A/n: So before you read Bayley sings a song in this chapter that is really called, "if I could tell her" from the musical Dear Evan Hansen so I would suggest listening to the song cause it's actually really good and I think it sums up her feels perfectly. Anyway...enjoy.
Chapter 20
Bayley sat at the kitchen island eating cereal as she enjoyed the peace of the quiet morning. She was still in her pajama pants and a tank top as she didn't have to be to school at the same time as her older sisters who were all in high school now while she was in her last year of middle school. It was only 6:10 when Becky came downstairs dressed in a grey t-shirt with a blue jean jacket over and a pair of jeans on, her hair was wet and hung in her face, covering her sleepy looking eyes.
"Morning" Bayley said as Becky grabbed a bowl from the cabinet and poured herself some cereal before she went and grabbed three bottles of water and a banana
"Hey"
"You look tired" Bayley said looking into her older sister's eyes only to get a small laugh
"Ha! You should see Charlotte and Sasha" Bayley looked confused at this but before she could say anything Sasha came downstairs with a pair of shades over her eyes, wearing a beanie over her long black hair and and black crop top with a pair of jeans, "Told ya"
"What happened to you?" Bayley asked to which Sasha ignored and just groaned walking to the fridge and grabbing a cold slice of pizza before she sat down at the island on the opposite side of Becky and laid her head on the ground.
"Let's just say she has a headache" Becky said, pushing Sasha's head up slightly and taking the pizza, switching it for the banana and bottle of water, "Ya shouldn't eat greasy foods right now"
Sasha groaned in annoyance before giving a small thank you while Bayley continued to watch the exchange confused. The last she knew Becky and Sasha were having a "disagreement" and the two hadn't been as close as before.
Charlotte came into the kitchen next, running her hands down her face as she shrugged on her black leather jacket over her white shirt and leaned on the opposite side of the island, "God I feel awful"
"You think you feel awful? My head is killing me" Sasha whined, as she slowly ate her banana while Becky reached over to Charlotte and handed her one of the other bottles of water, "Remind me never to go to another Seth party again"
"I tell ya that every time" Becky said rolling her eyes
"You guys went to a party?" Bayley asked, perking up in her seat a little at the new information, her sister never told her anything, but them going to a party would explain all of their weird behaviors.
"Keep it down would you….do you want the whole neighborhood to hear?" Sasha groaned, "Let alone mom and dad"
"Sorry" Bayley said but Becky patted her on the shoulder and smiled
"Don't worry about her..she's havin' a hangover and she's gonna be in a funk all day" Sasha grumbled at this before turning her head the opposite way of her sister, "Thats why you shouldn't drink on a school night...or do drugs"
"It was a one time thing" Charlotte said rolling her eyes before she downed the whole bottle of water in a few seconds
Bayley's eyes widened once more at this new information, she couldn't believe that her sisters had been out partying and drinking, and even Charlotte had done drugs. If their parents found out she was sure that they would kill them right where they stood, "You guys are gonna be in so much trouble"
"Not if you don't tell ya little brat" Sasha said angrily, shooting her head up a little too quickly causing her to groan and place it back on the table
"Yeah, what are you doing up this early anyway, your school doesn't start for another hour?" Charlotte said
"Carmella's up right now because of her brother so I was gonna call her once everyone left the house since she doesn't like to be in the house all alone while her parents take Enzo to school" Bayley said with a small smile as a blush creeped onto her face
"Aw, that's sweet Bay" Becky said causing Bayley's blush to redden
"Alright the car is rolling out in five minutes, so i want all three of you in the car by the time I get my morning coffee" Stephanie said with her head down looking at the phone as she and Hunter entered the kitchen, grabbing some fruit and starting the coffee pot.
"Bayley we gotta head into work early..are you okay walking to the bus stop by yourself?"
"Yeah sure" Bayley said smiling even more that she was getting to ride the bus because that meant she would get an extra ten minutes unlike riding with her parents who would drop her off at school early to get to work.
"Coffee's done...let's go kids" Stephanie said pouring her and Hunter a cup into their respective mugs before heading to the door, grabbing her keys on the way with Charlotte and Sasha trudging behind
"See ya later Bayley, don't forget today's monday so we can watch the Voice when ya get home" Becky said before hopping down from the kitchen island and heading out.
Bayley smiled, she loved Becky most out of her siblings a lot of the times, she was always so funny and down to earth. She never left Bayley out and the two of them even watched singing and dancing shows together on Monday's while Charlotte or her parents were always too busy and Sasha didn't care. As the door closed and the car pulled off Bayley got up and washed out her bowl before heading upstairs to her room. The room was pretty small, just a teen bed in the corner with posters of some bands on the red walls and clothes on the floor. There was a guitar that leaned against the dresser which made Bayley smile every time she looked at it, it was a gift from her parents for her tenth birthday and she had gotten really good at playing it with Hunter teaching her. She would spend most of her time alone playing and coming up with different songs and tunes until she would eventually call Carmella on the phone she had to beg her mother for. Which didn't work so she then had to beg Hunter who was a softy and immediately agreed, much to Stephanie's disapproval.
She flipped open the small phone and began to dial the house phone of her best friend. While she was waiting for her to pick up she hummed along to a tune that came to her head before grabbed a pen and scribbling the notes onto her hand after not finding her notepad.
"Bayley!"
"Hey Carmella"
"Thank God you called, I needed someone to talk to" Carmella said causing Bayley to give a knowing smile, "And who better to talk to then my best friend?"
Bayley's smiled at the words best friend but thought nothing extra of it, "No one I guess"
"So...are you ready for our last year of middle school?"
"Yeah, cause apparently high school is a life full of partying and alcohol" Bayley said thinking back on what her sisters were talking about earlier.
