Hello everyone! Thank you all for your lovely reviews and your support for this story. Thank you everyone who has followed and/or put it on their favorites. In this Chapter we see Hermione thinking about what she should do now that she knows he's alive. We also get to see how she ended up losing her virginity to Severus. I am still very new to writing sex, so it might not be the greatest. Please let me know what you think.
Hermione appeared back at her apartment not believing what just happen. She set her child down on her feet and sat herself down in her armchair. She leaned her head back against the head rest trying to get her mind clear. She had so many questions in her mind. While digesting what she just saw, her child approached her with her finger in her mouth again.
"What's wrong mommy? Why are you crying? Who was that man?" Questions came babbling out of the girl's mouth as she too tried to contemplate what just happen. She didn't understand why her mommy, who was so strong and never cried, was sitting here and falling apart. All she wanted was to hug her mommy and make the tears go away.
"Oh baby I'm so sorry. Come on. I think it's time for a nap." Hermione grabbed the child's hand and walked her up the steps. The child clutched her mother's hand and followed reluctantly. She didn't want a nap. She wasn't tried and she still didn't know why her mother was crying.
When they got to her bedroom, the child let go of her mother's hand and stomped her foot in frustration. "I don't wanna nap."
Hermione sighed when she saw Sabrina starting up a temper tantrum. She knew it wasn't fair to put her child to bed, but she needed time to think about what happen. "Mommy needs time to think love." She picked her child up and put her down onto the bed. She wrapped the warm fuzzy blankets around her and looked around the room for her favorite stuffed animal. She picked up a yellow bunny rabbit and held it out to her child.
The child frowned at the bunny rabbit in her hand. "Hoppy don't wanna nap either." She pouted at the look on her mother's face. She knew there was no arguing anymore. She took the bunny rabbit from her mother's hand and clutched it to her chest. Even though she said she didn't want a nap a yawn came out of her mouth now that she was all snuggly and warm in her bed. "Mommy, will you play with me later then when I wake up?"
Hermione smiled at Sabrina. "Of course, my love, now have a good nap." She dimmed the lights and closed the door behind her. Now that she was alone she can finally get her mind right. She walked back down the steps and sat back in her armchair.
So he is in fact alive and he lives just a few blocks away. My god what am I going to do? He has a right to see Sabrina just as much as I do. It's his child, but he doesn't even know about her. What if he doesn't want to be a part of her life once I tell him who she is? What do I even tell her? How am I expected to look my child in the eye and say I found your dad and he doesn't want to see you. I can't let that happen to her. I can't introduce her to him and then have him break her heart. Let's not come to conclusions too fast Hermione. You don't know him either. One night of passion does not constitute the man that he is now. Maybe he will take up the responsibility. You just got to give him the chance to.
Should I even take the job he is offering? I mean I love working with potions. I love the whole process of it, but can I work alongside of him? Is he still the cruel and mean bastard he was in school? Does he still see me as a student? I know I still see him as a professor even after what we had done. If he asks me to take the job now that he knows who I am maybe I will take it. I do need a job and any amount of money would be nice right now. I'm getting low on food and taking care of my child. Will I even end up seeing him again?
She didn't know if she had the guts to approach him again after the way she reacted to seeing him. She had to approach him though for her daughter's sake. She deserves to have a father that knows and loves her even if he doesn't want to be a part of it. Part of her also hoped he saw her differently. She was honestly attracted to him. Behind all those big heavy robes was a lean and muscular man. Many people found him ugly, but to Hermione he wasn't that at all. Sure he wasn't what people considered "hot" in the sense, but he had other parts of him that attracted her. His voice for one was very deep and turned her on immensely. Him being tall was also a plus. Most of all she liked that they had the same interests. They both had a love for books and learning along with potion making. After the night of passion they had, her feelings for him change immensely. They didn't last very long after he ended up dying in the Shrieking Shack, but she still felt a powerful connection to him. As she sat there contemplating what to do, she started remembering the night they had.
She was walking down the long stretch of hallway quietly trying to think about what can possibly be a horcrux. As she was walking past a seemingly empty classroom, she was pulled inside the room and the door was shut tightly. It was warded and she found herself locked in. She turned to see who pulled her inside the room expecting to see Ron or Harry, but instead she saw the Headmaster, Severus Snape. She swallowed thickly feeling fear creep up inside her. What could he possibly want with me? While thinking it, her voice shook and she asked him this. "What do you want from me?"
