It had been a few days since the first day of class and things had been fine. He had been enjoying his time at U.A. and was feeling more comfortable around his classmates. Surprisingly Kacchan had been leaving him alone which constantly left him baffled. Every time he passed by the boy he waited for the incoming punch, sneer, or rude comment. But it never came. Izuku doesn't know what had changed Bakugo's behaviour so much, either way, he wasn't going to complain about it. Despite all the fun he's been having over the past few days he woke up with a bad feeling. He could tell today was going to be a very, very bad day.

It started with him screaming awake from a terrible nightmare at two in the morning. It was one of the worst ones he had in a while. It was filled with gruesome images of his mom being ripped in half by yellowed fangs, blood spraying all over his face, and ear piercing laughter. He shivered, he didn't want to think about it anymore. Since he wasn't able to fall back asleep he only got three hours of sleep, which sucked but he could deal with it. He's had worse. Even though the nightmare wasn't pleasant, it wasn't the cause of his bad day. It was the shaking feeling in his limbs. He could tell that this meant it was going to be a very bad anxiety day. Or what Izuku referred to as 'bad brain days'.

Normally when he had these days he would call the school and lie about having to take care of his mother. He would spend the day in bed under the covers, too afraid to leave his room. His middle school not wanting to interfere with his family affairs always let it slide and never asked to talk to his mom. Izuku really wanted to skip, but he knew he couldn't. Today was going to be their first Foundational Hero Studies class, and he would not miss it.

He. Would. Not. Miss. It.

So for the rest of the night he tried to distract himself from his increasingly anxious thoughts by watching videos of heroes and then analysing them. It helped until it didn't. His mind kept drifting back to the class he would attend that day, taught by All Might. Wait… was that what was making him so anxious? The class? It would make sense. Izuku shook his head, he was being irrational.

When his alarm went off signalling it was time to get ready, that's when the anxiety really hit. He dropped his pen and sprinted to the bathroom, fell to his knees, and leaned over the toilet. He vomited. This was not good, he was quickly spiralling out of control. He took a deep shuddering breath, trying to calm his breathing and control his nausea. He reached out for Mr. Gooey only to find empty air.

Where was he?

Izuku's breath hitched, he left the blob in his room.

Oh no, oh no, oh no, Ohnononononononono he was alonealonealonealone

"Gooey?!" He choked out, he needed him he should have never left without him. He gagged again and brought his face to the toilet bowl. Izuku blindly groped the floor for the blob that wasn't there as he vomited for the second time.

He needed him, he needed him, neededhimneededhim he was alonealonealone.

He couldn't breathe. His chest felt like a pile of rocks was placed on it and panic was quickly clouding his mind.

Mr. Gooey left you. You're all alone like you deserve. Stupid worthless murderer. Stup-

"SHUT UP!" He screamed out. Tears were flowing down his face and he gripped his hair tightly out of desperation and pulled, hard. He didn't feel the pain it wasn't enough so he pulled even harder. He let out a sob it wasn't working, nothing was working. He was going to have a panic attack. Alone.

Oh god oh god alonealonealonealone. I'm dying, please help I'm dying pleasepleaseplease.

Izuku banged his head against the wall in frustration and let out a wail. His breaths were coming out in short pants and his lungs burned. He brought a shaking hand up to his arm and scratched, hard and deep. Small droplets of blood gathered on the surface but it wasn't enough to drip down his arm. He banged his head against the wall again and let out another choked sob.

I can't breathe please help, help. Someone please. Helphelphelphelp. I can't breathe.

For a third time he brought his head to the toilet bowl and gagged, nothing came out this time. "Gooey, please I'm s-s-s-s-sorry." He wailed again resting his cheek on the toilet bowl. In a small voice, he cried out "Please d-d-don't leave me." He cried harder, it was causing his head to hurt.

So stupid. So worthless. So pathetic. Kill yourself. Put a gun to your head and pull the trigger. Drown yourself. Jump off a building. Jump off a cliff. Run in front of a car. Jump in front of a train. DO it DO it DO IT DOITDOITDOIT.