"Oh do tell more"
"Well...my sisters went out and did a bunch of wild stuff at some party last night...which would explain the cop cars I heard last night"
"Oh yeah..I think my brother went to that too, he smelled awful this morning and he came downstairs wearing shades, our mom yelled at him so loud he literally fell out his chair" Carmella said with a laugh that made Bayley's heart skip a few beats as the blush she had experienced a few minutes ago rushed back to her face with a vengeance.
"Yeah..m-my mom didn't even notice Sasha's shades, but I'm sure she will in the car" Bayley laid back on her bed humming to the same tune that kept replaying in her head
"What are you humming, I like it" Carmella asked causing Bayley to think and looked around her room spotting her guitar
"It's nothing.. I've just been working on a new song...I-I haven't really figured out all the lyrics but I really like it"
"Aww that is so cool...like if someone sang me a song or like proposed through song that would be so romantic" Carmella said gushing over the phone causing Bayley to choke in shock and sit up quickly on her bed, "Bay...are you alright?"
Bayley set the phone down and walked away choking as her heart pounded loudly and caused her chest to tighten. After a minute once Bayley got herself together she picked up the phone again and took a big gasp of air while Carmella laughed, once again asking if she was okay.
"Yeah...yeah I'm fine...just choked on..on some water"
"Well..if you're done choking...I was saying how romantic that singing stuff is….you're super lucky you can play. What if you find a guy who can play too and you guys can sit together under the stars playing some love song together...awwww that would be the cutest thing" Carmella squealed but Bayley just frowned thinking, Yeah me and some guy...not likely...me and you….only in my dreams.
"Yeah..maybe"
"You'll have to sing me something the next time I'm over"
"Yeah I guess..i was learning the strings to some of those Coldplay songs and I-"
"No I want to hear one of your Bayley originals"
"Maybe...maybe once I'm done"
"Maybe you could write one for me" Bayley blushed, "You know and then I could play it for Big Cass...our you could play it and i'll ask him on a date"
"What?"
"Yeah I know he's older and the whole asking a guy thing is a little awkward but I really like him...he so sweet and funny. He reminds me of you sometimes...he's nothing like my brother, I don't even know why they're friends sometimes." Carmella ranted while Bayley frowned and laid back down on her bed covering her eyes with her arm as frustration filled her body. She hated Big Cass, he was stealing the love of her life without even knowing it. Apparently in Carmella's eyes everything he did was perfect and Bayley got it, Carmella was straight, she would never like someone….someone like her. That didn't stop Bayley from falling in love with the blond beauty every time she saw her, or even just thought about her. Her hair, her smile, her eyes. Everything made Bayley's heart feel like it was running laps, only to stop beating all together when she thought about how she could never have the girl.
"Hey Carmella" Bayley said cutting off her rant, "I have to go...I'll uh...I'll see you at school" Bayley said before hanging up and throwing the phone across the room, causing it to bounce off the wall and land beside her guitar.
Bayley laid in her bed with tears welling up in her eyes for a few minutes before she got up and grabbed her guitar before sitting back down on her bed. She strummed quietly, tuning the instrument as the same tune that filled her head when she thought of Carmella came back. The youngest Helmsley looked at the scribbles on her left hand and began to strum them for awhile just listening. Then humming and then singing, making up lyrics and singing what she felt at the moment.
Well, I said
There's nothing like your smile
Sort of subtle and perfect and real
I said
You never knew how wonderful
That smile could make someone feel
Bayley looked around her room spotting the few pictures she had on her dresser some of her and her sister and others of her and Carmella, smiling and making funny faces. One with her arms wrapped around the girls waist as the blond placed a kiss on her forehead.
And I knew
Whenever you get bored
You scribble stars on the cuffs of your jeans
And I noticed
That you still fill out the quizzes
That they put in those teen magazines
Bayley stood from her bed and began to walk throughout the house glad nobody else was home as she sang about her crush. She knew almost everything about the girl, every small detail that made her perfect in Bayley's eyes, that made her love her and want to hold and kiss her. However Bayley took their friendship seriously, which was why she would never speak her feelings. It would make it awkward and Carmella would be disgusted by her for sure, but those thoughts didn't stop the rush of feelings Bayley felt for her as she sang.
But I kept it all inside my head
What I saw I left unsaid
And though I wanted to
I couldn't talk to you
I couldn't find the way
But I would always say
Bayley's eyes filled with tears as her heart ached, she wanted so badly for Carmella to know how she felt, to say that she felt the same. She wanted someone to explain these feelings, to tell her that it was normal to feel this much love, this much passion for a friend. Bayley felt as if Carmella was her whole world, every waking, and sleeping, thought was filled with Carmella.
If I could tell her
Tell her everything I see
If I could tell her
How she's everything to me
But we're a million worlds apart
And I don't know how I would even start
If I could tell her
If I could tell her
Bayley thought for a second thinking about more lyrics, thinking about all of the things she thought about when she was around the girl, thinking of everything she wish she could tell her. All the wild things that Carmella had done like randomly dying her hair, or dancing in the middle of the mall, all of the things that made Bayley's heart race with love and worry, all of the amazing days where she looked so beautiful and Bayley wished she had told her.
I thought
You looked really pretty when you put indigo streaks in your hair
And I wondered how you learned to dance
Like all the rest of the world isn't there
But I kept it all inside my head
What I saw I left unsaid
If I could tell her
Tell her everything I see
If I could tell her
How she's everything to me
Tear flowing down her face as she thought about the millions of things she would never get to do or say to Carmella. She felt her heart breaking slightly more and more as she sang.
But we're a million worlds apart
And I don't know how I would even start
If I could tell her
If I could tell her
But what do you do when there's this great divide?
She just seemed so far away
And what do you do when the distance is too wide?
