You guys get two chapters today and they are like super super long. It took me forever to write this and I am so so so sorry but the wait is over. I will be updating Blood runs thick in the next couple of days so if you read that look for an update soon. Hope you guys enjoy!

Fitz Pov

She grabbed my hand and we walked together to the car. We said our goodbyes to miss Rose and her friends and before I knew it, we were heading back home.

"You didn't have to cancel your plans you could have went to lunch." I kept my eyes trained on the road.

"I know I just didn't want to go." She stared out the window, she was shutting down and it was confusing me.

"They should have invited us we are a packaged deal now" She said wiggling her finger. She wasn't being sarcastic she was being serious.

"You don't have to stick up for me. I am a grown up and I don't want you burning brides just for me. They are your friends."

"You are my soon to be husband and I'm not burning bridges. I want to get to know you. Would this be better for you if I was rude and hateful?" She turned in her seat and looked at me.

She was something else. I guess a part of me wanted her to hate me so it would be easier to push her away.

"I am glad you don't hate me." I really was I didn't deserve this.

"You haven't given me a reason to hate you."

"I kidnapped your boyfriend made you move in with me. We are getting married and I am making you have my kids." I stated the facts that were plain as day.

"You are doing this for a reason right?"

I nodded my head curious as to where this was leading.

"Well then I can't hate you. Unless you intentionally hurt me, I will never hate you."

"I would never intentionally hurt you. I promise."

"Okay, I believe you. I will try to never hurt you." She was still looking at me for reasons unknown to

"Can I ask you a personal question? You can say no." Her eyes got wide and she smiled.

"Yes of course I am an open book, fire away." She propped one foot underneath her thigh careful to keep everything covered.

"Is the reason you are still a virgin because of your religion?" I felt embarrassed asking but I felt like I should know.

"Yes and no, I felt like waiting till marriage was a big part of my child hood but I just feel uncomfortable thinking about it. I have panic attacks when I want to do it. I cry and I get sick."

I thought about all the times I have had sex if I were to cry or get sick, I wouldn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say so I just kept driving.

"Fitz, I didn't get that way with you. I have never done anything sexual besides kissing. I always stopped it but with you I..i…" she was struggling to get her words out.

I grabbed the hand she was picking at and held it tightly urging her without words to continue.

"I know it is crazy to say but I liked what you did, and I didn't want you to stop. Even when I knew you weren't Jake, I wanted you to do it again. That is wrong of me I know but it's just something about you. Holding your hand feels right." She gave my hand a squeeze.

"I am not saying I am in love with you. I'm just saying that you broke down barriers that I have spent my life building and it scares me that I don't know how you did it."

She looked at the floor not looking at me, her admission seemed to make her feel some type of way.

"Do you want to wait until we are married?" I asked

She didn't say anything

"Olivia it's okay if you do I won't be mad."

"I don't want to wait, oh god that sounds terrible. I want to uh do it. I am just scared. It hurts right?" she started to pick at her hand again even with it still in my grasp.

"I don't think it should be to painful, uncomfortable maybe but there are ways that I can make it easier for you. I meant what I said I want you to want it. I won't do anything you don't want me too."

"I signed the contract I have to oblige."

"Screw the contract."

"So you want to have sex with me?" she asked coyly.

"Who wouldn't? You are perfect Liv." I could see her blushing from my prefrail vision.

"Fitz?" The need in her voice made me look at her.

She lifted my hand up and put my index finger in her mouth. She rolled her tongue around the tip and sucked releasing it with a pop. She left my finger drenched.

I was hard instantly what in the hell was she doing?

She unhooked her seat belt and trailed down her abdomen until my hand was resting on her thigh.

I was trying my damn best not to crash and kill us both.