"Gooey," his voice cracked out "Gooey please! It's s-s-so mean, s-so m-mean, p-please come back." He started to crawl out towards the hallway. His arms were shaking as he pulled himself across the floor, he felt so weak. More violent cries erupted from his chest, his eyes burned from all the tears. "P-please c-come back, d-don't leave me alone. It's s-s-o m-mean Gooey p-p-please!" He crawled further he was almost at his rooms' entrance. "I'm s-s-sorry p-please, I'M SORRY!" he wailed harder. He was halfway in the room and searched around desperately for Mr. Gooey. He couldn't find him.

No no no no no no no nononoNONONONONONONONO!

Where was he? He's not here, oh god he's not here. Wait! NO! THERE! Under the bed he saw the slime slowly crawling around, he instantly commanded the blob to his open hand. It crawled into his palm and then he brought the blob close to his chest. He wrapped it in a hug and whispered out more tear-filled apologies through his cries. "I'm sorry I left you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I won't do it again, please never leave me again. I'm sorry, I'm sorry." He rocked himself and the blob back and forth slowly until he got his breathing under control. His attack slowly subsided.

Izuku sprawled himself on the floor and took in greedy gulps of air. Now that he had Mr. Gooey back he could breathe. He lay there for a few minutes and allowed himself to catch his breath. Well, that was not a good start to the day. He hadn't had an attack like that in a few months. Usually, he would hold Mr. Gooey close to him until it subsided, but not having him there made the panic so much worse. He glanced at the time there were only 10 minutes left until he had to go.

Great.

Izuku dragged himself into a standing position and almost fell over. His legs felt like jelly and god, he was so tired. He just wanted to sleep, sleep until he could forget all of his problems.

You could sleep forever, you know what to do.

"Shut up." He said violently to himself. Today really was a bad day. He hesitated, maybe he really should stay home. Izuku debated in his head until he shook his head no. He would go, he had to. Izuku glanced at the cut that was on his arm and decided it wasn't bad enough for a bandage, it looked like a very long paper cut. It would be fine.

Somehow he managed to drag his uniform on, all that was left was the forsaken tie. He glared daggers at the offending cloth. He didn't have the time, nor was he in the mood to attempt to tie it. So he packed it into his school bag, maybe he could get Iida to help him again. He skipped breakfast and started his walk to the train station, he didn't have time to eat it. Being late was worse than missing breakfast in Izuku's book. He could hear Mr. Gooey's imaginary scolding.

"I'm sorry, I know it's not a good idea, but I just don't have time." He muttered quietly to the blob. He was silent for a bit before he added "Thank you for worrying about me." He was met with silence. Tears clouded Izuku's vision, he quickly blinked them away.

Izuku felt numb. This was something that usually happened after he experienced a panic attack. The tingling sensation would start in his face and then gradually work its way down to the rest of his body. He now felt like was floating, far, far away. He watched as the train quickly approached the station, thoughts from earlier invaded his mind.

Jump in front of the train. Jump! Jump! Do it, do it, do it doitdoitdoitdoit!

He brought himself right to the edge of the yellow safety line and watched the train get closer.

FUCKING JUMP YOU COWARD!

He didn't. He felt the slight breeze on his face as the train whooshed by, it felt refreshing. He got on the train and grabbed hold of the hanging hand grips. He hoped he was holding on tight enough, he really couldn't tell his limbs felt like limp noodles.

*Beep*

Izuku blinked, this was his stop.

What?

He hesitantly got off the train and glanced around the station. This was definitely his stop. That was a fifteen-minute train ride and he didn't remember any of it. His breathing slightly hitched, that was really… freaky. He has suffered memory blanks like this in the past, but never for that long. The longest had been five minutes. He gave Mr. Gooey a small nervous pat, he really didn't like that.

It's fine. Just keep going.

Izuku brought his numb body to U.A.'s front gates. He took a big inhale and gathered his remaining courage. He flinched slightly from laughter that he heard coming from across the field.

Get a god damn grip Izuku. Pathetic.

He was making his way towards the 1-A classroom when much to his relief he bumped into Iida. The boy had opened his mouth but Izuku stopped him before he could even start. He pulled out the red tie and held it out towards Iida. Izuku was too embarrassed to look him in the eyes so he just stared at the floor. The taller boy silently took the fabric and carefully tied it around his neck.

