Sophomore year was only two weeks away.
Summer had been fun but not as much as it should have been.
I only saw Edward twice since school got out six weeks ago.
And those two times were so quick it was possible that it was something my mind conjured up because of Edward's absence. I didn't even know what was really going on with him and his situation. He preferred not to go into detail about his life in and out of foster care, especially when there were other people around, and because I had only seen him at The Rec with only, I don't know, almost all of our grade there, he wasn't able to tell me what was happening or where he was or what he was doing or with who.
My misery didn't even remotely come close to that of Edward's, but I was miserable without him. I had Rose and Alice and we had even gotten part time jobs over the course of the summer, and for the most part working at the library downtown was enough to occupy my time and thoughts, but it hit me at random times. Certain things we did or places we went just made his absence all the more noticeable.
With only two more weeks to go until school started again, we had all gotten our class schedules and had spent most of our time comparing them with each other to see if we were in any classes together. The whole time at The Rec when we were passing them all around, relief on all of our faces to see that we at least knew one person in each class, I couldn't help but wonder where Edward was, or if he was even going to go to school with us this year at all.
I know Edward wouldn't just vanish like this if things were up to him. If he was the one in control. He was sixteen years old now and one of the things he told me a long time ago was that all he needed to do was hold on until he was eighteen and then he'd be free to live any way and anywhere he wanted to. It was bold and naive but after years of slipping through the cracks the way that Edward had, I doubted that Edward would say those words and not mean it.
It was a Thursday night, and I was in my room finishing up a book for a summer reading assignment. I had all summer to read it and write a paper on it but being the teenager I was, of course I waited until this week to start it. I always managed to make good grades in all of my classes, no matter how much I procrastinated, so Mom wasn't on my case about it too much until a few days ago.
And considering how bored I was now that Edward was almost a figment of my imagination, I didn't protest.
It was a perfect night to curl up with a book hidden in my bed beneath the covers, actually. A summer thunderstorm had just rolled through, and the remaining drizzle fell softly against my bedroom windows. If I hadn't finished my book a few minutes ago, it could have lulled me to sleep.
Flipping my purple comforter off of me, I dropped my book on my desk and opened my bedroom door quietly, not wanting to wake my mom up from her room down the hall. My dad was working tonight and since it was just us girls and my homework, Mom had drifted off to bed a while ago. I tiptoed to the bathroom and shut the door softly, looking at my reflection in the mirror before brushing my teeth.
Like every summer, Emmett had tried to convince Carlisle and Felix to put up a pool at The Rec. And as usual, they said no, so we had to find other ways to soak up some Vitamin D. It took them three weeks to find it, but Emmett and Jasper had found a trail that led to a shallow wading pool surrounded by trees and large rocks. It wasn't too far away from The Rec so all we did was bring our swimming stuff and headed out for the day. It made for fun times beneath the sun and as I watched myself in the mirror after I finished brushing my teeth, I couldn't help but notice the tan that covered my skin. I ran a hand through my hair, watching it as it fell past my shoulders and stopped near my shoulder blades. It was wild and thick, the summer air permanently residing in the ebbs and waves of the dark curls. I groaned out loud in the bathroom just thinking about the knot it would be in the morning, and I debated cutting it all off as I walked back into my room and shut my door behind me.
The rain started up again, and I heard the soft knocking from the tree branch outside my window knock against the window panes. Bored, I resigned myself to turning off my bedroom light and turning the TV on. After a few minutes of channel surfing, I settled on MTV and snuggled deep into my blankets, my sheets feeling cool against my bare skin. There was a fan settled in the corner of my room attempting to cool me off, but it did little when it came to the summer heat. I was finally comfortable in a pair of pink pajama shorts and a white tank top.
I tried to get into another episode of The Real World/Road Rules Challenge, but the rain and wind from outside intensified, the pitter patter against my window making it difficult to concentrate. The sound was sporadic, not a rhythmic sound that I could fall asleep to. It wasn't too late, only a little after ten, and I didn't have any plans at all the next day. I was off from the library, and if the rain continued like it did now, we wouldn't be able to go swimming like we wanted to. We wanted to soak it all up in our time remaining before school started.
