Holy Hell... are any of you still there? I'm so sorry about the abysmally long wait for a chapter. I promise that I will finish every story I have going on. I had a lot of stuff happen in my personal life that took me away from writing for a long time. Ive missed you all so much and I'm hoping to get an update out once a week. If you're still around I'd love if you would to hear what you all think. Thanks so much!
Elena
"What are you talking about, you sent him away? What more could you ask for? He's Damon Salvatore, he obviously adores you and he adores Scarlett? You're insane." Caroline ranted the next morning when she walked through the door wearing what could only be described as a post-orgasmic look and the typical walk of shame outfit. I ruined her buzz right quickly when I told her what happened between Damon and I last night.
"I know but the timing isn't right. It's so far from being right it's terrible." I told her trying to make her keep her voice down. I didn't want Scarlett hearing this, she already thinks he should be her new dad.
"The timing will never be perfect when it comes to you. There is always something going on in your life, and right now you have the perfect guy who wants to date you. He's willing to be anything for you, including your friend. If that's not a keeper, then I don't know what is." She ranted.
"Believe me, I know he's perfect and I know that I will kick myself if I end up losing him to someone else. But it's still horrible timing. I can't commit to anything until this fight with Liam is over. If I get in too deep with Damon and then some judge tells me that I have to choose between him or my daughter, my heart will be broken because there is no way I can ever choose someone over Scarlett. Scarlett is my life, so until this is over with then I shouldn't do anything." I explained and Caroline shook her head.
"No judge would ever say that to you. No one would expect you to be single for the rest of your life, even being a single mother. Lots of single mothers find love again, and it's sure as hell is not your fault that Liam up and walked out on you when you told him you were pregnant. The only person that should be under review here is him. And it should be decided straight away that he only gets Scarlett when and if you ever say so. Just let me say one more thing before you go get Scarlett up." She said and I sighed and sat down wrapping my hands around my coffee cup.
"Okay." I said warily.
"Just take everything away. Take away this court case, take away Liam, and take away Scarlett. Take away everything that happened to you. Would you want to date Damon then?" She asked me and I nodded my head.
"I would in a heartbeat. In that world I would be with him already and I'd be in love. But it's a fantasy and that's not real life. Scarlett made me who I am today, and I like who I am. I don't want to know the person I would be without her." I confessed and Caroline nodded.
"I understand. We should go get Scarlett up. But I urge you to consider it. You could be so much happier if you let yourself fall in love." Caroline told me. I knew Caroline was right, I was just too afraid to take that leap. Especially since I just shut him down and told him that I couldn't be with him.
"Auntie Care will you do my hair?" I heard Scarlett ask from her room and of course Caroline readily agreed. To Caroline, Scarlett was the perfect little doll whose hair she could do all the time. The benefit was that Scarlett always had the best hair and I didn't have to do it.
"Mommy, can we go see Damon again?" Scarlett asked when she came out of her bedroom wearing a pink dress and her hair braided in some sort of updo.
"Not today baby. Damon is busy." I told her and she frowned but let it go. "Besides we need to go see Mrs. Neal." I told her knowing that would perk her right up.
"Yay." She said and I smiled as she rushed out of the kitchen to grab her backpack and put her shoes on.
"Baby you need to eat breakfast first." I called her and she giggled and came rushing back in here.
"I'm sorry mama, I was just really excited to see Mrs. Neal." She told me and I shook my head and chuckled. How I loved that girl. She made every day interesting and I loved what she brought to my world. I would die before I let Liam get anywhere close to her. She quickly gobbled down a yogurt and a toaster waffle that I had in the toaster for her before running back to the door with her backpack.
"Now I'm ready to go mama." She said and I smiled and grabbed my bag and motioned for Caroline to get up off the couch. She was still looking a little worse for wear, but I knew she wouldn't skip school.
After dropping off Scarlett we stopped to grab a coffee since we were running earlier than usual.
