This chapter has been finished for about a week but I've been too busy with University to publish it. I'll try and be more organised this week. Thank you so much for all the positive reviews. I especially enjoyed 37's review which genuinely made me laugh out loud. Believe me, Andrew will get what's coming to him

After a while of walking, I ended up at the water tower with a six pack of beer which is now empty. It had been a few months since I had had a drink but now my reason to stay sober is gone so what's the point? The beer had done its job and numbed the pain.

I look out at Point place as I sit with my legs dangling over the edge of the Water Tower. I look behind me and all the graffiti is still visible, the massive pot leaf still giving you the finger. I just laugh and shake my head at how immature we were. We may have been immature but we had some amazing times.

6 Years ago-

I lean into Steven's arms, feeling on edge as I watch Michael and Fez standing on the rail so they can spray paint the water tower. "Be careful. I've had enough with you falling off this tower."

Steven wraps an arm around me "Don't worry, it's not like they can lose any more brain cells."

I look up at him "Why is it that we spend so much time up here? We could be doing something fun"

"What's more fun than tagging the water tower and then laughing when Kelso falls off?"

"I can think of a lot of more fun things we could be doing like shopping..." I smirk at him "or that thing we do when we're alone"

He nods "I don't agree with the shopping but I do enjoy the other thing. We can do that later"

I sigh in defeat as I lay my head on his shoulder "Fine."

Michael looks at us both with a wide grin on his face "You know what's funny? I did that other thing with Jackie first."

"Excuse me" Steven gently moves me out of his way before walking to Michael and punching him in the arm.

Michael frowns as he touches his arm "Ow! You don't hit a guy who could fall to his death."

"Come on Kelso, you've fallen off that water tower loads of times and nothing too bad has ever happened" Eric points out.

Hyde shakes his head as he puts his arm around me again "Don't say that Forman, he was probably Einstein before."

Sighing as I stand up, I take a last look at the view of point place before shakily climbing down the ladder.

"Jackie?"

I freeze at the sound of a familiar voice, suddenly feeling very drunk. I lose my grip on the ladder and start to fall the small distance to the ground.

"Shit! You okay?"

I look up at the location of the voice, coming face to face with my ex-boyfriend who had broken my heart 5 and a half years ago. "I'm fine" I assure him as I stand up and shake any mud off my clothes. "I probably shouldn't have chosen the water tower as my drinking spot"

"What are you doing here? I thought you had a fancy life in New York. You obviously do if that rock on your finger is any indication." He keeps his eyes on the ring, not showing any emotion.

I frown "Yeah. I guess you could say that."

"I didn't think you'd ever come back once you found someone to give you your perfect life." He comments, almost sounding bitter.

I nod "I didn't think I would. I needed to get away and obviously Donna's wedding." I frown "Not that I'm welcome"

"Whatever."

I just stare at him, remembering the familiar Zen tone "I should go."

"No way am I letting you drive home drunk."

"Well lucky for both of us, I didn't drive here."

He rolls his eyes "Come on. I'll drive you home"

I shake my head "No way." I start walking away but immediately stumble causing Hyde to reach out to steady me.

He smirks "I don't think I've seen you drunk before."

I glare at him "You always drank enough for both of us." I sigh "A ride would be nice. Thank you"

He turns and we start walking to his car "So where are you staying?"

"With the Forman's."

Hyde unlocks the car and we both climb in "So what are you doing back in Point Place? Your poor husband already been driven mad?"

I look down at his words. I had honestly wondered this over and over again. Maybe I'm the problem? I must be doing something wrong since all the men I've been with have seemed happier without me. Andrew seemed like a nice guy when I met him, he was a perfect gentleman. It wasn't until a few months into our relationship that he became aggressive. So maybe I made him that way? I already know that I'm the one who made Michael cheat on me because I made him feel bad about himself and Steven and I broke up because I pressured him for a commitment. It's all my fault.

"What? No crappy comeback?"

I look at him "Don't pretend to know anything about my life."

"Come on, you turn up after 5 years with a giant rock on your finger and you expect me to believe you've changed at all?

I frown at the ring on my finger. To me, this piece of jewellery is a symbol of just how much I've changed but to everyone else; they just see it as a sign that I'm still the same shallow, materialistic girl I always was.

"You didn't seem to mind me too much before, what's changed now?"

He glares at me "I was sleeping with you then. It didn't matter if I liked you."

I feel like I've been punched in the stomach and It's worse than any other hit I've endured. "Stop the car"

"What?"

"You heard me. Stop the car. I'll walk the rest of the way."

Hyde sighs "Come on Jackie, I'm going to the Forman's anyway."

I shake my head at him "No I'm not sitting in this car with you any longer."

"Why? Because you haven't had the warm welcome you expected?" He stops the car on the side of the road and turns to me.

I stare at him, feeling tears form in my eyes "For you to say something so cruel, after everything we've been through..." I stop and wipe away the tears "You know what? It doesn't even matter anymore. Nothing matters anymore"

"Jackie..."