"Th-th-thank you…" He quietly muttered, he still couldn't look Iida in the eyes.

"Is everything alright?" Iida asked hesitantly like he wasn't sure if it was his place to ask.

Izuku nodded in return, he was afraid if he answered out loud Iida would be able to tell he was lying. He was not a very good liar. They silently walked the rest of the way to the classroom together, Izuku still couldn't take his eyes off the floor. When he entered the classroom he gave a silent wave towards Uraraka, she smiled cheerfully at the wave, but her smile faltered when she looked at Izuku's face. He supposes she could tell he was having an off day. He carefully looked around and saw a few concerned glances aimed in his direction from his classmates. He must look more terrible then he originally thought.

He was making his way towards his desk when his foot decided to get caught on a desk leg. He stumbled but caught himself before he fell. Unfortunately for him, when he tripped the desk made a loud screeching noise which brought everyone's attention towards him. He felt his face heat up, he started to give out a nervous smile to show that he was fine when he heard it.

It was quiet and slightly muffled but he definitely heard it. "Fucking Deku." Was muttered from the blonde a few desks behind him. Izuku felt like someone had dumped ice water over his head. Instantly snide comments and cruel snickering played in his head.

Fucking Deku. So weak. So pathetic. So worthless. Whoever would want to love you? Kill your-

"Midoriya? Midoriya, are you alright?" He was snapped out of his thoughts by a concerned voice. He was surprised to find that it was Todoroki asking if he was alright. He must have looked really freaked out if Todoroki was the one asking if he was okay. He gave a small nod and let out a tiny sounding squeak that was supposed to be an "I'm fine" but he just couldn't get the words to form. He heard another snicker from Kacchan. He flinched. Uraraka seemed to notice and gave a sharp glare towards Bakugo. He sat down and noticed more concerned glances that were shot his way, but their eyes quickly averted when Aizawa walked into the room.

Izuku was trying really hard to listen to the man's lecture, but he just couldn't focus. His mind felt like it was floating away. The tingling numbness was becoming more and more distinct in his face, he was slightly afraid he wouldn't ever get the feeling back. Which he knew was silly, the numbness would go away.

But what if it didn't? What if you stay numb forever and ever? What if? What if? What if?

"Midoriya." Izuku's attention snapped to the front. "Please pay attention." Aizawa said sternly.

Izuku took a shaky inhale and nodded his head. Tears were brought to his eyes, he hastily tried to blink them away. Mr. Aizawa appeared to have noticed since his face showed brief concern before it quickly morphed back into a bored stare. Well, that's just great. Now his teacher is concerned about him. He really didn't want all this attention. He rather just disappear until this awful day was over.

You can disappear forever. You know how.

'Shut up.' He thought harshly. He brought Mr. Gooey into his hands and held him at his desk, squishing it and petting it. It helped distract him. He spent the rest of the class anxiously fidgeting with Gooey, he felt more and more nervous as it got closer to the end of homeroom. His next class would be with All Might.

When he heard the bell ring signalling that class was over, Izuku was sure he was going to vomit then and there. He shakily stood up and forced his limbs to move, he felt like he was going to fall over any second. He started to walk with Iida and Uraraka when he heard Mr. Aizawa call after him.

"Midoriya can you please stay here for a minute."

Izuku's whole body stiffened at his teacher's words. Why did he want him to stay? Was he in trouble for not listening to the lecture? Was he going to expel him? He turned his head towards Iida and Uraraka, they were asking with their eyes if he wanted them to wait outside. He shook his head no, he didn't want them around in case he started crying. Izuku turned towards Aizawa and waited for what the man had to say.

He's going to expel you. He finally realized how worthless you are. You don't deserve to be a hero, murderers can't be heroes.

Izuku's eyes started to water again at his thoughts. He discretely wiped away the tears.

"Midoriya," Aizawa started then paused, he seemed to be contemplating something. "Is everything alright?"

Izuku was caught off guard at his question. Was everything alright? No. Everything definitely was not alright, but he wasn't going to tell Aizawa that. He jerkily shook his head yes, the movement felt unnatural. Izuku would have used his words but his tongue felt too big for his mouth, so Aizawa would just have to deal with his silent answers. The man stared at him for a bit before he spoke again.