"I really think you need to get with Damon as soon as possible." She told me again and I sighed.
"I know you do. And believe me when I say this, my hormones really want to be with him. Like really want to be with him." I said and she laughed.
"Then be with him. Maybe after you get laid you'll have a brighter outlook on life." She teased.
"My outlook on life is just fine. But as for getting with Damon we'll see. I know you're right but it's just scary." I told him.
"I'm so glad you're finally seeing reason. I'll tell you what I'll take the fear and indecision away from you, you are going to Damon's house tonight, and I am going to take care of Scarlett." She told me.
"I am?" I clarified.
"Yes, you are. You need this and if I'm going to have to force you out of the house and make you go to him then that's what it I will do." She told me and I sighed.
"You really think this will be good for me and Scarlett?" I asked as we got out of the car once we got to school.
"Yes, I do. No one would tell you that you can't be in a relationship. No judge would expect a woman your age to stay single just because your child's father is a dick." She said as we neared our table.
"Alright, fine. I'll do it." I told her and she cheered just as Damon walked over to us with a grin.
"Good morning, friends." He said sitting down across from me.
"Good morning Damon." Caroline greeted him and I shook my head.
"Morning. Scarlett says hi." I told him and he grinned at me.
After school was over Caroline and I picked up Scarlett and headed home. I went right into the kitchen and started on dinner.
"Are you still doing what we talked about?" She asked me and I nodded.
"I'll do it because despite everything you are right." I told her.
"Can I see Damon tomorrow?" Scarlett asked coming into the kitchen and sitting down in her chair.
"Maybe. I'll talk to him tonight after you go to bed." I told her and she beamed at me.
"So, you're going to go to bed for mommy really nice tonight right Scarlett? So, mommy can go talk to Damon?" Caroline asked and Scarlett nodded eagerly.
"Yes, because I want Damon to be my new daddy." She told us and I smiled. Caroline looked over at my knowingly. Scarlett was making my decision to be with Damon so much easier than it was before. When dinner was over Scarlett declared that she wanted to go to bed so I could talk to Damon.
"Not yet sweetheart. If you go to bed now, then you'll be up way too early." I told her.
"Okay." She sighed and went to sit down on the couch.
When I finally put Scarlett to bed, I changed into something quite a bit nicer and left the house. The drive to Damon's seemed to take forever and I never thought about what I'd do if Damon wasn't home. It turned out I didn't need to worry because I saw his car parked outside. With a deep breath I got out and walked up the front walk. When I knocked I heard footsteps approaching and Governor Salvatore opened the door.
"Elena, what a pleasant surprise. What can I do for you?" He asked and I smiled at him. There was something about Damon's father that put me at ease. Maybe it was because he was fighting for me to keep my daughter.
"Is Damon home?" I asked.
"Yeah he's in his room I think if you want to go up and see him. If not, I can summon him somehow. He plays his music a little too loud to yell at him." He said and I smiled.
"I can go up and see him. Where is his room?" I asked.
"Up stairs last room on the right. I was hoping to speak to you for one second before you disappear though." He told me and I smiled at him.
"Sure. What's on your mind?" I asked him.
"I just wanted to clarify something with you. When I told you to keep your life the same as it always has been I didn't mean that you couldn't date. Actually, having someone with you might be good for your case. No judge would ever penalize you for falling in love. No one is meant to be a single parent forever. So, if the reason you're keeping your distance from my son is what I said, I apologize. That is not what I meant." He told me and I smiled.
"Actually, I'm here tonight to see if Damon still has interest in being with a single mom. He's the only guy I've ever met that I want anything with. I just assume that most guys run away from commitment that involves children that aren't theirs. Damon is the best guy I've ever met, and I'd be stupid to not take advantage of that. He loves Scarlett and Scarlett loves him." I told Governor Salvatore.
"My wife and I also love having Scarlett around, so you and my son actually does benefit us as well. But you're not here to visit with me, get on up there and talk to my son." He said giving me a gentle shove to the stairs.