A louder thwack against my window made me turn towards it quickly, my heart beating loudly inside my chest. Another thwack followed, and my first instinct was to run but curiosity had always gotten the best of me. It went against all the years of lecture after lecture after lecture from Dad about being a young girl in today's world, and to never investigate strange noises. Especially at night.
When another sound appeared at my window, I cautiously took two steps forward, looking around my room quickly to see if there was anything near me I could use as a weapon. Well, considering that my dad always declared the state of my room as a natural disaster, I could almost hear him say that one step in my room and any intruder would just get lost in here underneath the piles of clothes and books and movies and other random stuff that any teenage girl had to have in her possession. It wasn't that bad at all, truthfully.
I neared my window now, and I slowly peered one eye over the curtain, hoping to figure out what it was exactly that was making me look as ridiculous as I did at the moment.
Thwack!
I jumped down to the floor and crouched in the space between my window and the floor. I could have ran like a bat out of hell to Mom's room but instead I very slowly moved myself up the wall until only my forehead and eyes were visible to the outside world through my window.
Nothing.
There was nothing out there, and I noticed that the tree was barely moving and it wasn't even raining.
I was comforted for a split second, knowing that I wasn't able to see anything outside, but if it wasn't raining or windy, then what was that sound?
The sound hit against the window one more time, and I ducked so fast I thought I might hit my chin on the window sill.
That's it. I'm out of here.
I bolted as fast as I could in an army crawl towards my door, but a completely different sound stalled me in my tracks.
Bella.
It was my name!
There was something out there, and whatever it was knew my name.
"Bella!"
It sounded familiar, even though it was coming from outside and a story beneath me.
Heading back towards the window, I moved the curtain an inch to the left, and once I saw his coppery brown hair in the moonlight, a completely different sensation ran through my body.
I couldn't get the window open fast enough.
"Edward? What are you doing here?!" I whisper yelled to the crazy boy below. I looked over my shoulder towards my door to make sure Mom hadn't heard any of this.
He was looking up at me in the darkness but I saw him shrug like it was no big deal for him to show up at my window this late at night. "You weren't at The Rec."
"So you decided to throw rocks at my window?"
He shook his head, holding up a small white and green box. "No, not rocks. Junior Mints."
"Eh, I guess it's not such a waste. Those things suck," I said, crunching my nose in disgust.
"Are you crazy? These things are the best."
"Am I crazy? You're the one throwing candy at a girl's window like it's 1952."
I saw him start to laugh and he held his hands up in defeat. "Alright, fine. Are you gonna let me up?"
"Wouldn't it be easier to just go through the front door?"
"No. This is cooler."
He was right. This was definitely more exciting than your standard walk through a front door. I looked down as he eyed his ascent and I shook my head and covered my eyes.
"Okay, but I'm not sure I can watch you do this."
"I got this."
He most certainly did not…."got this". It was painful watching him try to maneuver himself through this ancient tree of mine, and a few times I thought he was actually going to die. Once he made the leap from the tree to my window sill, it wasn't a pretty landing.
It was louder than he intended, and we stood still for a few moments after I helped haul his long legs into my room, hoping that the noise of my TV would drown out the fact that Edward had just climbed through my bedroom window. Once we were sure my mom was still asleep and my door was locked, I slapped him hard on the shoulder.
"Are you trying to kill me? You scared me half to death!" I held a hand to my chest.
Edward grabbed his shoulder in mock pain. "Ow, hey! Not a nice way to greet a visitor." I rolled my eyes at him and crossed my arms over my chest, suddenly realizing how little I was wearing at the moment. He noticed too, and I let his eyes travel down my legs, only to meet mine once he was finished. He gave me a small smirk in approval so I slapped him again before he pulled me in for a hug.