I ignore him as I climb out the car and start walking. How could I have expected my old friends to react well to me suddenly reappearing after being gone for 5 years? We hadn't been on the best terms when I left and things obviously hadn't improved since then. How could I have been so naïve to believe the idea that time heals all wounds? My life isn't a wound, it's more like parts of me are being torn off and I'm just left with the shell of who I use to be.

"Jackie! Come on! Get back in the car" I ignore him and continue walking. I'm actually quite surprised he's following me. I didn't think he cared enough. How dare he pretend to care now. I stop and swing my body around to face him.

"Can I just remind you that I was the one who got her heart broken 5 years ago? You pulled off an epic burn and I was destroyed while you were perfectly fine!" I scream at him.

"Jackie… calm down."

"Why? Why did I come back? Why the hell did I leave in the first place? Why did I go into the basement that day? Why did I start dating Michael all those years ago? Why do I do anything?!" I'm crying at this point and Stephen is just staring at me as I break in front of him.

"Jackie, what happened?"

I stop and look at him "I got exactly what I deserved"

He walks towards me "Come on Jackie. Your drunk and emotional. You'll feel better if you just go home and sleep it off."

I glare at him "Home? I don't have a home. I can't go back to New York, I have no idea where my parents are and I'm staying in the bedroom where Michael probably cheated on me. I should just jump off that water tower and do everyone a favour."

Hyde grabs my arms to stop me moving "Jackie, you know that's not true. Our parents suck, that's one thing we always had in common. That's why we worked."

"It didn't work though. You made that very clear."

5 years ago-

I walk into the basement, ready to hide from Fez and the hurt that I know will be all over his face. The reality of being with me didn't live up to the dreams he always had and that's my fault. I can't be fully committed to him when I'm still madly in love with someone else. Just as I throw myself back on the sofa, the door opens and one of my ex-boyfriends and the cause of my heartbreak walks in.

"Hyde..."

Stephen looks at me, not expecting me to use his last name. "What are you doing here?" he asks as he sits on the sofa next to me.

"Fez and I broke up."

He looks at me "What happened? He came to his senses?"

I glare at him "I wasn't what he expected."

"What? You weren't virgin Mary? You are more like the devil."

"no. that I'm not his dream girl."

"Don't let that get to you, he's spent the last 5 years wanting you and then he had you."

I frown "Don't act like you suddenly care."

"You're my ex-girlfriend. Of course, I care." Hyde points out.

"Then what happened? Why couldn't we make it work?"

He sighs "Don't be like that Jackie, it's not you. You know you're better than all that self-loathing crap"

I just stare at him, suddenly feeling more appreciated than I did throughout most of our relationship. This is what I wanted from him, to feel like he knows me and appreciates me. Before I can even try and stop myself, I'm leaning forward and planting my lips on his.

Stephen pulls away and stares at me for a moment before responding eagerly. His hands in my hair as our mouths perfectly move together.

He sighs "Relationships don't work Jackie. The only relationships that work are the ones that are practically a business deal. That's what you always wanted, a guy to earn loads of money for you to spend. You left Point place and that's what you got. So why come back here feeling sorry for yourself?"

I frown, staring at the designer boots on my feet. He's right, I got what I always said I wanted but now It's not what I want. Is it because of the way Andrew treats me? Is it because I've changed? or is it because I can never be happy with that fake life after experiencing something real when I was 18? "I guess I don't want that life anymore. It's not how I thought it would be."

"How did you think it would be?"

I look up at him, tears in my eyes. I can't believe I've let myself break down in front of Stephen. I didn't even do this when we were together. That's probably why he's looking at me so strange. It almost seems like he's worried. "Different"

I step out of Hyde's car as after he's parked on the Forman's drive. The whole car ride had been silent, I don't think either of us knows what to say anymore. Especially after my breakdown. I slide the back door open and a room full of people turn to us, 4 pairs of eyes widening simultaneously.

"What are you 2 doing together?" Eric asks us.

Donna raises an eyebrow "How are you not killing each other?"

I shrug my shoulders "We're mature adults. We can be in each other's company without arguing."

Mrs Forman walks towards me "Jackie, sweetheart, your mascara is smudged and you smell like beer. Are you okay?"

I nod, forcing a smile. "Yeah, I'm fine. Just needed to let off some steam."

Donna rolls her eyes "Yeah cause you don't have enough time to do that with all the shopping you do."

I just sigh and run a hand through my tangled hair "I can't deal with this right now. I need to take a shower and get some sleep."

"You'll probably want to see your guest first." Mr Forman says without even looking up from his lunch.

I freeze "Guest? What guest?"

Mrs Forman smiles "He'll be back down any second. Oh, Jackie, you didn't tell me how handsome he is."

I want to die right there. I thought I was safe here but he's found me. I feel like I could throw up. How could this be happening? I look at Stephen, wishing he could read my mind because I don't know if I'll ever have the courage to say the words out loud. I open my mouth to say something, anything but I don't have a chance because there's suddenly a figure at the living room door. He's looking at me and he's smiling.