AN: Sunday again so here you go! I am starting a new job tomorrow so we will see how my updates are going to be over the next few weeks!
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Chapter 4 First night out
It had been 2 weeks since Kathrin and Matt had made the move to New York. They had settled in and today they where going to watch Liam over the weekend. It was Saturday morning and they where going to pick him up at 5pm so Izzie, George and I could spent the night out in the city.
I was a bit nervous it was the first time I wouldn't have Liam with me. I walked in to his room this morning and he was still passed out. I think I stood there for at least 15 min watching my little boy sleep. He looked so peaceful and I didn't want to disturb him. Trough the week we did some test runs with Liam how he would behave when I would leave him with Kathrin and Matt alone. The first time he screamed his head of when I walked away but when I reached the grocery store I got a text from Matt that he had settled down and was nicely playing with his toys. After some shopping and enjoying a nice cup of coffee without having to watch Liam for the first time since I gave birth. I felt like a normal teenager again since finding out I was pregnant with him. The next few times Liam didn't scream that much but was not particularly happy that I was leaving. And yesterday he didn't make a sound when I dropped him when I needed to go to the library for some research. To be honest I was missing him. I was so used to drag him along with everything I did.
After breakfast I decided to go for a walk. Taking the subway to central park. The sun was shining brightly and I just strolled around. Liam had his sunglasses on and was looking like a cool little dude. Placing a blanket on the grass on the hill I lay Liam down and watch the baseball game that is going on on the field below me. Liam was rolling over on to his belly and he was trying to push himself up and I knew it wouldn't be long before I would start to crawl and I would be in a lot of trouble chasing after him. We go back home for lunch and a nap. I do my homework while he is asleep and when he wakes up I just play with him till Matt and Kathrin are coming to pick him up. When they arrive I pack his nappy back and some clean clothes. When they start to leave I give him a big hug and tell him I would see him tomorrow. He looked a little bit confused glancing from me to Kathrin but he didn't cry.
As I quickly tidy up before Izzie is coming over to help me get ready. I put on the radio and start dancing to the music. And it is not long before I use the vacuum cleaner as an air guitar and pretend that I am a rock star. When I am done with my rock concert I hear the doorbell ring and let Izzie in. She is ordering me around to have a shower, wash my hair and shave. I look at her like she is crazy but she is giving me a stern look at tells me you never know what might happen so just do it! I start to giggle while I turn around and head for the shower. After my shower Izzie lets me try a million outfits. It looks like there was a bomb explosion in my room. And Izzie decides I should go for the sexy black dress. I am not sure if I even fit in to it because I hadn't worn it for more then over a year. But she wants me to try it anyway. As I slip in to the dress I am surprised how easy it goes. I definitely had lost the baby weight. Izzie is doing my make up and I am putting on my heels. Than I stand in front of my mirror and I almost didn't recognize myself. I was looking at a hot sexy woman who was ready to party. Not at a 19-year-old mom covered in babypuke. I am speechless. When George arrives he just stammers that I look amazing. I just hope his crush on me will stop very soon! It is getting quite annoying. We order pizza to have some food before we go out.
Izzie is dragging us along the city and we end up in a bar where she knows the bouncer so she could get us in. Out of experience I know who to get a drink while under age and I walk over to the bar and order a coke. I look around if I can spy someone interesting and who can buy me a drink. First time I look around there was nobody not even close but on my second try I found myself staring at a cute guy with blue eyes and dark hair. He doesn't look at me. He is talking to his friend. But as if he could feel my eyes on him he looks in my direction and I quickly turn away but it is to late he saw me staring at him. I feel my cheeks turn red and I really hope he is letting it go. I am so not ready for this I think.
But I am out of luck I can see him say something to his friend, his friend looks up and just grins at me. Then the cute guy is standing up and is walking my way. He sits down on the stool next to me and he orders a double scotch's single malt.
He turns to me with a cocky smile and he says: "So is this a good place to hangout?" I start to giggle and ask him if that line had ever worked for him. Yes normally it does he replies. I turn back to sip on my coke. He looks at me and says: "ah now you are ignoring me." I am trying to I reply. He scoots closer and says: "you shouldn't ignore me." Why not I reply. "Cause I am someone you need to get to know to love." I look at him and say " So if I know you I will love you?" yes he replies back with a grin. I can feel myself starting to smile. "You are very fond of yourself aren't you?" I say to the cute looking guy. "Just hiding me pain". He replies. And than he asks: "So what is your story?" For a moment I am not sure what to say and I think just have fun Meredith. So I answer: "I don't have a story I am just a girl in bar." And I am just a guy in a bar he replies. And it is followed by could a buy you a drink and I knew I hit the jackpot. I say sure. But instead of asking me what I am drinking he just ask the bartender for another round. As the bartender puts our drinks on the bar he says: "one double scots single malt and a coke." And I feel like I want to disappear. The guy looks at me and whispers in my ear: "you are not legal aren't you." I turn bright red and all I have to do is nod.
