Toffee pushed the last soldier into his cell and pushed the door closed with a loud metallic bang. Nodding to himself for a job well done, he left rest of this to the guards as he started making his way back upstairs.

Coming out of the bathroom, Star fastened the belt on her robe as she walked over to her vanity table. She sat down and took her comb out of the drawer to start untying the knots in her hair. The woman looked up and as she was raising her comb to start fixing her hair, she paused. Star looked at herself in the mirror and actually looked at herself after a long time. Raising her free hand, she gently ran her fingers across the broken heart cheek mark. When she took her hand away, Star noticed her hand fingers were wet. She then realized her eyes were full of tears. Star raised her hand again and wiped them away.
Star started brushing her long hair, thinking about what happened earlier. Twilight escaped the castle thanks to her. She had intended to bring her back but instead, she used her magic to help her over the wall. What was she thinking? They needed Twilight, her power. She was the key player in their operation and thanks to her they don`t have her anymore. Star looked at herself in the mirror again. She never noticed just how alike she and her daughter are, in appearance anyway. Star placed her brush on the table and just looked into the mirror.

She is a grown woman, a cold mother, a powerful magic wielder and the partner of her mortal enemy. How did she end up like this? Now that was a stupid question, she knows exactly how she ended up here. She has only told one other living soul in this castle her reason for leaving. And that soul is in the infirmary, recovering from getting stabbed.
Star thinks about the past as little as she can but when she does think about it, she just wants to curl up and cry while someone holds her. It doesn`t matter who, just as long as they comfort her. Star remembers being in a similar state a while back. Then, she was sobbing after losing a fight to one of the more bigger monsters and in her weakened state, started to recall her past. That was how Toffee found her, sobbing, and he was the one to hold her back then. Remembering it now, she should have pushed him away. That stupid lizard does everything for himself and that time was no different.
Hugging herself, Star`s painful memories started to cloud her mind, making her recall everything that happened. Before everything went so terribly into Hell.

It all started three months before she was crowned the next Queen of Mewni.

"This is why I hate you all Butterflies. You are all so strong. I will love breaking you..."

First, Star got kidnapped. It was some old, mad sorceress who carried a grudge against the Butterfly family. She tortured Star for weeks with no food and little water, barely enough to keep her alive. She still had the scars from those few weeks, hiding them under her long gloves and socks.

"I`m gonna be al` right, Bfly! Just wait and see, I gonna make to that coronation!"

It wasn`t long after she was rescued that Ponyhead fell ill. She kept saying it will blow over but her condition only got worse. She apparently ate some poisoned berries by accident. Star doesn`t know where Ponyhead is right now. She can only hope her best friend is somewhere she is happy.

"Oh Star, I can`t believe it. I am a dad! I `m the luckiest man on Earth! But Jackie..."

Then Marco`s son was born, prematurely. Two months early in fact and Jackie had been struggling with her health at the moment. They had two options, save Jackie or save the child. And everyone knew Jackie is too selfless to let them take her child. Star did everything back then to help her best friend on Earth and always put on a brave face. But once she was alone, she cried and grieved her lost friend like there was no tomorrow.

"We can`t keep this up! We need to shut it down!"

Star`s plans to unite mewmians and monsters wasn`t going so well. The people were scared of the new citizens and the monsters weren`t willing to learn to respect their new leaders, even Bufffrog. Chaos and uneasiness covered the kingdom like a thick fog.

Things only got worse from there...

"I am sorry your Highness, but I`m afraid I have some bad news..."

Star remembers the best thing during those hard weeks was her fiancee, Oscar. He was supportive, helpful and spent every minute he could with her, even when he was supposed to be having lessons with her father about being king. But she loved him, he loved her and it wasn`t soon when they found out they had a little bundle of joy to expect in a few months. the princess loved that child with all her life and couldn`t wait until to hold him in her arms. But despite that Star never lost her sense of adventure.
And that was what cost her to lose her only ray of light during that time. Her own recklessness caused so much pain to her and her beloved.

And finally, after everything, her coronation arrived. Everything was set. Her dress flawless, her friends and family all supporting her all the way and her fiancee running his final errands before coming and stepping through those doors to become her king. But Fate wasn`t done tormenting her.

"Princess Star! Come quickly, it is Oscar! He got into some trouble on the way here!"

Star still remembers the pain she felt when hearing that. And after seeing just a glimpse of him, she ran. She didn`t think just ran. Away from her enemies, her demons, these horrible three months, her nightmare of a coronation.
Her nightmare of a life...

Star suddenly snapped out of her memories when the door to her bedroom opened with a loud creak. Toffee stepped into the room and paused when he saw the heavy tears in his partner`s eyes. "Oh no. Don`t tell me you thought about the past again." he said in a mocking tone. The blonde woman glared at him through her tears as she stood up and straightened her back to face him. She once showed him that she still had weaknesses. Not making the same mistake twice.
Toffee just rolled his eyes as he walked over to Star. "So, how was your evening? A little bat whispered to me that not so well as mine had gone." the lizard stated. "Yes, Twilight escaped the castle. But she has never been outside its walls. And that is a pretty impressive storm outside, she will be dead by morning." Star said back with her usual cold tone. She turned her back to him as she walked to the window, staring into the white. She was so focused on her thoughts she didn`t notice her partner sneak up behind her. She noticed too late as he already wrapped his arms around her, one holding her chest and the other around her hips. "What do you think you are doing? Unhand me this instant!" Star shouted with a small note of panic but all she received was a chuckle against the skin of her neck. The warm breath sent shivers down her spine. "Don`t be so stubborn. Why won't we have some fun?" Toffee said back as he placed a small kiss on her skin. Star squirmed and struggled but he had always been physically stronger than her. "Oh, loosen up. Remember? We did this last time I found you like this and it worked out alright, even better than we expected." Toffee spoke with a seductive tone as he licked just below her throat.

That was the last straw. Using her magic, Star broke free of his hold and punched him right in the face. Toffee stumbled back and to the floor from the sudden movement and force from her punch. He rubbed the back of his head as he looked at the woman above him. Her cheeks were slightly red as she glared at him. If only looks could kill...
"Don`t EVER do that again. It was only one time and I have been regretting it ever since. If you try anything like this again, I will not hesitate to kill you a second time. Remember why you are here in the first place, lizard." the woman said as she teleported Toffee into the hallway. Star rushed over to the door and locked it before he can walk back in. Sliding to the floor, Star looked out the window again.

She knew Twilight wouldn`t die that easily. She just hopes her daughter is alright. Playing this game is wearing Star thin and she doesn't know how long she can keep it up anymore.

I am sorry Twilight, please forgive me for being a bad mother.
And please... Save me...