Reap what You Sow

"So you're telling me that you were captured by the Crystal Gems."

The quartz soldier didn't raise her head to the much mightier gem, it was more to hide the angry expression on her face.

"Yes yellow diamond. Our ship had an accident and we crashed onto the Earth. I was forced to survive by myself for two years."

Yellow diamond was not a gem to be fooled so easily. No matter how many times her soldier had told her the same story something wasn't adding up. Yet this was so boring to her. You could see it in her posture, the way she sat when she spoke or listened to some annoying gem badgering about something irrelevant. Yellow diamond sat with her legs crossed and her head on her knuckles in her huge throne looking down at the ant beneath her.

"I sent a squad of Rubies to find you after your failed mission. Not only did the Crystal Gems scatter this squad across the space but they also commandeered their ship which you arrived on. Do you not see how that might not come off as suspicious?" Yellow diamond rose to her feet. Her Pearl next to her chair disappearing underneath the shadow she created from her enormous size. Truely Yellow diamond was a sight to behold, the ultimate gem that was to be feared. Her voice boomed throughout the building causing her Pearl to cower in fear. "Give me one reason why I shouldn't shatter you for failing your mission and treason against your homeworld."

It was almost laughable thinking a threat like that word work on Jasper. She thought back to Pink diamond and how she would never threaten her like this, how she was so caring and loved her without prejudice or aggression. Then she met Shadow. A weak human who she had saved out of curiosity. Shadow had taught her that no matter their differences or how many times she messed up Jasper was still redeemable. He gave her love when she didn't deserve it. With the way she left Jasper knew she could never see him again for his sake.

Jasper stood up to meet Yellow diamonds towering gaze. "If you see it fit that I am a traitor to my own people then I will not fight against your words my diamond." Saying my diamond made Jasper want to puke if she was able to.

"You have no words to fight against my judgement?"

Jasper gave her the gem salute with a bow of the head. "A traitor's words means nothing Yellow diamond."

Yellow did not show it on her face but she was surprised. This wasn't her gem to begin with she belonged to Pink Diamond. The fact that she was showing this kind of attitude towards her accusations said something. "Go! Leave my court. Know this though before you leave, if you fail another mission like that again I will personally make you regret coming back to homeworld." The giant doors of the court slowly opened to allow her passage.

"Yes my diamond." Jasper saluted then spun around to take her leave. Jasper didn't even realize her hand was shaking till she passed around the corner to the pod tunnels that would take her across homeworld. She all but collapsed into the seat of the pod. A spherical transportation vehicle that ran through a series of tubes and tunnels ways throughout this city. The weight of everything that just happened slowly crippling her tough facade she always wore. Being back on homeworld she never expected that craving she secretly had to come back. This wasn't her home in the first place, just a prison she marched around because she was told to. Earth was just as much her home as this was but the one human she loved made her see differently. Just the mere thought of Shadow made her eyes cloud up. Everytime she would look at her hands she could see his blood. How his face looked when she beat him to a pulp over some mere jealousy. Jasper knew that that was the last straw she had pissed everything away. Jasper didn't know why she thought she could stay on Earth with him without any problems. With everything in her worthless existence it would crumble away and die.

Jasper could still remember when she left Earth. She had been hiding out in the bottom of the ocean losing her mind. She wanted to go back to Shadow and beg for his forgiveness. Then she about the way he looked when she beat him into the sand. There was no forgiveness for that. It didn't take her long to reach the barn. It was nighttime and the skies were crying rain and screaming thunder. She could remember hiding out in the crops that Lapis and Peridot created just staring at the ship. It was so simple activating it the hard part was when she started to meltdown. She fell to her knees holding her face in her hands trying to hold back the tears. It was so hard to not think about Shadow she loved him so much. It didn't matter anymore because when she left everything was over.