It's like I don't know anything
And how do you say
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
But... we're.. a million….. worlds apart
And I don't know how I would even start
If I could tell her
If..i could..tell her
Bayley slowly stopped singing, letting the wave of emotions that she felt from the song slowly fade away before rushing around her room finally finding her notepad so she could write the lyrics down. Tears staining the edges, even though she wiped them furiously, every word she wrote made the feeling swarm back up into her chest before she was balling her eyes out on the floor as she finished the last sentences. Closing the book she sat there with her back against her bed, pulling her knees up to her chest as she cried with her head down.
With Charlotte
Charlotte rubbed her eyes as she walked onto the school campus with Sasha and Becky following behind her, showing them where to go. The three of them had gotten chewed out by their mother thanks to Sasha's shades and Charlotte continuing to drink bottle after bottle of water, giving away the fact that they were both hungover. Though their parents just figured it was an alcoholic hangover and not what Becky referred to as a weed hangover, so they weren't in as much trouble as they would be but they were still grounded "for life" as Hunter said, meaning that they had to come straight home unless we had sports, no sneaking out, no phones, no hanging out on the weekends and no boys.
"This sucks" Sasha groaned as she adjusted her shades, "First day of high school and we're grounded"
"You think it sucks for you, I didn't even go to the party and I'm grounded" Becky said rolling her eyes as they walked along the sidewalk towards the freshman building, seeing half of the high school buzzing with first day energy while the other half was still sluggish and hungover from the party.
"Yeah..mom called it aiding and abetting" Sasha complained
"Your homeroom is at the end of the hall on the second floor, Ms. Carpenter's class, she's pretty chill...just don't eat in there or she'll have a fit because it brings bugs and she's scared of roaches." Charlotte said stopping outside the building.
"That's it?" Sasha asked
"What did you want me to hold your hand and walk you to your seat?" Charlotte asked before walking away from her younger siblings and heading towards her building. She knew that that was kind of rude but she had to provide some separation between her and her siblings. She wasn't gonna be there to hold their hands throughout high school and it was an unspoken rule for nobody to talk to freshman, something she learned the hard way.
"Hey Helmsley!" Charlotte turned around to see Natalya and some of the other girls from the volleyball team walking up to her all dressed in different Nike hoodies and school sweatshirts with a pair of volleyball shorts, "What's wrong with you...you look...awful"
"Too much partying huh?" One of the girls mocked causing Charlotte to groan and run her hands down her face.
"Partying...I didn't take you for the party girl type Helmsley" Natalya said as she stood face to face with Charlotte, crossing her arms and giving off a large smirk
"I'm not"
"Not from what I saw, you and Roman Reigns were getting pretty close on top of that car" the same girl said causing Charlotte to look and actually see that it was one of the junior players named Mickie James.
"Roman reigns? That football jock?" Natalya asked looking disgusted, "He's a junkie and a high school has been in the making, once we all graduate he's gonna be in some dead end job stuck here, he's not going anywhere in life"
Charlotte put her head down her face flushing at the comments made towards the man she had developed feelings for so long ago. She didn't know if she should defend him or not, he was her first crush, but these were her teammates, they would surely chew her out for liking him. As Charlotte went to say something but was cut off for the bell causing all of the girls to walk off saying their goodbyes, except for Natalya who stayed and seemed to circle Charlotte, looking her up and down and Charlotte had to admit the older girl was intimidating for being so much shorter than her.
"Remember what I told you Helmsley" She said once they were face to face again, "If you want to be the leader you can be then you have to work for it…"
"I told you I'm not a-"
"And I told you you're not one yet, and don't interrupt me again" Natalya snapped, "You can be a great leader but you can't get distracted...you can't be out partying all day and night and then expect to be a hundred the next day"
Charlotte avoided the older girl's eyes causing natalya to step closer to the girl so there was barely any space between the two, " and as a leader you have to be on your A game at all times. Got it?"
Charlotte gulped, "Yeah"
"I don't want you hanging out with that boy, and I don't want you at any more parties...or else you're off the team...understand?"
"Yes"
Natalya patted Charlotte on the back before walking off shouting for the younger girl to not be late, leaving Charlotte alone, but only for a minute before Roman walked up to her, "Damn...that was a little intense"
Charlotte jumped a little in shock before turning and slapping roman playfully in the chest, "Don't do that..you scared the crap out of me"
"My bad.." Roman laughed causing charlotte to roll her eyes. He stood tall over her his long hair in a man bun and he wore a long sleeved grey shirt which was rolled up and a pair of blue jeans.
"How are you so cheery..my head still kind of hurts from last night?" Charlotte whined
"I'm a professional, I've been doing this for a while" He laughed before looking off in the direction where Natalya went, "She doesn't like me does she?"
"No..not really, I guess it's just something about you that makes people hate you"
"Well, I get that a lot" Charlotte laughed making Roman think for a second before continuing, "Hey i had a good time with you yesterday...you aren't actually a stiff, and some of the stuff you said when you were high was hilarious."
"I can't even remember half of what we talked about"
"Don't worry...it wasn't that important, but I enjoyed our time together, even when we had to run down the street high"
"I had a good time with you too...I never had so much fun in my life and I felt so free"
"The magic of drugs" Roman said with a smirk before reaching into his pocket, "f you ever want to feel like that again..."
Roman pulled out a baggie that held two xanax pills in it and slid it into Charlotte's hand, closing her palm around the bag so nobody else saw, before walking off. Charlotte slowly opened her hand and inspected what he gave her, jumping slightly and quickly turning to hand it back to him in protest but he was already gone, leaving Charlotte alone to stand outside in the Quad. She looked around at the now empty school yard and shoved the bag deep into the bottom of her backpack before entering the Sophomore building and heading to home room.