His eyes lowered slightly from her hoping that would make her less frighten. "I'm not here to hurt you."
She let out a laugh not believing him at all. "I don't believe you. You killed Dumbledore, now you want to kill me. Tell the truth. What do you want?"
"Hermione just let me explain before you start making assumptions." His voice came out in a pleading tone something that Hermione never expected.
"Go on then speak. We don't have much time here. Maybe it has escaped your mind Professor but we are in a middle of a war." Her response was said in a biting tone as if she was blaming him for what was going on.
He pinched the bridge of his nose and tried to think of how to explain himself the best way he could. He imagined this in his head going better, but now it seemed like it was blowing up in his face. "Hermione, I have seen the way you look at me in the classroom and I know you have defended me so many times to your friends. The reason why I am bringing this up to you is because I know I do not have much time left on this Earth. When this war ends I most likely will be dead. I thought I would have more time, but as time would have it I do not. What I am asking from you is to have a little sympathy."
She scowled and spat at him, "Whatever sympathy I had for you died when you killed Dumbledore and showed your true colors. You are a Death Eater and want muggleborns to die. How do you expect me to stand here and do something for you when I know who you really are?"
"I am a Death Eater Hermione I don't deny that, but I am also a spy. I did what I was asked to do not because I wanted to. I do not want muggleborns to die."
"Why should I believe you Professor? You never liked me and I've seen the way these kids are treated in this school after you became Headmaster."
"It was because of the carrows. I never once put a hand on any of those children and I can't do anything about it because of the Dark Lord. I am Dumbledore's man Hermione. I still stand by him."
"Then why did you kill him? Tell me that and maybe then I will consider listening to you."
He opened his mouth and closed it. He had to tell her the truth. "He was dying. The old fool tried to destroy a ring and he was dying slowly, but painfully. In order to relive him of his pain he asked me to kill him. That is the truth."
Her anger slowly lessened by his admittance. "Okay let's say I believe you what do you want from me then?"
"I want my last few minutes to be happy because after this I will have to approach the Dark Lord and he will kill me. Don't ask me how I know this. I know he will. So before I do that I beg of you please just hear me out. I see the way you have looked at me in class. I know you admire my brilliance and dare I say you might even find me attractive. What I want from you Hermione is to let me make love to you before I die. I have wanted this since last year and now that you are here it's my last chance."
Her eyes widen at his words. Her cheeks colored darkly and she swallowed thickly in nervousness. Her hands started to sweat. "Y-You w-want to have s-sex with me?" Her voice trembled slightly. She wasn't sure if it was from nervousness or anticipation. Maybe it was a little of both.
His eyes lowered slightly at her response. "Yes I would. You are very smart Hermione way beyond your years. I have seen you grow up and you have turned into a very attractive woman. Can you find it in your heart to give me one last chance of happiness?"
"I'm a virgin." The words stumbled out of her mouth and she watched as his face fell, but then light up again. She was scared, but she also wanted to have sex with him too. If this was her last chance alive in this war at least she would finally know what it's like to have sex with someone. He was right about how she felt. She did at one time find him attractive and she had harbored feelings for him. Not as strong as this, but strong enough where she understood why they were about to do this.
"So will you agree to do this Hermione?"
She couldn't find her voice so instead she nodded her head at him acquiescing to his last request. She was still rooted to the spot near the door and hasn't moved since she was pulled inside. She watched as he approached her slowly with deep emotion hidden in his dark penetrating eyes. His hands reached out and he pulled the blue jean jacket off of her. As he began to undress her in a hurried pace, she kept her eyes focused on his dark penetrating ones. She was now only wearing her pink lacy bra, her jeans, and her trainers.
He stopped for a second and began speaking to her. "If two people are to have sex Hermione they both need to be willing participants unless you are changing your mind. If you are I will stop."
She shook her head at him and said, "No I don't want to stop. I just don't know how to begin."Her cheeks stained in embarrassment. She never was close to doing anything like this with Viktor Krum or even Ron.
"Start taking my robes off." He moved her hands up to his shoulders. This time he watched her as she peeled his big black heavy robes off of him. They ended up on the floor along with her clothes. Underneath his wizard robes were a black button-up dress shirt, black dress pants, and dragon hide boots.
