Hello there guys!

The new Supernatural season is coming out in five days and it looks like its going to be a good one!

Honestly the trailer scared me a little bit ;)

Also I am still not over meeting Jensen, seriously guys, I've fangirled with most of my friends about that, like 10/10 would tell the story without much prompting ;)

So this was born, this chapter signals the end of the first season, and it's an emotional rollercoaster (Angst! Yay!)

Also I've been thinking about who I picture that Alexandra Winchester looks like, and after much thought and countless Tumblr searches I have made my decision. Alexandra Winchester looks like Phoebe Tonkin as she played Hayley Marshall, so yeah, that's our girl.

Also I'd like to hear your thoughts on the story so far (pretty please)

So yeah, enjoy!

Alex

Their next few weeks were busy as they got more cases. First John sent them to hunt a Shtriga, a case that sent Alexandra and Dean down the path to memory lane as they remembered what had happened the first time they had encountered that particular monster. Sam had noticed that something seemed to be off with his siblings but both eldest Winchesters brushed him off as they refused to talk about their feelings or whatever it was that was bothering them. At the end they had saved the kid and gotten the monster, it was all that mattered.

Their next hunt had been a painting; Alexandra had enjoyed the gallery as she remembered her life in New York and the times where she had simply visited the museums and the several galleries that were in the city. It had been a really personal hunt for her and a fun one for Sam, who had dated the daughter of the owner of the Gallery; Sarah. Alexandra found that Sarah was a really nice woman and the two actually got along when the push came to shove. They even stayed in New York for a week so Sam could go out with Sarah again, while Alexandra took Dean to her favorite spots in the city.

Afterwards they met with their father on a hunt for vampires. Not that Alexandra had wanted to work with John at first when he started arguing with her and Sam for leaving the family for college. It was the same thing happening again, and she only felt bad for Dean, because out of the four of them Dean was the only one who actually seemed to care about the family. After arguing and devising a plan they set off to capture the vampires and kill the nest and obtain the Colt. Of course it was the sibling's disobedience of John's plan that actually saved John at the end and then he actually decided to tell them of his plan of using the Colt to kill the demon that had killed their mother.

"Alex, are you okay?" asked Sam, they were both outside of their motel room, while Dean and John talked plans, and Alexandra had walked out on them followed by Sam.

"Do you ever get those feelings of impending doom?" she asked her younger brother, Sam shrugged.

"Every time" he answered, she snorted "Do you feel impending doom now?"

"Yeah, like if I should know something important, its there in the back of my head, its driving me mad," she said, Sam looked interested for a moment.

"Like my visions?" he asked, she shook her head.

"You see things, I just get this annoying feeling of foreboding, like if we're not going to make it out of this, not all of us" she said softly, Sam placed a hand on her shoulder.

"You need to have faith" he said and she laughed bitterly at him.

"Faith Sammy? A demon killed our mother, forgive me if I'm not that interested in believing" she said, Sam looked at her sadly.

"This will end soon Alex, then we'll have time to do whatever we want" he said, she looked up at him.

"You truly believe that? Sammy, I don't think you've realized but this might be bigger than us, yeah, we might kill that sonovabitch but what stops others from coming for us? Have you thought about that? Because I have the feeling that this is only the beginning," she said, Sam looked at her conflicted and then looked at the motel room door. "I'm sorry Sammy," she said before walking back into the room.

And she had been right. Pastor Jim had been killed by Meg, as had been Caleb. Alexandra had watched as her family started falling apart again in the matter of seconds, Sam had tried to kill the Demon and failed at the last moment, although they had managed to save a mother and a baby from it, so it had not been a complete loss. And then there was John.

In all her years, since the fire, Alexandra had had a love/hate relationship with her father, they had tried at one moment only for it to come crashing at the other. She couldn't be like Dean, the perfect soldier, nor she could be Sam, the prodigal child, she couldn't be a son, and John had been stuck with her, a daughter. Not that her being a girl meant any less, she was as skilled as a hunter as Dean and in some cases twice as deadly.

But John had wanted soldiers, and she hadn't been one. But regardless of it all, she loved her father no matter how many times they had discussed or how many times she had said that he deserved to go to hell; she hadn't meant that, not really. Deep inside she was still that little girl that her father used to dress exactly like her big brother and she looked up to him, deep down she remembered how he used to lift her up pretending she could fly, how he told her stories before she slept.

Alexandra looked at Dean as he spoke to the Demon Meg on the phone; they had their father. They didn't lose time they jumped into the car and headed to the only place where they could find help in times like the ones they were living.

As soon as they made it to Bobby's Alexandra got out of the impala and into the house without waiting for her brothers. She flung herself at Bobby's arms. Fuck not crying, fuck being strong; fuck everything. Sam and Dean walked in a few moments later, Bobby patted her back awkwardly and Dean cleared his throat. Alexandra pulled herself together, smiling at Bobby when he let go of her, she wiped away her tears and turned to her brothers, they had work to do.

