You followed Dean back into the room, but you still couldn't bring yourself to look at Sam. "You two talk and me and Bobby will go grab some grub," Dean said as he and Bobby left. You both just sat there in silence for a few moments. Sam got up and walked over to you. He kneeled down and placed his hands on yours which were on your lap. You still couldn't look at him.
"Y/N," he started, "I know your angry with me and you hate me and I don't blame you. I have no excuse for what I did? I wasn't thinking clearly, tensions have been high, I have been angry and depressed, and maybe even a little bitter for some reason and I guess I didn't think I just acted on natural urges. I know that's not an excuse, but please Y/N. Please give me the chance to show I do love you and that I won't hurt you ever again,".
"How do know I can do that Sam?" you asked, "how can I know you won't jump at the chance to sleep with her again,".
"I won't Y/N," he said, "I swear I won't. I'll cut ties with her right now if that's what it takes to show you you can trust me,".
"I want to Sam," you said finally looking at him. Tears filling your eyes, "I want to believe you to trust you so much, but I just don't know if I can,".
"What do I have to do Y/N?" Sam asked, "I'll do anything you want me too,". You sighed and lightly grasped his hands in yours.
"Just give me time Sammy," you said, "let me build my trust in you back up,".
"Ok," he said, "we can do that. Is it ok if I hug you?". You nodded as you felt his arms wrap around you. You missed the feeling of safety you felt every time he would hug you or hold you. Sam gave you your space. You guys would talk and even helped figure out what brought Dean back. Turns out it was an angel. His name was Castiel and soon became part of the family so to say. Then you found out Dean and Sam were the chosen vessels for the archangels Micheal and Lucifer. That scared you. That meant you could end up losing Sam for good. No second chances. So you went to Sam one night and told him how you felt. You told him you wanted to forget what happened and just be all in now. You didn't wanna waste any more time with him just in case this was it and things did end. So you spent every moment you could together. Who knew when the world might end.