AUTHOR NOTE: This story takes place around the season 5 episode The End. I also love the name I picked for the original female character for this story.
SUMMARY: Dusk was determined to watch in heartache as drugs and endless girls took her place in her former lover Castiel's life. Then the apocalypse battle started. She and Castiel are the only survivors in Dean Winchester's camp. Will they come together again or become further apart?
Dusk and Castiel were the only two left of Dean Winchester's camp that were able to escape the devil's zombie-like horde and demons. It was 2014 and the world literally went to hell. Dusk first met Dean, his brother Sam, and the then angel Castiel back in 2009. She was trying to help them with the whole saying no to the archangel's thing. Over time she and Castiel had fallen for each other despite the whole angels shouldn't fall for humans thing. Dusk thought she and the angel were happy. Every free moment they had they spent together laughing, loving, etc. She even gave herself to the angel completely. She would smile when she would remember how nervous the angel was and the adorable way he tried to do everything like a gentleman would, but their happiness or at least Dusk's happiness was short lived once Sam said yes and the apocalypse started. The angels vanished and Castiel's grace just seemed to fade away over time, making him human.
At first, she told him it would be ok, she was there and would help him through everything, but after a while, Castiel just couldn't seem to adjust, until he discovered drugs. Pills mainly, to keep himself in a state of high. Sometimes she would even smell weed on him. She tried to help him, but it's like the more she tried the harder he pushed her away, then the final crack to her already broken heart was the girls. A lot of girls. Before every time they would welcome a new girl in, Cas ended up giving them more than just a warm welcome to the group. Dusk couldn't take it anymore and pulled herself away from the former angel, though she was still in love with him. He had pretty much forgotten Dusk even existed. Then the big battle came and almost their entire camp was killed off. She and Cas were able to escape barely unharmed and it didn't take them long to stumble upon Dean's body.
They made it back to the camp and hid out in Castiel's hut being as that's where most the survival supplies were kept. Dusk sit on a pillow on the floor. She watched as her former love downed some pills then offered her some which she declined. He popped the lid back on the bottle and plopped down beside her. They set there for a while not saying a word.
"How are your injuries?" he asked.
"I'll live," Dusk said, "just some scratches and bruises,".
"Think any croats will show up?" he asked.
"I don't think so, but we should hide out for a while," she said.
"Well what should we do to pass time?" he asked. She rolled her eyes ignoring the racing of her heart at his flirty tone. She just shrugged. "Well," he said leaning closer to her, "I do have one idea,". He started to slowly kiss her neck. She wanted so much to give in. To get lost in his gravily voice, to enjoy his plump, pink lips on her skin, but she couldn't. He wasn't the Castiel she was in love with, not emotionally anyway.
"Cas, we can't," she said pulling away.
"What's the matter?" he asked concerned.
"Nothing," she said getting up, "we just can't,".
"Why not?" he asked, "we use to do it all the time,". She wasn't sure what overcame her, but anger filled through her. She turned around. Her blazing, gray eyes locked on his glossed over blue ones.
"Yeah we did," she said, "because we were in love, or I thought we were. I know I was,".
"What does that mean Dusk?" he asked looking confused, "I loved you,".
"Really Castiel?" she asked, "you loved me?"
"Yes, I loved you," he repeated.
"Right," she said, "so you losing yourself to drugs was showing me you loved me, you sleeping with other girls in the damn camp was you showing me you loved me!". She couldn't stop herself. Everything she'd been holding back was starting to tumble out, "Do you have any idea how hard it was to sit and watch you fall in a whole new way. I tried to help you so many times, but you kept pushing me away. And do you have any idea how my heart broke more as I would sit and watch as groups of girls would come and go from this hut? A hut we built together because we were gonna stay together!".
"Dusk, I'm," Castiel started to say, but she cut him off by holding up her hand.
"Don't," she warned, "I loved you Castiel, I still love you, but you broke my heart and you didn't even care. I gave myself to you in every way a lover does, and you just threw me away. You locked me out. And the saddest part is, even knowing what I know now I'd still do it all over again," not being able to hold back the tears anymore she stormed out of his hut. She headed to her's watching out for any signs of any kind of monster. She walked inside her hut and locked the door. She sat on her bed, grabbed a pillow and held it against her face as she screamed and the tears came flowing out. She cried until her eyes could no longer supply water for the invisible tears.
She had been in her hut for about an hour. During that time she ended up laying down on her side, but she couldn't sleep. She heard her door open and cursed to herself. She had forgotten Castiel had a key to her hut.
"Dusk?" he called as he walked in, but she refused to answer him. She felt the other side of her bed dip, but she kept her back to him. "Dusk, I know you're mad me, I don't blame you if you hate me," she felt him gently place his hand on her leg, "I hate me. I never thought about the pain I caused you. When the angels left and my grace faded things just got so out of hand. Dusk, I didn't do anything I did because I didn't love you. I love you more than any being ever created, I adore you. I just thought after my grace drained and I became human that I wasn't enough for you, I wasn't the celestial being you fell in love with,". Fresh tears were forming in her eyes and she heard him sniffle which further broke her heart. She sat up and looked at him. His sapphire eyes dulled by his sadness and tears. For once in so long she saw her Castiel. She gently grabbed his hand rubbing her thumbs softly over the back of it.
"Castiel," she started, "I didn't fall in love with you because you were an angel. Being a celestial being had nothing at all to do with it,".
"It..didn't?" he asked a little shocked. She smiled a little.
"No," she said, "Cas, I fell in love with you because you're sweet, caring, stronger in more ways than you know, your brave, smart, always willing to put others before yourself, and well you can be down right adorable sometimes. I love your angel side, but it wasn't just your angel side Castiel, I love you for you period. Angel, human, whatever it doesn't matter. You could have been a demon and I would still love you,". He brought her hands to his face and planted a soft kiss on each one.
"I'm so sorry Dusk," he repeated. The guilt filled tone of his voice made her heart ache, "I will never be able to make up for the pain I've caused you. I understand if you hate me now,".
"I could never hate you Castiel," she said as more tears fell down her cheeks, "I just miss you so much,". He scooted closer to her and wiped the tears on her cheeks away.
"I miss you too," he said, "Dusk, do you think we could try again? I promise I'll do whatever I can to show you how truly sorry I am if you give me the chance,". He looked straight into her eyes as he pushed a lock of her dark red hair from her face. She pulled him into a hug.
"Of course we can Cas," she said running her hand up and down his back, "I can tell you're sorry for everything, so lets just put it all behind us,". He smiled and pulled away enough to look at her.
"So," he said with that classic, sweet smile she hadn't seen in so long, "would you be my Dusk Bunny again?". She giggled loving the sound of the nickname he gave her.
"Only if you'll be my handsome angel again?" she said. He smiled and planted a kiss on her lips. This time she had no problem melting right into it. She laid back pulling him with her until he was laying over her. He made sure to lay in a way where he wasn't hurting her.
"I love you Dusk," he said.
"I love you too Castiel," she said running a hand through his soft, black hair, "So, does that offer to pass time still stand?". He smiled wide.
"Always and only for you Dusk Bunny," he kissed her more passionately this time and they both allowed themselves to get completely lost in each other.