. He hated to do it, but he quickly i.t'd behind Vegeta and gave him a swift blow to the temple, he went down like a sack of potatoes, not that he hit the floor or anything. Goku was careful to catch him, he wouldn't want any harm to come to his lover, he is extra careful to always treat him gently, even when he is asked not to.
Goku is so happy, he would put up with anything from Vegeta, there is literally nothing this guy could do to stop Goku from loving him, nothing. Goku has never been more in love. Don't get me wrong he did love Chichi, she was one of the most important parts of his life, she taught him so much, she made him into the man he is today, she raised his wonderful sons almost with no input from him. she is an amazing woman. Even now, when Goku has left her for Vegeta, his biggest rival, she continues to support him, sure the first week was rough, she was up and down a lot back then, but Piccolo has helped, he has been an amazing friend. he has been at Goku's old house nearly every day since he left, having him around has really helped Chichi get over her husband. Goku tells himself he will have to go and see Piccolo soon and thank him for all his help, not just now but always.
It doesn't look like Vegeta is gonna wake up any time soon, not if his deep snoring is anything to go by. Goku goes for a shower, he can do as he pleases here, there is no schedule to stick to, I mean he has a few chores that Roshi insists on him doing but nothing too tiresome. Once a week Goku must go to the store and get groceries for the week. It makes sense him going rather than anyone else. He can get there in the blink of an eye and he can easily carry a weeks' worth of food in one hand, he doesn't mind. He also has to do his and Vegeta's laundry, a job that took him some time to get used too, washing machines are hard, but he soon figured it out. Roshi didn't ask Vegeta to do any chores, it seems both him and Oolong are a little scared of him despite Goku assuring them both over and over that he can handle anything Vegeta has to offer. He would never say this out loud, to anyone, but to him Vegeta is like an angry little pussy cat. He may hiss and scratch and fluff up his fur but to Goku he just isn't very threatening, he's too cute, I mean yeah, the scratches can smart a little but it's not really an issue to Goku.
He strips off and looks at himself in the mirror, his muscled body looking toned and hard due to all the sparing and fucking he has been doing, he rarely gives his body a rest, not that he is complaining. His skin is marked all over with crescent shaped bite marks, some nearly healed, some still red and angry looking, Vegeta sure is kinky, Goku chuckles to himself as he gets into the shower and fiddles with the dial to make the water warmer, god only knows why Roshi has his showers so cold.
Once his shower is complete he walks back to the bedroom wearing nothing but a towel, with only guys living here there is little need for modesty. Vegeta is just rousing, his dark eyelashes fluttering like the wings of a butterfly as he blinks in the bright light
"Good morning my prince," Goku mumbles, kneeling next to the bed to get a better view of Vegeta's face
"Kakarot," is Vegeta's simple answer as he smiles at the younger Saiyan. Goku takes in the dark rings around Vegeta's eyes, it doesn't seem to matter how much sleep he gets those rings just get darker, he must admit it makes him look real sexy though in a rugged kind of way, he looks like a typical bad boy and it makes Goku weak at the knees.
"How you feeling?" Goku asks, sometimes Vegeta wakes up feeling a little dizzy and nauseous
"Fine," He answers causing both men to smile
"You wanna spar, fuck or eat?" Goku asks bluntly
"Hmmm" Vegeta turns things over in his mind "Lets spar first, then eat and fuck at the same time after,"
"Sounds awesome, come on then, let's go," Goku bounces excitedly on the spot, dropping his towel and giving Vegeta an eyeful. Vegeta licks his lips but ignores his cravings for Goku, after all he wants to spar first and work up more of an appetite.
Outside is bright, Vegeta notices that each leaf on each bush sparkles with a soft layer of frost, his breath sends billowing puffs of steam into the air each time he exhales, it must be cold this morning, not that he can feel the cold any more, he grew far colder than any winter month some time ago now, he is sure Goku must have noticed, he touches his body all the time, but he never mentions it or asks any questions. He is so cool
Their fight begins softly, playfully, as it always does but soon their old rivalry starts to shine through, their competitive Saiyan nature getting the better of them and making them hit harder, move faster, shout louder. As usual Vegeta is more aggressive than Goku, the younger Saiyan is always careful to hold back, he keeps his power level equal with Vegeta's the whole time, making sure never to belittle the other man by showing how much stronger he is, he never wants to humiliate Vegeta like that. he is pretty sure he could kill him with one punch if he so desired, but of course, he doesn't.