As my hand descended farther, hers trembled. I was suddenly aware of the warmth of her inner thigh and glanced up to meet her gaze. Our eyes locked for only one second, but it was enough for me to realize what she wanted. I moved my hand lower, but she jerked it back into place; I realized we were going to do this at her pace. I look up to see an uncertain look on her face. I was going to stop this, but she held my hand steady and sent me a small smile. Some part of her has to know the effect she has on me.

She spread her legs apart farther and guided my single finger inside of her. She went slow easing my digit inside of her carefully. The moans escaping her mouth was enough to send any man to their grave.

"Oh" She mumbled as she pushed my finger in farther. She stopped once I was knuckle deep.

She didn't move for a few seconds and I got scared.

"Are you okay?" I asked softly

All she did was nod she still didn't move. I waited another minute and still she didn't move. My hand was falling asleep so I twisted my hand towards me to get a better position. That movement made her scream.

"Oh god Fitz" She grabbed my hand tight so I couldn't move it.

"Sorry, sorry" I whispered and we both went back to not moving.

"Hey Fitz?" she said in a breathy tone.

"Yes? Are you okay?" her eyes were clamped shut and she was breathing hard.

"mhm I didn't think this ahead I sorta jumped the gun and I don't know what to do next." She was whimpering.

I couldn't stop myself from laughing.

"It isn't funny Fitz tell me what to do" She still had a death grip on my hand.

"Well who told you that doing this in the car was a good idea?" this was sexy don't get me wrong, but it was also hilarious.

"I wanted to be spontaneous so you wouldn't doubt that I was ready." She let it out in short choppy sentences.

"You don't have to prove yourself to me, you want me to do it?"

She nodded in response but didn't let go of my hand. I was breaking every traffic law trying to get home as soon as I could.

"You have to let go of my hand baby" i chuckled

"Oh yeah sorry" she let go of my hand, and grabbed the arm rests on either side of her,

"Turn towards me some" she obliged, and I slowly slid my finger out of her. She looked physically upset about the loss.

I put my finger in my mouth and tasted her. I nearly came in my pants. I lubed my finger up enough and carefully slid it back into her. I tried hard to ignore her whimpers.

I started of slowly moving in and out of her just to get the juices flowing.

"Oh" She whispered out.

I took my finger back out and slid it in slowly teasing her. Pulling out and sliding it slowly back in until I was knuckle deep. I found my rhythm pressing perfectly against her g spot.

She threw her head back "Oh god". My finger was soaked with her arousal. Her body started to shake, and I could tell she was almost there. I picked up the pace and started rubbing her clit with my thumb.

"Don't stop" She exhaled.

The next flick of her clit she was convulsing. She squeezed her thighs together jerking my hand with them.

I couldn't explain the noises she was making. I can tell you that she was making it extremely difficult to keep my eyes on the road.

It took her a few minutes to calm down and for her breathing to return to normal.

She then opened her leg and I removed my hand. She grabbed her purse and took a wipe out. She attentively looked over my hand wiping away any proof of what just conspired.

"Good as new" She said with a smile as she presented me with my hand back.

"I thought it was good covered in you-" she cut me off.

"Okay you don't have to be gross"

We pulled up to our gate and I typed in the security code and watched as the gate opened.

"I'm the gross one? You just rod-" she cut me off AGAIN

"Okay okay" her face got red. "I know what I did, I'm sorry" She patted my hand.

Once second, she was cumming and screaming my name and the next second, she was shy. She was confusing the hell out of me.

"I told you I am weird about this stuff, But I want to do it okay, but we cannot talk about it after. Deal?"

I put the car in park and turned the key in the ignition. I turned in m seat to look at her.

"Olivia you are crazy, you do know that?" She smiled

"You want me to fuck you and then not talk about it?" the second the word fuck came out of my mouth she broke eye contact and looked at the floor of the car.

"Fitz, I don't talk about this stuff. I don't know how." She shrugged her shoulders in a defeated way.

I grabbed her hand and stroked the back of it "I will teach you don't worry but stop hiding from me. Deal?"