With Becky
"Dude..grounded for life, that's totally harsh" Paige said as she sat down on the desk Becky was sitting at, the two had become fast friends in their last year of middle school as they had many classes together, "you should've at least went to the party if you were gonna get grounded"
Becky laughed at her friend causing Ms. Carpenter to look up from her desk, at the two. The teacher had let the students have some free time after she explained the rules and gave out all of their schedules, "Yeah maybe...but you went...how was it?"
"Really fun, you should have seen all the hotties there" Paige said with a smirk, "You're little friend Deanie boy was there...but he disappeared. Came running back to you I assume"
"Why would ya assume that?"
"Cause it's obvious he loves ya and whenever he's drunk with me all he does is talk about you"
"You two still getting drunk together?"
"Let's just say we have similar taste in alcohol and my dad owns a bar" Paige said, noticing Becky's slight look of jealousy, "You don't have anything to worry about bexs,he's all yours"
"He's not mine"
"Right and those boys don't jump at the opportunity to kiss your sister's ass"
Becky scoffed before looking to where Sasha on the other side of the room surrounded by Xavier, Big E and Kofi who were all joking and laughing with her. The three boys were always together and had always shown a liking towards her sister and her friends Tamina and Naomi, it was like a competition between the three boys to see who could get the girl's attention the most, even though everyone knew her and Seth were a thing. Though that didn't stop Sasha from entertaining them.
"You jealous paige?"
"In your dreams my little pumpkin"
The bell rang for first period to start causing Paige to jump up from the desk and grabbed her backpack off the floor, swinging it over her shoulder as Becky did the same. The two headed out of the class and were met with Dean leaning against the wall outside the door.
"Hey Bexs"
"Oh hey Dean, how do you know where-"
"Seth told me where Sasha's homeroom was and you guys have the same homeroom so.."
"Stalker" Page coughed causing Dean to blush while Becky laughed
"I-i uh"
"Well now come on lover boy, don't get all tongue tied now...I think you are here to see our little red head's schedule"
"Yeah..uh yeah" Dean said pulling out his crumpled schedule from his jean pocket which Page snatched quickly and looked through
"Aw how cute...you two have like half of your classes together" She said before handing the schedule to Becky to look at which she agreed
"Yeah...we have first and third, so we'll have lunch together" Becky smiled before neatly folding his paper and handing it back to him which he shoved i n his pocket leaving them in awkward silence as they just stared at each other while Page looked confused between the two of them
"Um..I'm just gonna go, I'll see ya later Bexs"
"Paige is uh.."
"Yeah" Becky agreed causing them both to laugh
"So, you get in trouble for last night?"
"Yeah, my dad was more pissed than my mom, something about us being his babies and all so now we're grounded for life" Dean laughed as the two began walking to their first period which was in the set of trailers behind the front building for Spanish.
"So I'm guessing no trainings then?"
"I don't know….I have to see how serious they are about this grounded for life thing, but they have something big going on at their job so they might be too busy with all that"
"Well...I have the gym all to myself tonight if you want" Dean offered scratching the back of his head, "Since they'll be busy you could sneak out before the grounding really begins"
Becky smiled at this but frowned, today was monday and she always tried to make time for each of her sisters. Bayley and her would watch the Voice on Monday, her and Charlotte would would workout together on Tuesdays and she would let Sasha rant about whatever she wanted on Thursdays.
"I don't know if I can.. I have plans with Bayley"
"Well i can wait...I have the gym all night, you can come after if you want...your family is more important than training with me" Dean said as the two entered the trailer for class revealing Kevin and Sami sitting in the back of the class talking loudly while Enzo was in the front trying to impress some of the girls
"Hey Becky!" Sami, wear a dark green Polo shirt and hat, called out as he waved over to the two empty seats at the table with him and Kevin
"Ha, I'm surprised those two aren't still wearing matching shirts" Dean muttered as they walked to the table, noticing how Kevin was wearing a black T-shirt and not the same outfit as Sami.
"Yeah that was a creepy phase" becky laughed before she sat down, "Hey Sami..Kevin"
"How was your summer?" Sami asked excitedly, the boy always had too much energy which Dean disliked very much especially when that energy fed into Becky causing the two to go back and forth for hours talking about complete nonsense.
"Pretty good"
"Yeah so good she managed to get grounded on the first day of school" Dean said making Kevin and Sami look in shock before laughing while Becky covered her face in embarrassment
"Yeah because I let you stay over" Becky joked pushing Dean slightly
"Woah Dean...looks like you finally managed to get som-" Kevin started but stopped after Dean roughly kick him under the table, "OW"
"Alright class my name is Mr. Brock and I'm going to be your English 1 teacher for the semester. Since it's the first day we'll go around and say our names and something interesting about ourselves" a Short pale skinned man said causing the class groaned in unison, "Yes I know, that's so boring, and I get it that a lot of you already know each other from middle school, but this exercise is more for me to know your names...unless you all want me to call you student 1, or student 2"
The class went around with Mr. Brock introducing himself first then Enzo went, proceeding to hit on all of the girls in the class while he did so. Once he was done a girl introduced herself as Lana with a Russian accent causing Becky to wonder where she's from but Dean quickly debunked this by whispering to the group, "She's not really Russian"
After that some kids that Becky and Dean had never seen before went when Dean said, "That's the Balor kid I was talking about...the one who's car I borrowed"
"You stole it" Becky said not even looking up from her desk as she picked at her nails not interested in learning about anyone in the class
"The name's Finn Balor, I was born in Ireland" the boy said in a cocky voice causing Becky's head to snap up at the fact that there was someone else from Ireland.
The boy had a short haircut and wore a grey polo shirt, with a pair of shade tucked into the collar, khaki pants and grey vans and as Becky scanned over the boy she immediately recognized the boy, whispering to herself, "Fergal?"
