AN: Hey guys! I'm sooo sorry for updating so late. I had work again today and I wasn't really home. I don't usually have it on Fridays, it's only just Tuesday and Wednesday. And I'm puppy sitting a 9-week or so black lab, so that kept me busy. So again really sorry about that.

I decided to change the rating of this to teen, because of what I wrote in this chapter. It's nothing really that bad, but I'd rather not take my chances and get in trouble for it. Better to be safe then sorry.

I'd like to thank Pepsi's Mom for favoriting this, adding me to your author alert, following the story, and putting me on your favorite authors list. That's a lot to take in. I'm happy that you like it.

SaintsFan1- Yup, she'll finally admit how she feels about him, it just might not be in the way you expect. Or it is in the way you expect. Snoke will definitely not take Kylo's compassion towards Rey lightly if he finds out. He has an interesting way of providing punishment, you'll see what I mean soon. Don't worry the Resistance is going to be leaving in I think chapter 13, but I can't make any promises just yet. But it will be soon. Thanks again for reviewing! :)

I think this is my longest chapter yet, so let's get a move on.

Chapter 11

As Rey finished working on the Falcon with Chewie she couldn't help but think about him. He had outright admitted that her laugh was cute, no one had ever said that before to her. In fact she had never received a compliment like that in her life.

Now she couldn't get that warm and fuzzy feeling out of her. His comment had made her surprisingly happy and she couldn't have helped but blush when he said it. The fact that she still had his features implemented in her mind didn't help either.

When the two were done making repairs, Chewie went to go get some food while Rey put her supplies in her room. As she walked into her room she saw Luke sitting on the bed.

"Um what are you doing here?" She couldn't help but sound angry at him.

"I just came to apologize Rey."

"You're going to have to do a lot more than that to make me want to forgive you for what you did."

"I know that. Look Rey I don't really know how to say this."

"Say what?" Luke sighed and ran his hand through his hair.

"This connection that you have with Kylo, it's clouding your judgement. You feel anger towards me like you are now and are channeling it. You are fusing it with the force to give you more strength."

"How exactly is this an apology? And what does Kylo have to do with all this?"

"You're starting to let him in more. Even now he's in your thoughts, isn't he?"

"Well yes. But he's not influencing me at all."

"That may be but because you talk to him so frequently, you're starting to think that he's not as bad as he appears, that the Dark Side isn't as bad as it appears."

"Yes to Kylo and no to the darkness. Again, how does Kylo fit into all of this?"

"You're letting your emotions run wild and aren't thinking things through. And every time you talk to him you feel more and more. Eventually you won't be able to control yourself."

"You know if it's my emotions that's the problem why don't you just show me how to control them instead of completely shutting me out. Did you ever think that maybe I can actually learn from you?"

"If you aren't accepting the problem yourself and trying to control it, then there's no point in teaching you."

"I didn't even know that was even the problem until now. How do you expect me to control my emotions if I don't know how?"

"You have to find that out for yourself."

"This is so stupid."

"What is?"

"This entire conversation. You're just afraid of my power, and because of one little accident you shut me out and provide a not so good explanation through your own sister."

"That's not true Rey, I'm helping you to control your power."

"And you're doing a marvelous job with that. I want you to admit it."

"Admit what?"

"Admit that you're afraid of my power. Go on."

"Fine. I am afraid Rey, afraid of losing you. You're my responsibility and if anything happens to you I'm to blame for it. I can't show you to control your own emotions, you have to do that for yourself."

"But why can't you show me?"

"Because of what happened to Kylo Ren."

"What?"

"I tried to teach him to control his power, to not become too strong and let his emotions take over. But it was too much for him, he was beginning to lose control. He had anger and hatred already inside, by me making it known to him it only grew. You still have anger bottled up Rey, I can feel it surrounding you, clouding your mind. You're beginning to channel it through the force. If I do the same thing to you that I did to Kylo, you're already gone. I can't change how you feel, I just need you to understand."

