Without You- Chapter 8 Empty

I was cold and lost, the pain was unbearable, but I knew I couldn't stay put. So, through the pain I stood up and left the cave. The pull that never hurt before, was pulling me down to the ground with each step I took. If I ever doubted that the curse was activated before I knew right then that it was in fact what I was feeling. Each step was like stepping on glass with sharped edges.

I walked until I couldn't walk anymore. Then I apparated to the one place I could think of and blacked out once I arrived. It was dark and I had many dreams. And Nightmares. I was dreaming of Harry's laughter, Harry's eyes, the way he smiles, everything about him till I thought I could see him right in front of me.

Then the nightmares got worse and worse until all I dreamed where them. I was lost in the nightmares that plagued my mind and it was all I could see. It felt like I spent years in the darkness, but when I awoke I was glad to know that only a month had gone by.

I woke up in the medical wing of Hogwarts. The first person I saw when I woke up was Madam Pomfrey and the second was Neville Longbottom who was talking with her.

"But, Madam he might be a spy."

"Mr. Longbottom! This young man was missing for entire year! Even if he was a spy Dumbledore would've wanted him treated just like any student! I will not let you hurt him in any way!"

I decided to speak up. "Longbottom… I know you won't believe me, but… I was with Harry, Ron, and Hermione just before I fainted. Ron had left the three of us before we went to Godric's Hallow and the two of them had to leave quickly and left me behind. If you don't believe me stored in my wand are memories of the time I spent with them. You are free to look at them. I am going to go to the restroom now."

I left the Hospital wing and wandered the halls of Hogwarts and entered the girl's bathroom. Moaning Myrtle no longer stuck to this girl's room for some reason so I sat in there feeling useless and worst of all empty. I had never felt so un-full until this day when I hadn't seen him, haven't held him, haven't heard his voice, haven't… haven't… haven't. "Harry…," my voice croaked, "I miss you…" The words didn't feel enough, but I struggled to find the whole of what it was. "I need you…" Still it wasn't enough.

"I can't breathe without you…" Still wasn't it.

"I can't be me without you…" Not enough.

"Without you…" I couldn't find the words to say.

So, I asked a question. "Harry, without you… Who is it I'm going to love?"

I felt like stone as I sunk onto the floor. I saw Longbottom staring at me, and I wiped my face to find tears. "I saw your memories, and I believe you. I won't ask you about what I just witnessed, but I will tell you this. You better tell him what I just saw if he lives through this."

He left after that not a single word needed to be said after that. I was alone, empty, and cold as I cried my heart out for the first time.

I spent days in and out of the girl's room away from the place that I met him. Everywhere I looked I couldn't help but think of him, not even the girl's room. Still, it was quiet and I needed that. I would continue to go to the mirror and try to find those lost words. But, I never could. They were as lost as a sailor alone on the sea for the first time. I would try to find them, but I always end up back on the floor with Longbottom dragging me back to the Hospital Wing.

I don't know how long I spent in the loop of going to the girl's room, trying to find the words, falling to the floor, and having Longbottom drag me back to the Hospital Wing, but soon news of Harry on his way to Hogwarts made its way into my ears. I was so many things at once that I couldn't tell what it was I was feeling so I went to the girl's room on a day I usually didn't faced the mirror and saw the smile on my face.

I saw it and I knew what it was I had to say. "Harry Potter, it's you. You're the one I love."

I felt this since of wholeness till I heard a sharp gasp. I turned around and saw…

Harry Potter, The Boy Who Lived to Steal My Heart.

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