Meg eventually found them, and they eventually exorcised her out of the poor girl that she had been possessing. John was still alive, it was probably a trap, but their father was alive and Alexandra breathed easily again. Dean had argued that she stayed behind as the whole thing obviously emotionally compromised her. Sam agreed with Dean, but she was not Alexandra Winchester for nothing. They wouldn't be leaving her behind, not now, not ever.

Bobby smiled sadly at her as they left and handed her a knife, she promised him she would stay safe. And she would stay safe she was sure of that. Not even when they found John, or when they realized that Azazel was possessing him, Sam couldn't shoot his father, neither could Dean, but Alexandra took the Colt in her hands and looked at her father who was fighting the Demon inside him.

"I'm sorry," she said as she fired the gun expertly.

It wasn't a headshot as John had been expecting, but she fired and hit him in his left arm, enough to force the Demon out. John was mad at her, she knew but at the moment she only had eyes for Dean who was crumpled on the floor, her hands were hovering over her older brother uncertain of what to do, she looked at Sam who seemed lost too and John who had managed to stop his arm from bleeding.

After little debating they knew what they had to do, Alexandra helped Sam carry Dean to the impala, laying him in the backseat, John sat shotgun and Sam took the wheel. Alexandra was going to drive John's truck behind them, she and Sam shared a knowing look before departing.

On the way to the hospital Alexandra could only watch as a truck slammed into the Impala in front of her, she smashed the brakes of her truck and got out, a gun in hand, she ran over to the car to see the truck driver dismounting the truck and approaching the impala. In a quick motion she shot the demon with rock salt and started reciting the exorcism, the demon convulsed and she managed to return it to hell, she immediately pulled out her phone and dialed 911 before reaching the car, Sam was relatively unharmed, but John and Dean were unresponsive, she also called Bobby so he could pick up the impala once they were taken away to the hospital.

Paramedics arrived in a helicopter, and she and Sam could only watch as they took John and Dean away.

Alexandra drove to the hospital in John's truck, Sam silent by her side, tears were streaming down her cheeks, but Sam wisely kept silent. When they arrived they ran to the receptionist and were quickly guided to Dean's room. A small gasp escaped Alexandra when she saw her older brother laying unresponsive in a hospital bed with all the tubes and machines, she walked closed to the bed and pressed a hand to Dean's forehead, brushing several strands of hair away. Sam watched from the doorway, as Alexandra kept her composure.

"Dee" she said softly "You can't leave me, I need you, Sammy needs you"

Sam's heart broke at his sister's broken words, he placed a hand on her shoulder and pulled her into a hug, she sobbed into his chest and he held her in place, unaware that Dean was standing in the doorway looking at his siblings with a broken expression on his face. To see fiery, loud, Alexandra Winchester crying in her little brother's arms was something that Dean never expected to watch, ever, he wished they could hear him, but it was all in vain.

Sam managed to pull Alexandra out of Dean's room for a while; he decided that they could visit John, while Dean got better. John ordered Sam and Alexandra to get a few things from Bobby, and the Colt.

"Your son might be dying in a fucking hospital and the only fucking thing you care about is a goddamned gun?" she hissed at her father, John glared at her.

"We are hunting this Demon, we need the colt" he told her colder than what he intended, she glared at him and crossed her arms.

"I'm not going anywhere, if you haven't noticed my brother is dying and I'll be damned if I'm not here with him" she said and she left John's room angrily, Sam sighed and looked at his father.

John instructed Sam to go to Bobby's and get the Colt and several other things, Sam nodded and notified Alexandra when he left, she was sitting on a chair next to Dean's bed, holding his hand in hers, she nodded at him and Sam left. Several minutes later John went to stand by the doorway of Dean's room. Alexandra was huddled in a chair, she looked tired and uncomfortable, but she refused to leave Dean's side, a nurse was talking gently to her.

"He's my big brother" she told the old nurse softly, the nurse looked at her sadly.

"I bet he wouldn't want to see you like this"

"Well if he doesn't want to, he can wake up and tell me himself" Alexandra snarled, the nurse smiled at her and placed a hand on Alexandra's hair.

"At least promise me that you'll get something to eat if you plan to stand vigil all night" the nurse said, Alexandra hummed, her eyes glued to Dean.

John sighed from his spot at the door, the nurse looked at him sadly, he nodded at her and went back to his room. Alexandra stayed on the chair during the rest of the night, at some point the nurse went and bought her coffee and a bagel from the hospital cafeteria, Alexandra thanked her and ate in silence, the only sounds in the room being the beeping of the several machines that Dean was hooked to.

