Chapter 14- A Day in the Dark
It had been a month since the Battle had occurred, and with the completion of rebuilding Hogwarts lead to the start of grieving. People had started to ask Harry to go to funerals once Hogwarts looked to be about finished. At first, he asked me to come, but I looked at him and said.
"I should not go. Even if my name is clear my Fathers is not. No one should have to look at the Death Eaters son while they bury their loved one who fought against Death Eaters. I do not wish to make this harder on the grieving. Would you please go without me?"
He didn't answer me with his voice, but rather is nodding head. So, after three weeks of dating I had to let him leave my side. I watched him leave Hogwarts wearing Gryffindor colors, as if he was going on a school trip. I could feel the sadness in the air.
I turned back and entered into Hogwarts. I went to search through the library in hopes to figuring out what caused my hard problem. It was hard to concentrate on any of the books, and it didn't take long for me to give up the search. I sat back in the chair and realized that this, besides going to sleep, was the first time I hadn't spent time with Harry. I suddenly felt really cold, and empty. It was as if all the light and warmth of the world was drained from it. It hurt to breath, and not smell his sent, it felt like something was missing from everything. It was like I was locked in that dark room chained and in pain.
I was in the dark with no where to go. I hadn't realized that I feared anything anymore, but I was wrong. In the dark, every turn had visions of death, which wouldn't normally scare me except, they were all of Harry dying in front of me. I was terrified. The pain of breathing got worse, it got colder, and colors had all been drained from everything. I sat there wondering if everything was just a dream, that I hadn't been saved, that I wasn't a Veela, that Harry didn't love me. With every thought it got darker and colder, and breathing was almost impossible.
That was till I smelt the familiar smell of rain in fall, like chocolate being heated up, like vanilla in the wind, like Harry. I turned towards the door, and was shocked not to see Harry, but rather Luna. "You shouldn't have let him go alone quiet yet, the Nargels will get you." She handed me a shirt I recognized as Harry's. I held it breathing without pain for the first time that day.
"How did you know that would happen?"
"She didn't, but I read up on Veela when you handed me the book. It was so I would know what would happen. Just so you know, you and Harry might be mates, but that doesn't mean you are bonded."
Hermione appeared behind Luna a book in her hand. "I know that Hermione, but that doesn't mean I can't let him out of my sight for one day…I'm an idiot, aren't I?"
Both Luna and she nodded their heads. "You forgot that Veela, who have found their mate but haven't completed the bonds, once away from their mate will slowly fall into a sleep state until either their mate is there, or something with the scent of the mate is near them. That is something you should remember until your bonded to Harry."
"I know Hermione, but that only happens to…Oh my… I am a submissive Veela aren't I?"
"Well this is only one of the things to test it, but if you have other signs of it then my answer is yes."
I blushed remembering the times I had to get over the problem I have been having. "Trust me, all of the signs are there."
"Wow that means…"
"I know. Hermione thanks for the shirt. I would have hated feinting in the library, and I wouldn't have enjoyed waking up to his face covered in tears."
She stopped and looked me in the eyes while saying, "You have to tell him the truth, sooner rather than later. He needs to know before you to bond for life."
"I know, but can I at least have the rest of today before I tell him."
"Of course, its not something most people would just automatically understand. Take the time but promise me you'll tell him."
"I promise. Hermione… will you and Luna please stay with me?"
They looked at each other and answered in unison. "Yes"
Though I didn't feel that overwhelming feeling of darkness anymore I did learn why I was having that hard problem, and it was not something that I was aware of until this day of darkness. It gave me much to think about and I had to consider how Harry would take the news. I just hoped I would never have one of these dark days ever again.