AN = Hi hi! I'm finally posting some of my 133 oneshots that I have been building up since January. I do apologize for any mistakes; I never used to pay attention in class until earlier this year. So, here is a little Seddie Story. I got the idea when studying for my exams, weird, right? (Maybe I should've paid attention more on studying because I didn't get a very high grade!) Anyways, I also just wanted to say about aestheticfanfic for inspiring me to start writing fanfic instead of just reading it. And also shana852963 because they both have Seddie oneshots that I ALWAYS enjoy reading. So, please enjoy!

Depression

Gone. Gone forever. He was gone forever. Well. Not exactly forever; he is still alive but just not with me anymore. How can I keep this love hidden? Feelings are harder than life itself; so how can I manage to control my feelings without my life having a share of my attention?

Not being held or hugged or kissed or loved was all I was used to once, but everything changed. All too quickly, but it went just as fast. A month of my life was spent being loved more than I had ever been before. A month of my life was spent of me being my total self, not having to put on my tough girl act. The same month of my life was spent not having to hide my feelings anymore. But all of that is now over.

I miss him. I really do. As much as I hate to admit it...

The rain patted on the window as we said our goodbyes. A tear rolled down my cheek. I wanted to beg him to stay but it sadly was gonna come to an end eventually anyway. When he held me one last time, I felt disappointed and depressed. I hugged him tightly, but had to soon let him go as the clock struck midnight sooner than either of us wanted it to. We both knew it was midnight immediately when his phone beeped. It was a message from his mum, saying to go home. We took a moment to share one quick kiss. It was more passionate than ever before. I pulled away seconds later though; I couldn't handle him leaving enough, I didn't want to get too used to the feeling of being loved again. He looked down at the floor frowning after I pulled away, he must have thought he was the reason why.

Walking home in the dark was something he always refused to let me do before. Even when we were just friends. He would always say to stay the night, literally always. The only times I was really at his place anyway was when his mum was working the late shifts. But this time, I had no choice but to walk home. The cold air brushed against my face, making my hair go wild. My eyes touched water and my cheeks reddened. Waterfalls gushed from my eyes swiftly.

This is the end of me and him. Forever. We did say that we would try 'us' again someday. But I know that day will never come. Well, you do know what they say... 'Stuff happens for a reason.' There couldn't be a bigger lie on this Earth. 'When one door closes, another door opens.' Okay, now, that's just sappy. Just like him. Aww, geez. I have reminded myself of him again. And again. And again. And again. I guess I'll never truly forget about him; it's impossible.

When I got home, the door slammed shut behind me, causing me to quickly turn around. Then, I faced the right way again and walked up the stairs. I literally managed to step on every squeaky floorboard possible. Oops. I heard groaning coming from my sister's room. She was home from boarding school, just so she could go to our uncle's wedding in a few days though. The wedding! I totally forgot! Looks like I have to find another date then... That shouldn't be hard, considering all the boys at school are scared of me. Surprisingly, he was the only boy who wasn't. I ran into my room. My knees met contact with the ground as I fell onto them. The floor scraped my knees roughly. A stray tear rolled down my cheek. I looked up at my window and realized it had started to rain again. The rain calmly hit against the window. I looked back at the ground; more tears were forming small puddles.

The doorbell's sound echoed around the house. My knees felt relieved as I stood up. I crawled down the stairs and reached the door. My hand shook as I turned the knob. The door crept open.

"Sam..."

AN = I love cliffhangers. Anyways, if you would like to review, that would make me very happy. Ahahaha.