Morning rolled in slowly, Alexandra hadn't moved from her spot next to Dean, John had gone to check on them several times during the night, but there had been no change. A deep part of John wanted to go in a comfort his daughter, take her in his arms and promise that everything would be okay, but that part of him had been lost in Kansas a long time ago, he couldn't coddle his kids, they were codependent enough as it was.

Sam returned by mid morning and he and John had another argument, that was mainly broken by Alexandra's terrified scream, she was screaming Dean's name over and over, a male doctor was holding her away from Dean as she kicked and screamed, the doctors were surrounding Dean, doing their best attempt at resuscitating him, Alexandra was thrashing, now in Sam's hold as the doctor had handed her over, not a match for the female hunter, but Sam could hold his sister down, he needed to.

Dean regained his pulse, it was faint, but it was there. Alexandra had once again crumbled in Sam's arms, Sam was crying too, but more controlled, one of them needed to be strong and it looked like Alexandra had bailed out from that position since Dean had been put in mortal peril. A nurse handed Sam two glasses of cold water, he gave one to Alexandra and made her drink it, she handed him the empty glass and nodded, drying her tears away, mask slipping in, she approached Dean again placing her hand on his arm, squeezing slightly.

"You need to fight Dee, please" she muttered before she sat next to the bed again, no one dared move her.

Sam sighed before getting an idea; he walked out of the room and returned several minutes later with a Ouija board. Alexandra raised an eyebrow at him, but kept silent, as Sam assembled the board.

"Dean? Dean? Are you here?" asked Sam, suddenly the pointer moved to YES and Alexandra was sitting next to Sam on the floor in a flash.

The pointer of the board moved quickly spellin Y.

"You're an idiot" Alexandra said leaning into Sam, voice shaky, the pointer moved to YES again and she and Sam laughed.

"Dean man, its good to hear from you, it hasn't been the same without you" Sam said earnestly, Alexandra nodded next to him. The board quickly spelle T. Alexandra and Sam frowned.

"Dee, you're half dead, what could you possibly be hunting?" she asked, the pointer moved agai P.

"A reaper?" asked Sam confused, "You're hunting a reaper?"

"Dean is it after you?" Alexandra asked suddenly, dreading the answer, the pointer moved to YES, Alexandra and Sam exchanged glances.

"If its here naturally then we can't do anything" said Sam, Alexandra glared.

"I can try to find a way to kill it, no?" she asked, Sam stood.

"Dad might know something" he said before leaving the room, Alexandra glanced at the board.

"Dee, you have to fight, you can't leave me, we're a team" she said softly, her hands on the pointer, it started moving slowl N, Alexandra smiled as Sam walked back with Johns journal, they started reading about reapers and suddenly Alexandra felt Dean's presence leaving the room, she looked at Sam. "I think he has what he needs"

"I hope so" Sam said, Alexandra returned to her chair to watch over Dean, Sam grabbed another chair and sat next to her.

"I'm sorry Sammy" Alexandra said suddenly, Sam looked at her confused.

"Why would you ever be sorry for?" Sam asked; she shrugged.

"I'm your big sister, I, in case, I'm supposed to be there and take care of you when Dean can't, and I just, I couldn't do it, I'm sorry" she said softly, Sam pulled her into a hug.

"I'm your brother too, we have each other to count on, I don't mind being there for you, you were there for me when Jess died, besides you don't always have to be strong, not for me" he said pressing a kiss to her forehead; she smiled at him.

"Thank you Sammy," she said.

Suddenly Dean's machines started beeping frantically and he started convulsing, Sam ran out to get help and Alexandra in a fit of desperation ripped the tube from his mouth, Dean took a deep breath as several doctors rushed in, Sam went and held Alexandra, taking a few steps back with he, after twenty minutes of several panicked doctors and several studies that showed that Dean's body was back to peak condition, the doctors left and Alexandra threw herself at Dean. Dean hugged her back reassuring her that he was okay, once he let go of her, the siblings discussed the reaper but Dean seemed to have forgotten the whole thing.

John joined them a few moments later, looking tired but relieved that Dean was okay. He spoke to them, and told Sam and Alexandra that he didn't want to fight with them anymore, Alexandra felt something wrong with him immediately, but kept her silence, John hugged her, his hand buried in her dark hair and pressed a kiss to her forehead.

"I'm proud of you" he whispered into her hair, she relaxed in her father's arms while Sam and Dean watched in silence "Can you and Sammy get your old man some caffeine?" he asked, Alexandra looked at Sam and nodded.

"Come on Sammy" she said as she went out of the room, she turned once to look at John, a strange look on her face "Thank you Dad" she said suddenly before leaving with Sam, John nodded at her retreating figure.

Sam and Alexandra walked in silence to the cafeteria, she bought a bag of gummy bears for herself and Sam bought two bottles of water along with the coffee. They returned to John's room only to find him passed out on the floor, they immediately began calling for the doctors, but to no avail, John was declared dead at 10:41am.