"What?" Dean asked, leaning down to hear his best friend better
"That's Fergal...he was in the same foster home as me back in Ireland" Becky said staring at the boy who had yet to notice her, "I..I never thought I would see him again."
"What's up with her?" Kevin asked not hearing what Becky was talking about
"Apparently Bexs here knew that kid back in Ireland" Dean said slightly annoyed at the way Becky was staring at him
"Okay, now my group back here...would you like to introduce yourselves?" Mr. Brock asked
Sami immediately stood with a smile, "i'm Sami...and I'm from Canada and this is my best friend Kevin"
Kevin sat where he was with his hand covering his face in embarrassment while Dean laughed, "Ya hear that Kevin your boyfriend already introduced you"
"I'm Kevin and I'm from Canada too" Kevin groaned not bothering to stand up while Sami sat with a huge smile on his face
"Uh..okay..next?" Mr Brock called out
Dean look at Becky who was still looking over at the Finn kid, "Uh..my name is Dean and I like fighting...like wrestling, judo, all that stuff"
Once Dean finished he elbowed Becky slightly causing her to snap out of her daze and quickly say, "Uh..i'm Becky….I uh...I don't really have anything interestin' about me"
"Talk about your sisters or something" Sami said
"Oh..I uh have three sisters"
Mr. Brock nodded and Becky looked down before sneaking a peak in Finn's direction to see him staring wide eyed at her with recognition. As the rest of the class went on introducing themselves before Mr. Brock went through the class rules, Becky put her head down avoiding looking at Finn again as thoughts of him that had once faded and been replaced by Dean flooded back into her mind. Every time he comforted her when she cried and all of the times when he encouraged her to get out of bed and enjoy her life. He was her first and only friend for so long, he helped her get through the loss of her family, he was like her superman, standing up to the bullies when she couldn't. Becky never thought she would see him again, and yet here he was sitting a few feet away from her.
When the period was over Dean and Kevin were talking about how they had the same second periods while Becky made her way over to Finn. Well she tried to but Sami quickly walked up to her and put his arm around her shoulder, guiding her out of the classroom as he talked loudly about the second period in which they seemed to share. Becky sadly looked over her friend's shoulder to see Finn still standing in his spot watching the interaction with a sad look before she and Sami both exited the and walked to their next class.
With Bayley
Bayley's head shot up to the sound of the house phone ringing down stairs. Bayley took a second to figure out where she was before she realized she was still in her room and she had fallen asleep. She quickly stood from her spot on the floor, still dressed in her pajamas as she saw the time on the clock read 12:00. She had slept through three out of her six periods and missed lunch. The youngest Helmsley didn't know when or how she fell asleep but she did and she quickly had to race around the room to get dressed. Bayley pulled on a random pair of shorts and a t-shirt which she recognized as the one she borrowed from Charlotte last week, before going to the bathroom to brush her teeth and pull her hair back into a ponytail.
After five minutes Bayley was running down the steps searching for her backpack, as the house phone went to voicemail, automatically playing the message out loud.
"Uh hello, Mr. and Mrs. Helmsley this is the vice principal Ms. Moffatt, and I've been trying to reach you to inform you that your daughter, Bayley Helmsley was not at school for the majority of the periods, and she will be marked absent unless she provides a note when she returns to school" the message said causing Bayley to freak out internally before walking up to the answering machine.
Her mother didn't understand why the family still had it but Hunter insisted because he like the retro feel of the thing while none of the girls complained because they all managed to get the house number as their contact number after the incident in elementary school when they got into the fight and both Hunter and Stephanie were called. So whenever the middle school called they would only call the house and one of them would delete the message before their parents knew if it was bad.
"No thanks" Bayley said before deleting all of the messages and then rushing to get her stuff.
She would have to run to school which was a few streets down. Bayley grabbed a banana from the kitchen and threw it into her bag before rushing to the door before realizing she didn't have the keys to lock the house. She mental cursed herself before running back into the kitchen and began searching desperately for the key.
"God I should just stay home, all of this trouble..I already missed half of the day" She said to herself as she went through the cabinets for the keys
"But then I wouldn't get to see Carmella" She reasoned once she found the set and raced back to the door
She quickly exited the house and locked the door before she raced down her driveway, "But I would have to run all the way there to at least make it by the beginning of fifth period. I don't even know if I have fifth period with Carmella"
Bayley looked at the outside of her house thinking whether or not she should go or not, when she spotted the bike that Seth had given Sasha one year lying against the side of the house, "But you don't know for sure and the chance of being with carmella is better than missing out on a whole day of seeing her"
Bayley rushed to the bike and pulled it down to the driveway before ride off down the sidewalk. The middle school was much closer than the high school and was only a few streets further down once outside of the neighborhood so Bayley pedaled there, managing to get to the school before 5th period started, placing the bike on one of the racks that were outside the school, not locking it because she didn't have time to get the lock.
As she raced into the building with the other kids, Bayley spotted the vice principal standing outside, so she quickly avoided eye contact and walked passed before slipping into her class, being the first student to enter. After a few seconds kids started pouring into the class, Carmella being one of them
"What the heck Bayley..where have you been?" carmella snapped as she sat down at the desk beside her friend, "First you hang up on me this morning and then you avoid me like all day"
Carmella was beyond angry, well at first she was worried about her friend when she didn't see her but now seeing that her best friend looked completely fine, she was angry. Carmella placed her tiger striped backpack on the ground before turning in her desk to look at Bayley while the girl fumbled over her words. Bayley took a second to look over her friend, Carmella was wearing a light blue T-shirt and a pair of jeans with her hair flowing down her back.
"No, I wasn't avoiding you...I fell asleep...I was supposed to catch the bus but I fell asleep" Bayley said quietly causing Carmella to stare at her with wide eye, "I wasn't avoiding you...I just got to school, honest"
Carmella didn't say anything for a minute, "Well that would explain what you're wearing"
Bayley looked down at her outfit, it was a just a pair of black shorts and a light blue T-shirt, "What's wrong with this?"
