Chapter 16: Bavaria X Switzerland
From Liechtenstein's point of view / One sided on her part.
They were at it again. Bavaria and Switzerland were arguing again. They were best friends yet they loved each other secretly. Neither knew of each other's feelings. Why were they so stupid? Why couldn't they just get into a relationship already? All they were doing was making her hope. Even if she knew there was no way her hopes would ever come true. Since the day she had met Bavaria she had feelings for him. Though she knew it was wrong because it was her big brother's best friend. Because of the huge age gape that they had. Because Bavaria only saw her as a little sister. Those were the things that showed it was not possible for them to be together. Bavaria called her drunk once again. He cried and asked why Switzerland didn't love him.
"Big brother does love you," she insisted.
"Not the way I love him," he sighed.
'I love you the way you love him. Pick me and I'll make you so happy,' she thought.
"You'll see. Everything will get better soon. Why don't you go to bed," she soothed instead.
"You're such a good friend. I love you," he sighed into the phone.
"I love you too," she smiled as the tears fell silently.
'Just not in the way that you want me too,' she had mentally added.
"I'm going to bed. Thank you for listening to me again," he said softly.
"It's no problem," she smiled.
'Even though it hurts every time you talk about him and not me,' echoed in her mind.
"Stop answering his drunk calls. Stop looking for him when he's drunk and on the road. Let him be stupid! It's not your problem," Switzerland snapped to her after a meeting and he found out she had hunted down a drunk Bavaria and brought him back to his hotel.
"He's a family friend. I can't let him do something stupid and get himself or others hurt just because I let him drive," she said simply.
"I'm tired of him being immature! My little sister shouldn't have to go after him when he's like that! I can't wait for the day he grows up! He needs to learn to be an adult!"
"I understand your anger," she gave in. "But I won't just leave him all alone."
'Because I would never forgive myself. Because my heart won't let me leave him alone. Because these feelings control all my actions towards him. Why can't he just pick me,' she thought as she went to her own room. 'If you hurt him. I'll never forgive you. I love him,' she thought as the tears fell down her face rapidly.
"Why can't I stop loving him," she sobbed softly into her pillow.
"Liechtenstein, I have something to admit. Bavaria and I are a couple. I know its considered not normal for two males to be….you know…..by society standards that is. I just hope you can accept us," Switzerland said one day making her world stop.
"I'm so very happy for you big brother," she cheered hugging him.
Hiding her emotions in front of him was all she could do. He hugged her back sighing relieved.
"Thank you so much," he smiled.
She went to her room not long after that and cried herself to sleep. Every time she saw them together so happily and peaceful her heart hurt. When will these feelings go away? When will it stop hurting? Why did she have to fall in love with someone that could never love her? She was alone in the park one night. She had left the Beilschmidt house when she couldn't handle seeing them so happy together. She let her tears take over once again. This time the sobs were loud and mixed with pained screams. Arms enveloped her in a hug after a few minutes.
"I know. I know how you felt. I'm so sorry you're suffering," Hesse said softly.
"How," she choked.
"I could see it in your eyes since the first time you met him," he said softly.
"What am I supposed to do know? When will it stop hurting? How can I forget these feelings I have?"
"I can make you forget them if you want me too," Hesse said after a moment. "You are a precious friend to the family and I can help you forget them by being your best friend," he smiled. "Friends take the pain away. Any type of pain that's there a friend can heal. So just you wait. Soon you'll be ok again."
"Thank you. Thank you so much Hesse," she sobbed lowly.
"It's no problem. I'll always be there when you need me," he smiled.
They stayed in the park until she was able to stop her tears. Though she fell asleep after all that crying. Hesse smiled picking her up and walking along the sidewalk to take her back.
'You're so small and beautiful,' he thought glancing down at her. 'Maybe I could fall for you and you could fall for me,' he thought after a moment but dismissed the thought.
Hesse didn't fall for anyone. He's tried several times but he could never fall in love.
…..Well…..Maybe with this woman he could fall in love….
My poor baby! I didn't mean to torture her but you know. Kind of had to write out my feelings. Someone I've loved ten years is stuck on my older sister and he's eight years older than me so he met me when I was a kid ten years ago and that's all he sees me as still. His best friend's kid sister. She doesn't like him back she used to but not anymore, she lost feelings a long time ago for him and practically doesn't care about him even as a friend anymore because he is a little bit crazy but he's stuck on her if he's not drunk talking about her on the phone it's about his ex. Not good for the heart but I can't let him go just yet. So, what better way to vent my feelings out is write a chapter relating to them?