He got up and left the room. As he closed the door behind him she could feel her anger rising. How was she supposed to just make her emotions go away? She didn't know how, and the fact that he said that she had to do it on her own was mind boggling. The only reason as for why she felt angry in the first place is because of what Luke had said to her, and him not training her just made it grow.

She had perfect control of her mind, the only time she got angry was when he made her angry, or the thought of him doing this to her popped into her mind. She only channeled it through the force because it helped her to let the anger leave her, he didn't understand. She was nothing like Kylo, she wouldn't let her power consume her. She wanted help, she needed to know how to control herself, she didn't know how to do it on her own. Kylo succumbed to his emotions, she'd never do anything like that.

All of these thoughts just made her head pound, she needed a way to cool herself off quick. She pulled her lightsaber from her belt and slashed against the wall while yelling. As she let the anger leave her she deactivated her saber and reattached it to her belt. As she looked at the wall her heart stopped.

What had she just done? Her wall was covered in slash marks and it reminded her of a certain easily angered, high tempered person, who occasionally lashed out with his lightsaber. She sat down on her bed and put her head in her hands. Kylo was right, she was like him.

She was becoming the very person she hated most. Maybe Luke was right, but what he did to her was still wrong. He wasn't helping her when she needed it most. She decided that she needed to meditate, clear her head of all thoughts towards Luke, they were only making her more angry and confused.

She began to feel calmer until the door opened and she heard Finn. "Hey Rey, Poe and I are heading to the cafeter- what happened to your wall?!" She immediately sat up and looked at him with panicked eyes.

Kylo just sat in his room, thinking about Rey. The girl had made his heart skip a beat and somehow feel like it was going to go out of his chest. The feeling unsettled him, he'd never felt anything like that before and he didn't really know how to react to it.

Perhaps he did feel the slightest bit of compassion for the girl, but he had to be imagining things. He'd never let something like that happen. He growled, he didn't need all of this confusion inside of his head.

If something were to go wrong because of his feelings for her Snoke would torture him to the point where he'd want to kill himself to save himself from the pain. But then Hux would be tortured as well. Suddenly there was a picture in his mind about Snoke torturing Hux in the worst way possible.

He'd most likely kill him, but it'd be slow. One of his favorites was when they brought out an electro staff and continuously electrocuted the victim for long periods of time. They would then chop off the limbs every break from the electrocution until all that was left was a torso and a head. They would then electrocute the victim some more until he was deemed worthy of death. They'd cut the remaining body up slice by slice, letting the blood run on the floor. Hearing the bloodcurdling scream of the victim come from chambers away.

He had remembered the last time it was used. There was a spy posing as a commander and no one noticed for weeks until he really messed something up to make Snoke mad. The torture went on for hours, he could hear the screams from his room. When he was summoned to Snoke there was blood all over the floor and dismembered body parts all over the place. He could see the clean up crew trying not to throw up from the sight.

He laughed at this thought, it probably wouldn't happen to Hux, but one could dream. He yawned as he stood up. It had been a long day and he wanted to go to bed. He was about to change until there was a knock on his door. What now, couldn't he just get some sleep around here without being interrupted?

He didn't even bother to put his helmet back on as he went to answer the door. For once Hux had come himself. "What is it Hux?"

"The weapon is fully operational."

"Excellent, I'd like to see it."

"Of course sir." He might as well see the thing now instead of waking up early tomorrow to inspect it. As they exited the star destroyer they tried to find a good spot to fully see the weapon. It was placed at the tip of the ship to make it easier to aim with.

It was amazing, that something that can cause so much destruction can fit at the top of a ship. "Excellent General, this will bring the Resistance to it's knees. When are we departing tomorrow?"

"Around mid-afternoon. It'll take some time to start up the Finalizer."

"Very well. Let's just hope that nothing goes wrong."