"You know, you can come to me if you ever need help. As your teacher, I will listen and do my best to help." Aizawa's sounded like he was indifferent, but Izuku could hear the concern that was in the man's voice.

His eyes started to water again. He wanted to tell him, but what was he supposed to say? 'No sir, I think I'm dying inside. I have terrible nightmares almost every night so I'm always tired. I had an awful panic attack this morning because I left my only family in my room, which just happens to be a blob because I murdered my mother. I also just suffered a huge memory blank that had me extremely concerned. My anxiety makes me want to hide forever, and my thoughts won't stop telling me to kill myself. Now please fix my problems?' Izuku was pretty sure that would not go very well at all. So instead he made eye contact with his teacher and forced his mouth to form words.

"Thank y-you for your c-concern Mr. Aizawa, b-b-but I'm fine. I j-just didn't sleep w-w-well is all." Izuku knew he didn't sound convincing, but thankfully the man dropped the subject.

"If you're sure." He let out a sigh. "Go catch up with your class."

Izuku nodded and dashed down the hall. He was lucky he and Uraraka had wandered around U.A. trying to locate all their classrooms, otherwise, he would be completely lost. He ran outside and just caught the tail-end of All Might's intro to his class. The large man noticed his arrival and flashed him a large grin.

"Midoriya my boy, I'm glad you could make it!" All Might exclaimed cheerfully.

The man sounded sincere but it didn't stop Izuku's face from heating up since his absence was pointed out to everyone. All Might explained that they were going to be doing a battle simulation. Izuku's heart started to flutter. A battle simulation? That's so cool! He would get to see his classmate's quirks in action. But his smile quickly diminished when he realized he would also have to participate in the simulation.

What if you mess up?

He let out a quiet sigh. He trained for a reason, it would be fine. He tried to argue with himself.

But what if it isn't fine? What if you just make a fool of yourself? What if? What if?

"Shut up." He quietly muttered to himself. He felt a gentle poke in his side.

"Is everything alright?" He heard Uraraka whisper in his ear. He nodded a yes towards her. He didn't need her to worry about him, he wasn't worth it. All Might had announced that they were to change into their hero costumes. Izuku's heart pulsed with excitement, he gets to wear his hero costume, so cool!

They were in the change rooms when Izuku pulled out his costume. He felt his eyes light up, it was exactly how he imagined it. He was bouncing slightly in excitement when he noticed Iida was smiling fondly at him. He stopped his bouncing, whoops he got carried away.

He held up his costume and examined it. It was fairly simple. Izuku had trained himself up for speed, so he made sure to get something that was lightweight. The two main parts were simple pants and a long shirt. The fabric was black and was made from a tough, but flexible material. It had light padding. Izuku's main defence was his blob armour, but in case his quirk ever got erased he made sure there would be at least some slight protection. The material was also insulated, the blobs were cold and having them surround his body always brought down his body temperature. The insulated fabric should solve that issue.

He slipped on the two main pieces of his outfit and bent his legs and arms around, to test the flexibility and weight of it. He was satisfied to find that it felt like he was wearing nothing at all. Next, there were his boots. They were plain dark red boots that went well with his black pants. They had a thick outsole, which increased his height some, but the main reason for it was so there would be enough shoe to have a hole dug in the outsoles. The bottoms had one hole cut out for each boot, this created a compartment that he could store a blob in. The reason why he wanted to add this was so he could make his feet sticky when necessary without it becoming a balancing act.

Next, Izuku picked up two wrist bracers. They were light and there was a large pocket on each bracer. In these pockets, he would store his cottons. This way he would have them readily available when needed. Finally, he had a black face mask that covered the bottom half of his face, and dark red eye protection goggles that matched his boots. He couldn't keep the blobs on his face since then he would be suffocating himself. The mask and goggles would hopefully make up for it.

His costume wasn't too flashy, which was the way he wanted it. He always thought of himself as more like a stealthy hero that sticks to the shadows, rather than one who fights in broad daylight.

Like Eraserhead.

Izuku's face went red again, not that you could tell through the mask.

"Whoa dude," He heard Kirishima start. "Your costume looks so manly." He flashed him a grin that showed off his shark-like teeth.

