Dear Sam,
I would love to say we never saw Ruby again but unfortunately, we did. Thanks to Bela we got arrested and locked up. While we were being held a horde of demons attacked. And who came to our aid so to say? None other than Ruby again. She had a spell to help us kill the demon but when Dean learned a girl would have to die he refused. We fought our way out like we usually did and Henriksen said he would make sure we were believed to be dead. Even till this day Sammy, I carry guilt. After we left that night Lilith showed up and tortured and killed them all. I'll never lose this guilt. Knowing you you probably still carry it too.
After that, we ran into those dimwits the ghostfacers. They were so annoying. After we helped them and sat through that hideous show pilot of their's we ended up in Ohio. Wierd calls started coming in from the dead. Dean even got one from your dad saying he could get Dean out of his deal. Turns out we were dealing with a crocotta. After killing it I watched as you and Dean talked at the motel. Dean admitted he wanted to believe it was John because he was scared as his deal deadline that was getting close. After that, your desperation kicked in Sammy. Even tried to use the spell from an immortal doctor we took down. We also found out that Bela had sold her soul to have her parents killed. I thought we did the right thing at first. But a few years back I ran into a hunter who knew Bela. Sam her father was a true monster. We should have helped her. Something else I carry guilt about.
Love always,
Y/N.