Once both their clothes were off, he moved her over to the desk that was at the front of the room. He picked her up and set her down on the desk. She bit her lip and said, "Are you going to kiss me?"
"Is that what you want?" He asked. He wasn't going to kiss her while they made love, but if she wanted him to he would.
"I think so. It would make this easier on me," she answered slowly.
He leaned in and pressed his lips on her. They began to kiss slowly and passionately. She wrapped his arms around his neck and pulled him closer to her. The way he kissed had her head swimming. His tongue rubbed against her bottom lip begging for entrance. She slowly opened her mouth letting him in. His tongue battled with hers. She let out a soft breathy moan. He smirked against her lips. His mouth pulled away from her soft lips and he started nibbling along her jugular. His right hand reached up and cupped her left breast. He squeezed it gently and began to rub his thumb against her pink nipple. It hardened by his touch. He kept on squeezing her breast loving how it felt. She pushed herself more into his hand begging for more.
His mouth moved away from her throat and he licked his lips. "I'm sorry Hermione, but we got to get a move on if you don't want people wondering where you are."
She frowned hating how fast this was, but she understood what he meant. "Yes sir I understand."
"Call me Severus. I'm no longer your Professor."He pressed his lips back onto hers and moved his hand down to her warm center. He inched his finger into her warm walls and began moving it back and forth trying to get her walls ready for him. She was so wet and it nearly made him groan out loud. Her walls were squeezing his finger and trying to pull it back in. Once he was sure she was ready, he added a second finger. He started to thrust his fingers a little faster and heard her moan loudly by the contact. She threw her head back in pleasure.
"More Severus, please." She couldn't believe what she was asking, but god damn it it felt so good.
He added a third finger and curled them inside of her. He felt her starting to tighten even more around his fingers. His other hand came down and flicked her nub sending her over the edge.
"Severus!," she screamed out as she sagged against the desk trying to recover from her high.
He pulled his fingers from her center and licked them clean. He reached down and grabbed his member. He started to angle himself above her. "Are you ready Hermione?"
She bit her lip and nodded once in response. She watched as he started to push inside of her wet walls.
He met her barrier and he closed his eyes in concentration. "I'm sorry for this." He pushed through it and he bottomed out in her soft warm sex. He felt her jerk slightly by the sharp pain. He reopened his eyes and he saw tears starting to form in her chocolate brown eyes. He reached out and cupped her cheek. "Just give it a minute." It took him a lot of effort not to thrust inside of her.
After a few minutes have passed, he watched and felt her unclench around him and he was freely able to move. He began to thrust inside of her. He started off slowly. He pulled almost nearly out and thrusted back in watching her eyes roll back in her head. After a few slow strokes, he couldn't wait anymore. He picked up the speed and began thrusting hard into her over and over again.
She clutched his shoulders tightly, her nails biting into his alabaster skin. She wrapped her legs around his waist pulling him closer into her warmth. He felt amazing and she didn't want it to end. She moaned loudly when he hit a spot deep inside of her.
He angled himself and thrusted against that spot again and again loving the sounds she was making. "Come on Hermione. Say my name. I know you can." His deep gruff voice came strangling out in a groan as he continued to pound into her.
"Severus yes! You feel so good," she moaned out. She clutched him to her tightly as he continued to thrust into her.
He felt her walls start to tighten around him again. He knew she was about to come again. He thrusted harder into her and felt her come hard around him, her wetness gushing out of her with force. He was nearly pushed out of her core by how hard she came. He thrusted back into her and came with a roar. He collapsed on top of her satisfied by what happen.
A few minutes went by and Severus heard a boom outside. It shook the whole castle. The sound and the shake of the castle reminded them where they were and what they had to do. He quickly got off of her and casted a scourgify on both of them. He redressed both of them with another flick of his wand. He cupped her cheek gently in his warm palm. "I'm sorry this had to be a one off. Thank you for giving me a moment to remember. Be safe out there and do what you have to do in order to survive. I hope Potter is able to defeat You-Know-Who. This might be the last time you see me. Good luck." He leaned in brushed his lips on her forehead. With a whoosh he was gone flying out of the window in the classroom.
Hermione shook her head clearing her mind of the memory. Just as she stood up to go check on her daughter she heard a knock on the door.