I buried my face in his chest, inhaling his scent for the first time in what felt like months. I closed my eyes and savored the moment.
"I missed you." I murmured into his chest, my arms wrapped around his waist. I felt his hands slide up and down my back and when he whispered back I almost melted in his arms.
"Me, too. You have no idea."
As much as I hated it, I pulled myself away from him and walked us over to my bed. We made ourselves as comfortable as we could without lying down. I reached for his hand, needing some type of contact from him. It warmed my heart to know that he didn't squirm away from my hand despite how long it was since we were able to see each other. "Where have you been? Are you okay?"
He nodded quickly, squeezing my fingers before loosening them just as fast. He swallowed in the dim light. "I'm fine now. Well, for now, I think." I urged him to continue, knowing that he would never tell me anything he didn't feel comfortable with and I never pushed him.
"The last house I was at didn't work out so I was back at the group home for a while. The older I get the harder it is to find a foster home, even a temporary one." Edward's eyes met mine and for the billionth time since I had met him all those years ago in fifth grade, I wondered why it was him. Why did I get so lucky to be adopted into such a warm and loving family when Edward had spent literally his whole life bouncing around from house to house? How could anyone look at him and not see him for who he was?
He never got into any trouble, well, any trouble that wasn't typical for a teenage boy in a rather obsolete town. My own father had nothing but nice things to say about him, and that tells you something. His grades never suffered, my mom said he was more polite than I was sometimes, he was a true and loyal friend to anyone that had ever crossed his path, and truthfully, I had no idea why he was the way he was considering life had given him every fucking reason not to be.
Throw in the fact that sometimes he was just too pretty to even look at sometimes, and it made me almost walk down the hall to ask my mom if we could adopt him ourselves. I shook my head back to the present, to the gorgeous boy sitting crisscrossed on my bed across from me.
"But they found you one?" I asked softly, keeping my voice low.
He nodded. "Yeah, a few day ago. They seem pretty cool even though I know they're only in it for the check. They don't seem to mind if I come home or not."
I felt sick for him and tilting my head, I asked, "How is that better than the group home?"
He shrugged as if I were asking for a piece of gum. "The less I have to check in with anyone, the better for me. There's no way in hell I'd be here right now if I was still at the home."
Right now, according to me, was heaven on earth. After spending a summer without him, this was well worth the wait. And he was worth everything.
"Yeah, I guess that's true. A head's up would have been nice, though." I smiled and he looked down at the blankets between us, a smirk appearing on the corner of his mouth. I tapped the box of candies he brought with him and looked at him strangely. "Junior Mints?"
He laughed and I reached over to cover his mouth so my mom wouldn't wake up. I pretended not to feel his lips against the palm of my hand. I moved my hands once I trusted them not to pull him towards me and start something I couldn't finish.
"Emmett," Edward said, leaning back onto the blankets so he was on his back staring up at the ceiling. He didn't move an inch when I got myself comfortable next to him onto my pillows. I wasn't planning on Edward being in my bed any time soon but I marveled at how comfortable and natural it felt to have him here. He continued. "I went over to The Rec earlier to see where everyone was and he was there. Just got back from a movie."
"Oh yeah, him and Rose went to see something, I forget what."
"Emmett and Rose?" He shot up from his spot on my bed, and I nodded slowly in a matter of fact.
"Yeah, I think they made it "official" a few weeks ago once school let out."
He didn't answer for a few seconds, and when he did his eyes kept wavering to my eyes, my lips and then back to his hands. "Is it…weird? To see them together after we've been friends since we were kids?"
He wasn't looking at me, so I wasn't sure if he saw me shrug like it was no big deal.
"Not really. They've been acting weird around us for like, forever it seems. Now that it's out in the open it doesn't seem like much changed. Except we do see them making out all the time."
He made a face before laughing. "I'll just have to get used to it."