"You do realize that your shirt is backwards...there are words on the back" Carmella said causing Bayley to look at the back of her shirt wildly trying to see the words while Carmella laughed, "I'm just kidding...your outfit is fine I was just messing with you"
"Oh"
"Don't leave me alone again, I was stuck in between Alexa and Emma in second and third period, if I had to hear them talk for another minute i was going to explode"
"I won't leave you again" Bayley said with a smile as the bell rang signalling for class to start
"Promise?"
"Promise"
As the day ended Bayley and Carmella walked out of their sixth period and headed to the front of the school where Bayley had parked her sister's bike, "So you're telling me you rode that old bike to school?"
"Yeah"
"Why, I would've stayed home"
"Well I had a reason to come to school" Bayley said simply and went to say more when she saw Carmella's confused look but stopped when she saw that the bike was no longer there, "Oh crap"
"What?"
"Crap. Crap. Crap" Bayley repeated running up to the now empty bike rack, "Someone stole the bike"
"What...are you sure?"
"Pretty sure, there was a bike here and now there's not, so yeah I think someone stole it" Bayley said frustrated, running her hands down her face as she paced
"How did someone steal it?"
"Well...I didn't have a lock on it"
"Why not?"
"I didn't have time" Bayley yelled as she kicked at the ground frustrated, Sasha would kill her if she found.
"Well..it's not like your sister rode that bike anymore anyway..now you can just take the bus home like normal" Carmella said, placing her arm around Bayley's shoulder and guiding her off to the bus parking lot, "I bet she won't even notice"
"Ms. Helmsley" A voice called out from behind the girls making them both slowly turn around to see the Vice Principal standing tall over both of the girls, her glasses positioned firmly on the bridge of her nose and her long black hair flowing down her back, "So nice of you to join us...I was informed that you missed 4 of you classes today and you were presumed absent, but now here you are"
"I was just late"
"Well did you parents get the messages we sent to the house...about a note"
"Oh...oh yeah they did, I'll turn it into the office tomorrow morning" Bayley assured before pulling Carmella off to where the buses were pulling in, avoiding the follow up questions from the vice principal.
"What are you going to do about the note?"
"I don't know"
"You could always ask your sisters"
"What?"
"Well I'm sure one of them can forge your mother's signature, or your father's" Carmella said simply as her bus pulled up, "Either way..you'll figure it out...I'll see ya later Bay"
The blond kissed her on the cheek quickly before getting onto her bus, it was something the girl did whenever she felt like the two didn't have enough time. The blond said that it was her way of showing her friend that she was still here for her no matter what, but to Bayley the kiss would just make her heart ache. The next bus pulled up followed by another and then another until Bayley finally saw her bus and quickly hopped on, no longer thinking about the lost bike or the note she needed, but about the kiss that still stained her right cheek. She knew she loved the blond more than anything in her life, and these small kisses and hugs that they exchanged would be the limit of their relationship, it was a small price she had to pay for her love of the girl.
"Hey can I sit beside you?" a voice said causing Bayley to look up from her window seat to see Alexa Bliss standing in the aisle. She had hated this girl, well not really, Carmella didn't like her and if Carmella didn't like her then she wouldn't either, yet there was really nothing about Alexa that put Bayley off. She was short and kind of mean but she barely said two words to Bayley, so she never had a problem, "Uh..hello..earth to Bayley?"
"You uh you know my name?"
"It's on your backpack" She said obviously, pointing to the girl's bag which was in the free seat beside her with a large tag that said her name on it, "Can I sit there?"
"Oh uh yeah sure I guess" Bayley said before moving the bag and placing it on her lap while Alexa sat down beside her
"You're Carmella's friend right?" she asked once the bus started pulling off
"Uh yeah"
"Yeah, I noticed she didn't have you trailing behind her, I had thought you went to a different school but since you're here I'm guess you have different classes, or you were just skipping"
"I don't have different classes"
"So you were skipping on the first day?" Alexa said with a smirk, "That's pretty badass"
"You shouldn't say that" Bayley said quietly but Alexa didn't hear it
"Well I hope you don't plan on skipping often"
"Huh?"
"You know if you were here in second period, you would've heard that we have a project already..it's sort of like a getting to know you project" alexa said, "And apparently you are my partner"
"What?"
"God are you slow or something I said you're my partner..we have to do some project that talks about our differences and what we have in common and stuff"
"Oh cool" Bayley said, not really interested as she yawned and looked out the window
"I'm sorry am I boring to you?" Alexa asked rudely
"What..oh uh no… I just" Bayley thought for a second, "We've never really talked before I guess"
"Yeah well I'm talking to you now aren't I?"
"I guess so but You-"
"Can you say anything other then I guess?" Bayley looked at the shorter girl and shrugged, Carmella was right, she was annoying, "Look I was trying to be nice-"
"This is you being nice?"
Alexa shook her head frustrated before she just sat facing forward quiet as the bus pulled up at the first stop, "you're annoying"
"You know I've heard that about you too"
"What from your owner Carmella?"
"Owner?" Bayley asked looked at the girl who just smirked evilly at her
"Yeah..you're her little lap dog, so she's your owner"
Bayley sat there staring at the girl before rolling her eyes and looking back out the window ignoring the blond girl until the bus pulled up at her house. Bayley stood and walked pass Alexa who quietly muttered bye to the taller girl as she got off the bus and headed to her house where her sisters would already be home, having taken the bus home as well. As Bayley enter the house unlocking the door, her mind raced with thoughts, which usually pertained Carmella, but for some reason were filled with images of Alexa.
