Without You Chapter 4- Time to Move
It had been a week since I had learnt the truth about my curse, and everyone has decided to leave the Black Manor before someone finds us. Hermione came to talk to me while we packed. I handed her the book she looked at me confused and then asked me, "Why are you handing me this book?"
"Because out of everyone I know, you are the only person I trust with the knowledge this book contains."
"What's in this book?"
"The curses of each pureblood family and what they do."
She looked so shocked. "You trust me with knowledge that has been lost since Merlin's time. It has not only info on your curse, but all of them. Thank you for your trust."
"Hermione, I would be a fool not to trust you after all you've done for me. You convinced Weasley that I wasn't a spy, you healed me, and are letting me join you even though I have done nothing but hurt and mock for as long as I've known you. So, this is the least I could do in return."
She hugged me after I finished speaking and left me to what I was doing. As I finished Harry entered the room and watched me for a while before he spoke. "You call Hermione by her first name, but Ron and I get called by our last names. Why is that?"
"Hermione came to me and spoke to me as she healed my wounds and told me that she forgave me for everything I'd done to her. I figured the least I could was call her by her name."
"That actually makes you sound like a human being. Have you thought about telling the person you love how you feel?"
The tug of magic and pull of emotion in me made me weaker, but my will was stronger. "I told you Potter, I will tell them when this is all over."
"Can you tell me what it was like finding someone you love?"
"Potter…"
"You only have to tell me once then I won't ever ask again I promise."
"Fine, but don't laugh."
"I won't."
"Hah… It was shocking once I realized I loved them. At first, I was jealous of what they had with friends then as I got older I kept looking at them wondering when I could be the one to make them smile, to be the one who would make them want to try harder. I thought that it was a faze, something I would grow out of, but I never stopped hoping that I'd make them smile. I felt like I was going to die when I heard that my parents sided with Voldemort because I knew that meant that I would one to hurt them the most. Then I knew no matter what would happen I couldn't tell them, because they live in the light and I- I am stuck in the dark. They mean the world to me, and as much as I want to tell them, I am not worthy of anything they give me."
Harry was silent for a long time and I watched him as he thought about what I said. He looked sad, confused, and mad all at once. His response was what shocked me the most. "Draco, if anyone said that about me I'd fall in love with them. Now we best be going it's not safe here anymore."
I felt like my adventure was just starting and without any clue as to what was going to happen to us next we left the Black Manor. I was wondering where we were going to go next and if the curse on me will get any stronger or if I will die before I can tell Harry that he's the one I was talking about. My world was changing and I wasn't sure I was as ready as the golden trio was for this change.