Edward eventually reached for the remote and we flipped through the channels for a while until we realized that there wasn't much on TV for as late at night as it was. I don't know where the time went but that was always how it was with us. If it wasn't for the yawn that was trying to surface from deep within me, I could have stayed like this with him for hours more. I could tell he didn't want to leave as much as I wanted him to stay, and reluctantly he reached for his hoodie and slipped it on over his head, a sliver of skin peeking out from between his t shirt and the waistband of his boxers.
I held on to my nightstand for support.
"So do you think you'll be staying in Forks?" I asked as he gathered whatever else he brought with him. It wasn't much considering he practically forced me to eat those disgusting Junior Mints.
"They're trying to make it work out so I can finish high school here. And if things stay like this, then I think I'll be okay. I'll only have to go home to sleep."
"I didn't know if you were coming back." I didn't want him to leave without him knowing that. The minute he stepped foot out of this room, nothing was guaranteed as to when the next time I would see him would be.
"How could I leave?" Edward's voice was soft again, so soft that it could have swayed me off of my feet even more than I was already…swept.
"I was scared for you."
I felt his fingers on my chin, tilting my head so I was staring directly into those eyes of his that gave the Wizard of Oz a run for his money. He spoke with such conviction that I had no choice but to agree with him. "Don't be scared for me. Scared is the last thing I want you to think of me."
His eyes continued to search mine as I felt my own pool with tears, and I wiped them away before they could fall in front of him. "How could I not be scared? One minute you're here and the next, you're gone."
For the second time that night, Edward pulled me in for a hug so warm and comforting that I never wanted to let go. His voice was hidden in my hair but I heard it all the same. "I promised you a long time ago that I'll never be gone. I'll always find a way to reach you." He pulled back a little so I could see his face again. "They have these things called phones, have you heard of them?"
"No, shit." I gave him a little shove. "Seriously, though. I'm so glad you're here."
"Like I said, I'll never leave you."
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I was surprised how quickly I fell asleep once Edward had crawled out of my window and disappeared into the early morning light. The sun hadn't risen yet but I was still able to see him as he slipped passed the sleeping people in my neighborhood, going undetected from both my mom and anyone else.
Mom had given up on trying to get me out of bed at a decent hour, and when I finally rolled out of bed a little after noon, I felt refreshed and ready to spend the day with Edward. He said he'd be at The Rec as soon as he could, so I didn't waste any time in getting ready. Taking a glimpse out of my window, I saw that the rain from last night had subsided, so I quickly took a shower and slipped on a pair of jean shorts and a tank top. A little make up, some curl to my hair, and a pair of black sandals was all it took to have me bolting down the stairs, looking back and forth for my mom.
"Mom! Where are you?"
"I'm right here, sweetie." I heard the patience tested in her voice because she was, literally, right in front of my face.
"Oh, sorry. Didn't see you there. Can you take me over to The Rec?"
She looked at her watch. "Now? What about breakfast? Or lunch, in your case."
I waved her off, "There'll be food there."
"Okay, fine. What's the rush?"
"There's no rush. I just want to get there."
"Mmm Hmmm. But there's no rush."
"Nope, no rush at all. I'll meet you in the car?"
I didn't hear her response as I shut the front door behind me, taking the steps two at a time.
We made small talk on the way there, and she weaseled it out of me that Edward was back. I didn't tell her about our late night visit because if I did then it would never happen again, and I wanted more than anything to have a night like that every damn night.
"Call me and let me know what your plan is?" My mom said to me as I slipped out of her car. I nodded and waved goodbye and ran inside to loud cheers of excitement and happiness.
Edward was back and there was no doubt that this is where he belonged.
And for the day, we belonged in Port Angeles, to celebrate Edward's return. What there was to do in Port Angeles we weren't sure, but that was what Alice and Emmett had decided. More like demanded, but whatever. I didn't care where we were going as long as Edward was with us.
With Emmett being a senior this year, he finally, after what felt like forever, had gotten his license a couple of weeks ago and had promised Felix a month's worth of dinner dishes if he let him borrow his van so all of us could ride together. It took a lot of convincing, even after the repayment of the dishes, but eventually he tossed Emmett the keys and we ran out of there like the place was on fire.