"Yes Babe...no I already told you...No I don't know when they'll unground me" Sasha said as she sat on the couch talking on the home phone
Bayley walked passed her and took off her shoes before heading into the kitchen where Charlotte was looking through the fridge, "Hey"
"Oh..hey Bayley...why the long face?" Charlotte asked closing the fridge and folding her arms as she noticed the conflicted look on her sister's face
Bayley didn't know if she should talk to charlotte about anything that happened today, Charlotte was very uptight and wanted everything done the right way, so Bayley knew that she would have her come clean to her parents about over sleeping, and tell Sasha about the bike. However, Becky had said that Charlotte had done drugs and went to that party yesterday so maybe she is turning over a new leaf and will be more accepting and helpful.
"I uh...I-"
"Hey where's Becky?" Sasha yelled from the living room taking away Charlotte's attention
"I don't know she wasn't on the bus" Charlotte responded leaving Bayley and heading into the living room, "Why?"
"Seth says Dean is doing his whole lost puppy routine, so I'm guessing something happened with him and Becky"
"Well she's not here"
"She's gonna be in so much trouble if she doesn't get her ass back here before mom and dad get home" Sasha said simply before pushing herself further into the couch to get comfortable and continue her conversation with Seth
Charlotte shook her head and turned back to face Bayley, "What were you going to say?"
"Nothing...I was just going to head upstairs" bayley said sadly before she exited the kitchen and walked past Sasha on the couch to head upstairs
Once Bayley was in her room she closed her door and threw her backpack on her bed and looked around her room. She decided to play her guitar for a little, perfecting the lyrics of the song she sang earlier, looking at the scribbled notes and handwriting that she had down, most of the words ruined as the paper had been stained by tears. She spent some time rewriting the words and strumming a little, trying to think about her feelings for carmella but everytime she tried to think more about the blond, a different blond came to mind. Bayley didn't understand what it was about Alexa, but there was something behind the girl's bite, something about the way she carried herself that was different . Bayley couldn't help but smile as she remembered the few insults that the smaller girl threw at her,not quite understanding why.
Bayley looked once again at the picture of her and Carmella on her dresser and smiled, she would always love Carmella and these new feelings for alea didn't even measure up to the feelings she felt around her love, but they were new. It was still early and new, so Bayley decided to not think too much about it, and she wasn't given much of a choice when she heard the front door open and close and she really hoped that it was Becky so she could talk to her.
"Well, well, well look who decided to join us?"
Bayley hopped up and rushed downstairs to see Becky standing at the door with Sasha and Charlotte questioning her, "I was busy...i'm home aren't I?"
"Busy doing what, cause Seth told me you weren't with Dean" Sasha said having finished her phone call
'None of yer business" Becky said before pushing past her sisters and walking into the kitchen with Charlotte and Sasha following behind her still asking questions.
Bayley moved from her spot on the steps and quietly followed them, standing outside the kitchen to listen in as Becky pulled out and apple while Charlotte began talking, "Do you know how much trouble you would be in if mom and dad had been home?"
"Yeah I do but guess what, they weren't so can you both just drop it?"
"Sister pact" Sasha said with her arms crossed causing Becky to roll her eyes, "you have to tell us what's going on"
"No I don't"
"You're eyes are red" it was a serious statement that caused the sisters to stop and it took a second before Bayley realized that she was the one who said it, "Y-you, you've been crying"
Becky looked away from her sisters as her jaw clenched slightly before she took a bite of her apple and walked away brushing past Bayley before heading upstairs. Sasha and Charlotte looked at each other with worried looks while Bayley slowly walked away from them and followed Becky upstairs, she hadn't meant to upset her sister but she was just stating what she saw. Bayley followed Becky upstairs to see her sit down on her bed, placing her hands in her hair.
"Are you mad at me?"
"No" at this Bayley slowly entered into her room and sat on the floor across from her, leaning her back against Sasha's bed, "There's nothing to be mad about..you're right, I was crying..I just don't want to talk to them anymore"
"Okay" Bayley said quietly, "How about you talk-"
"I don't really want to talk to you either Bayley" Becky said sadly causing Bayley to let out a small 'oh'
"Well..uh could you listen...cause I had a bad day too and I really wanted to talk to you about some stuff" Bayley said looking up slightly to see Becky looking at her through the strands of red hair that covered her face from how she held her head in her hands, "I mean unless you don't want to listen either…"
There was no response for a minute so Bayley took this as a sign to start talking, "So uh...well I missed most of school today" there was no response as Becky put her head back down in her heads, "Yeah..I know right...mom will kill me. It was an accident really, I just fell asleep and when i woke up it was 12"
Bayley looked around the room taking in the difference between Sasha and Becky's sides as the room was painted in two different colors to represent their separate sides and it was like there was an imaginary line that cut the room in half, nothing of Becky's was on Sasha's side and vice versa.
"I ended up having to ride Seth's old bike to school..you know the one that he gave Sasha" There was still no response, "Well yeah I did that and it ended up getting stolen..cause I didn't grab the bike lock before I left the house"
Becky gave a small snort causing Bayley to smile before continuing, "Yeah..I thought Sasha was going to be pissed but carmella said she probably won't even notice..and I think she's right...well I mean carmella's always right she's….she's perfect"
Bayley sighed deeply, she should tell Becky, she wouldn't tell the other's and she wouldn't judge her. Becky had been so open about anything and everything growing up and she never judged any of the sister whenever they said something or did something dumb. Yes she had her opinion and she would voice it but she would never stop loving any of the girls, which was something she stated multiple times before. This was her chance, she needed to get this off of her chest.