"Thank you, Governor." I said.
"Call me Giuseppe, my dear." He told me and I smiled once more at him. I never thought I'd be in a place where I could call the Governor of Georgia by his first name.
I followed Giuseppe's directions and came to a door with music pouring out of. I knocked once before opening the door and stepping inside.
"Elena? What are you doing here?" He asked looking up from a text book that was sitting on his lap on his bed.
"I'm here because I needed to speak to you. I hope it's okay that I'm here." I said nervous now.
"Of course, it is. I wasn't lying when I said I'd always be here for you." He told me and I smiled.
"I'm glad you still feel that way, because after all day of Caroline telling me that I'm crazy and tonight at dinner Scarlett told me she wants you to be her new daddy which I know is a big step. But after all that I realized that I'm doing more harm than good keeping us apart. I want to be with you, Damon." I told him wringing my hands together, not sure what I'd do if he turned me down.
"You want us to be together?" He asked me and I nodded.
"What happened to waiting until after the custody thing?" He asked me and I shrugged.
"Everyone including your father assured me that it will not only not hurt my case, it might actually benefit it." I told him. He rose off his bed and walked over to where I was standing.
"Well I for one am excited you finally started listening to reason." He said before closing the distance between us and kissing me. I kissed him back, and I found my arms winding their way around his neck.
"I've wanted this for so long." I whispered against his lips and I felt him smile.
"Not as long as I have." He told me and I laughed. His hands weren't straying from my face and I realized in that moment that I wanted to go further with him. The last time I'd had sex was the night I got pregnant with Scarlett, but that wasn't going to stop me now.
"If it's all right with you, I want more." I whispered. In response he just kissed me harder, his lips brutal against mine.
"I'll go as far as you're willing. If all you want to do is kiss and cuddle, that's cool with me. If you want to have sex, that's also quite awesome. It's totally up to you." He assured me.
"Good because I want sex." I told him boldly. Bold wasn't usually my style, but I knew I needed to be vocal. Damon would never take more from me than I wanted to give, and I wanted this more than I would be able to express.
"I'm not going to fight with you." He told me before pressing his lips to mine once more. This time his hands did not remain idle, they ghosted over my back and under my shirt but over the band of my bra. I could feel his hands playing with the snap.
"I have wanted this from the first moment I saw you, before I knew anything about you." He told me and I smiled against his lips.
"I'm just warning you, I haven't had sex since the night I got pregnant with Scarlett, so it might not be very good." I warned him and he shook his head.
"That's the last thing you should be worried about." He said as he spun us around and walked us back towards his bed. When my knees hit the edge of his bed I sat down and he stepped back momentarily; just long enough to pull his shirt over his head. I was glad he was willing to be the first one to remove an article of clothing because the idea of being the first to strip made me feel anxious. Taking a deep breath, I pulled my own shirt over my head acutely aware of his eyes never leaving me. I was wearing a simple black bra, but you'd think I was wearing something beautiful from Victoria's Secret by the way he was looking at me.
"Shit, you're beautiful." He said and I smiled at him, my awkwardness all but gone. Our clothes started disappearing faster now and before I knew it he was kissing me again, gently lowering me to his bed as I slid back towards the pillows. We were both completely naked, but he was being careful with me. I wanted to be bold, I just wasn't sure if I had the capacity to do that. My hands moved down his back, and back up again.
"Are you sure you want this?" He asked. I could feel his erection against my hip from the way he was half lying on me, half spooning me.
"100%." I told him and he nodded with a smile.
"Thank God." He said and I smiled. This time I reconnected our lips and slowly pushed my tongue into his mouth.
"I want you." I whispered into his mouth, so he rolled so now he was on top of me in between my newly spread thighs. He rose up so he was on his knees between my legs with his hand wrapped around his erection. He was far bigger than Liam was but considering I'd pushed a baby out of my vagina, I was fairly confident he would fit too.