"O-oh, thank y-you!" He responded sincerely. He glanced down at himself, he still didn't think he was that manly. Izuku glanced over at Kirishima's costume and smiled, now that was manly.

"I r-really l-like yours t-too. It's err s-super m-manly!" He said with a small shy smile. His compliment made the red-haired boy light up with excitement.

"Thanks!" He said happily. Kirishima casually draped his arm over Izuku's shoulders, he flinched slightly from the contact but let his arm stay. He let out another toothy grin at Izuku's sudden friendliness. They walked out of the change rooms likes that. The contact had initially scared Izuku but the fear dissipated at the companionship he felt. It felt safe and kind. Not mean like flying fists and explosive burns.

Not mean like Kacchan.

He briefly wondered if this is what friendship was supposed to feel like. Kind and safe.

Careful don't get to close. You know what happens if you get to close.

Izuku liked these feelings, so he would keep them (he wasn't sure if he could call them friends yet) safe. Keep them safe from him. He broke the contact with Kirishima with a regrettable look, he didn't really want him to go. The boy sent him a patient and understanding look. It made Izuku's heart melt with warmth and joy, but also guilt.

Once everyone gathered by All Might he exclaimed how cool they all looked. Izuku glanced around, the man was right they all looked amazing in his opinion. All Might then began to randomize the teams for the simulation. The first team to go up was Mina and Sero playing as the heroes, and Jiro and Aoyama playing as the villains. Izuku took this opportunity to start gathering blobs that were around him.

There wasn't many in the monitoring room, only enough to cover his legs and waist, he hoped there would be enough outside. He grabbed two blobs from his waist and placed one each in the empty slot in his shoes. He tested them out by walking around, it felt normal he didn't even notice the blobs. Then he told the blobs to stick and walked around again, it felt like walking with suction cups on his feet. This was perfect he was glad his idea worked.

He opened the pockets on his bracers and commanded the few cottons that were flitting around to go inside them. Once they were in he closed the Velcro flap.

The battle simulation ended, the heroes won. He felt bad for the losing team, and his heart panged at their disappointed looks. He noticed a few cottons flew over Jiro, but oddly enough not Aoyama. The flamboyant boy must have not felt that bad about the loss, but Jiro certainly did. Izuku walked over to the girl and gave her a light consoling pat. "I th-think you s-still did pretty w-well e-even if y-you l-lost. Y-you have a c-c-cool quirk." He said shyly while mentally telling the cottons to go elsewhere.

The girl let out a small huff "Ya, I guess. I still feel like I could have done better though. Thanks anyways."

Izuku nodded slightly, he wasn't sure what else he was supposed to say. He didn't really know her that well and was beginning to quickly feel awkward. Jiro seemed to sense this because she gave a small wave and left to go talk with Yaoyorozu and Kaminari.

The next team was Shoji and Todoroki as the heroes against Ojiro and Hagakure as the villains. Izuku gave Todoroki a small wave of good luck, the boy gave a small nod in return. All Might seemed to take this battle as an opportunity to talk with Izuku. He placed a hand on his shoulder and spoke.

"I'm glad to see you made it into U.A. my boy. The way you performed during the exam was most impressive, you caught all of our eyes."

Izuku was stunned at the praise All Might just gave him. He hasn't been praised in, well, years. Since his mom.

She's dead, you killed her. Murderer. She's dead dead deaddeaddead.

He silently shushed himself. "W-wow t-thank y-you A-All Might, sir. S-sir All Might? Mr. All M-Might?" he stumbled over exactly what he was supposed to call him.

All Might lightly pat Izuku's back, he was laughing some. "All Might is just fine. Don't fret so much my boy, otherwise, you'll worry yourself to death." He said sounding very amused.

'You have no idea.' Izuku thought bitterly. He considered himself an avid worrier.

Izuku decided that his turn came to fast. He was partnered up with Tokoyami as the role of the heroes, they were against Kirishima and Asui as the villains. They were waiting outside the building for the villains to set up. Izuku took the time to gather the rest of his blob armour and some extras to follow him around for different uses. There was thankfully a lot more blobs outside. He placed Mr. Gooey in its rightful place, over his heart. He was now covered head to toe in blobs, excluding his face of course. He turned towards Tokoyami and asked, "Can y-you explain t-to me w-what exactly i-is your quirk?"

