Without You Chapter 6-Harry's Determination
I was completely shocked by the words coming from Harry's mouth. I stood solid, trying to convince myself that I would not get any closer to him then I was, but instead of standing still I took one step closer. The pull to lean into his ears and whisper the words I've been longing to say to him was so strong that I opened my mouth and was about to say them when Hermione apparated right next to me. I stopped, but Harry didn't. "Draco, I expect an answer later. Don't think Hermione popping in is going to stop me from knowing." He walked away leaving me with Hermione. She stared at me with questioning eyes. I whispered to her, "He told me he loves me and wants to know whom I love, he doesn't know that the curse has been activated. He still thinks I am just worried that I might have it activated. I can't risk telling him now, maybe before but now…? Impossible."
"Why is it different now?"
"Because he told me how he felt. If I were to tell him, I'd turn Veela and since he already accepted my love if he isn't my mate I will leave him the moment I finish telling him how I feel."
"But, that's so cruel."
"That's why it's called a curse Hermione. Can you help me stall him for as long as possible?"
"I will try."
"Thank you."
I spent the next couple of days watching the three of them try and destroy the horcrux to no avail. Since nothing could break it we brought it with us while we traveled in search for the other ones. After a while Wesley started to act all weird when Hermione would get happy with Harry and eventually leave the three of us alone. We continued to search for the Sword of Gryffindor to destroy the one we had. I remembered it being in my aunts vault with a bunch of other things but it didn't matter the only way in was to either be my aunt or to pretend to be her.
Even though they had gotten some hair from her when leaving the Manor, it did not mean that it was the best course of action. So, they thought of a plan without me. When they were done Hermione went to find water so Harry and I were left alone.
"I know that you are afraid, but if you don't tell me how you feel I will be empty for a long time wondering if you feel the same for me."
My heart hurt and twisted on those words. I turned to him ready to tell him everything, but I was stopped as soon as I saw his face. "I know it will hurt not knowing, Harry, but trust me it will be all worth it when you win this war and destroy the cruelest monster in this world. You will survive this war Harry and if you don't I will have no reason to carry on. If I could tell you without risk of betraying my heart I would, but there is too much at risk. I can't-won't- risk letting the curse get me."
"You know that I will keep pestering you, nagging you, convincing you, that I am worth the risk."
"I know."
"Then why not save us both the trouble and just tell me now."
"Because you forget one crucial thing about me, I'm a Slytherin which means I am cunning and that I have a reason for everything. Maybe I want you to spend the rest of this time thinking about me to such a degree that you can't consider death as an option. You won't know why until I let you, so enjoy the time trying to seduce me Harry because you never know what happens."
I walked away forcing each and every step away from him and the warmth that cascaded down my body whenever I was around him. I wanted to turn around run to him and wrap my arms and confess everything to him, but I couldn't lose him I just couldn't not when I wanted to be with him more and more.
The curse was getting stronger my feet were getting heavier and I felt as if I was falling before I blacked out. I swear that just before I blacked out I saw Harry running towards me with tears running down his face. I also felt arms holding me as if I was a baby. I was carried gently and before I was pulled too deep into the realm of sleep I felt that I could spend forever in these arms and never regret a thing. I dreamt of Harry all throughout the night wondering if he would be there when I awoke.