We listened to loud music with the windows down, Jasper kind enough to blow the smoke from his cigarette out the window as we flew down the interstate. We were pretty much the epitome of the teenagers our parents warned us about.
We all exited the car relatively unscathed, and we wasted no time in finding the enjoyment that Port Angeles held. The weather was fair and when Alice and I went inside some of the stores that lined the streets around us, I was able to buy myself some earrings and a necklace with my own money from working at the library.
My dad would say that I shouldn't spend my hard earned money on something as trivial as a pair of earrings but what did he know about earrings, anyway?
The hours blurred together, images of hot dogs with mustard down by the pier and games on the boardwalk burning into my memory for the rest of time. I would always be able to hear the laughter from all of us, the smile on Edward's face as bright as the sun as it threatened to make an appearance over the water as the day ended and evening began.
With only a couple of dollars left between all of us to spare, our last stop was at a thrift store right near where we had parked Felix's huge van. We all joked at Emmett's expense on how bad ass he looked driving us all around like a soccer mom.
Not that any of us non-drivers could talk.
"Okay, whoever finds the coolest thing in here, wins." Emmett said. He motioned with his fingers once all six of us were in a small circle together. "Let's pool our money together."
"What are we winning?" Jasper asked.
"Ten, eleven…okay, twelve dollars is our limit."
"Am I looking for something that all of us could use?" Rose asked, putting her hand on her hips when Emmett shot her an exasperated look. "Just trying to follow the rules, Em."
"Okay, let's just go." Emmett led us inside and we all entered the store like the loud and boisterous teenagers we were. "Okay, break!"
We ended up splitting up into boys vs. girls, and even though I may have peed a little when Alice tried on this hat that was bigger than her body, I still hated being separated from Edward. All day long he had been right next to me, and a couple times I thought I felt his hand lightly touch my own. Just thinking about it was enough to distract me from our mission inside the thrift store.
"Ladies and Gentlemen, I think I may have found the winning ticket." We heard Jasper's voice from around the corner, and Alice, Rose and I dropped our finds to see what Jasper had found. We saw him standing over a white basket filled to the top with old VHS tapes. He had one of them in his hands.
"What is it?" Alice said, reaching over to see the name of the movie.
"This, little lady, is –"
"Is that porn?!" Emmett bellowed from over Jasper's shoulder, grabbing the tape out of his hands and bringing it closer so he could read it.
Edward snatched it from Emmett's hands before Emmett could figure out if it was or not. "Oh, yeah. Definitely porn."
Emmett snatched it back into his possession and tapped it against his fingers. "We are so buying this."
"Are you really going to buy that?" Alice screeched. I suddenly had no voice.
"Fuck yeah, we're buying it and we're all gonna watch it as soon as we get back."
"No way is my money going towards that," I said, crossing my arms.
"You can have your money back. This is probably only like, twenty nine cents. Let's go!"
And that is how I came to watch porn for the first time.
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"Guys, we're going to get in trouble," I hissed as we made our way into the room where the sick kids stayed at The Rec. It was the same room where we had found Emmett all those years ago with the bloodied lip, and not much had changed since the last time we had been in there.
Except that Edward was busy sliding an old VHS tape of porn into the VCR.
"No, we'll be fine. Just act natural," Jasper urged, closing the door behind him as we all sat on the cot with our backs against the wall.
"Act natural? How can I when I am about to watch porn made in the seventies?" Alice was against this as much as I was. Rose was absolutely no help whatsoever, and Alice and I watched as she made herself comfortable in the front row.
The only thing missing was her fucking popcorn.
I made sure to stay far away from Edward. I didn't know what to expect and I was so nervous that my teeth were chattering. I knew most of us in the room had never had sex before; Rose and Emmett were the closest ones to actually committing the deed. Maybe that was why they were so into it.
Gross.
"Shh, shh. It's starting," Jasper whispered from his spot on the cot. Alice and I looked at each other with unease.