"Yes, of course." The two entered the ship and went their separate ways. Kylo really needed some sleep, but he stopped short. There was a lot of anger coming from Rey, and something told him that she was having an unpleasant conversation with Skywalker.

As he continued walking to his room he could feel her anger start to dwindle. He probed her thoughts as to see why and what he found shocked him. She had completely tore up her wall with her lightsaber just to let her anger out.

He inwardly smiled as he talked to himself. "You little copycat. I told you we were alike."

"Finn it's not what it looks like I swear."

"Uh it looks like you used your lightsaber to completely destroy your wall."

"Okay then it's exactly what it looks like. But I only did it because I was mad at Luke because he won't teach me how to control my powers. He says that I have to do it on my own, but I don't know how. I couldn't take the anger anymore so I needed to find a way to let it out. And then this happened."

"Rey, this is exactly how Kylo Ren acts when he's mad! You're acting just like him!"

"I know! I didn't mean to, but with him in my head and-"

"What did you just say?"

"Uh nothing, I said nothing."

"Yes you did, you just said that he's in your head."

"It's not what you think it is Finn."

"Please tell me the only reason he's in there is because you're planning a way to kill him."

"Well um-"

"Or is it because of that vision you had?"

"Uh." She was afraid to answer him. He was already upset, she didn't want to make him worse. "You wouldn't understand."

"Rey what aren't you telling me? Please Rey, you can't keep avoiding this." She hung her head in defeat. If she didn't tell him now he'd only be more upset.

"I have a force connection with Kylo Ren. I've been talking to him through it, and I can feel his emotions and hear his thoughts."

"You have a what! With who!"

"A force connection with Kylo Ren." She braced for the impact of his explosion.

"You've been talking to that menace all this time and didn't have the decency to tell us! Oh god, please tell me that you've been making death threats."

"The reason I didn't tell you is because I was afraid that you and Poe would act like this. The only other people who know on this base are Luke and Leia. And actually, most of the conversations have been peaceful with him."

"Peaceful?! There's nothing peaceful about that man."

"You wouldn't understand, he's different with me. He didn't interrogate me like he normally does on Starkiller. He was gentler, and he understands what I'm going through. He comforts me."

"He's the enemy Rey! You can't trust him! I can't believe that this is happening, how long have you had this with him?"

"Ever since I forced my way into his mind during the interrogation. But I was the first to open up the line and talk to him. And it was before I was going to leave the island with Luke."

"I can't believe that you've been talking and acting cival with the enemy Rey!"

"Well maybe I don't view him as the enemy anymore!"

"What?"

"I mean I still do think that he is our enemy, but when I talk to him that image of him disappears from my mind. When I talk to him I see the man who listens to my problems and offers me support when no one else does. I see someone who believes in the potential that I have. I see someone who has shown me sides of himself that I didn't know existed. Hell, I was even capable of bringing out his hidden laugh. And in that moment everything melted away and I forgot all about this stupid war. He has told me nothing but the truth, and of course he kept things hidden, we're on opposing sides after all, but other than that he hasn't lied to me. He hasn't tried to turn me over to the Dark Side, he respected my wish to be left alone when I landed here. You see him as one way, where as I see him another way, and I really don't care what you think anymore. He just might blow up the new base, and if that happens I'll probably be so enraged that I won't talk to him for days. But I'll still know a different side of him that you'll never know. I trust him."

"Rey you can't be serious." Tears were starting to form in her eyes. It felt good to finally let out her feelings towards Kylo.

"I am serious Finn, and you can think whatever you want. But I've learned to accept this connection that I have with him and not try to ignore it, or use it to our advantage. I don't care what you think Finn. This whole thing may have started as an act, and I know that it did. But I could see his thoughts and feel his emotions. Half of the time it wasn't an act to him anymore, he was actually being himself and expressing his thoughts."

"But Rey, he'll turn you to the Dark Side."