Tokoyami nodded. "I'm the host of a creature that I refer to as Dark Shadow. I can materialize it from my body and have it do my bidding. It grows stronger in the darkness."

Izuku nodded at the information. "M-my q-quirk is s-slightly s-similar in the s-sense that I can c-control c-creatures t-too. Y-you j-just can't see them. I t-think I c-can t-take K-Kirishima head o-on, I'm j-just not s-so s-sure about Tsu."

"I feel as if it would be better for us to sneak up and take them by surprise." Izuku nodded in agreement.

He heard the noise that signalled the hero team to start. Izuku instantly felt like he was going to vomit. 'Okay, this was happening now. Just don't vomit.' He thought desperately.

What if you mess up? What if you fail? Tokoyami will be disappointed in you. All Might will be disappointed in you.

Izuku brought his hands up and sharply slapped his cheeks on both sides. Tokoyami stared at him albeit perturbed. "O-okay, let's go." He said, sounding slightly confident.

They silently entered the building and glanced around, the bomb was supposed to be a few floors above them. Izuku was certain that Tsu was going to try and sneak up on them, while Kirishima guarded the bomb. It would make sense that they would use his brute force from his hardening quirk to keep them away.

It was too bright, so Izuku commanded a few blobs to eat at the wires of the ceiling lights. They quickly went out shrouding them in darkness leaving just enough light for them to see each other. He heard Tokoyami mutter something along the lines of "much better." They silently walked down the hall, their bodies close to the wall. Tokoyami sent his Dark Shadow to check around the corners of the staircase for any signs of Tsu or Kirishima. Dark Shadow came slithering back flashing a thumbs up, indicating that it was safe to go up the stairs.

They had just entered the second floor when they heard a noise. Izuku signalled for his partner to hide behind the nearby corner while he made his blobs break the lights again. The noise was getting louder it was definitely footsteps. He brought his blob covered hands up to the wall and told them to stick. He hoisted himself up until he could place his feet flat on the wall and told those blobs to stick too. He crawled up the wall and then onto the ceiling, he crouched low flattening is body. He was now effectively hidden from view which gave him the advantage to jump down onto his target.

It was Tsu, like Izuku thought. She was trying to locate them before they could get to the bomb. She appeared to be frustrated that her webbed feet were making a slapping sound on the floor. It wasn't exactly great for sneaking purposes and Izuku was sure that Tsu now realized her mistake. Izuku silently told his blobs to gather on her legs. 'Sorry, Tsu.' He distantly thought. She was almost under Izuku, he held his breath in hopes to make himself quieter. Tsu paused for a second and glanced around, she probably could feel Izuku's eyes staring down on her like a sixth sense.

Izuku tensed his muscles in preparation for his attack, it would be any minute now that Tsu would notice him. He was sure of it.

Don't mess up, don't mess up, don't mess up...

The frog girl had just started to tilt her head up when Izuku jumped down on her. She let out a surprised "Ribbit!' and she started to pivot her body to defend herself. Unlucky for her, Izuku's blobs caused her to trip and fall onto her back. He pinned her down and shouted, "Tokoyami, now!" Dark Shadow slithered over towards Tsu and effectively placed the capturing band on her.

Tsu let out a disappointed "Ribbit, you got me." Izuku let out a triumphant smile towards Tokoyami. They worked well together.

"S-sorry Tsu, m-maybe next t-t-time." He said a little sad for her loss while running towards the next set of stairs. Tokoyami was silently following behind him. They continued up the many flights of stairs using the same strategy as before. Dark Shadow kept informing them that Kirishima was nowhere to be found. Izuku was positive he was guarding the room that the bomb was in.

They reached the floor that the bomb was supposedly in, the room that contained it would just be around the corner. Izuku glanced towards Tokoyami.

"O-ok, l-like I said e-earlier, m-my quirk is b-best suited for K-Kirishima. So I'll f-fight him w-while you g-get the b-bomb." He whispered. Tokoyami nodded his head in response. Izuku held up 3 fingers and silently counted down to the time they would strike. When he reached zero they did not hesitate to charge forward.