"She's..uh she's my best friend...but whenever I'm around her, my heart hurts. Just thinking about her makes me feel as light as air, and her smile can make me numb. She's like the best person in the world, and I think about her all the time" Bayley paused, her face reddening as she avoided eye contact, not seeing how Becky was now fully staring at her little sister, her head no longer in her hands, "Sometimes she says things that make me feel dizzy, like, if i didn't hear her voice or those words I would've died. That's why I went to school, because even going a day without her makes me anxious, like my skin will itch and my chest will feel hollow. My every waking thought is about her, her hair, her smile, her eyes, her laugh. Everything."
Bayley looked up at her sister with tears in her eyes, slightly from the fear of how she would react but also from the pain of thinking about the love of her life and how she would never be able to be with her, "It hurts so much to think about her, to feel this way and not be able to say anything, to do anything about it"
Becky moved slightly patting the spot on her bed beside her which Bayley moved to immediately, placing her head on her older sister's shoulder's crying while Becky wrapped her arms round the younger girl's waist and quietly hushed her.
"It's okay to feel this way Bayley" Becky said softly placing a kiss on Bayley's forehead which only made Bayley cry more
"I love her" Bayley gasped out crying, "I love her so much"
"It's ok...alright...It's okay" Becky said rocking her slightly, "Have you told her how you feel?"
"I can't...she doesn't feel the same..i know it" Bayley cried, "She has feelings for Big Cass, that idiot...I love her so much..I don't want to tell her and lose her as a friend"
"Oh Bayley"
"I don't know what to do" Bayley said looking up at her sister with tears flowing down her face
Becky grabbed Bayley's face and wiped her tears smiling, "Just be yourself Bayley, if it was meant to be then it will work out...crushes come and go...but if you feel so deeply about her then you should tell her."
"But..I'll lose her" Bayley pleaded, "I can't live without her, just the thought of never talking to her again makes my heart hurt"
"Ok then say you don't say anything...you'd just watch as she dated other people and suffer in since just to be her friend?
"I would do anything for her Becky..even if i have to put my heart back together ever time it breaks not being able to love her" Bayley said pushing herself lower onto the bed so her head was on her sister's lap
"Your love for Carmella...may not be healthy Bayley...you not being able to live without her and feeling pain when you are with her...you letting yourself suffer just to hold onto this friendship...that's not good. I understand that you love her but if being around her makes you feel that bad, maybe you should distance yourself."
"But I-"
"I'm not saying don't see her..just don't cling to her too much...set up a foundation for you to be on your own..maybe make a new friend...not to replace her but to get yourself out there. Maybe if you are so close to her anymore then you can learn to be around her without you know...feeling like your heart was ripped out" Becky said, stroking Bayley's hair while she just groaned and stayed in her position leaving the two in silence, at least for a little while until there was screaming from downstairs which meant that Charlotte and Sasha had been left along together for too long.
"One last thing..the school called the house saying i need to bring a note to-"
"I'm sure Sasha can write ya a note, she can forge mom's signature with her eyes closed" Becky said before laughing, already knowing what her sister needed causing Bayley to smile.
"Thank you" Bayley said quietly
"I should be the one thanking you" becky said with a smile, "I wasn't having the best day either"
"Is that why you were crying?"
"Yes and no. I saw a guy that I hadn't seen in a very long time" Becky said looking at the wall across from her as she thought about Finn, "I knew him back when were in Ireland...he was the reason I wanted to come to America"
"Well that should be a good thing right?"
"Yeah it is...but he's different now..he's was acting weird"
"Weird how?"
"He was acting like Dean and i were scum under his shoe. At first he was really nice and sweet and we were catching up at lunch but then Dean came over, he started talking down to him, calling him names and making fun of him for not living with his birth parents. He started throwing his money around talking about how he could buy and sell the whole school and Dean's life if he wanted too"
"And you used to be friends with this guy?"
"He wasn't like that before….Dean ended up punching him in the face...he got suspended for the first week….and i tried to talk to Finn again later but he just ignored me"
"Finn? Like Finn Balor...that's the rich guy who Charlotte told me about one time, apparently his family is like a bunch of politicians and doctors and they are the snobbiest people in the world. They look down on everyone" Bayley said sitting up and wiping the now dry tears from her eyes
"Yeah...well i knew him before that...when he was Fergal..not finn and not an asshole"
"Did you talk to Dean?"
"No not after he got in trouble"
"Oh..well I think he's worried...he asked through Seth where you were"
"Yeah I was going to meet up with him later tonight but...I don't know right now..I want to be mad at him but i just can't"
Bayley smile brightly, "Do you like him?"
Becky laughed at this before standing and rustling her younger sister's hair, "That's a conversation for next time"
Bayley looked on in shock, not moving from her spot as Becky exited the room and headed downstairs to where the yelling proceeded to get louder, "Not fair"
After a few seconds Bayley smiled and fully dried her eyes before joining her sisters downstairs to enjoy the rest of her night, glad that she had told Becky. She made her feel better, like a weight was lifted off of her chest, now all she had to do was tell the others and her parents, not.. now probably, but one day. At least for now she had Becky to help her. Bayley thought back onto the advice her sister had given her, Becky had said to try and make a new friend to keep her mind off of Carmella, immediately thoughts of Alexa Bliss came into her head, but the youngest Helmsley quickly shook the thoughts away.
She could think about all this later Bayley decided and went on with her day listening to her sisters laugh and argue and once again get chewed out by their parents when they came home as apparently her older sister had gotten busted for their partying ways and were grounded. Bayley laughed at this and made faces at them- mainly at Sasha- behind her parents back, but in her mind she was slightly glad they were grounded, that meant the four of them would be able to spend some time together, which was something that didn't happen or last very often. However, Bayley had missed her sisters, spending time with them, laughing and playing together and maybe this was her chance to do just that. Then somehow she would find the time to tell them about her feelings. Maybe.
A/N: I hope you guys enjoyed make sure to review, follow and favorite so you can know when I update the next chapter and let me know what you want to see.