"That's what everyone keeps saying but I won't let it happen. I'm not angry all the time like he is. I've only started to become angry because of Luke not helping me to control my power. He's afraid that if he does what he did with Kylo then it will be too much for me. I'm stronger then I look and I won't let the darkness consume me. What I did to the crate and my wall was just a way to release my anger because I couldn't take it anymore. I can't constantly feel angry like Kylo can, I'm not like that. But nobody understands."

"And you think he will?"

"Yes I do. Because he actually listens to me and doesn't try to make me upset. He actually helped to calm me down. You can believe whatever you want Finn, but if you can't accept the connection that I have with him I don't know what else to tell you."

"It's all a trick Rey."

"Don't you think I've picked up on that? I'm not stupid because I was a scavenger you know. But I could tell that he stopped making it a trick when I heard, felt, and saw concern in his voice. Concern for me and my feelings. I've felt his fear and I've felt his sincerity. There was absolutely nothing fake about it."

"I don't know what to think here Rey. How is Luke and the General allowing this to happen?"

"They know that I can't help it. They don't like it, but there's nothing that they can do about it. It's my decision and they can't control my mind. You know I think that Leia actually has hope. Luke told her that Kylo acted differently with me, and I think that she has hope that I can bring him back to the light. I think he's too far gone for it, but if she can find something good in this that's at least something."

"What am I going to tell Poe?"

"You can tell him whatever you want. I just want you to know that you can't change this. When I had the vision I heard a voice saying that it was my destiny. Maybe this whole connection was destined to happen to us. And I'm perfectly okay with that."

"I really don't know what to say Rey."

"Then leave. If you can't make up your mind about me go ahead and leave. I don't care if you think of me as a traitor. Just know that I'm staring one right in the face as well."

"What do you mean that I'm a traitor?!"

"You're a traitor to the First Order. Kylo can't even bear to say the name you've been given. It's either FN-2187 or the traitor."

"You don't know what I've been through Rey. I was taken away from a family that I never knew and was trained to kill."

"So were the Jedi in the days of the Republic. They were taken from their families when they were very young so that they couldn't form attachments."

"And how do you know that?"

"Because Luke told me about what he had learned in the Jedi Temple. You're basically like a Jedi Finn. Tell me, would you be mad if you lived in the days of the Republic and the same thing happened to you, but you were training to become a Jedi?"

"Well no, but that's because the Jedi are the good guys."

"Well maybe to the First Order, they're the good guys. And to them you joined the bad guys after being with them for so many years. That's what makes you a traitor Finn."

"So now you're supporting the First Order?"

"I'm not, and I'd never do that. I'm just saying that not everything is so black and white in this world, you have to see things from new perspectives. Having this connection with Kylo has shown me that."

She could feel the tears really starting to come down now. "If you keep doing this Rey, you'll never come back to us."

"What do you mean? You think I'm going to the Dark Side now don't you?" There was silence. "Don't you?!"

"All of the signs are pointing to it Rey."

"Then you know absolutely nothing about me, to think that I would just bow to the Supreme Leader willingly is absurd."

"I really don't know what to say Rey."

"Then leave Finn." Finn left her room in a huff and slammed the door behind him. She collapsed onto her bed and let the tears just flow out. She didn't want to have to yell at her best friend because of this, but nobody understood her and she needed to make her point across.

Kylo was the only one to understand how she felt because he was going through the same thing she was. She could feel his thoughts turn to her and she felt him question his true feelings.

As the tears stopped she started to feel better. She felt his presence inside of her once more. And there was hope in his voice.

"I heard your thoughts, did you mean what you said?"

"Of course I did. I meant every word that I said about you. I trust you Kylo."

"Thank you, I trust you as well." She felt him leave and a smile spread across her face. This was something that nobody was able to understand between the two of them. No one could possibly understand how much those words meant to the other.

AN: I hope you guys liked it. Rey finally admitted her feelings for Kylo, yay! Let's just hope that Finn will be able to cool down.

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Until the next chapter, bye everyone!