When they entered the room, Izuku spotted Kirishima in front of the bomb, guarding it like he thought he would be. The shark-toothed boy's eyes widened when he spotted both of them rushing forward, he instantly activated his hardening quirk. The boy decided to rush Izuku, he smiled at Kirishima's mistake. Izuku probably looked fairly unguarded and weak to others, which was something he counted on. This way he could take the enemy by surprise at his blob armour's damage absorption.

He watched Kirishima's rocky fist fly towards his gut. He didn't even move out of the way. The boy's fist landed directly, Kirishima glanced up at Izuku expecting him to be in pain, or even fall over. But his eyes widened in surprise when Izuku just stood there unmoving like he didn't even feel a thing. Izuku inwardly smirked, he knew he shouldn't feel smug, but Kirishima's look of surprised confusion was amusing him.

Kirishima seemed to remember that Izuku wasn't the only enemy at the moment and whipped around towards Tokoyami. But it was too late. The boy was about to tap the bomb, he started to dash over towards him but was tripped by Izuku. He fell over and then All Might's voice rang out.

"HEROES WIN!" the large man yelled out joyfully.

Izuku ran up to Tokoyami and joyfully exclaimed "W-we d-did it!" The bird boy nodded his head towards him.

"Indeed, we were successful. I enjoyed our partnership for this assignment and I look forward to your future co-operation."

Izuku pulled down his mask and smiled at him. The boy eye-smiled at him in return. Izuku walked back over towards Kirishima and nervously held a hand out for him to grab. "S-sorry about t-tripping you." The boy accepted the open hand and pulled himself up, once he was standing he grabbed both of Izuku's shoulders and exclaimed.

"You guys were so manly!"

Izuku felt relief flood his system. "I-I'm g-glad you're n-not mad."

"Dude! Of course not, I wouldn't get mad over something like this." He said with mock offence. Kirishima wrapped his arm around Izuku's shoulders again like earlier. Izuku didn't make him leave this time.

When they returned to the observation room they were bombarded by their classmates.

"Wow! You guys were so cool!" Uraraka had called out while skipping over towards Izuku and Kirishima. She smiled gently when she notices that Kirishima had his arm around the smaller boy and Izuku wasn't shoving him off.

"T-thanks Uraraka." Izuku said sincerely.

"That was quite impressive you two." The loud voice came from behind them, they turned around to find that it was All Might. Izuku felt like he was glowing from the praise. It warmed his insides and left a strange giddy feeling he hadn't felt in years.

"Th-thanks A-All Might." Izuku said, nervously tapping his two index fingers together. The man beamed down at him, he then turned to the rest of the class and they went to analyze their scenario.

He was in English class when bad thoughts started to invade his head again.

You don't deserve to be here. The simulation was a fluke. You only get in the way. Why don't you just give up? Give up, give up, give up giveupgiveup. Kill yourself.

Tears sprung to his eyes, he didn't want to give up. Present Mic seemed to sense Izuku's distress because the tall hero walked over to his desk and asked,

"Everything alright there little listener?" Izuku jerkily nodded his head yes. He felt like he was going to vomit again, but he was pretty sure he would be ok. The bell rang informing everyone that class was over, Izuku stood up and instantly regretted it. The world felt like it was tilting. Izuku harshly grabbed his desk to keep himself upright and slapped his other hand over his mouth. Dizziness and nausea were overwhelming him, he felt like he was going to topple over and hurl at the same time.

"You alright there, dude? You're looking a little pale." Izuku turned his head towards Kaminari who asked the question. Izuku opened his mouth to answer when everything went black. He was distantly aware that he was caught by Iida who let out a distressed "Midoriya?!" then he was dead to the world.

When Izuku awoke on one of the school infirmary beds the first thing he heard was a gruff, irritated voice.

"You are becoming a problem child." Aizawa chastised.

Izuku flinched back from the statement. "W-what h-happened?" Aizawa let out another annoyed sigh.

"You fainted." It was blunt. Izuku felt his heart thunder in his chest. He fainted? Oh no, everyone was probably worried about him, he didn't like making people worry.