She didn't say anything.

"Liv?"

"Deal" She whispered. She was worrying me; I don't understand her. Which stressed me, I want to know her, what makes her smile or sad I want to know what makes her, Her.

"You want to have sex" she was looking at me now. Her plump lip was in between her teeth and she was wiggling her eyebrows.

"No, we aren't having sex." I let go of her hand and got out the car.
"Why not?" she asked getting out of the car and slamming the door shut.

"Because you aren't ready Olivia." I opened the door.

"I am too, I think I proved that in the car." She stormed into the house and I shut the door behind us.

"That is the problem you shouldn't have to prove it." She followed me into the kitchen.

"Fitz, I want to really, rip the band aid off."

I grabbed a glass and poured some water in it. I could feel her eyes on me and her presence closely behind me, I was starting to regret this age gap.

"We are not ripping the band aid off we are waiting until we are married. You aren't giving up your morals for this. I am already taking enough from you. This is something you should keep." I slammed the glass down on the counter and turned around to face her.

Her eyes were brimmed with tears. I felt worse for losing my temper.

"You aren't taking anything from me. I am giving it to you. Can we stop thinking about this as an arrangement?" She wiped a few of the tears that were rolling down her cheeks.

"I want us to be normal. I want to be the girl who isn't in a relationship with a drug addict who took all my money and marrying a stranger. I want to be someone you would stop for, in a room full of all the girls you have ever been with I want you to choose me. I need to take control of my body; I am so tired of it being used against me. I want this on my terms. Is that too much to ask?"

She was letting the tears fall freely, she was breaking down right in front of my eyes and I didn't know what to do or what to say. Feelings weren't something I excelled at especially with women. Liv was the only girl I have ever slept next to without having an ulterior motive. She made me feels things that scared me, and we have know each other for all of five minutes. I was scared as hell and I didn't know how to help her. What Jake did was something she really didn't deserve but I am afraid what I am doing is worse.

I pulled her into my arms and kissed her. I put everything I couldn't speak into existence into the kiss.

My heart stopped when she started to kiss me back. Her lips were soft and plump and so much better than I could have imagined. I traced the crease in between her lips looking for access. She parted her lips and my tongue explored every crevice of her mouth. Familiarizing myself with every part of her. Her hands went to the back of my head and into my hair.

She pulled away from the kiss first, I rested my forehead against her.

"I can't promise to be in love with you. I can't promise that you won't hate me."

She went to talk but I cut her off.

"What I will promise you is I will protect you fiercely. I will put your needs first I will always want you. I will try my best to make your time with me fun and exciting, so you don't feel like you are in a jail cell. I promise to make you happy Liv." I finished off strong, but she was crying again.

I kissed her again but this time I sat her on the counter. I stepped in between her legs and continued kissing her. My hands went to her ass, her dress hiked up from all the motion. I let my hands rub her ass gently. She let out a small giggle and I could feel her smiling against my lips.

She arched her neck and I picked up on the hint. I kissed my way down her jaw to her neck. She let out little moans and pressed her body closer to mine.

"Fitz take me upstairs." She whispered in my ear and wrapped her legs tightly around my waist.

I lifted her from the counter but continued to kiss her. I cursed myself for designing my house with so many damn stairs. Finally, god willing I reached the top and I walked down the hallway to my bedroom. I broke the kiss to lay her on the bed. I turned her on her side and unzipped her dress. She moved her arms out of the dress first so I could easily slide the dress the rest of the way off her slim form.

She watched my every move.

"Olivia?"

"hmm?"

I slid up her body and kissed her.

"Stop thinking so much okay?"

She nodded and kissed me back.

"Tell me when you want me to stop okay?"

She nodded again as I descended her body. I kissed her down her neck and stopped at her breast.

She was wearing a navy-blue bra that pushed her boobs up. I didn't like that; she didn't need her boobs any bigger they were perfect. To test my theory, I unhooked her bra. Her boobs were released, and I smiled to myself they were perfect.