Vegeta is the opposite, he puts everything he has into every fight with Goku, if he knew Goku were holding back he would be so annoyed, he feels out of respect Goku owes him his full power, in reality he has no idea just how strong Goku is.
Vegeta's eyes flick hungrily over Goku's body, his usual smirk firmly on his face, fighting always brings out his wild side and Goku loves it. His movements are so fast they were invisible to the average eye, but Goku can see him just fine as he flips and summersaults towards him, moving like an acrobat towards his prey. Goku saw the kick hurtling towards his head, he could have dodged it, he choose not to. He will happily take the pain if it means he gets to see that smug grin on Vegeta's lips a little longer. The kick sends him plummeting to the ground. He spits blood from his mouth before jumping back to his feet ready for more.
Punches are thrown from both sides, some connecting with staggering force, some being dodged at the speed of light. Both their faces are streaked with blood, sweat and dirt, they pant, never breaking eye contact as their ferocious battle continues.
Vegeta grabs Goku by the waist, hoists him up then slams him into the ground, his back smashing into the cold floor so hard it knocks the wind out of him. without a second pause Vegeta mounts him and pummels his face with his fists, causing more blood to spill from his lover's face.
Goku has never seen anything more beautiful. Vegeta looks like a true Saiyan prince, furious expression, face soaked in blood, snarling like a beast. Goku grasps his narrow hips and rolls him onto the ground, using his own body weight to hold the prince down pinning his shoulders with his hands.
"Vegeta, you are beautiful," He growls, kissing the smaller Saiyan's lips harshly. Vegeta growls back and bites Goku's bottom lip but doesn't try to escape from being held captive between the cold floor and Goku's body
"We are supposed to be fighting, not fawning over each other like girls," Vegeta rumbles, he tries to sit up but Goku holds him in place, an intense look filling his eyes
"Vegeta, I love you," He says clearly, meaning every word. Vegeta averts his eyes, the way Goku is staring at him making him feel uneasy
"I know," He answers quietly
"Say it back, Vegeta," Goku orders, feeling anger rise inside him. he loves this man more than life itself, all he wants is to hear him say I love you. Is that too much to ask.
"I said say it back Vegeta," Goku shouts louder this time "I'm not letting you up till you do" He didn't mean to get angry with his prince, he never wanted to scare or hurt him, he just needed more than anything to hear those words
"Well, we will be staying here a long time then, coz I'm not going to say it," Vegeta says curtly, irritated by Goku's anger. As much as Vegeta knows it's not Goku's fault, he doesn't know the full story, he still feels undignified being held down like a naughty child till he does as he it told.
"Why?" Goku's voice is desperate now, Vegeta can hear tears ready to spill
"I…. just can't Kakarot." Vegeta says softly, hoping Kakarot will calm down
"Are you saying you don't love me?" Goku sobs, enraged tears flowing freely down his face leaving tracks in the blood spatter. Vegeta tried to push himself up into a sitting position but is slammed back into the ground, hard enough to make his back pop painfully
"Well, Kakarot, you said it not me," He spits harshly. Staring up at his lover with anger all over his features. Kakarot's eyebrows knoted together and he looked deep into Vegeta's eyes
"You do love me," He whispers, "YOU DO, I can see it every time you look at me, you're just too fucking stubborn to say it," His fist connects with Vegeta's face, a blow he wasn't expecting. He feels his skin rip across his cheek bone, blood pouring down his already drenched cheek. Goku rains down punches to Vegeta's face letting out all the pent-up rage at never hearing those three simple words. Vegeta doesn't try to stop him, he takes the beating like a man, he deserves it after all. After what feels like an eternity Goku stops, breathing heavy
"You do," He pants out one last time before curling down and sobbing into Vegeta's chest. Vegeta wraps his arms round the other Saiyan trying to give him what small comfort he can. More than anything he wants to tell Goku he loves him, he itches to say it back. He wants to tell this man that he means the world to him, he is the reason he breathes, the cause of his heart beat, the centre of the world, he sets his heart on fire, he wants to say I love you too. but he can't say that, he can't say any of that. he lays and silently watches him cry, hating himself more and more for every sob that heaves from his Goku's glorious chest. He holds him tighter, that's all he can do.