"Are you ready?" He asked and I nodded. My body was practically quivering with need as he guided himself to my core. When he slowly started pushing in, I was shocked at how full I felt. It had been so long since the last time that in some ways it almost reminded me of my first time again. My walls were stretching to accommodate Damon's girth, but unlike the first time there was very little pain. It was an unusual sensation once again, but it was far from uncomfortable. Once he was fully seated inside me, he bent down and covered my body with his. He almost immediately started kissing me again as he locked both of our hands together above my hand as his hips started thrusting into mine.
"Oh my God, this is so good." I sighed as I wrapped my legs around his waist to hold him closer to my body. We were skin on skin completely and the connection was startlingly intense. I was relieved that he had thought to put on a condom before starting because I wasn't sure I wanted him to pull out. I wanted both of us to be completely certain we were clean, then we would be trying this without the barrier. I wanted to feel him inside me, not latex. I was on the pill so we would be covered.
"I'm so close." He grunted in my ear and I was impressed he was being so composed. I was having a hard time keeping my noises to myself, but he just seemed to be single mindedly aiming to get us both to orgasm.
"Me too." I said as I squeezed my eyes closed as he hit a particularly sensitive spot inside me. If he kept doing what he was doing, he was going to make me come for the first time ever, not including the orgasms I gave myself over the years. The whole time I was with Liam, he had never been able to make me feel a fraction of the things that Damon has tonight.
"Come for me." He whispered urgently as he reached between us and started strumming my clit expertly. His efforts paid off tenfold and I came, over barely managing to conceal the scream that threatened to erupt from my throat. I had never known an orgasm could be so powerful, it was a sign just how deprived I'd been sex-wise. He followed almost immediately behind me, spilling into the condom. He pressed one more kiss to my lips before pulling himself from my body and walking into the en-suite bathroom to dispose of the condom. When he was finished he walked right back to the bed and hopped in beside me where I was still recovering use of my extremities after the mind-blowing orgasm.
"Can I get you anything?" He asked me and I leaned over to kiss him.
"I'm fine." I told him and he kissed me once more.
"Water or anything? Soda? Munchies? Ice cream? Movies?" He asked and I smiled.
"If you're insisting, some ice cream would be nice. And maybe a couple movies." I told him. Caroline was expecting me to stay the night, so if that was something he was open to, I would gladly stay up all night with him and just go to school very tired the next day.
"As you wish." He said jumping out of bed and pulling on his pants. "I'll be right back, make yourself at home." While he was gone I pulled the sheet from the bed and wrapped it around myself as I snooped around his room a bit. I saw trophies from football and soccer from back when he was a child. When I walked into his bathroom I was amazed at the clawfoot tub and walk in shower that adorned the room. Damon's private bathroom was nicer than the one I shared with Scarlett and Caroline. I would kill to have a bath in that tub at some point, but it wasn't in the agenda for tonight. I was happy eating ice cream and watching movies in bed with him. I would be happier if he didn't insist we put clothes on too. Sleeping naked next to him seemed very appealing. When he came back into the room I was standing at the balcony doors looking outside. He had definitely won sort of bet against Stefan to be given the most kickass bedroom. It scared me to imagine the master bedroom of the house if this is what his bedroom looked like. He came up behind me and I felt a smile appear on my face as he kissed my shoulder.
"What are you looking at?" He asked softly and I shrugged.
"I just wanted to look outside." I said just as softly.
"Are you regretting what we did?" He asked before kissing my shoulder again.
"Absolutely not. I'd do it again in a heartbeat. But right now, ice cream and movies are more appealing." I told him.
"Ouch. We had sex once and already there are things more appealing?" He asked with a mock hurt look on his face.
"Yeah… ice cream. But you come in a very close second." I responded and he spun me around to face him with a mock glare on his face.
"Well then you better run because you're in for a world of trouble now." He said before I backed out of his embrace and rushed back to the bed.