I glanced up at her but, she looked scared.

"You okay?" I covered her body with mine.

She nodded but shifted her gaze to everywhere but my face.

I let out a sigh. "Okay we are done." I went to crawl off of her, but she grabbed my arm and pulled me closer to her.

"No, I just feel weird but don't stop. I haven't been naked in front of anyone since I was a kid."

She was self-conscious? No freaking way.

"Tell me what I can do?" Our faces were so close I could feel her breathe. "Just talk me through it." She kissed me quickly.

"I am gonna kiss you" She smiled and placed her lips closer to mine "Ok" she whispered into my mouth.

Our mouths connected and fireworks went off. we broke apart only when air was vital. "I am going to take your panties off now.

She nodded as I traveled down her body. She was wearing a navy-blue thong that matched her bra. I hooked my hand on the sides and pulled them down her mocha legs. She lifted her ass of the bed some to make the process easier.

I started at her foot and kissed my way up her leg until I reached her midthigh. I figured she was freaking out. "You okay up there?" I asked without looking up.

"mmhm" Her hands found my hair, her new favorite spot.

I kissed farther up her thigh until I was at her core.

"You ready?" I asked

No answer

"Liv?"

"Sorry yeah I'm ready"

I placed one of my hands over her stomach to keep her in place.

I began to taste he folds; I hadn't even gotten to her clit yet and she was already whimpering in pleasure.

"Still good?" I asked against her pussy.

"please don't stop" She moaned out.

That was all the encouragement I needed. I focused my attention on her clit. She started to tense up. I took my free hand and inserted a single digit into her drenched hole. The feeling of my finger and tongue was her undoing.

"Fitz oh god" she exhaled

She was squirming and it took all my might to not take her right here and now. She squeezed her thighs together in an attempt to push me away but her hands in my hair was pushing me closer. I flicked her swollen nub a few more times before she was cumming.

I caught all her free-flowing juices in my mouth. She continued to spaz out. A slur of curse words followed by name came tumbling out of her mouth.

I waited until she was completely calm to remove my tongue and finger from her womanhood. I sat up and looked at her. All of her for the first time and she was fucking breathtaking. Her mocha skin was perfect. Her perky breasts were seriously the perfect size, they fit in my hand perfectly. Her nipples were hard and dark brown. Her face, there was no way to explain how angelic she was. Her eyes were closed, and she had one hand on her tummy and the other under her head.

My dick was twitching in my pants. How I managed not to fuck her into oblivion is beyond me. I went to the bathroom and grabbed a washcloth. While I was in there, I took my shirt and pants off, so that I was in just my tented boxers. I walked back into the room and just watched her for a second. I still couldn't get over how perfect she was.

"Hey baby I'm gonna clean you up okay?" she didn't answer she just spread her legs open. I placed the warm washcloth on her thighs first before I reached to do the middle the second I touched her she tensed and grabbed my hand. She must still be sensitive.

"Okay sorry I'm done" I disposed of the washcloth and then got into bed next to her. She pulled herself close to me and snuggled under the blanket.

"Is this okay?" she asked tiredly as her head on my chest and wrapped her leg around my torso.

I answered her question with a question. "Are you comfortable?"

"mhm"

"Then its fine" I wrapped my arm around her small frame.

"We didn't have sex?" she stated the obvious

"No and We aren't going to until we are married." I replied in a matter of factly tone.

"Thank you" she kissed my jaw

"Don't thank me I made a promise" I kissed her head.

"Now get some sleep because we are having dinner at my moms house tonight and I want you well rested."

"Yes, sir" she mumbled before her breathes got even and the snoring started.

The truth was I didn't even mind her snoring. If I could hear that snoring for the rest of my life, I would be perfectly content just as long as it meant she was in bed next to me.

I gave her head one last kiss before I drifted off to sleep too.