"Kid, when was the last time you ate?" Aizawa asked sternly. Izuku pondered on the question for a bit, he didn't eat breakfast since he was too nauseous. It was the same for lunch, Uraraka had tried to force half her lunch on him but he adamantly denied the food. He didn't think he would have been able to stomach it.

"U-uhm, l-last night for d-dinner I h-had a s-sandwich." Aizawa stared at him for a moment before he replied.

"That's not nearly enough food. Especially for a hero in training." The man shuffled around in a bag that he had with him and pulled out a juice box and an apple. "Drink and eat these. If you're still hungry after I'll grab you some more food."

Izuku brought the straw of the juice box to his mouth and took a sip. He instantly felt like he was going to puke, he swallowed back a gag. "I-I'm s-sorry Mr. Aizawa. I d-don't th-think I can e-eat these."

"Why? Is something wrong with them?" The man asked curiously.

"N-no it's m-me. I-I'm too nauseous to e-eat. It's w-why I h-haven't eaten t-today." He admitted. Aizawa hummed at him.

"So you're sick?" The man let out another huff. "You shouldn't come to class if you're si-"

Izuku interrupted him. "N-no I'm n-not sick. I'm j-just h-having a really b-bad d-d-day. It h-happens sometimes."

The man hummed again. "And why was it bad?" he questioned.

"I-I-I-" Izuku started but then stopped himself.

"It might help to talk about it. I'll listen." He said as a prompt towards Izuku.

Just like that Izuku broke down. Big fat ugly tears started running down his face, he let out an ugly sob. "I-I thought I l-lost Mr. Gooey. I was s-so scared th-that he l-left me a-all alone. I w-was s-s-so s-scared." More tears ran down his face.

Aizawa looked slightly surprised at the spontaneous tears. "Who is Mr. Gooey?"

Izuku peeled the blob off his chest and held him up towards his teacher. The man examined the small worn out smiley faced paper that appeared to be floating. "Y-you can't s-see him. He's a b-blob, a p-part of my q-quirk. H-he's m-my o-only fami-" Izuku stopped himself, but he could tell Aizawa caught it. "My o-only f-friend." He corrected himself.

"Why is he your only family?" The man questioned, he sounded concerned.

Izuku swallowed hard.

You messed up. What are you going to do? He's going to find out what a disgrace you are. Pathetic.

"M-my mom is v-very ill. The d-doctor's don't kn-know what's wrong w-with her. She s-spends a lot of h-her time sleeping, trying to r-r-recover." Aizawa nodded at him to continue. "My dad w-works o-over s-sea's s-so I never see h-him. Mr. Gooey h-has k-kept my c-company s-since I was a little k-kid. A-and and a-and-" his voice broke again "I th-thought I lost h-him. I thought he w-was gone forever."

It was a half-truth and Izuku left out most of the details that were really bothering him. But talking about the small portion of his problems did make him feel a little better. He was slightly worried Aizawa was going to call him out on his blatant lie, he said Gooey was his only family and then spouted about his mom and dad. Making the lie even more obvious. Izuku inwardly sighed, he was not a good liar.

Aizawa let out another long sigh. "I can understand why that's upsetting, but you found him so try to take comfort in that." He placed a hand on his shoulder and awkwardly pat Izuku's head with his other hand. "It's going to be okay kid." Aizawa was obviously not very good a comforting people, but the fact that he was trying made Izuku feel warm and fuzzy inside.

"Th-thank y-you" He was glad that the man bought the lie.

"You can spend the rest of the day here if you need to. You can attend the rest of your classes if you want, but only until you eat something. Just in case you decide to leave regardless, I'll be staying here with you. I don't have any more classes to attend."

"I th-think I j-just want to sl-sleep. I'm r-really t-t-tired" He hesitantly said. Aizawa nodded at him with a strange form of respect, Aizawa thoroughly enjoyed sleeping.

"Alright." Was all he said before he zipped himself up in his yellow sleeping bag, fully with the intention to also sleep.

Izuku shifted onto his side and pulled the infirmary blanket up to his neck and curled into a ball. He shut his eyes and drifted asleep much easier then he usually does. He suspected it was because Aizawa was there. It was comforting to know that someone was there in case he needed him. It chased away the nightmares and for the first time in a long time, Izuku had dreamt a happy dream.