"Wait, turn the volume down," Edward said. His voice combined with our current situation made my stomach tingle.
"We can't have the volume down. Too suspicious," Emmett muttered, his eyes never leaving the screen as the, I don't know what you'd call them, actors? appeared on the TV.
We left it on until the first article of clothing was removed. Alice covered her eyes with her hands, her fingers blocking the woman on screen.
"Why is there so much hair!?" Alice practically shouted. I took one look at the horror on her face and I lost it, unable to contain my laughter for any longer. Maybe I was nervous but I couldn't stop once I started, and eventually all of us were laughing so hard we could barely talk.
Rose hit the mute button before the woman's screams started echoing down the hall and Felix or Carlisle came in to see what we were doing.
"It'll be too obvious if we're all in here with a silent TV." Emmett argued.
"We'll be the voices, like that show Mystery Science Theater 3000 or some shit," Jasper responded. He pointed to the couple, and for a second we all stilled and watched in silence as his tongue did things I never thought possible to her.
Emmett continued in a girly voice, "You know I like it when you – "
"Touch me like this!" Jasper finished, singing that part of the song from this woman named Celine Dion my mom liked to listen to.
I don't think I laughed harder than I did that night. All of us virgins smushed together on a single cot, laughing at what used to be considered good porn. My sides hurt by the time the night was over, and as I was wiping the tears from my eyes, the credits began to roll onto the screen. We watched as the boys made a hasty retreat from the room with a promise over their shoulders to see us all tomorrow.
We all laughed at them as they disappeared to the privacy of their own homes.
"That was amazing!" Alice exclaimed, taking the video out of the VCR and hiding it inside of her purse. "I am definitely taking this home."
"Hey, why do you get to take it!" Rose retorted, reaching towards Alice's bag.
"Because you actually have a guy to do that with now, and I don't."
"Can you just hook up with Jasper already?" Rose asked her, tossing me the tape. "Edward, too?"
"I'd hook up with you if I keep watching stuff like that!" Alice joked.
We didn't leave the back room until much later, hours lost as we rehashed the tape and all the laughs that came with it. I didn't even realize that I had forgotten to call my mom, and I only was reminded when Carlisle came into the room and told me that she was here and was ready to take me home. The girls came with me and ended up staying at my house, and we may have watched the tape again behind my locked bedroom door well into the night.
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It was tradition at The Rec to have a last day of summer party on the last Friday before school started. The same kids went year after year and each year it got more and more elaborate as our creativity blossomed as we grew up. This year one of Felix's new employees, Esme, went all out in decorations to match the Luau theme we had all voted on some time back in July.
The only thing missing was the pig on a stick, but somewhere in the distance I smelled hot dogs on the grill. We had gone out last week with our paychecks still hot off the press, and had spent all of it on grass skirts and coconut bras (that my mom prohibited me from wearing unless I wore a bathing suit underneath and that my dad didn't even know existed) and pretty magenta flowers to tuck behind our ears.
We had spent the day getting ready for the night, each of us curling each other's hair and perfecting make up to hold up through the night's festivities. We made sure we each had a disposable camera to capture all the memories we could.
Carlisle's duty for the night was to be the human alcohol detector and we knew he would be on our asses all night, so we made sure to be safe and not do anything stupid like get us kicked out of one of our favorite traditions at The Rec.
At first I felt ridiculous getting out of Mom's car in my skirt, the plastic strings tickling my ankles as we walked through the grass into the large field behind The Rec. I had opted to not wear the coconut bra and instead I wore a white bikini top with a necklace of magenta flowers hanging from my neck.
We were late as always due to Rose wanting to make an entrance, and as usual, the guys were already there playing a game of volleyball in their floral print shirts. Alice snapped a picture before we joined them in their game.
Felix made his annual speech, and we bid adieu to another summer at The Rec, each of us lost in our own reflections as we watched the fire burn from inside the fire pit.
