AUTHOR NOTE: The parts in bold are song lyrics and the parts in italic are flash backs.
Mark just finished his last panel for the day and decided to head to the local diner with some of the guys for dinner. They had just gotten out of the car and Mark looked into the huge window of the resteraunt and froze. You were sitting there in a window booth. You were laughing and smiling. But you weren't alone. There was a guy sitting across from you. Mark swore he coud feel a crack form in his heart. "Guys, I'm gonna head to the hotel." he said, "I'm not feeling very well suddenly,". They nodded in understanding and Mark told the driver where to take him.
You were just pretending to enjoy the company of the surprise date some of the girls sprung on you. He was a new actor on the show. He played some hunter Sam and Dean had beef with. He was cute. Black hair, pale green eyes. Nice smile. But none of that mattered to you. All you could think of was a tall, blonde hair, blue eyed man. He was all that was ever on your mind. So yeah you would fake through this "date" but you refused to move on. You couldn't move on. You heart was forever claimed.
Mark sat in his room. He couldn't fight the moment back at the diner away as he stared into the glass he was holding. Your smile, the way you were laughing. He use to be the reason for that gorgeous smile to appear. The reason your beautiful laugh would flow around. He use to be the reason for the joy you felt and he threw it all away. Now some other guy would get to experience that truly beautiful sight. Anger at himself began to build as he thought about you in another guy's arms, you kissing another guy, them holding you. He threw the glass in his hand against the wall. The sound of it shattering mimicking the way his heart felt. He needed to get his mind off you even though it was an impossible task. He walked to the counter that separated the living room area of his hotel room from the kitchen and turned on the radio.
He sat in a plush chair in the living room, but the minute a new song played he wished he'd never turned it on. The song was Let It Breathe by White Liars. It was a song special to him, because of you. tears threatened to spill from his blue eyes as a memory played in his mind.
When I wake in the morning will you kiss my face with a smile no one has ever seen
When I wake in the morning will you kiss my eyes and say 'It's you I have loved all these years. It is you I have loved all these years'
Mark was asleep when he felt a soft little flutter on his eyelids, then his nose and then his lips as he finally opened his eyes. You smiled at him as you gently rested against his chest. He smiled and wrapped his arms around you as the night before played in his head. It was your first night together. Your first kiss had lead to your first time making love and that morning Mark could see the love you had for him in your beautiful eyes. "Morning," he said.
"Hope you don't mind me waking you up," you said, "you just looked so adorable sleeping I had to kiss you,". He smiled and caressed your cheek with his hand.
"Seeing your beautiful face first thing when I wake up is something I would never mind," he said, "in fact, I look forward to it,". you smiled as you leaned down and softly pressed your lips to his as he ran his fingers through your hair.
When you wake in the morning I will kiss your face with a smile no one has ever seen
When you wake in the morning I will kiss your eyes and say 'it's you I have loved all these years.'
Mark shook the memory away and wiped the fallen tears from his face. He got up and changed the station. For a while, it played songs he wasn't too familiar with than another song played that made him think of you. It was Youth by Troy Sivan. This was his song to you. He was always a fit man, but you always gave him this feeling of being eternally youthful. Around you, his spirits were always up. His happiness was always genuine, and his love for the girl by his side was beyond any other love in the world. As the song played so many memories played in his mind. You two were pretty much inseparable. You would go dancing, swimming, jogging, or just stay in and hold each other like you never wanted to let go. But like the biggest fool in the world, he did let go. Like a fool he let his true happiness slip away. He let the tears fall through the entire song. He tried to convince himself that it was better this way. That you could be happier this way. That's the one thing that ever mattered to him.
My youth, my youth is yours
Trippin' on skies, sippin' waterfalls
My youth, my youth is yours
Runaway now and forevermore
My youth, my youth is yours
A truth so loud you can't ignore
My youth, my youth, my youth
My youth is yours
He sniffled and wiped his eyes again. Changing the station hoping something was playing that wouldn't remind him of the worst mistake he ever made. That wouldn't remind him of the love he freely let slip through his hands. He found a station that was playing older songs and sighed in relief thinking they can't play anything to remind him of the beautiful girl he missed. He grabbed a drink from the fridge sat at the little table in the kitchen. Just when he started to finally get you off his mind your song played. The song you two shared. It was an old song. Only You by The Platters. That was it. He couldn't fight the tidal wave of tears anymore. Mark broke down as he remembered each time you two heard the song. The first time it was playing on the radio on set as everyone was going over their lines. You two had only just started your romance. The second time was on your first date.
You two had just finished dinner at this little bar and grill restaurant in the town you were in when the song played from the jukebox. Mark got up and held out his hand to you. You smiled and took it as he lead you to the little dance floor area. It didn't take long for you to have your head resting on his shoulder as he held you close and you two just swayed to the music. "This should be our song," you said, "it seems to play a lot when we're together,". Mark smiled.
"I agree," he said. Over time the song even became part of your nighttime routine. You would slow dance to it every night you were together, before falling asleep in each other's embrace. You would even sometimes take turns singing the song to each other as you lay in bed cuddled up.
Mark, knew if he didn't find some way to get over you it would drive him insane. A few tears fell onto a piece of paper on the table. He cleared his eyes of tears and looked at it. It was a list of all his fellow cast members rooms. He saw your name and realized you were only five doors down. That's when it clicked for Mark. He didn't wanna let you go. How could he let you go? You were his one true love. His true source of happiness. He had to get you back. Without even a second thought he stormed out of his room and down the hall. He knew he had to make this right. He just hoped you would let him.
You were sitting on the edge of your bed answering some texts and just staring at the room list. Mark was only a few doors up. Every nerve in you screamed at you to go to him and talk some sense into him, but you ignored it. If Mark was happy than you would mask your sorrow and pretend to be happy. If not for yourself than for the man you loved with every ounce your being. There was suddenly a knock on your door. You were wondering who would be up this late. When you opened the door your eyes widened. Mark stood there. He looked up at you and your heart broke. You could clearly tell he'd been crying. "Hey," he greeted. He voice was so strained. So weak from crying, "can I come in?".