Happy Lunar New Year!
In all honesty and truth, Rin was an exceptionally affectionate person. When both her parents had been alive, she basked in their praise and love. When Sakura had still been around, she thrived on being the person she looked up too. Rin was a child who loved to be loved and offered it freely in return. She was a precocious child but she hoped with every fiber of her being to stay in her warm bubble of warmth and happiness forever.
But life doesn't always go the way we want them too. So, her once large heart was soon chipped away little by little by pain and tragedy. Each piece stabbing her with regret and pain. Eventually, her heart had scabbed over and Rin made a decision. Rin couldn't hurt if she closed herself off. Soon enough, she distanced herself from her friends and cultivated an image of a school idol. Always on top of her work, independent, polite to a fault but always- always an arms length away.
Magic is a truly wondrous thing and filled with endless possibilities. In turn, she willingly chose to lose herself in it. It was a lonely and solitary existence. And she was better for it. She would honor her fathers legacy. At least that's what she'd tell herself. But with each spell mastered, each triumph, each victory; it was all hollow. With each small step, Rin had started to wonder. That had been her first mistake. To wonder. To dream. To regret. To fear. Rin tried very hard not to be afraid of much. In her opinion, she couldn't afford to fear. It would do her no good. If she gave in, all those feelings she locked away would overwhelm her. To wonder about all the decisions she made and the ones that had been made for her. If any of them had been the right thing to do.
If Tohsaka Rin had been anyone else, she might have been able to close her heart. But waking up to the silence in her house was absolutely heartbreaking. The silence was deafening. The stillness, the emptiness and the simple lack of life only reminded her of a life she once had. Memories of a happy household would haunt her at every turn. Even pushing herself to near points of exhaustion every night wasn't enough. Even when she fell asleep in her basement, her dreams were filled with her sister's smiles and her parents adoration. Deep down, underneath all her loud words and posturing, Rin had always known it was a pointless battle after all.
What was it that the poets said?
Stoically, Rin watched as the smoke dissipated rose from the ground as a feather burned brightly. Not even batting an eye, she reached for her the spell she had finally crafted to hopeful perfection- murmuring to light it on fire before letting it drop onto the floor. It burned intensely as Rin studied her work. Rin nodded approvingly as the fire turned blue before dissipating. Rin ran her her fingers over the jewel that was in her lap. It was truly beautiful. Rin's eyes were blank as she watched it melt in her hand- dripping slowly from her hand onto the floor. It's red liquid seeping into the circle she had drawn onto the floor. Her voice was low and clear as she chanted. Once. Twice. Thrice.
That love is all there is, Is all we know of love
A slow smile spread onto's Rin's face as the floor lit up.
Welp...
Adventure Time.
Buckle up!
(No pitchforks in the future pls)