I expect him to back way but he doesn't he is just looking at me and after a while he asks me to pick a poison. I answer tequila and before I know it there is a shot of tequila in front of me. I pick it up and drink it one go. That felt so good I hadn't had a shot of tequila since before I was pregnant. And the tequila made me all warm and fuzzy inside. With no doubt in my mind that I would and up drunk of my ass tonight because I had become a lightweight. The guy ordered me a couple more and I already started to feel it.
I became a little bit chattier and asked him for his name. "Derek" he told me holding out his hand. Meredith I said while shaking is hand and when we touched there was a sparkle going down my spine. A sparkle that I never had felt before. He asked me how old I was and I replied 19. Than he asks me how I got into the bar and I mention and point to Izzie that she knew one of the bouncers. At this point I don't know how many shots of tequila I had but I was really starting to feel it and I think Derek had noticed it to because when I stood up to go to the toilet he grabbed me before I could fall over. Oke that's enough I am taking you home Derek says. And I don't even think and just agree.
We are waiting for a cab outside of the bar, I can almost not stand up straight, I would for sure not be standing right now if it wasn't for Derek. He had is arm around my shoulder and I was leaning against him. "Maybe I gave you to much of the tequila, you are going to be sorry in the morning." he says with a cheeky smile. "Don't worry I am just not used to it anymore, I am always sorry in the morning after drinking tequila." I reply with a sort of flirty smile.
While we get into the cab I mumble my address to the driver and just lean against Derek. His cologne smells nice very musky. When we get out of the cab I start to panic I don't want him to come up and find out I have a baby. So as we stand in front of my building I tell him I had a good time and just stare into his blue eyes. He leans in closer and his hand goes up to my face stroking my cheek, looking me in the eyes to ask for permission I give him a slight nod and then is lips are on mine. It is a soft kiss and I can feel his tongue across my lips and I open my mouth and I feel his tongue slipping inside. My hands go into his hair. And then I pull away panting. He tells me he wants to meet again and I give him my phone number. He is given me quick kiss before I go inside. And says "bye Meredith". I say back "bye Derek". His name sounds so good coming out of my mouth. And he is giving me a dreamy smile as he walks away. As I take the elevator up to my floor I can only think about that kiss. But as soon as I enter my apartment and I see the pictures of Finn I start feeling guilty. I stumble into my bedroom but first I grab some painkillers and a big glass of water for tomorrow morning when I would have hangover. And go to bed.
I wake up to a slightly snoring Izzie next to me I have no idea at what time she got in but we had left a key under the doormat in case we wouldn't get home together. When I look at the clock and see it is 10 am my mind goes into mommy mode and I run in to Liam's room, but it is empty and than I remember that he is not here. He is safe and sound at grandma and grandpa.
As I walk in to the kitchen I turn on the radio and than I decide to make some scrambled eggs for breakfast. After I put the eggs in the pan I start to stir them and then my mind wanders away to that kiss from last night with Derek. I hadn't planned on kissing anybody yesterday but something had drawn me to him. He looked older, way to old. Than I think I didn't even ask him how old he was. But the fact that I was only nineteen didn't seem to bother him at all. And that kiss had been so good and gentle.
I can hear Izzie saying: "uhmm mer, I think your eggs are burning!" and I snap out of my daydream. "Crap" I yell looking at the burned mess in the pan that was supposed to be my breakfast. "Were you day dreaming about Mcdreamy?" she asks me. I look at her and say, "Who is Mcdreamy?" "The good looking guy in the red shirt you were talking to last night in the bar, he even bought you tequila I saw." Izzie replies I stammer a no but my face is turning bright red and I cannot help to smile. Oh you so did Izzie says teasing me. Than she asks was he good? And I know she is fishing for details and if we had sex or not. I reply: "well the kiss was amazing but I wouldn't know the rest because nothing happened. I am not that girl who sleeps around drunk with everybody. I got his number though". And his name is not Mcdreamy but it is Derek. Even tough I like the fact that izzie calls him Mcdreamy.
After a quick shower I walk to the subway to pick up Liam back in to mommy modes. As I ride the subway my phone beeps indicating a text message. It is from Derek: I had fun last night can I call you tonight? As I reply to him with a smile on my face: I haven't had that much fun in a year! And of course you can call me tonight. I will be free after nine.