Chapter 4:

Author Note: This made plenty of sense in my head. I just hope it does in yours too. I appreciate all the readers, the reviews, I would really like to know what you guys think. Enjoy!

"Our family is really messed up isn't it?" Il Hyung asked softly and he approached his brooding brother who had retreated to the garden silently after the dinner.

Did you just realise that now? I thought that our family being messed up was the reason that you ran away from the said family in the first place."

"I am not talking about Omma and Abeoji, Yi Jung. I was referring to me, you and Eun Jae." Il Hyung said.

"There is nothing there. I assure you…"

"Let me complete Yi Jung. I know that Eun Jae loves me. What I was actually trying to refer was that guy, Jae Sun…He is Eun Jae`s cousin."

Yi Jung did take a double take at that but remained silent.

"Do you remember the stories Eun Jae used to tell us about, sometimes about her family, when we were kids…She used to talk about her cousins all the time. Especially him because he was her favourite. She used to get irritated that all her girlfriends always drooled over him but he never gave them the time of his day. He was rather against this whole falling for someone until all that changed as he saw one pretty junior girl at an education fair…"

"Stop! Why are you even telling me this? Spare me from the details of his epic love story. I am least interested." Yi Jung said closing his eyes as if that could make him not see what was happening.

"Yi Jung", Il Hyun continued in the soft voice as if one was talking to a child, "You were always possessive about the things which where personal to you. Your friends, your problems, your art. Do you know why I don't worry about Eun Jae`s past affections for you? Any other guy in my place would wonder a hundred time that this can come about as an obstacle factor in the future for my relationship with her. But not me. Do you know why? Because I know my brother. I know how ruthless you can be. You are as ruthless as Jun Pyo is, maybe a bit less. I know that if you really wanted Eun Jae to be yours, you won't back out."

"What the hell are you trying to say here?"

"Really Yi Jung? You don't need me to point it out to you that you don't love Eun Jae. You know that better than everyone else. That is why you never looked back until you knew how much it hurt her. You cared for her, yes. But love her? And that to the way she loved you? You knew that you didn't love her like that. So, you didn't really try to fix or search for her as she backed out."

"I still don't get why you are talking in circles. If its assurance you need that I won't…"

"Shut up, will you? Assurance! Didn't you listen to anything that I said to you just now? I don't need any assurance from you because I am not insecure in my relationship with Eun Jae. If I was, I would have never asked her to marry me. The only thing I feel insecure with you was about the craft we used to share. My point is grow up Yi Jung. You are being a child again."

Yi Jung ended chuckling at that. "How much time have you spent with Ga Eul?"

Il Hyung smiled at that and answered, "Not much. I just met her today during the party but Eun Jae speaks about her a lot that I feel like I know her already. Why are you asking me that?"

"Toward the end of your little speech there you almost sounded like her. Comparing me to a child."

"Well good. There are some people in your life you call out your bullshit then. She is smart I give her that. But unfortunately for her, you are a coward." Il Hyung then looked into Yi Jung, holding his gaze while speaking, "Yi Jung there is no need stating the obvious. Our parents are messed up and so are we. But I would like to believe that there is at least some hope let for us. You tried really hard to not be like Abeoji and you turned up just like him. The only difference being, he became like this after losing the love of his life and whereas for you, you are so afraid of love ,Love which you know will change you forever and you know that if you let it touch your heart ,you will never recover if you by chance end up losing it somehow. So, you pushed it away before it could fully embrace you. And look where that has brought you, did it hurt any less? Be honest Yi Jung, how much did it hurt to see her walk out with that guy while you sat there helpless due to your own actions?"

Yi jung didn't answer because try as he might, he really couldn't. How will one ever articulate the agony that was ripping through him now?

'I will not bother you from now on.'

That little lying minx. Ever since she has said those words, she has done nothing but bother him. Day and night in his thoughts, but I he was being honest with himself; she had bothered him ever since he saw her that first time in that small porridge store. She had upset his whole psyche since then.

'Aish! This girl is really going to be the end of me.'

Yi Jung thought before turning towards the exit. "I need to go." He said to Il Hyung.

"What? …Where?" Il Hyung asked

"I need to talk to someone." He answered as he walked away.

"Who? Yi Jung! Yi Jung.!" Il Hyung called after his brother you had already entered his Lotus and speed off.

"Aish! This guy.! Hope he doesn't break anymore of his hands." Il Hyung sighed.