Felix held up his glass towards the sky, encouraging us to hold up our matching non-alcoholic drinks with him in unison. "To another year here at The Rec. I can only hope you all will look back on these years with as much joy and fulfillment as it has brought me."
His voice choked on the last word, and with that we all air-clinked our drinks with him.
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"Do you need a ride home?"
Edward and I were sitting in our tree watching what was left of the party disappear with only a few remaining people, mostly kids waiting for rides.
Edward shook his head, "Emmett's my ride."
"I think him and Rose split a little while ago."
He turned abruptly to search the people behind us, and I watched his shoulders slump in feigned annoyance. "Well, there goes my ride." I laughed.
"I can take you home. My mom's on her way," I said, swinging my feet in the air. The late summer evening had brought a chill to the air and I shivered. Edward pulled me to him like he always did and I felt warm again within seconds. I closed my eyes and let the breeze blow my hair across my back.
"Thanks, but he'll be back. Whenever they come up for air."
I rolled my eyes and chuckled, "You may be waiting a while then."
Edward dismissed my last comment, "Pshh, Emmett? I give them fifteen minutes."
After much review and analysis from our recent VHS purchase, I could argue that fifteen minutes seemed to be plenty of time to accomplish some…stuff.
Edward's voice interrupted my X rated thoughts. "I can't believe school starts on Tuesday."
I nodded in agreement, "This summer went by so fast. And it sucked until you came back around."
His arms wrapped tighter around me. "I could say the same thing about you."
"Really?" I looked up at him from my spot on his chest and he let his arms drop down my sides. He looked down at his lap.
"Of course. Everything sucks without you." He replied, and on his face I saw a glimpse of the vulnerability and inferiority that he always tried so hard to hide. I was tired of him not seeing how good he was and how much he had to offer to anyone. The world.
To me.
"I'm always here, Edward. I'm never going to leave you." In my almost sixteen years, I swear these words were the truest words I had ever spoken into existence.
He didn't answer me for a few minutes, and I was afraid my Mom would pull up before we could continue this conversation.
Edward took a deep breath before hesitantly catching my eye. "You're everything to me. In a world where sometimes all I have are the clothes on my back, the only thing that matters to me is you."
"You'll always have me."
Those were the last words out of my mouth before my life forever changed.
The feeling of Edward's lips on mine was better than anything I ever imagined in my head ever since I had started to dream about kissing boys. My head was spinning, my heart was beating uncontrollably in my chest, and my legs were shaking as the swinging they had been doing in the air gently eased to a stop. While on the inside I was slowly starting to come undone, my lips were matching his with every move as if their sole purpose in life was to kiss Edward Cullen.
His lips were warm and soft as they slow danced upon mine, and I almost fell out of the tree when I felt his lips part and the tip of his tongue tentatively touch mine.
There was no going back now.
There were no more questions.
I had all the answers I ever needed in life right here in this tree.
We eventually came up for air, our eyes closed and our foreheads resting on each other under the moonlight.
It wasn't enough.
I wanted, no, needed more.
So I pulled him back down to me, my hand cupping the back of his head and we spent the last few minutes of our summer doing what we both knew we should have always been doing.
Getting lost in each other.
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Dear Diary,
Two weeks into sophomore year, and I can already tell that my classes are going to suck this term. None of my teachers seem cool. I've already had to do more work than I had thought I would have to. I was already invited to join one too many after school activities, as if soccer doesn't already take up most of my time. And worst of all, Edward isn't in any of my classes because he registered late, even though he did manage to get into my lunch period, so I guess that counts for something.
You know what makes it all worth it?
The looks I get when Edward wraps his arms around me in the halls. Or when he meets me at my locker and carries my books for me. Especially when he looks around him to see if any teachers are coming before leaning in to kiss me the way I dream about every night.
Sophomore year is my favorite year yet!
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It's fun reliving my high school days through their eyes. To this day, watching porn with a group of us girls and our guy friends is one of my favorite memories. It stopped once my Mom found the cover to one of those DVDs under the couch in the living room.
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