Though she did not care for homeworld she couldn't deny that it was a beautiful planet. To the structures that reached space to the purple hue of this planet's sky. Jasper closed her eyes to the hum of the pod. The vibrations lulling her into a sleep gems didn't even need. Her time with Shadow really did change her. Jasper started to hum a song she hadn't thought of in a long time. Memories of Shadow played behind her eyelids like a video.

"FUCKING TAPE!" Shadow shouted when he rolled out of his room mummified by his attempts to wrap a present. It was Christmas and he was losing a fight against the presents he was trying to wrap for her. It was funny seeing him struggle so much it made her remember that everyone wa Jasper remembered dropping him because he was about to storm into someone's apartment from the obnoxious Christmas music that could be heard throughout the could remember how he kissed her on the floor of his apartment so passionately. He really was the piece of heaven she didn't deserve.

Shadow slapped her hand away when she went to grab him. "Fuck you Jasper." His words of defiance against her the first time she tried to get away from the man. Shadow had almost died when they were attacked by some gang. That was when she first realized she was getting weaker. Jasper couldn't bear to see him hurt again so she left him by himself in the hospital. For three months she had been living out in the wilderness then one day he showed up. Fighting gem monsters with a Pearl. This human yet again thrown himself into danger for her when she had hurt him. That day was the first time they had kissed. The intimate act was so foreign to her. So Jasper stayed with him.

The rumbling of the pod slowing down its approach snapped her out of memory lane. Jasper was both relieved and disappointed that it ended. The pod opened up to her and she stepped out to look at her old "home." It was nothing like the apartment that Shadow lived in. Small, fit for just one person, a place to call home for someone like her. Her home was given to her cause of the things she's achieved and because of her rank. The first thing she saw when she walked in was the lounge chair she had adjacent from the long window the overlooked the city. It was her go to spot when she would retire from her long days. As she walked through the living room the lights against the wall lit up casting a dark orange glow over everything. It was a simple place barely anything noticeable except for her chair and the view she always yearned for. She approached the window. The glow of the city lit up the night even though it was already night time. A planet with a species that never needed to sleep was a city that never slept. She didn't notice it but everything was so loud now. Even high up here where she could look at everyone beneath her Jasper found it infuriating. Jasper retired to the chair she loved. She took a moment to try and steal her ever moving thoughts.

"Jasper you have to relax otherwise it won't work." Shadows words could be heard so clearly that she thought he was in the room with her. "Sleeping isn't hard you just need to empty your mind." Again the sound of his voice plagued her mind. Jasper wanted to say something back to his words but when she opened her mouth she found herself choking. Just for a moment she could picture him so clearly now. His short black hair to his dark skin and facial hair. The bags that formed under his eyes from sleep deprivation from his nightmares. How even though he was asleep in her arms he still had a goofy grin on his face. Like the night she had spent with him on Christmas eve she had felt peace for this first time. Back then she thought that nothing could tear them apart. Funny how she thought if anything tried it would have been the world, how wrong she was.

So when she blinked and the facade of Shadow disappeared the tears finally came again. All she wanted was for her mistakes to wash away like the tears that stained the floors. Jasper cried out to the emptiness of her home, for what could have been.

Author's Notes:

Heyo everybody how's it going? So we're at this point in the story. Shadow discoveries new things about himself and Jasper his regretting what she has done. It's complicated to say the least but I promise you I'll make sure this story continues to have stay juicy. In other news I will be taking a break since as I said before I will be going back home for some well deserved leave. While in that time I may be starting back up the second story that I had posted on Fanfic. Destiny: The Three Musketeers. The only reason why I stopped was because I was in boot camp then some other stuff blah blah blue. I'm working with my friends who inspired me to continue it, the ones who are actually in the self inserted story to try and dust it off to give it another go. If you have read it, first I would like to apologize I was young when I began it and didn't really stress the importance of editing after I was finished. Second, that's pretty much it I don't have anything else. As always I hope everyone has a nice day. Stay classy.

Shadow...